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Written By Khanne

Dec. 25, 2016, 8:27 p.m.(6/25/1005 AR)

Another topic as of late, love. This one is much more difficult for me to ruminate on. I understand the base concept of it, for certain, but it is not something I have ever felt in a romantic sense. I lived a rather solitary life for a long time, which makes it fairly difficult to connect to a person, though I do of course have familial love for those I am related to, regardless of how seldom I saw them. Whitehold as well, I suppose I could say I love, for it is a place near and dear to my heart, one I miss rather immensely at times while suffering through the heat of Arx. Still though, there are aspects of the city I am growing fond of, slowly...

It is rather difficult though to try to define what love is. In ways, I believe it is an intellectual connection before it is a matter of the heart. Though, I have seen some that would appear to feel it first with body and perhaps not at all with mind. There are those who seem to act no different towards the one they claim to love than they would any other good friend or family member. Then, there are those who seem rather fickle, their care moving from one to another as fast as a bolt of lightning striking from the sky. After some time contemplating it and even speaking with others on the topic, I believe that it is entirely different for each person. This makes no ones definition of love wrong, even if it does not adhere to what others believe it is or should be. It is right for that individual, and they need just find those who are like-minded, understanding, or one or the both must compromise.

I cannot even imagine what it feels like to be in love with another; passionately, intimately, romantically in love. One person recently told me it is a rather exquisite sort of pain. It was described as a longing to be near, an aching when you are not, and should it end, a pain so deep and cutting it might as well be physical. This, to me, does not seem like something I would hope to feel. Pain is what I accept in battle, it is a necessity in training, it can feel good, make one feel alive... but should I ever allow myself to feel love, I do not think that is how I will feel it. And perhaps that is the key, should I ever allow myself. I certainly am not looking for it, and am not even sure I would recognize it if it found me. I am curious though, as I am about many things. Perhaps I shall continue my observations....

Written By Sigurd

Dec. 25, 2016, 8:15 p.m.(6/25/1005 AR)

Relationship Note on Audric

Man was losing a spar with me. Hired three bystanders to beat me to a pulp. Held on for a while, but eventually succumbed to the trickery.

Far from being upset, it just teaches me a lesson about dealing with Sellswords. I actually kind of like this man, perhaps I will hire him in the future.

Written By Anze

Dec. 25, 2016, 8:14 p.m.(6/25/1005 AR)

I just don't get people sometimes. Even ones I've known for decades, they can still confuse me.

At least blades are never confusing, I should just focus on that.

Written By Sigurd

Dec. 25, 2016, 8:11 p.m.(6/25/1005 AR)

Relationship Note on Aurora

How do I speak of one of the most complicated and (recently) sad people in Arx? She is fascinating, capable of the wittiest of verbal ripostes seemingly without noticing it. She is successful, running one of the best Clothier shops in Arx without breaking a sweat. But she has also had a recent run of horrible misfortune. I can only send her my best of wishes and let her handle her grief in her own way, hoping she returns to her old self.

Written By Fortunato

Dec. 25, 2016, 7:38 p.m.(6/25/1005 AR)

A colored sketch. A battered young man in battered leathers leans against a wall of eight battered pikes, his own pike firm in his scratched-up hands, its point angled upwards, sunwards. In front of the youth, a beat-down, gouged-up dirt expanse, blood-stained, fresh-blood-stained, site of a recent battle. Beyond the wall of pikes, a foggish darkness, creeping tendrils skyward, yes, even sunward, but the point of the youth's pike is sun-bright its own self. Ready.

Written By Dawn

Dec. 25, 2016, 7:11 p.m.(6/25/1005 AR)

The Bijoux, our palace's dungeons, were not invaded or compromised by a creature of shadow. For those who might have heard recent rumours and been concerned as to the security of the Crown, please be reassured. His Majesty was in no danger.

Written By Talen

Dec. 25, 2016, 6:55 p.m.(6/25/1005 AR)

Relationship Note on Eleyna

The Black Widow's reputation precedes her but the chance of danger seems worth it.

Written By Talen

Dec. 25, 2016, 6:50 p.m.(6/25/1005 AR)

Relationship Note on Blacktongue

My uncle continues to surprise me with the levels of depth he has. I am glad we are under one roof once more. If nothing else I enjoy seeing the aftermath of his victims.

Written By Talen

Dec. 25, 2016, 6:48 p.m.(6/25/1005 AR)

Supposedly foxes can be trained to eat snakes. Poor Hiss. Let's hope he is faster.

Written By Belladonna

Dec. 25, 2016, 6:47 p.m.(6/25/1005 AR)

Relationship Note on Philippe

Oh, my friend. This city is not going to be an enjoyable experience for you. I am glad that you chose a time when I am living here.

Written By Mason

Dec. 25, 2016, 6:22 p.m.(6/24/1005 AR)

I had no idea that infants could reach such distance when spitting up.

Also, a full nights sleep. I have taken advantage of that for so long and never thought about what it would be like losing it. I am now so very sorry for taking that for granted.

I feel like I can handle demons much better than a screaming infant. And oh my, Safiyyah has some lungs on her.

Written By Tobias

Dec. 25, 2016, 5:56 p.m.(6/24/1005 AR)

Relationship Note on Aurelian

I like this man

Written By Halsim

Dec. 25, 2016, 5:27 p.m.(6/24/1005 AR)

Relationship Note on Ansel

Interesting scholar type.

Written By Halsim

Dec. 25, 2016, 5:27 p.m.(6/24/1005 AR)

Relationship Note on Max

Liege Lord, friend.

Written By Darrow

Dec. 25, 2016, 5:26 p.m.(6/24/1005 AR)

We'll see what Hellespont finds.

If there's any luck, it'll be another devastated settlement. We'll trace the attacks back to their source.

Written By Halsim

Dec. 25, 2016, 5:15 p.m.(6/24/1005 AR)

Life is never dull, I'll give it that.

Too many problems coming up from having lost so many records to history, but nothing to be done for that. All anyone can do now is keep going, and hope we can reconstruct it all.

Written By Freja

Dec. 25, 2016, 5:08 p.m.(6/24/1005 AR)

Once more the Scout of the Snows ventures North; I think I'll stay and send the response back home. That is the far more appealing of my options.

Written By Lianne

Dec. 25, 2016, 4:17 p.m.(6/24/1005 AR)

I do not like what we've left behind. It has stood for a few seasons already, and I do not fear that it will be disturbed. I fear that it serves some purpose we do not understand and that leaving it unstudied and functioning--if it does, indeed, serve any function--may not be to our advantage.

I understand the reasons. A report must be provided first. We must prepare before we poke at such a thing. But sensibility and pragmatism offer little comfort in this instance.

I hope we're able to head up there again, undo all that awful work and find, in the end, that it meant nothing. Until such a time that its meaninglessness is verified, its benefit laid plain or its awfulness undone, it will itch at the back of my consciousness. It will burden my conscience.

Written By Vincere

Dec. 25, 2016, 3:22 p.m.(6/24/1005 AR)

Relationship Note on Aislin

Lady Pathfinder and Curator Aislin Ashford of the Order of Hope (*) is a true friend, as demonstrated by the fact that she sends Setarcan rum with her weightier messages.

(*) For an up to date list of her titles it may be best to consult the most recent journals as she will likely have added more in a couple of weeks.

Written By Vincere

Dec. 25, 2016, 3:11 p.m.(6/24/1005 AR)

Relationship Note on Calypso

Lady General Calypso impressed me even before Lady Dawn was made Regent with her dedication to military matters. After Lady Dawn's appointment, the formation of her council, and my appointment as Minister of Defense, I've found her one of the most reliable in terms of her proactiveness and communication. If there is something that needs to be done, she does it. That's a rare virtue.

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