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Written By Arman

Sept. 18, 2019, 11:42 a.m.(11/10/1011 AR)

An addendum to my previous journal entry as I made an oversight:

I'd also like to thank the Sword of Ostria, Lord Theron Mazetti, for his accompaniment to the peace talks and assuring the Mazetti leadership were well protected effectively relieving the stress of such a massively important diplomatic team's security needs. In addition, his presence as the Sword of Ostria effectively served as a beacon of inspiration to all troops in company during a contentious event.

Written By Arman

Sept. 17, 2019, 6:44 p.m.(11/8/1011 AR)

I'd like to take a moment to commit to record the efforts of the rather substantial and exceptional group of individuals who made it possible to turn the tides of war on the horizon along the Crownlands/Lyceum border and instead make way for the beginning of talks of peace and a better future for all who inhabit the Lyceum's Northeastern territories.

Foremost, I would like to acknowledge Duchess Grazia Rubino's continued efforts both diplomatically and economically to assure the safety of Rubino & Zaffria's fealty house, House Gallo. Her decisions have been the mainstay of these diplomatic talks and I applaud her leadership in the face of not only a violent outside threat, but also whispers of inner-house turmoil.

I'd like to offer my appreciation to Lady Miranda Rubino for sharing her experiences and knowledge of interactions with Abandoned tribes as well as her continued efforts toward peace and prosperity.

Princess Saoirse Velenosa and Prince Gaspar Velenosa, while not directly involved in the peace talks with the Abandoned tribes, each played an invaluable role in assuring the local house's needs were met and peace was kept during the summit rather than allowing disdain destroy our hopes for the future.

Baroness Lucita Saik as always showed her devotion to the Lyceum and all of its houses, large and small. The Baroness has extensive diplomatic experience and brought that knowledge to the table in the dealings with another strife filled situation with the Abandoned.

Countess Tyche Inverno lent her grace and silver tongue in the field of diplomacy to the discussions and proved herself a valued diplomat and one capable of handling tumultuous situations no matter the core of the issue. The Countess was quick to offer her aid to these talks and her presence was both valuable and appreciated.

House Mazetti was perhaps one of the most vocal and forthright in lending their aid toward peace along Lycene borders and I wish to state my appreciation to to them, but in specific Marquessa Cambria, Marquis-Consort Hadrian and Lady Antea. While I was initially resistant to the idea of reinforcing our military escort, I am happy I accepted the advice of the Marquis-Consort and welcomed the aid of Ostria's troops given the substantial force we arrived to on behalf of the Abandoned. While we did not come to blows, the possibility of such could have arisen. I'd also like to commend Lady Antea on her leadership and ability to work side by side with Harlex Valtyr.

Harlex Valtyr, the Sword of Lenosia and General of the Crimson Blades, provided us with the primary security force and spearheaded the leadership of all military personnel while working side by side with both the Lenosia Diplomatic Escort cavalry as well as Lady Antea who oversaw Ostria's II Hydra Legion.

Whisper House was kind enough to lend us the extensive expertise of the Eldest Whisper Emrys as well as the blossoming talent of Apprentice Whisper Maja Darling. While Eldest Emrys provided us with the staunch mainstay of countless years of diplomatic experience, young Maja Darling offered an empathetic perspective leaning on her amiability and gentle touch. Via their converse tactics, they helped tremendously in setting the stage for continued negotiation.

While our diplomatic party consisted primarily of members of the Peerage, it was the aid of my proteges Thorn and Mailys Corsetina that I feel helped close the divide in cultural inclinations between us and the Abandoned alongside Maja Darling. They approached the situation from a place of observation and subtly maneuvered their charms in compliment to the sensitivities of the Abandoned present.

While negotiations have only just begun and the promise of everlasting peace still rests on the horizon, it is this collection of people who stepped to the fore against abysmal odds and the fear of attack potentially leading to their deaths. It is they who brought hope to the idea of peace and it is they I thank for their work, their fearlessness and their faith that we could bring this matter to rest. Together.

~For the Lyceum.~

Written By Arman

July 8, 2019, 12:32 p.m.(6/5/1011 AR)

"Idleness will be the decay of our people, the downfall of our lineage." -Prince Calvino Velenosa

Typically one wouldn't assume this was said by a Lycene based on some common stereotypes of my people. However my father was sure to deeply instill this mantra within me from the day I began to understand language. It is both a positive and negative influence within my life. This previous winter when I had taken ill it took a great deal of coaxing and in some cases poignant discussions about my health to keep me withdrawn to my rooms because of this core value. Conversely, I have accomplished many things due to its guidance.

I find difficulty in sitting idle in any capacity. Activities that others embrace as enjoyable and relaxing I find tedious. That is no insult to those who disagree with me. We all have different opinions and preferences of various types. I can appreciate an afternoon discussing the mundane, but personally that is not something I find particularly enjoyable. However if someone approaches me with a great passion about a topic I would perceive as mundane, I /do/ enjoy hearing that passion even if the topic itself may not fall within the lines of my interests.

I have been asked a few times why I departed from a party rather abruptly yesterday before its end. Aside from the conversation I participated in dwindling, the above would be why and I answer within the Whites to make a public statement before rumors can corrupt reality.

I was not offended. I hold no ill will. I am not angry. I simply did not feel I could remain without becoming a dark cloud on a lovely, sunny, summer day.

Written By Arman

July 2, 2019, 10:06 p.m.(5/22/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Niccolo

Forever emblazoned within my memory shall be the day you stood as the victor of the Tournament of Roses, the horns of a hundred heralds at your back as all eyes turned to you for the moment in which you asked your boon from the King. I will never forget the gasps that ruptured throughout the audience, Peer and commoner alike and the look of adoration that filled my cousin's face. While by today's standards your acts would be far less of a surprise, marriage born in love becoming more common amongst the Peerage, I fear they forget it was you who paved the way for them and shocked a kingdom. Your bravery in the face of the court of public opinion.

I may not have agreed with it then and I may not agree with it now, but you changed the world as we knew it.

Written By Arman

June 13, 2019, 10:44 p.m.(4/12/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Brigida

My dearest gilded Rose, Blessed of the Gods:

I am inclined to believe that is only due to our distance and my inability to hear it. That however can easily be remedied. Preferably sans the pig.

Written By Arman

June 12, 2019, 5:13 p.m.(4/10/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Saoirse

A wise recommendation from my daughter. It is unfortunate I am both stubborn to admit I may have need and short on personal time. I have at least seen an apothecary.

Written By Arman

June 11, 2019, 7:08 p.m.(4/8/1011 AR)

Spring has finally arrived. The aches of the winter months will not be missed.

Written By Arman

June 8, 2019, 10:17 a.m.(4/1/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Sina

All children need to be reminded at times of what we as adults may know to be inappropriate or dangerous behavior. I would think the children of the Faith to be no different, Archscholar. A heavy burden to bear and one I do not envy of the Faith leadership.

Written By Arman

June 5, 2019, 4:16 p.m.(3/24/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Josephine

This woman's talent is unparalleled and her ability to manage her establishment while maintaining an air of grace and beauty across multiple locations is a merit in it of itself and a shining example of her management abilities. She has always been a pleasure to work with and has a definitive ability in matching the perfect combination of materials in order to create a product that truly speaks to its owner.

If I had the power I would keep her on retainer and hoard her skill, but alas her work is destined to be shared and even in the selfish depths of my heart I must admit it would be a travesty otherwise.

Written By Arman

June 5, 2019, 2:57 p.m.(3/24/1011 AR)

I am a violent man.

Many in today's times hear of my actions via diplomatic excursion or note I bear a quiet resolve. They might disagree with my personal assertion. However, this persona was not originally natural to me. It has taken years upon years of active effort to temper my baser qualities. Education in etiquette, diplomacy, composure in the face of contention as well as diversifying my understanding of cultural differences was necessary to accomplish it.

There was a time that I would encourage blades to be drawn via words and bait my victims to a point in which I could claim innocence in causing the outcome of whatever dispute had arisen. They attacked first, after all. The feel of a blade slicing through flesh is like no other and it sated something deep within me that begged to be fed. Something I didn't understand.

I still feel this inclination at times. I hold no shame in it. Its core intent is not to result in harm to another. It is to result in a personal release.

So, why do I make such a public announcement of what many would claim to be a negative trait? Why does anyone write personal observations in White Journals? To share our experience. To hope someone someday reads the words of their predecessors and garners some bit of peace or insight from them.

The other side of /my/ mirror is rage, but this has been transformed and directed toward positive goals. Tenacity, justice, devotion. All of these things are fueled by this rage. Without it I would not be the man I am.

I have known many men and women who share this trait and may not yet acknowledge it as a part of themselves. In truth, it wasn't until I came to know my wife (not just marry, but truly know her) that any clarity was brought to the potential the darkness that lingered in my heart could have. Miranda, in all her passion and fire, has and most likely always will be my greatest opponent in any dispute I've ever faced, but she also taught me that through our faults we can accomplish great things. She taught me the teachings of The Thirteenth in a way that I understood and came to value. That was my personal path, though.

Yours will be different.

Change is not an easy feat. I could insert dogmatic reference to Lagoma here, but I'll leave that to the better studied in matters of Our Lady of Change. Nonetheless, change is not easy... but it is necessary to become the people we /should/ aspire to be.

Embrace who you are in all of your mortal weakness and baser desires, then find how to use that "weakness" to your own betterment. Know yourself. Temper yourself. Utilize all parts of you and aspire toward greatness. Make that choice.

Written By Arman

April 23, 2019, 9:07 p.m.(12/22/1010 AR)

My father was a discerning man and a wise teacher. In my youth I loathed his lessons and at times I loathed him as a man. Not because the lessons did not hold extreme worth, but more so because they often resulted in a wound of some sort, be it physical or emotional. I believed he thought I was a fool, and sometimes I behaved as such to his dismay. A side of who I was that my children will never come to know, but I bear the scars of even that foolishness with pride. The collection of mistakes I have made in my lifetime resulted in the product of who I am today and while my children may never truly understand who I am, I hope that they may be able to parse through the shadows of their own mixed memories of they're childhoods and see... why I am.

I suppose age leads to a broad scope of reminiscent possibility and I put quill to page in hopes of capturing pieces of memory. Both for myself and my children and perhaps someday my grandchildren. So on and so forth. As the years go by, I have a better understanding of both my father's lessons and who Calvino Velenosa was and through that clarity I can now acknowledge portions of my decisions in this life that I have rejected. I understand why he did not intervene and prevent consequence when I made mistakes. I understand why he kept a sea of distance between us even when we stood side by side. I suppose that is a singular boon of mortal decay. With each year that passes and life slips through our fingertips we have a broader collection of experience to look back on. We see through a lens of retrospect. We reminisce. We dissect. We remember.

It wasn't until the last decade that I thought much of how I am to be remembered. It has never held value to me. Now, in the late night hours of the evening I wonder on it. There has only ever been one who might have held the memory of who I truly am in high regard, but she has long since passed on. With the more recent transition of dogma surrounding death it has left me conflicted. I had once dreamed of joining her in Elysia. Now I worry she will not be there waiting for me, nor even in the Shining Lands. That perhaps she has already moved on to another life? That she has been deemed worthy of another turn on the Wheel. She deserves such a chance. She bore the scars of my mistakes as well, always with head held high.

Written By Arman

April 17, 2019, 3:49 p.m.(12/10/1010 AR)

Proclaiming to the entirety of Arx -- and by extension the world beyond -- that a minor (or even moderate) slight took place is not an appropriate way to utilize overworked heralds. Nor is replying to the original offender in the same fashion in order to insert a "last word."

Written By Arman

April 13, 2019, 10:28 a.m.(12/1/1010 AR)

If I was caught in my own web of machinations and failed to cheat at a game, I don't think I would create a secondary game identical in spirit to the first unless I had full intent to cheat again.

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