Written By Elisha
July 3, 2019, 2:50 p.m.(5/24/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
Every Truth I Tell Is a Wall (Rinel)
If you pledge yourself to the Mistress of the World,
you will denounce everything you worship. (Vere)
She weaves her own patchwork
of perception and experience and (Selene)
every thread is woven from a nameless color (Celeste)
into a story from beyond the graveyard. (Nicely)
Yet even the dead need care. (Keyser)
In the time before death was born, (Sparte)
we answered only to the goddesses (Juniper)
who dreamed of turning the Wheel of the world. (Harlex)
Reworking our sense of we,
shifting our I. (Zara)
We're not a mess of rats,
we're a swarm of locusts, (Jack)
marked because we saw Her;
apparently that is enough. (Jeffeth)
What does it mean,
to be chosen by the gods? (Monique)
The answer is the death of knowledge. (Aureth)
Therefore, this must be truth. (Sina)
Our breath carries all the things we forget, (Tescelina)
to the home that awaits the end of our journey. (Reigna).
Elsewhere,
a man sweeps dust into her hand. (Celeste)
If you pledge yourself to the Mistress of the World,
you will denounce everything you worship. (Vere)
She weaves her own patchwork
of perception and experience and (Selene)
every thread is woven from a nameless color (Celeste)
into a story from beyond the graveyard. (Nicely)
Yet even the dead need care. (Keyser)
In the time before death was born, (Sparte)
we answered only to the goddesses (Juniper)
who dreamed of turning the Wheel of the world. (Harlex)
Reworking our sense of we,
shifting our I. (Zara)
We're not a mess of rats,
we're a swarm of locusts, (Jack)
marked because we saw Her;
apparently that is enough. (Jeffeth)
What does it mean,
to be chosen by the gods? (Monique)
The answer is the death of knowledge. (Aureth)
Therefore, this must be truth. (Sina)
Our breath carries all the things we forget, (Tescelina)
to the home that awaits the end of our journey. (Reigna).
Elsewhere,
a man sweeps dust into her hand. (Celeste)
Written By Sparte
July 3, 2019, 8:54 a.m.(5/23/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
I had a wise soul once tell me that it isn't for me to force others to walk the path I think is right for them. That to do so was not only a violation of their own stories, but a violation of the faith. It was to steal their choice.
I had thought that I was aiding the stories of others, when I heard that. I thought I was providing tools for the stories that they were pursuing, but by allowing them to skip the struggles that would have brought them to those goals themselves, they were losing something important. It wasn't that helping them was wrong, but that I hadn't realized too much help could be a burden. Just as sure as no help at all would be a burden.
So it is with the burdens of judgment and justice. Too little brings terrible things, but just as surely too much will choke a person.
It has been a year, now, that you've been a penitent. A year.
I had thought that I was aiding the stories of others, when I heard that. I thought I was providing tools for the stories that they were pursuing, but by allowing them to skip the struggles that would have brought them to those goals themselves, they were losing something important. It wasn't that helping them was wrong, but that I hadn't realized too much help could be a burden. Just as sure as no help at all would be a burden.
So it is with the burdens of judgment and justice. Too little brings terrible things, but just as surely too much will choke a person.
It has been a year, now, that you've been a penitent. A year.
Written By Ajax
June 8, 2019, 6:22 p.m.(4/2/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
You know, I am not going to lie. I was actually coming to take a look at the people who are spouting off about magic and what have you and ran into this.
My reality when I came to Arx properly. I was the opposite, I didn't really think much of myself and looked over at this city and would just think. "I wonder how much money I can make before I end up a cripple or dead?" As my time here has gone onwards, the city properly has been a fairly constant offer of opportunity and actually having friends and genuine connections with people and that within itself is just precious.
I remember seeing you cry as you took off from the explorers hall the other day and reading your entry makes me think a bit more about you. If you're worried about what you're becoming need to keep in mind. You can always be better if you just try. The effort needed to be better is likely hard but you have people who do support you. But to start on that path it's up to you and if you want to be more like how you used to be? I think you'd be better off if you did it.
If you're still at the point of worrying what you've become. You still have time. Make the most out of it.
My reality when I came to Arx properly. I was the opposite, I didn't really think much of myself and looked over at this city and would just think. "I wonder how much money I can make before I end up a cripple or dead?" As my time here has gone onwards, the city properly has been a fairly constant offer of opportunity and actually having friends and genuine connections with people and that within itself is just precious.
I remember seeing you cry as you took off from the explorers hall the other day and reading your entry makes me think a bit more about you. If you're worried about what you're becoming need to keep in mind. You can always be better if you just try. The effort needed to be better is likely hard but you have people who do support you. But to start on that path it's up to you and if you want to be more like how you used to be? I think you'd be better off if you did it.
If you're still at the point of worrying what you've become. You still have time. Make the most out of it.
Written By Sparte
May 28, 2019, 11:37 a.m.(3/8/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
I've had the opportunity to witness the changes and growth in Rinel Tern over the years. Let me first say she is a fiery woman who has suffered greatly, and the flames have only been stoked by her experiences. She holds her beliefs close to her heart and is resolute in them, which is something that makes change difficult. When you are so sure of a thing as to make it a part of who you are, finding out it was flawed can be a hard thing to acknowledge.
Yet I've seen her doing just that. I know many have tried to snuff her fiery nature in an effort to teach humility and change, but that isn't what has helped her to change. If anything they have made her journey harder, because it is not in her nature to accept a heavy hand. In truth I believe many of those who have judged her most harshly would react much the same had the roles been reversed. People with strong opinions are destined to clash, and have for as long as we have recorded history. There are some extraordinarily entertaining journals between Lord Steel of the Metallic Order and a member of the court of Caer'alfar that highlight this.
Where Rinel's situation is different from so many others is that she speaks her mind without the authority to enforce her view of the world. She is a commoner through and through, with a lifetime of adversity and challenges behind her. Yet she speaks as an equal to those who do not see her as equal, she gives views that others believe are wrong with the sureness that there can seem to be no compromise. It leads to conflict, it leads to frustration, it leads to dismissal.
Yet she does grow, just differently. Not through punishment, but through self-realization. Not through condemnation, but through direction. She still stumbles. She is full of imperfections as are we all, but the fire that is within her is not one of them. It is a credit to her strength of will and passion, a thing to be tempered rather than snuffed. I believe that Rinel's road is still a difficult one, and I believe her nature will make it far harder before the end of her days. Make no mistake of that. Yet I also believe she is a person of deep value. If her flame continues to survive the challenges she creates for herself, if the parts that hold her back burn away without consuming the rest of her, then one day she will become a beacon. I look forward to that day, and I will continue to help her strive towards it.
So with that preface I give Rinel this piece of advice: Speaking up without being called upon at any gathering of a noble house isn't a credit to your fiery passion. It is a request to have your ears boxed and potentially put on display. If you question a choice, question it politely. If you disagree outright, make it known in writing or in private afterwards. Some will reject what is shared outright, and you will just have to live with that. Those who you might convince still will not tolerate being made to look bad in their own house, and you will accomplish nothing but more hardship.
Yet I've seen her doing just that. I know many have tried to snuff her fiery nature in an effort to teach humility and change, but that isn't what has helped her to change. If anything they have made her journey harder, because it is not in her nature to accept a heavy hand. In truth I believe many of those who have judged her most harshly would react much the same had the roles been reversed. People with strong opinions are destined to clash, and have for as long as we have recorded history. There are some extraordinarily entertaining journals between Lord Steel of the Metallic Order and a member of the court of Caer'alfar that highlight this.
Where Rinel's situation is different from so many others is that she speaks her mind without the authority to enforce her view of the world. She is a commoner through and through, with a lifetime of adversity and challenges behind her. Yet she speaks as an equal to those who do not see her as equal, she gives views that others believe are wrong with the sureness that there can seem to be no compromise. It leads to conflict, it leads to frustration, it leads to dismissal.
Yet she does grow, just differently. Not through punishment, but through self-realization. Not through condemnation, but through direction. She still stumbles. She is full of imperfections as are we all, but the fire that is within her is not one of them. It is a credit to her strength of will and passion, a thing to be tempered rather than snuffed. I believe that Rinel's road is still a difficult one, and I believe her nature will make it far harder before the end of her days. Make no mistake of that. Yet I also believe she is a person of deep value. If her flame continues to survive the challenges she creates for herself, if the parts that hold her back burn away without consuming the rest of her, then one day she will become a beacon. I look forward to that day, and I will continue to help her strive towards it.
So with that preface I give Rinel this piece of advice: Speaking up without being called upon at any gathering of a noble house isn't a credit to your fiery passion. It is a request to have your ears boxed and potentially put on display. If you question a choice, question it politely. If you disagree outright, make it known in writing or in private afterwards. Some will reject what is shared outright, and you will just have to live with that. Those who you might convince still will not tolerate being made to look bad in their own house, and you will accomplish nothing but more hardship.
Written By Elfriede
April 12, 2019, 2:51 a.m.(11/27/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
Rinel, the goodwoman;
If your gaze could hold weight much like they beheld expectation, you'd have anvils for eyes. I was scarce on details about the sea in person due to reasons I'd rather not elaborate deeply, but know it esteems from a particularly selfish place unrelated to you or your demeanor.
Even those you agree with or find particularly likeable you'll learn to hate if you spend thirty, sixty, ninety days at sea with them. The most loving, the most thriving and welcoming of entities, you'll grow to scorn and disdain after you've found yourself staring at them dizzily, afternoon after the morning, having puked the remainder of your dinner out over the deck's edge due to hard rocking, product of hard stirring.
And don't let me get started on the wind. Some sailors prefer to hang their hammocks on the top deck, I'm not one of such sailors. And sometimes you won't, don't have a choice. And the cloth doesn't stop the wind from seeping in from below, so you'll feel as being caressed by a tedious, never-ending feel of wind on the flesh that's almost torture.
Stay away from boats. We're land creatures.
If your gaze could hold weight much like they beheld expectation, you'd have anvils for eyes. I was scarce on details about the sea in person due to reasons I'd rather not elaborate deeply, but know it esteems from a particularly selfish place unrelated to you or your demeanor.
Even those you agree with or find particularly likeable you'll learn to hate if you spend thirty, sixty, ninety days at sea with them. The most loving, the most thriving and welcoming of entities, you'll grow to scorn and disdain after you've found yourself staring at them dizzily, afternoon after the morning, having puked the remainder of your dinner out over the deck's edge due to hard rocking, product of hard stirring.
And don't let me get started on the wind. Some sailors prefer to hang their hammocks on the top deck, I'm not one of such sailors. And sometimes you won't, don't have a choice. And the cloth doesn't stop the wind from seeping in from below, so you'll feel as being caressed by a tedious, never-ending feel of wind on the flesh that's almost torture.
Stay away from boats. We're land creatures.
Written By Silas
March 22, 2019, 6:16 a.m.(10/13/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
I'm sensing a distinct lack of self-awareness here...
Written By Cerdensulathara
Jan. 31, 2019, 11:37 p.m.(6/27/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
This, this is my best friend.
Written By Merek
Jan. 18, 2019, 7:56 p.m.(5/20/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
I am hoping that things will be a lot better for you!
Written By Shard
Jan. 16, 2019, 12:11 a.m.(5/15/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
Some secrets are necessary.
Written By Duarte
Jan. 6, 2019, 6:18 p.m.(4/23/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
Poor unteachable Rinel. Hopefully she finds an instructor soon in the softer arts.
Written By Duarte
Dec. 23, 2018, 2:28 p.m.(3/22/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
She has been rather caustic recently and extremely moody. Insulting, too. Ungrateful. Sanctimonious. Endlessly cavilling.
It's hardly worth taking seriously. It's rather cute, actually.
It's hardly worth taking seriously. It's rather cute, actually.
Written By Duarte
Dec. 14, 2018, 10:18 p.m.(3/5/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
My poor misunderstood protege is such a tough case that there's even been difficulty procuring the services of Whisper House to take up her cause.
No, Rinel, it is not good. Stop smiling. I will have Orathy carry you to those propriety lesson if I must!
No, Rinel, it is not good. Stop smiling. I will have Orathy carry you to those propriety lesson if I must!
Written By Felix
Dec. 9, 2018, 11:18 p.m.(2/23/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
You know, there are often times that I second guess myself. She makes me do that - but she's been a good friend, for all the trouble that she causes. With luck, the Guard will have some mercy on her for that. Good luck - and stop offending people.
Written By Duarte
Dec. 9, 2018, 12:26 p.m.(2/22/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
I have been continuing my lessons with Scholar Rinel (the loveliest of the scholars). She has displayed amazing acumen as an instructor. She has a lot of patience and is always poised. (Your experiences may vary)
Written By Preston
Dec. 2, 2018, 6:21 a.m.(2/7/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
Each person's journey to the Faith is different - each unique. Yes at times they rhyme with others, resonances and familiarities, but each of us has our own path - our own past, our own mistakes and our own successes. I hope that yours has a pleasant ending.
Written By Duarte
Nov. 26, 2018, 5:57 a.m.(1/23/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
Brew n' Brood
Written By Duarte
Nov. 11, 2018, 3:19 p.m.(12/21/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
I am so pleased this bright young scholar has taken up my offer of patronage. Messere Tern is a deep intellectual; a fine researcher. She is charming and irrepressible. I look forward to serving as a benefactor to her many scholarly studies and endeavors for the good of the Compact and Faith.
Written By Derovai
Aug. 22, 2018, 1:49 p.m.(6/11/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
Grief goes on exactly as long as you let it, like standing under a waterfall at the edge of a very deep pool. Don't let it swallow you whole. There's work to be done, and productivity is the antithesis of drowning in sorrow. The time to climb out of the water will come sooner rather than later, and there's nothing that stops the chill of that water like the light of a worthy cause.
(This entry may apply to those besides Scholar Tern. Take it as you will, and if it helps, so be it.)
(This entry may apply to those besides Scholar Tern. Take it as you will, and if it helps, so be it.)
Written By Derovai
July 13, 2018, 12:02 a.m.(3/7/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
That scholarly woman named Tern:
she surely has much left to learn.
When drinking one's coffee,
if one's nose is toffee,
one might taste a peppery burn.
she surely has much left to learn.
When drinking one's coffee,
if one's nose is toffee,
one might taste a peppery burn.
Written By Lark
July 12, 2018, 9:43 a.m.(3/6/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Rinel
What a lovely poem to see upon awakening to a new day.
Please note that the scholars may take some time preparing your journal for others to read.