Written By Ainsley
Jan. 7, 2018, 12:21 a.m.(12/2/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Aislin
*This journal is two pieces of paper carefully affixed together.*
In a moment of desperate melancholy I went into Aislin's treehouse. I found it mostly empty ... save for a piece of paper torn from what must have been her journals. One of Nyx's feathers rested upon that paper, and a rock held it down. I found this paper there...
*The next piece of paper appears to be in Aislin's handwriting, rather than Ainsley's.*
"We should remember fondly those who are lost, but move on; after all, there are bigger things to worry about."
In a moment of desperate melancholy I went into Aislin's treehouse. I found it mostly empty ... save for a piece of paper torn from what must have been her journals. One of Nyx's feathers rested upon that paper, and a rock held it down. I found this paper there...
*The next piece of paper appears to be in Aislin's handwriting, rather than Ainsley's.*
"We should remember fondly those who are lost, but move on; after all, there are bigger things to worry about."
Written By Ainsley
Jan. 1, 2018, 4:25 a.m.(11/17/1007 AR)
Pietro Igniseri.
Vincere Igniseri.
Valkieri Rubino.
Esera Velenosa.
Dawn Grayson.
Leo Fidante.
Zhayla.
Peregrine Grayson.
Deva Velenosa.
Niamh Greenmarch.
Juliet Fidante.
Killian Ashford.
Aislin Ashford...?
Vincere Igniseri.
Valkieri Rubino.
Esera Velenosa.
Dawn Grayson.
Leo Fidante.
Zhayla.
Peregrine Grayson.
Deva Velenosa.
Niamh Greenmarch.
Juliet Fidante.
Killian Ashford.
Aislin Ashford...?
Written By Ainsley
Dec. 22, 2017, 4:12 p.m.(10/26/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Killian
*One word takes up the entirety of this page*
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Written By Ainsley
Dec. 20, 2017, 9:15 p.m.(10/22/1007 AR)
"This is probably a terrible idea." Says my wife.
Of course it is, love of my life, but we wouldn't be who we are if we didn't do anywise.
Of course it is, love of my life, but we wouldn't be who we are if we didn't do anywise.
Written By Ainsley
Dec. 4, 2017, 7:40 a.m.(9/15/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Torian
We do. I do. The quality of life and the struggle of those in the Lowers, and newly freed Thralls, matter to me. Always. Especially as a member of the Iron Guard. If you have any issues with the Guard, I'm always available to try to help fix them. This goes for everyone, not just Master Torian.
Written By Ainsley
Dec. 1, 2017, 6:02 p.m.(9/10/1007 AR)
When I took up the role of Voice of Bastion, I told myself that I needed to learn politics and the ways of polite society's etiquette better. In doing so, however, I think I have become less straight forward. I have found myself not being honest at times where I wish I were. But no longer. I will from this moment forward attempt to be as straight-forward and as honest, but as kind, as I can be in my opinions and dealings with people.
Written By Ainsley
Nov. 24, 2017, 2:48 a.m.(8/21/1007 AR)
*The first part of this journal is done in painstakingly neat script.*
I cast my love upon his pyre.
Turned my heart to frozen stone.
But I stood beside her.
She burns, and made this fire shone.
To darkness I did aspire,
Tried to lock my heart away.
But I came to see her.
She burns, and made this fire play.
I doused my flames in sorrow.
But she burns, she burns higher.
So I walk into tomorrow.
I rekindled my fire.
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*Two double lines have been placed underneath the poem, and the handwriting is not as neat in the rest of this entry.*
- The sound of the river rushing under the Sovereign Bridge, so far below.
- That first crisply chill morning in autumn, before the leaves start changing colors.
- The bite of winter thawed out by a hearth.
- Running Iron Guard recruits through drills, the astonished faces when they push farther than they thought they could.
- Cleaning my blades and maintaining their sharpness.
- Battle: Friendly sparring or righteous combat.
- Old friends and new alike.
- Old pains and new joys.
- The shriek of a toddler who does not want to take a bath.
- The laughter of a toddler who has beaten me with his wooden training sword.
- The look of pride on my mother's face when I do *almost anything*, surely, she'd make me feel proud just by carrying a bucket of water to her.
- The look of pride on my father's face when I told I killed Brand.
- The ache after a hard day of real, tiring labor-- for the iron guard, or volunteering to help rebuild something.
- Caring for my vassals; noble and common alike.
- My duties as a Voice of Grayson to my fealty.
- My duties as Deputy Commander of the Iron Guard to Arx.
- My duties to the world as Paladin of the Sword.
I cast my love upon his pyre.
Turned my heart to frozen stone.
But I stood beside her.
She burns, and made this fire shone.
To darkness I did aspire,
Tried to lock my heart away.
But I came to see her.
She burns, and made this fire play.
I doused my flames in sorrow.
But she burns, she burns higher.
So I walk into tomorrow.
I rekindled my fire.
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*Two double lines have been placed underneath the poem, and the handwriting is not as neat in the rest of this entry.*
- The sound of the river rushing under the Sovereign Bridge, so far below.
- That first crisply chill morning in autumn, before the leaves start changing colors.
- The bite of winter thawed out by a hearth.
- Running Iron Guard recruits through drills, the astonished faces when they push farther than they thought they could.
- Cleaning my blades and maintaining their sharpness.
- Battle: Friendly sparring or righteous combat.
- Old friends and new alike.
- Old pains and new joys.
- The shriek of a toddler who does not want to take a bath.
- The laughter of a toddler who has beaten me with his wooden training sword.
- The look of pride on my mother's face when I do *almost anything*, surely, she'd make me feel proud just by carrying a bucket of water to her.
- The look of pride on my father's face when I told I killed Brand.
- The ache after a hard day of real, tiring labor-- for the iron guard, or volunteering to help rebuild something.
- Caring for my vassals; noble and common alike.
- My duties as a Voice of Grayson to my fealty.
- My duties as Deputy Commander of the Iron Guard to Arx.
- My duties to the world as Paladin of the Sword.
Written By Ainsley
Nov. 22, 2017, 10:58 p.m.(8/19/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Mia
"My lady. Yes, my lady."
Written By Ainsley
Nov. 22, 2017, 4:02 a.m.(8/17/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Tikva
Someone said they hadn't seen me since my wedding and asked if my wife was really that enchanting. While it wasn't my wife keeping me from the public eye the answer is yes.
Princess Tikva Grayson is the most enchanting woman I have met. I can hardly express the whole of her that I have fallen in love with. At the very beginning she was simply a kind person who was patient with me during my despair. Tiber was a bright force for joy. A tiny little terror that it was amusing to watch his mother try to handle. Then I started to enjoy watching her lose her composure over small things.
I once startled her in the Badger while she was writing, and she ended up with ink all over herself. I'm certain she would call me terrible for saying this: It was absolutely amusing, and endearing.
And then I started poking at that composure. She called me terrible and I played that up as much as I could. Until one day I realized that she had dragged me up from the darkness. Now, be sure Scholar, it was not only her doing. I am blessed with a loving family and many good friends, who all helped me through this. And Tikva herself would be outraged if she thought I was living only for her.
But when I think of living, I think of all the things she has given me and taught me. The things I have learned about myself with her. The things she has taught me to deal with despair. The ways she has helped me find reasons to live. The way I have learned not to let love-- however brightly it burns --consume me until there is nothing less.
Yes, Tikva Grayson is enchanting.
She found a broken man and helped him heal himself.
Princess Tikva Grayson is the most enchanting woman I have met. I can hardly express the whole of her that I have fallen in love with. At the very beginning she was simply a kind person who was patient with me during my despair. Tiber was a bright force for joy. A tiny little terror that it was amusing to watch his mother try to handle. Then I started to enjoy watching her lose her composure over small things.
I once startled her in the Badger while she was writing, and she ended up with ink all over herself. I'm certain she would call me terrible for saying this: It was absolutely amusing, and endearing.
And then I started poking at that composure. She called me terrible and I played that up as much as I could. Until one day I realized that she had dragged me up from the darkness. Now, be sure Scholar, it was not only her doing. I am blessed with a loving family and many good friends, who all helped me through this. And Tikva herself would be outraged if she thought I was living only for her.
But when I think of living, I think of all the things she has given me and taught me. The things I have learned about myself with her. The things she has taught me to deal with despair. The ways she has helped me find reasons to live. The way I have learned not to let love-- however brightly it burns --consume me until there is nothing less.
Yes, Tikva Grayson is enchanting.
She found a broken man and helped him heal himself.
Written By Ainsley
Nov. 20, 2017, 4:27 p.m.(8/14/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Shard
Gloria's favor to this woman! I am in awe!
Written By Ainsley
July 18, 2017, 10:12 p.m.(11/11/1006 AR)
I wonder if there is any precedence on how one goes about changing their name...
Written By Ainsley
July 16, 2017, 5:32 p.m.(11/7/1006 AR)
Sometimes I get performance anxiety.
Written By Ainsley
July 14, 2017, 6:58 p.m.(11/3/1006 AR)
We've set a date. It's official. Now to keep my betrothed from panicking.
Written By Ainsley
June 27, 2017, 2:28 a.m.(9/24/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Magpie
Oh, I can carry the cost of a couch. But this man is damned outrageous!
Written By Ainsley
June 27, 2017, 12:25 a.m.(9/24/1006 AR)
Because I am madly, foolishly, utterly in love with Lady Tikva Riva, I have placed her figurine next to mine in the miniature Hall of Heros I have. And yes, that means, that snake in the lowers won't be getting his couch any time soon. That man has *no shame*.
I don't regret dueling Princess Reese, even if she won and kept -her- Tikva figurine.
PRAISE BE TO GLORIA.
NONE GREATER THAN GRAYSON!
I don't regret dueling Princess Reese, even if she won and kept -her- Tikva figurine.
PRAISE BE TO GLORIA.
NONE GREATER THAN GRAYSON!
Written By Ainsley
June 12, 2017, 6:17 p.m.(8/21/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Aiden
DO NOT TELL MOTHER.
Please? Pretty please...
Please? Pretty please...
Written By Ainsley
May 30, 2017, 5:18 p.m.(7/22/1006 AR)
On this day, I discovered a glass parrot in my room.
Written By Ainsley
May 26, 2017, 7:09 p.m.(7/14/1006 AR)
Where did this apple come from?!
Written By Ainsley
May 23, 2017, 9:14 a.m.(7/7/1006 AR)
Limerance, I pray for your grace.
I pray touch my heart with your strength.
Help me find the fortitude and conviction,
In my own heart to persevere in my commitments.
Help me find the resolve and dedication in,
In my own soul to remain true to my word.
Limerance, guide my heart.
Limerance, tame this fire that burns in me.
*A line is stroked several times here in which the following musing is written in sloppy handwriting.*
I used to tell myself that I expected no one to love me in return for my own. When it comes to romantic love that is, for the most part, a truth. Every time a lover has given me not only their bodies but their hearts it has been an unexpected, beloved gift.
This is not the case for my other relationships. I have come to realize that I have arrogantly expected love from my family and friends. I have expected loyalty. If I can expect fidelity from my friends and family it must be expected of me in return. I must find the strength to honor my fidelity, and to forgive hurts that I have been given.
I must...
I pray touch my heart with your strength.
Help me find the fortitude and conviction,
In my own heart to persevere in my commitments.
Help me find the resolve and dedication in,
In my own soul to remain true to my word.
Limerance, guide my heart.
Limerance, tame this fire that burns in me.
*A line is stroked several times here in which the following musing is written in sloppy handwriting.*
I used to tell myself that I expected no one to love me in return for my own. When it comes to romantic love that is, for the most part, a truth. Every time a lover has given me not only their bodies but their hearts it has been an unexpected, beloved gift.
This is not the case for my other relationships. I have come to realize that I have arrogantly expected love from my family and friends. I have expected loyalty. If I can expect fidelity from my friends and family it must be expected of me in return. I must find the strength to honor my fidelity, and to forgive hurts that I have been given.
I must...
Written By Ainsley
May 23, 2017, 7:19 a.m.(7/7/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Silas
I have been reminded recently that the white journals are a chronicle, a historical record. Very well, let the records note that I have come to realize I was wrong about Baron Whitehawk. He was never truly my friend.
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