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Written By Piccola

March 25, 2022, 10:22 a.m.(5/6/1017 AR)

Fear is the product of ignorance.

Initially, it is not the product of wrong thinking: it is instinctual. It is found in the minds of all animals, though the ones of better faculties have learned to not succumb always to it. In humans, however, its power is increased because of our ability to recall past injuries. When we anticipate or foresee injury, the power of fear is aggravated by the mechanisms we have built around ourselves to avoid pain. And those mechanisms grow in power until they dominate our behaviors.

But we also have the ability to override instinct in favor of purpose.

Pain is a response. Injury is a fact. One can let the response override purpose, but which is higher, wise general? Which is of more importance to the realm and our legacies? When we accept that injuries happen and that we will suffer pain, and not let fear dictate our actions, then we may better pursue that which is noble. And when we accept death, the culmination of those injuries and pains, as an inevitability, so it is that we may completely conquer fear and see most clearly.

The Queen's call is but a beckoning to join another adventure.

Written By Lyra

March 25, 2022, 8:34 a.m.(5/6/1017 AR)

Cedar Vale is in my blood, and my blood tells me that it's time to go home. I feel an excitement at the thought of returning after so long in the city, an uplifting of my soul that I haven't felt for quite the longest time. And it feels good.

I wonder if the bluebells will be as blue as I remember them.

Written By Kastelon

March 25, 2022, 7:06 a.m.(5/6/1017 AR)

Relationship Note on Lierre

This is true.

Perhaps we should encourage Kael to get one as well. Our cousin has looked troubled of late, and he could use a diversion.

And the children would love a pet, or so I am told by those I know who have children.

Written By Khanne

March 24, 2022, 8:10 p.m.(5/5/1017 AR)

Relationship Note on Corrigan

Balance is one of the ideals I hold most dear, and have for many, many years. What I have observed is that one item might find balance alone, but it takes a lot of will and work to maintain and can easily be made unstable or even toppled by a gentle breeze. However, if the one were a pair or more, balance can be found by leaning against one another, creating a stronger foundation able to withstand so much more, making it a force capable of not only rising higher, but being left standing when others have fallen.

Written By Lierre

March 24, 2022, 6:14 p.m.(5/5/1017 AR)

Relationship Note on Kastelon

It's true that Bessie is a very fine cow indeed. Let's nip any disputes in the bud, then, and let's agree that we have both have exceptionally wonderful bovine friends.

(I'm also happy to confirm that you're not the cattle-keeping outlier of the family, cousin!)

Written By Mattheu

March 24, 2022, 5:51 p.m.(5/5/1017 AR)

Relationship Note on Eirene

Lady Eirene held an intensive lecture on foods and how they affect the body. It was a lovely lecture, not at all boring as some might have suggested I was going to end up staring at a wall or something.

The meal was amazing, and I believe I achieved what I have forever thought to be a myth. I was full.

Written By Piccola

March 24, 2022, 12:17 p.m.(5/4/1017 AR)

Relationship Note on Titus

The only circles are the ones we draw for ourselves; the only corners are the ones we permit ourselves to be pushed into; and in reality there are neither.

Written By Kastelon

March 24, 2022, 7:29 a.m.(5/4/1017 AR)

Relationship Note on Lierre

I think that's a matter of dispute, cousin - my Bessie did, after all, win third place in a grand prix.

(Told everyone that I am not the only Keaton with a cow...)

Written By Eirene

March 23, 2022, 11:32 p.m.(5/3/1017 AR)

I hosted a banquet at the Physician's Guild to discuss how to balance the humors with food.

Here's the menu:

Sanguine foods:
promoting: chicken in a ginger and garlic sauce, with onions and turnips cooked with olive oil.
lessening: beef and mushrooms in lentils

Phlegmatic foods:
promoting: pork sauced with cinnamon apples.
lessening: roast hare in gravy with white wine.

Choleric foods:
promoting: young goat in a garlic-honey glaze with salted and pepper'd wild cabbage.
lessening: spinach and cheese tart with bacon.

Melancholic foods:
promoting: steak with roasted potatoes in rosemary and garlic.
lessening: pork shoulder cooked with onions, turnips, and chickpeas

Dessert:
Candied ginger for sanguine humors. Cherry tarts for phlegm. Honey-cake for choleric. And chocolate dipped oranges for melancholy.

We also had little tea cakes, strawberries which were also dipped in chocolate, and cream-puffs.

Everyone went home VERY full.

Written By Corrigan

March 23, 2022, 10:56 p.m.(5/3/1017 AR)

Relationship Note on Khanne

Oh, so do I. I just think there's something to be said of balance, is all.

Written By Lierre

March 23, 2022, 8:27 p.m.(5/3/1017 AR)

I've missed my Doris. She truly is the best of cows. Thank you, Aunty Margerie, for letting me keep her.

Written By Gaspar

March 23, 2022, 5:24 p.m.(5/2/1017 AR)

My tolerance for wine is legendary. So I know it's not to blame for the vision I beheld in the Black Fox today. Some that know me, know me to be a skeptic. Of a great many things.

Some of that changed when a figure materialized in front of me. A female...ghost? She was bedecked in armor that was rough and rent. Her uniform was terribly out of fashion for many years. I've only seen a handful of sketches in books of history that even come close to resembling it, but otherwise was completely foreign to me.

Her body was ravaged. She both moved and didn't, but came directly for me. I dare not put the words she uttered to me onto the page. I don't know what power may be in them, if such a thing is possible.

I will say this: I'm a skeptic no more.

Written By Khanne

March 23, 2022, 2:26 p.m.(5/2/1017 AR)

Relationship Note on Corrigan

That is so sad and I highly disagree!

I can count quite a few times that if it were not for others, I would certainly NOT have survived.

Written By Lierre

March 23, 2022, 12:04 p.m.(5/2/1017 AR)

I think I'll climb a tree today. I haven't done that in a while.

Maybe an elevated view will elevate my mood.

Written By Corrigan

March 23, 2022, 5:44 a.m.(5/2/1017 AR)

Relationship Note on Titus

'We all start out the same, with simple naive trust,
Shielded from the many ways that life's not fair or just.
But then there comes a moment, a simple truth that you must face:
If you depend on others, you'll never find your place.
And when you take that first step, on a path that's all your own,
You see it all so clearly, the best way to survive is all alone.'

Read that in a book somewhere, out there. Seems relevant.

Written By Ilira

March 23, 2022, 3:06 a.m.(5/1/1017 AR)

Relationship Note on Titus

That is fabulous. Everyone knows, circles don't have corners!

Written By Titus

March 22, 2022, 8:56 p.m.(5/1/1017 AR)

A very good bit of advice I heard today. Just because they might be in your circle doesn't mean they're in your corner.

Written By Renata

March 22, 2022, 1:35 p.m.(4/28/1017 AR)

Relationship Note on Mabelle

I can only imagine the time it takes to carve beeswax candles. I would certainly attend a workshop for something like that! You always host the most wonderful, fun events. Count me in.

Written By Piccola

March 22, 2022, 9:27 a.m.(4/28/1017 AR)

The Villa is quiet.

There is no happy humming coming from the workshop. The sound of children laughing and playing are phantoms that linger in the dark corners of rooms. One of the guards confessed to me that he was worried for his job. Who would dare enter and disturb such a tomb?

This is what is left behind.

I spend hours in the garden, tending to the mint leaves that become my daily teas. I walk alone to the market, to keep the larder full and the rooms furnished. But it's quiet uptown, and the silence only stirs the rage.

To those who have stolen from me, I know where and who you are -- and you are now mine.

Written By Mabelle

March 22, 2022, 5:48 a.m.(4/28/1017 AR)

I suppose idle hands are not always the source of evil. I've spent some time in the laboratory this weekend carving beewax candles. After a while you get creative. I'm pleased with the outcome. Perhaps I should hold a workshop.

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