Written By Marian
June 4, 2020, 3:52 p.m.(6/2/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
A burden of love, to read the words of a man I will never hold in my arms again. I would not forsake this tradition with Nia for the world because these letters are her last connection to him. A way to know this man through his own thoughts. I hope as she grows, she can look at his painting over the mantle and know him.
In the end, she didn't change a thing in his design for her. So from paper to life, that sword now is strapped to side.
Written By Marian
Feb. 12, 2019, 8:26 p.m.(7/22/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
My washed out tears do not fall.
That lump in my throat strangles.
My marbled skin is cold like ice.
My deepest scars do not show.
I can no longer feel our first kiss.
You are gone.
Grief.
Your chest sits in the corner with the past.
Even your sword has passed to another.
Your clothes that have lost your scent.
Our bed no longer dips from your weight.
They don't know your voice.
Your portrait is a stranger.
Grief.
Everyone else moves on to the next.
The bans are read for new loves.
The cake tastes stale with broken promises.
Their happiness mocks me with mirrored lies.
Pity you didn't get to see what happened next.
They have forgotten.
Grief.
Moving on feels like a dagger in my heart.
My pillow no longer feels wet in the morning.
My eyes don't shine against the starry sky.
Possibilities become steel chains that bind.
False sympathy is an insult that digs softly.
Nothing is more than enough.
Grief.
Don't blame him for leaving.
Don't flinch when they look with his eyes.
Smile when they ask how you're doing.
Good morning is not an invitation to cry.
Don't scratch at your bleeding heart.
Apologies are forsaken.
Grief.
You will never be the same.
Happiness is a thorny rose.
You will wish to trade places.
This wasn't how the story goes.
You will review every single mistake.
No one takes that blame.
Written By Jaenelle
Sept. 30, 2018, 11:28 p.m.(9/13/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
We met inside the Redrain Study. It was a fluke, really, a meeting arranged due to the complaints of sisters. Freja and I decided that we would exchange siblings because we always had the greatest ideas when we were together. I am not sure how she fared out regarding Valerius, though I am almost certain she threatened to hit him over the head.
I on the other hand met Fergus, and we talked within that study for hours. He smiled, which I heard was a rare sight at that time, and it was warm and gentle. He was deeper than what he allowed people to see, softer than he wished anyone to understand. He was someone I could speak to about anything, to gauge an honest response regardless of topic. Even after that original meeting, we met often to share a drink when we could before life took hold of both of us, and for those memories I will always have a soft spot for The Spirits.
Written By Marian
Jan. 26, 2018, 5:18 p.m.(1/16/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
I'm still here.
Written By Edain
Jan. 25, 2018, 7:18 a.m.(1/13/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Fergus, you and I were as different as two men could be. But we became family when and Marian married, though not by blood, but in spirit. Then one day, quite literally in passing, you just looked to me and called me 'brother.' It was just one word in place of goodbye when you and Marian were leaving the manor. The thing about Fergus was that he was a man that could say so much while speaking so little. When he says 'brother' there is a weight to it. It was more than word to Fergus, it was an oath, an affirmation and it settles on your shoulders and you feel that there is a trust that Fergus gives to very few people and it humbled me to hear that word from him.
Somewhere, someone is smiling very smugly right now. They think they have struck a great blow and taken one of our strongest heroes from us. I cannot wait until that smug smile fades, as the slow, cold creeping of dread crawls up the back of their spine like the cold steel poised to sever it. Because they are going to find they could not kill you.
Prince Fergus Redrain, you shall live forever. You will live on the edges of the swords of every Northland warrior you inspired that will fight in your name, ever striving to be warriors that would make you proud. You will live in the memories, the stories and deeds of those who loved you and will continue to carry on your battles. You will live in the laugh of your daughter as she is raised on the legend of the man you are.
I will never be able to cross swords with you, or give awkwardly hug you and cause you to punch me for invading your personal space, but you are still with us.
And you always will be.
Written By Morrighan
Jan. 24, 2018, 9:52 p.m.(1/12/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Written By Darren
Jan. 24, 2018, 9:39 p.m.(1/12/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Written By Artur
Jan. 20, 2018, 6:07 p.m.(1/4/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Beneath the sketch is written "Last known drawing of Prince Fergus Redrain, in the Great Hall of the Redrain Villa on the day of his death. Discussing military matters with other members of his house."
Written By Evaine
Jan. 18, 2018, 5:25 p.m.(12/27/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Written By Eilonwy
Jan. 17, 2018, 7:09 p.m.(12/26/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Written By Alis
Jan. 17, 2018, 6:59 p.m.(12/26/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Both you and your brother Anze have helped fill a gaping void that was there in the absence of Valen and Vance. And now, you are gone too. There is nobody else I will allow to call me short-stack and somehow feel honored by it.
I miss you, and hearing you call me affectionately stupid nicknames.
Written By Eirene
Jan. 16, 2018, 4:02 p.m.(12/23/1007 AR)
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Written By Valery
Jan. 16, 2018, 12:19 p.m.(12/23/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Well, those are really bad news.
Scary ones.
Written By Fatima
Jan. 16, 2018, 7:02 a.m.(12/23/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Written By Eirene
Jan. 14, 2018, 11:25 a.m.(12/19/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Go suck a donkey and charge a silver for admission. I'm too busy to get drunk.
THAT IS MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.
Written By Mydas
Jan. 14, 2018, 1:11 a.m.(12/18/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Written By Alis
Nov. 6, 2017, 8:19 p.m.(7/15/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Written By Edain
Nov. 6, 2017, 3:55 p.m.(7/14/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Written By Thena
Sept. 21, 2017, 1:49 p.m.(4/4/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
Written By Rymarr
Sept. 13, 2017, 4:48 p.m.(3/16/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Fergus
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