Written By Dianna
March 28, 2020, 3:49 p.m.(1/6/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
(( Written from Stormwall ))
I'm not sure I ever want him to remember; and yet, I so desperately want him to.
Is it a blessing or a curse to forget, to be so bleary-eyed by horror that one loses track of great swaths of time, that one re-makes reality to what is easiest to digest?
This is why I'm angry, hurt and confused: Because I can't forget. Even when I look into my own reflection in my glaive, to meditate, I see my fear at losing him, and he'll never understand why it matters so much to me that some part of his mind is stolen, marred, distorted:
They cut something from him when they cut that piece out of his leg. They stole something from him before and I'm furious that anyone should dare take a piece of him - or of anyone - without their permission. I understand his willingness to let the flesh be stolen. But he had no choice in the rest. So, I'm still fighting - only I'm horrible at knowing how to fight this.
How does one show the truth within a reflection to one who can't even see? How does one fight a mist that clouds one's vision?
Or, do I just leave him to his own version of reality?
Gods, give me strength. Vellichor, I beg you: Guide me.
Addendum:
I think I know why I'm so angry:
I wish I could forget. I wish something else had happened. I wish the trip to Stormwall had been for other reasons.
And I cannot forget; the images roll through my mind again and again.
What am I missing? What do I need to know?
I'm not sure I ever want him to remember; and yet, I so desperately want him to.
Is it a blessing or a curse to forget, to be so bleary-eyed by horror that one loses track of great swaths of time, that one re-makes reality to what is easiest to digest?
This is why I'm angry, hurt and confused: Because I can't forget. Even when I look into my own reflection in my glaive, to meditate, I see my fear at losing him, and he'll never understand why it matters so much to me that some part of his mind is stolen, marred, distorted:
They cut something from him when they cut that piece out of his leg. They stole something from him before and I'm furious that anyone should dare take a piece of him - or of anyone - without their permission. I understand his willingness to let the flesh be stolen. But he had no choice in the rest. So, I'm still fighting - only I'm horrible at knowing how to fight this.
How does one show the truth within a reflection to one who can't even see? How does one fight a mist that clouds one's vision?
Or, do I just leave him to his own version of reality?
Gods, give me strength. Vellichor, I beg you: Guide me.
Addendum:
I think I know why I'm so angry:
I wish I could forget. I wish something else had happened. I wish the trip to Stormwall had been for other reasons.
And I cannot forget; the images roll through my mind again and again.
What am I missing? What do I need to know?
Written By Skye
March 28, 2020, 3:43 p.m.(1/6/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
I worried greatly when I heard of his disappearance. His safe return warrants a visit to Gild to give thanks.
Written By Porter
March 28, 2020, 9:27 a.m.(1/5/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
Well, I knew you were too stubborn to die.
At least now I can finally get some real sleep. I'm almost positive that I could lay down and not wake up for the next couple of weeks.
At least now I can finally get some real sleep. I'm almost positive that I could lay down and not wake up for the next couple of weeks.
Written By Porter
March 22, 2020, 12:22 a.m.(12/20/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
Anyone that thinks Ian Kennex is dead is wrong.
Written By Wash
July 29, 2019, 12:52 a.m.(7/19/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
The bothersome younger brother that has grown into his own.
Written By Evonleigh
April 7, 2019, 3:04 a.m.(11/17/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
Fair warning to all who might seek out self defense from Lord Ian Kennex:
He will throw beanbags at you. Many of them. Most of them will hit, but only your ego will be bruised on the morrow.
He will throw beanbags at you. Many of them. Most of them will hit, but only your ego will be bruised on the morrow.
Written By Ajax
March 31, 2019, 6:59 p.m.(11/4/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
A good fight, Lord Kennex. I can't wait for our next bout.
Written By Armani
March 29, 2019, 11:21 p.m.(11/1/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
Got to see Lord Ian in a sparring match today. The man fights like a sawbones: No cut that doesn't need to be there.
(That is, if you have a good sawbones.)
(That is, if you have a good sawbones.)
Written By Ajax
March 23, 2019, 12:28 a.m.(10/15/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
You know, if you run into problems. You can prod me anytime, if I ain't on a job. I'll have your back my friend.
Written By Lucita
Feb. 7, 2019, 6:54 p.m.(7/12/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
Thanks for letting me help work with uniting the families and children together, freed. The expression on their faces... priceless.
Written By Sorrel
Aug. 4, 2018, 2:37 p.m.(4/27/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
How to win fights in leather: don't get hit.
Sage advice.
Sage advice.
Written By Aethan
July 7, 2018, 1:53 a.m.(2/23/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
My brother is the first Sword of Stormward. There are none more deserving. I'm proud of you.
Written By Lucita
May 1, 2018, 8:53 p.m.(8/28/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
Moments like this, you know who your true friends are. Thank you.
Written By Carita
April 27, 2018, 8:50 a.m.(8/18/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
The Calm Kennex & Darkwater Ally
Written By Porter
April 24, 2018, 11 a.m.(8/11/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
Younger brother
Written By Edward
April 14, 2018, 1:45 p.m.(7/19/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
Pending nuptuals. Congrats man.
Written By Talen
Feb. 22, 2018, 8:15 p.m.(3/28/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
The first Kennex I can tolerate. This man has shown that he can get his hands on information of use to others. Communicating it can sometimes be an issue but that's as much the receiver's fault as anyone's, sometimes.
Written By Norwood
Feb. 11, 2018, 7:36 p.m.(2/27/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
It was an absolute pleasure to spar against you Lord Ian Kennex, and not simply because I was able to use Sir Thorley's beautiful sword.
If any are seeking a challenge then he is a man to be reckoned with.
If any are seeking a challenge then he is a man to be reckoned with.
Written By Caspian
Jan. 27, 2018, 10:07 a.m.(1/17/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
In the beginning I was not sure about this man. I almost thought he had some kind of contempt for me. But now I realize he is just a man of few words who enjoys his drink. But he's a good man though.
Written By Galen
Jan. 21, 2018, 9:57 p.m.(1/6/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Ian
Book,
It seems weird for me to write such, but I guess it is common place, and if our history is to be preserved I suppose this is a necessary step in keeping it. I must say, few people have impressed me as much as Lord Ian Kennex, be it his companionship in drinking, his wise discussions on strategy, or his amazing skill in combat, and I do mean amazing, the man is a great friend to have.
I just hope he forgives inhaling whiskey, my fault! Smiling pigs do catch people off guard.
It seems weird for me to write such, but I guess it is common place, and if our history is to be preserved I suppose this is a necessary step in keeping it. I must say, few people have impressed me as much as Lord Ian Kennex, be it his companionship in drinking, his wise discussions on strategy, or his amazing skill in combat, and I do mean amazing, the man is a great friend to have.
I just hope he forgives inhaling whiskey, my fault! Smiling pigs do catch people off guard.
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