May 3, 2022, 3:49 p.m.(7/28/1017 AR)
"And Being, but an Ear,
And I, and Silence, some strange Race,
Wrecked, solitary, here –
And then a Plank in Reason, broke,
And I dropped down, and down –
And hit a World, at every plunge,
And Finished knowing – then –"
No, Scholar, it isn't my writing but it does speak to me... a curious poem. Such a strange sentiment, I wonder what it means?
May 3, 2022, 9:34 a.m.(7/28/1017 AR)
It was late and I was trying to walk back to the Estate, enjoy a smoke, listen to the city when it's quiet for a damn change. All the sudden I saw a bug-eyed lord, drunk off his ass, leap into a bush.
Causing a commotion about a wolf man. Something about 'tell my wife I'll stop going to the grotto three times a day.'
Foolishness. Flicked my smoke at him, told him to get, and he went off hollering thanks.
For folks who love their cups, some of these Lycene sure get lost in them.
May 3, 2022, 5:49 a.m.(7/28/1017 AR)
I'm overwhelmed by the number of artists and volunteers eagers to perform at the Patronsday Art Festival.
Can you imagine? I might actually just sit there and be pretty.
May 2, 2022, 11:46 p.m.(7/27/1017 AR)
Thirteen gods, four triads and one Faith. A mystery for us to explore and in each of the gods we can aspire to some virtue they hold.
May 2, 2022, 6:27 p.m.(7/27/1017 AR)
Someone told me once that loss aches less with age, time, and experience.
I reject this. Those who spew such prattle are merely referring to their ability to wall off their hearts over time, until they feel less, less, then nothing at all. A cold comfort to give to anyone who is in any stage of grief. Assurances that future losses will hurt me less does nothing for the wounds I'm living through /now/, and while it may be true for them, I doubt very much it shall be the case for me.
I don't think myself better than anyone who has this advice to give, only cut from a different cloth. I will keep my nerves exposed, and let each cut I accumulate hurt me as it deserves to hurt me. I will not close the door to my heart, and I will not allow tears to go unshed where they're deserved.
There will always be a part of me that will question if this could have been different.
From that ache comes growth.
May 2, 2022, 6:24 a.m.(7/26/1017 AR)
How peculiar, to find an unknown detail from the lyrics of a song. A whole underground kingdom was I did not even see referenced in other texts. Maybe there is not only sand in the Wastes but in my eyes as well.
May 2, 2022, 4:39 a.m.(7/25/1017 AR)
There is a limit to the grieving one's heart can do without becoming permanently crippled.
May 1, 2022, 10:07 p.m.(7/25/1017 AR)
So, why would I fight a giant shark? Well, that is a little bit of a story of itself. I am on a mission to create a most wonderous weapon. I am not going to reveal for who or what it is here. However, when the weapon is made, I am sure it will find great fame! Well, if I don't die in the process of collecting the parts and creating the thing.
May 1, 2022, 10:06 p.m.(7/25/1017 AR)
I saw the most /giant/ of sharks! I swear it was nearly as big as the boat we sailed in on! The locals had named this creature Squall. It tore up the boat we all had sailed in on, but we survived.. and Squall is dead. No mo merchants or sailors will be devoured by this man-eating beast anymore.
May 1, 2022, 10:05 p.m.(7/25/1017 AR)
Life has a funny way of playing out how you might never expect.
Well, sometimes it's funny. Other times it's illuminating or unsettling, even terrifying. It can definitely be terrifying. Yet that runs alongside some truly shining moments.
I guess I'm finding it hard to put into words (this is new for me!) the whirlwind I've experienced since my arrival in this city. My new home. What I can say is this: The people I've met so far and the things I've learned have changed the way I look at this world. I don't think I'll ever be exactly the same again!
May 1, 2022, 10:03 p.m.(7/25/1017 AR)
My friendship with Ilira grows as time passes and this makes me happy, I look forward to the days we have together from now on as good,and i would say as best friend
May 1, 2022, 9:55 p.m.(7/25/1017 AR)
Lord Wash has hardly left my side the entire time I have been in the hospital awaiting surgery. I know that the entire Kennex household take their duties most seriously and yet I am humbled by how devoutly Lord Wash takes his role as my patron and friend. I am blessed to have many friends visit including the Archscholar who reads to me, Lore who keeps me from getting bored, and I think nearly every physician in the city.
May 1, 2022, 9:54 p.m.(7/25/1017 AR)
When I look at some of the patients in Saving Grace Hospital, I marvel at what our talented physicians and medics can accomplish and at the patients with such endurance and stamina and determination to not let some of those horrid wounds become fatal.
May 1, 2022, 7:42 p.m.(7/25/1017 AR)
That was an interesting conversation the other night, Scholar. Thank you. It's always nice to get a bit of a chat about the gods and ponder the ramifications of fidelity and honour with regard to the changing seasons, and how what some people will see as Mangata and Petrichor breaking faith with Limerance and Gloria will be seen by most as pure bad luck.
There's never a shortage of things to be learned, and a good discussion always helps learning. And a pint or two always helps a good discussion!
May 1, 2022, 4:45 p.m.(7/24/1017 AR)
I attend a pair of eventts this geared toward sharing. First, Lord Savio and champion caspian hosted a wonderful event in which they brought teachers and those who need to leain things together. thanks t Lady Zoy, Lady Mikani and count consort evander for sharing knowledge with me> then there was the scholars research group which is always enlightening
May 1, 2022, 4:17 p.m.(7/24/1017 AR)
Our family had a get together for the first time in--I don't know how long. But it was good feeling to get us all together, for whatever reason. Though I'm afraid I'll be having to apologize for a few---outbursts that I'm sure will be heard about the house.
May 1, 2022, 4:13 p.m.(7/24/1017 AR)
I attended a performance at the Stone Grove regarding the Suthryn Reaches, scholars. It was a great show, really. I learned quite informative as well. I learned more than I expected to.
May 1, 2022, 4:04 p.m.(7/24/1017 AR)
My brother wrote something about me wanting to wrestle. Let it be said....He wants this more than I do. I think it's been awhile since he's been in any sort of brawl and deep down he misses it. I think we should have some sort of mud wrestling competition thing. Triton against....everyone!
May 1, 2022, 3:47 p.m.(7/24/1017 AR)
I've agreed to help a friend in one of her---grand ideas? Needless to say, it'll be quite interesting.
May 1, 2022, 3:41 p.m.(7/24/1017 AR)
A long time ago, Count Magnus and I decided to try and get used to the heat in a sweat lodge. In the middle of summer. So we sat there. For hours. Sweating, cleansing out all the things. Then we got out, greeted by the heat. Practically gasping for air. Because you know, still hot. I can firmly say, this was not one of our greatest ideas. It was awful.
Not sure why I thought of that, likely because summer is here.