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Written By Preston

July 12, 2020, 7:37 p.m.(8/22/1013 AR)

When things are so carefully balanced, when entire mountains are poised to topple this way or that, so even the impact of the tiniest pebble can change the world.

Written By Preston

June 28, 2020, 6:10 a.m.(7/21/1013 AR)

A thought - when we wish for others who have left us to return from the wheel, are we being selfish for it is to wish that their journey is not complete and they shall not pass to Elysium? Could it be an admittance that we have not yet learned all we can from them, and such a request is to honour that person by pointing to how much they still had to teach us? Or just a way for us to cope with our grief?

Written By Preston

June 21, 2020, 12:15 p.m.(7/8/1013 AR)

Relationship Note on Piccola

I am not so certain that all warfare is deceit - I give those who wish to be my enemy the chance to choose that path, or to diverge from it. As Princess Sabella and others did for Ivan Helianthus. There was no deceit in that, I did pretend to come as anything other than the sword arm of the Faith - indeed, I do not know how to be anything other. I stake my troops, and my life alongside theirs, and I fight - for a cause that I wear as brightly as a sash across my armour. I am exactly as I appear - I would hope those that know my personal secrets would agree they change nothing about my motives, my beliefs, my cause.

As to honour, it is a simpler affair. Honour is your duty to Gloria - and the paramount concern of a knight alongside their oath. Others speak as noble knights of a hope - a prayer - to fight with honour and to bring glory on their house. For Templars it is a simpler prayer. We pray for the courage needed to act with honour, even when all is lost, and that should victory be granted, the mercy to treat our enemies with honour they may not deserve. The Faith is the Gods, glory never ending - any glory in the actions of even the mightiest of us are as candles against the midday sun.

Written By Preston

June 12, 2020, 11:14 a.m.(6/18/1013 AR)

Many will have seen Mother Ailith's proclamation - what I wish to focus on are two things.

Choice, and duties.

It is true, many nobles who looked to Sungreet have a choice now. To stand with their duties to Ivan, or their duties to Thrax, to the Compact and to the Gods. I would argue that each of us has a fundamental duty to the Gods, and their representatives on Arvum in the Faith. I would argue that a man who breaks the laws of the Gods is not deserving of loyalty. I would recognise that a conflict of duties has arisen - one not forseen or forseable, and that no fault rests on those nobles for this dispute arising or the fact they must now face this choice. It is always a tragedy when this occurs - and a hard choice. I wish the nobles good guidance and fortune in making it - and though I will respect that choice, I gently observe that to side with the Eurusi elements is to side against the Faith and the Gods, and so to become an enemy.

For those Seraphs - for those Brothers and Sisters whom I love, as the only family I know - who wish to play and try to balance on the fence in this issue. Those who wish to argue perhaps that the duty to an Apostate is greater than a duty to the Gods, you pull at a delicate thread in our history. You must be trusted to give honest advice, and you must also advocate for the Faith - you have a difficult balance as the Legate indicates. I know the difficulties - for ours is the Faith, a consideration beyond the temporary, that we have no interest in the matters of Kings and Queens, the crowds and furs, that we are called to think of higher matters and beyond the physical state of our people to their very souls. It would be easy then to perhaps forget the immediate consequences of our advice. But let me help you and be clear: to advocate /against/ the Faith to attempt to curry personal favour is beyond that balance you wish to seek. To advocate for Ivan is to advocate for Eurus. To advocate for Eurus is to advocate for Marachian-like ways. And I would remind them carefully of the last time a Carnifex of the Faith faced Godsworn who would advocate even the preservation of such beliefs, and how that Carnifex would create a chilling reminder that our service to the Gods and Faith must always be paramount, in the form of the Silent Reflections.

So my Brothers and Sisters. Make your choices, but make them wisely.

Written By Preston

June 9, 2020, 4:55 a.m.(6/11/1013 AR)

The downside of writing journals after battle with an arrow in your shoulder is that it can affect your focus.

In my writing I forgot the forces of Grayson under Prince Aindre, and sent by Princess Liara - they fought bravely, and lost and mourn with us all, and Prince Aindre should be commended for his bravery and skill. Indeed it was fleets of Grayson, Redrain, Thrax and the Lyceum - as well as of the Faith - that carried us to Sungreet so swiftly. Those Great Houses were willing to provide that when they had other pressing concerns, when they had every reason to look inwards, but they rejected this to consider the greater good. In the legends of our people, one who always has struck me is Dame Sugan. When a Great Lord proposed to ignore the call to Arx and unite against the enemy, saying that instead he would fortify his own hold, she burst in and shamed him for that - revealing him an imposter. Because without unity they will devour us piecemeal.

I cannot name all as defenders of the faith - in part because so many may render such a thing meaningless, but also because it seems to state the obvious that a High Lord defends the Faith. What I can give them though is the eternal gratitude of a young orphan boy who grew to be a Templar. And my promise that I stand by - in this fight against those who come to harm us because of the love the Gods bear for us? Who wish to tear down our perfection because it reflects their own corruption? The Templars will stand each time. Until we win, or until we fall.

Written By Preston

June 8, 2020, 12:57 p.m.(6/10/1013 AR)

And as for whatever Apostate Ivan wishes to spout? If he is such a traditionalist, he would not tear at the structures of society like a particularly inquisitive mirrormask on a drunken bender.

I really couldn't give a squirrel's left testicle what an Apostate has to say. The only thing I wish to hear from him is some faint whimpering and a kind of 'ekh' noise as the blade severs head from shoulders. But I am a simple man of simple desires.

Written By Preston

June 8, 2020, 12:33 p.m.(6/10/1013 AR)

I am lucky - for I have seen through another battle with my worst complaint being that I need to get my pauldron seen to by Ida or Felix. And spend some time with my arm in a sling so I don't tear the wound open again. It was my greatest fear that we would be pinned between the two forces, but knowing it was a risk we still had to try.

The cost though is heavy, many lie dead, others injured. Some broken in spirit. Some in body. I am grateful for Lady Oili, who has tended to our troops, and for the mercies and their Solace guards. I do not know how many more would lie on the butcher's tally were it not for them.

I cannot regret the battle though, even if the deaths bring me sadness. It is what had to happen, the righteous path. I will forever remain endebted to those diplomats who came with us, Princess Sabella and Prince Niklas of Grayson, and Lord Rysen Crovane, who tried to find a path to avoid war. Tried to find a path without conflict. They exhausted themselves to find it, but it was not there to be found. And knowing we had tried all to find it, so we could go into battles with our conscience clean. That service is one we do not honour enough, but it is one which is so great I can barely thank it enough.

Raja Culler ran herself ragged on the field, keeping me informed of occurings in battle and the city, and the observations of Princess Sabella. Dame Ida's ability with my siege engines was once again on display. There is so much to praise. Dame Katryn's unwavering dedication. Lord Alban's tireless commitment. Prince Lorenzo who - having one ship sunk beneath him - swam to another to continue the fight. Marquessa Teagan's insight. And the unrelenting courage of Lady Tescelina's charges, until her sad passing in the battle.

But it was not Templars alone. House Blanchard, House Blackram and House Crovane all sent troops with us. The fleets of almost all the Great Houses transported us. The words of the Most Holy, Dominus Orazio, sent us off. And the work of Prince Victus, Mother Ailith, Aleksei Morgan and many others found ways to provide us with friends within the city - though I admit the Eurusi allies were a surprise from quarters I did not even know were working to that end.

Soon we will have to have an event of Thanksgiving, to commemorate the good deeds of people in pursuit of a holy cause. And then a pilgrimage to lay to rest those for whom the fight is over. That is not us however. For first, we need to win this crusade.

Written By Preston

May 22, 2020, 1:31 p.m.(5/4/1013 AR)

Choice is a funny thing. People are free to make them, for good or for ill, but choice with no consequence is easy to do. It's choice with consequence that can often be the most difficult to accept. Skald does not liberate you from those consequences, nor is he a shield you can hide behind and claim that the Faith protects you from them.

And I should make it clear, if any choose in this time of tension, to seek to incite harm against the Faith to distract from their own problems, to advocate or place at risk the Faith, as an institution, or its physical manifestations in property and the Godsworn singularly or assembled, rest assured those consequences will come. And you will get another choice. To stand, or to run. I'd advise running. Very fast and very far away. An enemy bears down on us from the east, there are other problems that assail, I have no patience left for you now.

Written By Preston

May 18, 2020, 6:12 a.m.(4/23/1013 AR)

I'm surprised these events are a total shock to anyone. There may indeed be those stirring up trouble and encouraging the disorder we have seen, building up the discontent. But they are building on firm foundations - the Faith has long operated charity in the lowers and across Arvum to help those in need, but even the Faith can only sustain them. We can look after their orphans, we can feed the hungry, treat the sick, clothe the poor. But to change the condition of their being? That is something that the nobles and the other temporal powers must consider.

I am confident the Faith will do all it can, and try to do more. And equally I have faith in the people of Arvum that, no matter their discontent, they will respect the inviolate nature of the Faith and its people. I hope once we return from Sungreet, news of the honourable battle might remind some of the cause we all fight together.

Written By Preston

May 15, 2020, 11:39 a.m.(4/18/1013 AR)

As a minor point, your honour duels are the realm of Gloria, not of Gloria and the Sentinel. If you are fighting over which of you is the true temporary custodian of some part of the Gods' Arvum, and your Swords are sent to deal with the matter? Then perhaps the Sentinel is involved.

There is no matter of justice in how ugly, dim-witted or low- or high-born your wifes, husbands or children are or aren't. Simply honour. Do I need to do some kind of sermon? I can do sermons.

Written By Preston

May 15, 2020, 11:29 a.m.(4/18/1013 AR)

I find before a big battle or confrontation, the whites tend to turn to social disagreements. A chance I suppose to think of anything but the coming storm, the impending wait, and the trickle of messages about loved ones who will not return and hopefully the flood from those who will, but each of them changed for the experience.

Still, I will stick with my love match with the Pantheon.

Written By Preston

May 12, 2020, 6:19 p.m.(4/12/1013 AR)

It is enjoyable, from time to time, to be able to do something good and also fun. To give gifts to celebrate a happy occasion because you can - and yes because it strengthens Templar alliances.

Written By Preston

May 10, 2020, 12:38 p.m.(4/8/1013 AR)

I worry when word reaches me of some of the adventures the nobility intend on engaging upon. Not because of the motivation, because the motivation is good - to fight our shared enemies, to secure their lands. But because were I asked about them and not hearing about them, I would point to the gap in the benches at the next Assembly of Peers where those who last set off with such noble intent would have sat.

I do not say the Templars should go on every journey, or the inquisition. There is no monopoly on virtue or goodness in my order. But I worry all the same. Because, not knowing what help we can offer, you have already decided you do not need it. And such confidence is often that which walks out into the snow and never returns.

Written By Preston

May 2, 2020, 7:38 p.m.(3/20/1013 AR)

I was sent a message from an unknown person. Well. I think it is fair to call it a threat.

A threat that because the Templars fight on the side of the Gods, because we stop those who have evil intent, this person would place innocents in the path of harm.

I fear they have not ever stepped foot in Gloria's shrine to listen to the Godsworn preach. You will find a threat against the innocent will not stay a Templar's hand, it will not cause us to shrink. We will march forward with greater purpose and place ourselves between the blade and the innocent.

In short, you mean to test me and my brothers and sisters - and yet we have already weighed your measure, and found you wanting.

Written By Preston

April 30, 2020, 10:23 a.m.(3/16/1013 AR)

Relationship Note on Thea

It does leave a great many questions about how one survives such a fall, indeed. Sadly the only person who can answer it is the ex-Archduchess. The other party in that incident was misplaced after he left the Faith's custody.

Written By Preston

April 24, 2020, 7:20 a.m.(3/3/1013 AR)

It's a whirlpool. I have heard suggestions it was some cunning trick of the Eurusi to block our response. And while I would love to believe the Eurusi are that stupid, sadly I doubt it is true. They know that we do have more than one port on our coast, that we have beaches from where troops and materiel can be embarked. I am also not sure why we think they have mastery over tides in such a way. They do indeed have different knowledge to us, advanced in some areas, but ultimately it is all futile as they fail to understand our greatest knowledge - our knowledge of the Gods and their divine nature, and the guidance they provide.

In short, what a bother, but we will overcome as we always do until nature takes its course.

Written By Preston

April 11, 2020, 8:42 a.m.(2/5/1013 AR)

In the battle of good versus evil, it is true that evil is often more obvious in its power, that it may seem to have all the big battalions on their side. Perhaps all good can offer you is a noble cause and a risk of death in pursuit of that. Perhaps you could try and ignore that battle, to stand between the two and stare intently at your fingernails as you hear the sound of death around you.

But what I do know is that those who side with evil, through fear of death and in the hopes that that which is evil shares its power, will never achieve their desires. Evil will use you as far as it can, it will steal everything from you - all the good the Gods put into you - until you have nothing more to give, and it will give you either death or unending unmerciful torment.

For myself, if I must choose a path that may well end in my death, I shall choose the one that sees me die on my feet, my head unbowed, in pursuit of a noble cause. Never the one that may push that death back by trading every good thing I am, have ever done, and could ever be.

Written By Preston

April 4, 2020, 7:20 p.m.(1/20/1013 AR)

I am pleased to see people engaging with the Gods and seeking to champion their causes - it shows devotion and is to be welcomed. But, people should be cautious about advancing into such areas without the guidance and help of the Godsworn, especially when it concerns the lost gods for whom so little is still being explored and understood. There is a risk of unguided zeal making an entrance way for misunderstanding, for misunderstanding to become a home for errant belief, for errant belief to grow into heresy, for heresy to cause us all harm.

The Godsworn dedicate their lives to the Gods, and can help you in your worship and your efforts to meet with the commands of the Gods. Seek their advice and counsel, ensure the evil that dwells beyond the mirror does not tempt you from the path.

Written By Preston

March 30, 2020, 7:53 p.m.(1/10/1013 AR)

What's the difference between a Templar and an ordinary person? One step.

When things are easy, any man can step forward in support of a righteous cause.

It is when things are hard, when things are bleak, when the weight of a thousand other obligations weigh upon the mind of people? When the innocent are threatened, but you are few against a force of many? That is when it matters. That you take that one step forward, when all others want to move back. One step towards the righteous cause. It is not about foolhardiness - when the Templar acts he should know all, he should step forward knowing the weight of what he does and its implications. And as those final prayers before battle slip from his lips, they should not be for life, but instead for honour. So we might walk into the Shining Lands, our heads unbowed.

There are many who do this anyway, who are not Templars. Those who honour Gloria with their deeds, and whose memories and acts we worship in the Shrine. But it is true too of the Templars, and the Faith Militant, because it is our duty.

Written By Preston

March 25, 2020, 6:41 a.m.(12/27/1012 AR)

Relationship Note on Viviana

Such anger and upset - though I am told it is natural for one to wish to defend a family member. Oddly though it seems you largely agree with me - that this is a personal matter between the two, apparently now resolved, and it should not be made into something larger by attempting to throw silly ill thought allegations against the whole of the Faith.

If I may gently say, Jeffeth can speak as a Godsworn because that is what he is. As was Juniper. What I have not seen Jeffeth do is attempt to say 'We, the Godsworn' or 'We of the Faith' and try to invoke wider authority for his dispute. But as I said, unless Archduchess Belladonna or her voices spoke out, I presumed that was an overreach in a time of emotion and not an official position of Pravus, which the Archduchess has, in her own way, confirmed is the correct take. I have every faith that in private Arianna will be reminded to be careful, and that only one sits on the Setarco throne.

As for worrying about things, when accusations attacking fundementals of our society such as the Faith are thrown around with wild abandon by emotional nobles, I fear it is something that does warrant some note and response. But I can reassure you that I am capable of writing a few sentences for the whites to correct an errant child of the Faith and still organise and command an army to march, and I shall hope that this soothes whatever concern you have.

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