Written By Esme
April 27, 2020, 9:23 p.m.(3/10/1013 AR)
I miss you. Deeply.
Maybe it's because winter always strikes at my happiness to be cold. Or the fact, it's when we met and now I think of you during the season. I miss your laugh. I miss how you made my crazy more sane. I miss you accepting everything even my very many flaws. I miss you loving me. I miss loving you. I miss you just being on my side no matter what. I miss my friend. I'm not sad. I just miss you today and wanted to record it. So you know when you read it. I didn't forget.
Maybe it's because winter always strikes at my happiness to be cold. Or the fact, it's when we met and now I think of you during the season. I miss your laugh. I miss how you made my crazy more sane. I miss you accepting everything even my very many flaws. I miss you loving me. I miss loving you. I miss you just being on my side no matter what. I miss my friend. I'm not sad. I just miss you today and wanted to record it. So you know when you read it. I didn't forget.
Written By Esme
April 26, 2020, 6:41 p.m.(3/8/1013 AR)
I am so excited. I know it's not Godsworn and I'm very okay with that. However, I was made Disciple Leader of Devotions to Limerance. I just.. I'm so honored by this and I just am excited and I want it in my journal to remember.
Written By Esme
April 24, 2020, 1:08 a.m.(3/3/1013 AR)
There is such strangeness in the world around us now. I suppose it was always there and there are those that would confirm that.
Just remember to be good to each other and to inspire a laugh or good feeling or two.
Just remember to be good to each other and to inspire a laugh or good feeling or two.
Written By Esme
April 22, 2020, 12:06 a.m.(2/26/1013 AR)
I'm freezing, Porter Kennex!
However, I quite enjoyed the Taste of Thrax. I even ate all the interesting foods (I don't want to talk about it). Until I pardoned the octopus. Who shall be known as Bubbles (Not Gary like Rorik wants).
However, I may spend all the next few days in bed trying to get warm again.
However, I quite enjoyed the Taste of Thrax. I even ate all the interesting foods (I don't want to talk about it). Until I pardoned the octopus. Who shall be known as Bubbles (Not Gary like Rorik wants).
However, I may spend all the next few days in bed trying to get warm again.
Written By Esme
April 17, 2020, 4:50 p.m.(2/18/1013 AR)
For many years. MANY YEARS I moved away from Lycene fashion. It's not that I don't find it wonderful, but it's just not the best type for horse back riding. Now I'm looking at the gowns that I have collected since moving to Arx. A lot of the fabric barely there or hints and cuts that show the flesh. I'm caught by the fact that I had to move to Arx to start dressing more Lycene.
Written By Esme
April 14, 2020, 10:25 p.m.(2/12/1013 AR)
I just want to say.... accidents happen. Forgiveness is divine.
Also, so are leatherworkers.
That's all.
No, I haven't been drinking? Why do you ask? Are you offering a drink?
Also, so are leatherworkers.
That's all.
No, I haven't been drinking? Why do you ask? Are you offering a drink?
Written By Esme
April 12, 2020, 8:56 p.m.(2/8/1013 AR)
Sailing information I have learned this week:
Never trust a boat that doesn't have rats.
....
The captain may very well be one of the worst sorts.
Never trust a boat that doesn't have rats.
....
The captain may very well be one of the worst sorts.
Written By Esme
April 12, 2020, 8:06 p.m.(2/8/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Arianna
You know.
I know.
I think that's all that needs to know.
I know.
I think that's all that needs to know.
Written By Esme
April 11, 2020, 10:37 a.m.(2/5/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Erik
I wrote to you today. I could not send Happiness to send it to you as you are not within Arx now. I miss you.
Written By Esme
April 11, 2020, 1:33 a.m.(2/4/1013 AR)
Gossip. I can't say that I don't enjoy listening to it from time to time. I do rather not find pleasure in the horrible kind. I also do not put much stock in it. As I have been asked a bit about some gossip about me; I find it amusing. The topic of it is rather head shaking, but amusing none-the-less. Does it mean that I have become one of the nobles to know if they are gossiping about me? I fear that's probably not true, though I sort of like just being as I am.
To the one with all the lies they spread, I'm okay with it. You are not hurting me. Roses know how to handle the thorns too.
To the one with all the lies they spread, I'm okay with it. You are not hurting me. Roses know how to handle the thorns too.
Written By Esme
April 7, 2020, 8:57 p.m.(1/26/1013 AR)
I often find myself wondering about people. Not in a negative sense, for people are lovely. I find myself curious what composes them, beyond the bones and structure. What motivates them to make the decisions they make? What drives one person to jealousy, to madness, or to release and to contentment?
I suppose I am often just wondering and this is perhaps why I'm starting to be known as asking so many questions.
I suppose I am often just wondering and this is perhaps why I'm starting to be known as asking so many questions.
Written By Esme
April 5, 2020, 9:33 p.m.(1/22/1013 AR)
I cannot come up with the words I want to put in the journal today. I know I'm supposed to, but I'm just lost on it. My mind today is a whirl of thoughts and feelings. I have lost a friend. I have made a potential new one. I have been a subject of fiction. My truth has been accused of lies.
I suppose it is the times we live in.
Love each other. That is all we have.
I suppose it is the times we live in.
Love each other. That is all we have.
Written By Esme
April 2, 2020, 4:23 p.m.(1/16/1013 AR)
It's strange being on the receiving end of someone who doesn't like you. I find myself torn between just wanting to infect happiness to them or letting it go. I think I shall lean towards the letting go. We all have paths in life that we must walk. Those paths are important, but they are our choices. I have got to reconnect with old friends and meet new ones already this week.
It has been the most glorious of weeks and please remember that all of you are loved.
It has been the most glorious of weeks and please remember that all of you are loved.
Written By Esme
March 29, 2020, 10:46 p.m.(1/8/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Niklas
Oh! So it is Prince Niklas. One slip of the pen and you are thanking the wrong person for books. Obviously, I need to meet this Nikias of the close but not right name.
Written By Esme
March 29, 2020, 5:46 p.m.(1/8/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Arcadia
I did not think I would write this. I thought about not writing this, but there is a fondness in memories.
I loved Arcadia as she was my friend, my sister in heart. I don't even recall the first time we met, but I'm sure one or both of us were intoxicated. We spoke of our hearts and the people that resided in them. I love her children as mine. She introduced me to a man I would fall in love with. She watched as the relationship shifted in ways that others did not have insight. I have seen her tears. I have seen her anger. I have seen her happiness. I was not ready to hear of her death.
It is strange not to have a person to send a missive to and let them know a trail of gossip I might have heard. Or to listen as we debated out marriage and love in a way that we could. Or to know she would allow me to hug her too tight. If there is a regret it is that duty pulled us further apart lately. She has left her mark on all those she touched. It is safe to say that she will not be forgotten.
I loved Arcadia as she was my friend, my sister in heart. I don't even recall the first time we met, but I'm sure one or both of us were intoxicated. We spoke of our hearts and the people that resided in them. I love her children as mine. She introduced me to a man I would fall in love with. She watched as the relationship shifted in ways that others did not have insight. I have seen her tears. I have seen her anger. I have seen her happiness. I was not ready to hear of her death.
It is strange not to have a person to send a missive to and let them know a trail of gossip I might have heard. Or to listen as we debated out marriage and love in a way that we could. Or to know she would allow me to hug her too tight. If there is a regret it is that duty pulled us further apart lately. She has left her mark on all those she touched. It is safe to say that she will not be forgotten.
Written By Esme
March 29, 2020, 12:15 a.m.(1/6/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Norwood
Baron,
Thank you as well. I put out a call for warm clothing and not only did you send me something, you didn't even charge. Better yet, it is that new ironwool fabric. Thank you for the rose in the midst of winter ironwool lined cape. I am already wearing it around Arx.
Thank you as well. I put out a call for warm clothing and not only did you send me something, you didn't even charge. Better yet, it is that new ironwool fabric. Thank you for the rose in the midst of winter ironwool lined cape. I am already wearing it around Arx.
Written By Esme
March 29, 2020, 12:13 a.m.(1/6/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Nikias
Thank you so much, Prince Niklas for the books you sent me. I am eagerly waiting to read the one you wrote. I appreciate that you assisted when I put out the call. We must have wine soon.
Written By Esme
March 28, 2020, 8:28 a.m.(1/5/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Clara
When one gets injured in a rather serious way there are things one might not want to do.
1. Pretend like nothing happened
2. Hang out in cold places (I try not to do this anyways)
3. Go to a meeting with friends
I had been with a group of people and I just felt myself feeling worse. Then feeling even more worse, so I thought it best to take myself home.
This was fine plan except I had sustained a serious wound that was getting progressively worse. Lady Clara came to see to that need. She worked efficiently and effectively. She didn't even berate me for not running to the mercies first. So thank you so much Lady Clara for helping me. You may have actually saved my life .
1. Pretend like nothing happened
2. Hang out in cold places (I try not to do this anyways)
3. Go to a meeting with friends
I had been with a group of people and I just felt myself feeling worse. Then feeling even more worse, so I thought it best to take myself home.
This was fine plan except I had sustained a serious wound that was getting progressively worse. Lady Clara came to see to that need. She worked efficiently and effectively. She didn't even berate me for not running to the mercies first. So thank you so much Lady Clara for helping me. You may have actually saved my life .
Written By Esme
March 26, 2020, 4:49 p.m.(1/2/1013 AR)
<Drawn image of snow flakes>
<Red x's all over them>
It's beautiful, truly it is.
I'm ready for spring already though.
Please send warming things.
<Red x's all over them>
It's beautiful, truly it is.
I'm ready for spring already though.
Please send warming things.
Written By Esme
March 25, 2020, 8:49 a.m.(12/27/1012 AR)
Advice to self:
Drinking is fine. Do NOT combine with cookies made by an alchemist.
Do not stay in public if you do.
Hydrate.
Drinking is fine. Do NOT combine with cookies made by an alchemist.
Do not stay in public if you do.
Hydrate.
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