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Written By Preston

June 17, 2018, 8:41 a.m.(1/11/1009 AR)

Relationship Note on Belladonna

I will consider much of what you have said, for our friendship though quiet this past year was once close. But if I may point out, that Dominus' actions in regards to excommunications were upheld by the Faith. That the High Lords sought forgiveness, and were so forgiven, for their transgression.

Written By Preston

June 17, 2018, 6:19 a.m.(1/11/1009 AR)

Relationship Note on Darren

The point where I disagree most is a single word. You said 'rightly'. That they rightly refuse to give up worship of the shamanist ways to fully embrace the Pantheon. It has always been a compromise which allows this blended shamanism and pantheon worship to exist. The fact pure shamanistic worship and rejection of the pantheon was outlawed should show a direction of travel that was desired, and which many over the years have followed.

But. Rightly. That word. Does that mean then that those who instead pledge to worship the Gods alone, and continue their good work within the Faith, are those people wrong? Are all people who worship just the Pantheon, as we have for untold years of our past? I know that extends that single word to an extreme, but it is worth considering. A high lord's words carry direction, similar to a Dominus. If you tell your people one way is right then the other must be wrong, and think of the impact of that. Both on people decisions, but also on those who have already made the decision to put away misguided worships in favour of pure worship of the Pantheon.

Written By Preston

June 17, 2018, 4:33 a.m.(1/11/1009 AR)

The Dominus, speaking as the Dominus, is always correct. When he speaks as Aldwin about, oh, whether the day is nice, or if so and so is wearing a nice robe, you should feel free to disagree with him. But on matters of faith, the Faith and of the Gods? He is beyond question in his pronouncements. It will hurt many I am sure, it means areas of the Redrain lands will struggle to recruit Templars in their parishes, though they will not be outside of our protection. It means friends will no longer be there at dinners of the Faith. But. When even some of the more radical Archlectors openly agree with the Dominus in this, know it is the resolve of the Faith. Those that guide others in the Faith, that work within our halls, must speak only with our voice as they do this.

And in that be mindful. Disagree with the decision, much as I say it is pointless. We have never stopped people from running into walls if that is their wish. I just hope people will not place themselves in opposition to the Faith or seek to undermine it, as a bastion of the Compact. That would harm us all.

Written By Preston

June 17, 2018, 4:15 a.m.(1/11/1009 AR)

Relationship Note on Clara

I assume all in the Spirit Walkers must walk the two paths, as you say - that of Pantheon blended with Shamanism. As acknowledgement and worship of the Pantheon, even if alongside old beliefs, is a required part of membership of the Compact as I understand things.

Written By Preston

June 11, 2018, 4:27 a.m.(12/18/1008 AR)

It seems people are musing on balance, and people with greater minds than I. The one thing I would say in favour of balance is that balance does not need to be among opposing items, such as good against evil, but could be between different types of one thing, such as good. Should we champion the kindness and charity of Gild at the expense of the righteousness of Gloria? Or the justice of the Sentinel? I would say no. You must consider all of these. Just as we must worship all the Gods.

What I value most is reason. There are long debates before the Templars are sent in normally, Archlector Cassandra will weigh the righteousness of our cause, Father Orazio and the other Legates will discuss with His Most Holy over whether such an action is proportionate, if the good outweighs the harm. But once the decision is made, once reason has run its course, we pursue the matter to its conclusion. Be it a threatening tribe of Shavs, be it enemies of the compact from outside, or be it an errant house fallen to corruption and evil. There is no balance sought in such moments, I do not want to lose one man for each of theirs in turn lost. Balance makes no sense in that world.

Written By Preston

June 4, 2018, 8:37 a.m.(11/28/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Driskell

Brother Driskell was an interesting person. In his time he has been an avid advocate for the Thirteenth, and worked with the scholars. He and I never agreed on the role of the Thirteenth, he reveled in doubt where I viewed it as an enemy to vanquish. He was however someone always you could trust and rely on as a brother in the faith. It may surprise some to know he cooked some of the dishes for the recent feast in celebration of Carnifex Alor Valardin, founder of the Orthodoxy. He will be missed.

Too many Godsworn are falling of late. Perhaps it is time to assign more Templars to Father Orazio and the Dominus

Written By Preston

May 31, 2018, 2:20 p.m.(11/20/1008 AR)

I am neither a philosopher nor a disciple, but a Godsworn priest, so I hope Lord Arik will forgive me if I answer. As Blessed Aleksei says, one cannot fully separate the two - everything is connected and will in various ways affect everything up and down the chain, it is why the question of choice is not one which can solely relate to the individual in isolation, because no person lives in such a way (and if they do, who cares about them?). Gloria would argue however that paramount be given to your behaviour and your intent over the outcome. That a good man failing through honourable means is better than a man succeeding through unsavory practice. However, doing good just because it is good and ignoring long term consequences is in and of itself a false kind of honour. This is why Gloria accepts at times it is better to withdraw, your duty to oppose done, and fight another day when you m ight win than lose your entire force in a hopeless battle that need not be the end of your struggle.

Written By Preston

May 28, 2018, 2:17 p.m.(11/12/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Eleyna

I can understand that view, but it is not one I can share. You are unsure if the messages on the virtues the Gods call us to are indeed their summons, yet to me these are the words of the Faith, the words of the Gods, and that is the world I know. As surely as you know your left hand and your right, I know that the Faith guides us with the best that we know. And I accept that and I trust that, because it has endured us for over 1000 years. Even when the Crown has fallen, the Faith has righted us. But. I am a Godsworn as much as I am a Knight, so I bound to that. The Faith is the cause of my life. It has been my father and my mother, my sisters and brothers. It will be all I ever know, from my earliest memory to my death.

I am also a Knight - so I am in that sense simple. I see direct solutions. Straight paths. And there, the doubts you think are essential in the polite world - the world of Arx, the world of politics, the world of society - they are death on the field. One man falters, and so the wall is broken, the line is lost. One man decides the command of Gloria to be brave, to be honourable, to hold until you can hold no more, to think of your fellow soldiers and care for them, one man who decides all that is nothing and he seeks to save his life by running without need? So the rout begins. Perhaps this is why the Orthodoxy holds such strength in the Faith Militant. We live in a world that touches the polite realm of Arx as through a hazy curtain, parallel but not the same.

Still, I would not think me or my people slaves because of our choice of belief. Nor am I one who would say you are heretic or even misguided in your worship and beliefs. I would say that within the boundaries of the faith there are many voices. A choir that sings only one note is dull indeed, after all. We all share a purpose, and in 99 out of every hundred things we all agree. It is the balance in those voices that is important. So it is important the Orthodoxy is heard, and its view considered. Even as the Orthodoxy itself has considered and mellowed in its majority over the issues of public worship of the Thirteenth in the manner of the Lycene.

Written By Preston

May 28, 2018, 1:19 p.m.(11/12/1008 AR)

As we learn more about our history, more about the traditions, so I find myself with more questions than answers. I want to know our ancestors, to know where we came from, as well as I know myself now. And restore to glory all that which has been tarnished over the years. Yet. I am reminded at each step the importance of what I do know, and know with certainty, namely the commands of the Gods. Doubt, questions, they are not useful there. There is no questioning the Gods desires, their demands on us, when we know them. You obey, as best you can.

Questions and doubt have their place, where there is genuine uncertainty. But to interpose them into certainty, to have doubt for doubt's sake? That weakens us all. And for that weakness, at the wrong moment, entire bastions could collapse and fall like rocks into the sea.

Written By Preston

May 22, 2018, 9:52 a.m.(10/15/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Calaudrin

Meaningful choice should not always be easy, and often the just and righteous path is harder to take - especially knowing the difficulties it places. The difference is whether you place emphasis on the outcome of the choice or the principle of it I suppose. Gloria commands that we are righteous in our actions, that we are at our heart good and virtuous. The outcome to her is not as important. That is not to say she does not care, for I am sure Gloria cares deeply about good defeating evil, but that it is not what she asks of us. To fail honourably 100 times is better than to succeed any number of times through poor behaviour. And in that, when the outcome is removed, you are left with a choice in the earlier example. Freedom or Enslavement. And then, the choice is easy, is it not?

But, as you touch on Brother, reality is harder when your life is based in the secular world. When others lives bear on your choices. And we should always leave room for us to understand why people make choices that we feel are wrong.

Written By Preston

May 22, 2018, 9:37 a.m.(10/15/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Calaudrin

A choice to die free to to die a slave I would say is a choice, a meaningful choice, even if we dislike the outcomes. However, it often takes you making many other choices to reach those points - but it is correct that people should be offered always a chance to seek a better path as far as we can. Still, we cannot fully dictate what choices we will be offered, nor can we decide what consequences we will face, what other choices others will have to make in response to that.

Written By Preston

May 22, 2018, 9:30 a.m.(10/15/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Shard

Ah, I thought you meant conformity as in conformity with the Faith, conformity of worship. Now I understand your meaning. Still, I do not think I have argued for a bland acceptance of the world as it is or that following the crowd being a virtue either. So I am unsure of the point.

Written By Preston

May 22, 2018, 5 a.m.(10/15/1008 AR)

So, the dedication has been done for the Mausoleum of the Faith Militant. Its ground consecrated to hold the revered fallen of not just the Templars and the Knights of Solace, but the Mercies who fall in battle, those sworn knights who fell at Stormwall and Setarco and those sworn knights who will fall in the future fighting alongside us.

The complex is all we had hoped, with the white marble and gold, and it sits at the heart of the Faith's history, at Sanctum. I cannot thank Dame Thena, Father Orazio and Prince Edain enough, along with Cybele of the Mercies, Princess Alarissa and Prince Victus. I have chosen the first guards for the complex, drawing Godsworn from all of the fealties, from Sanctum itself, but also from Maelstrom, from Setarco, from Farhaven, from Bastion and from Arx. It seems right the first guards should come from the capitals of the fealties, and of the Compact. For those that wish to visit it, a special waystation has been built for Dame Thena's Knights of Solace so pilgrims can be assured of safety on the roads.

Now that the past is honoured, and our fallen interred, so we can look to the future of the order. To returning to our strength and preserving the Faith from all threats.

Written By Preston

May 22, 2018, 4:42 a.m.(10/15/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Shard

You mistake a statement of reality for a statement of approval. I do not like that the world is unfair, but it is - and sometimes your choice is down to how you will die, or between which unhappiness you might have. Yet, often that itself is driven by choices you took, perhaps without thinking, even if the consequences were lopsided. The choice to go left or right in a road, the choice to join a warband or not, the choice to answer the call to arms or forsake your oath. The world is cruel and unkind, and screaming that Skald promised choice will not mean you get to also pick what those choices are. And remember that maximum choice for one person might mean curtailing the choices of many others, removing their agency. Because none of us live in isolation from the world, from our peers. That is why we each take such avid interest in one another, and why the harm one does ripples through society.

As for the question posed: If this family lives in compliance, and are happy, then I am unsure why I should not be content with that? I am also unsure why, if they are happy, the should want or care for my approval or endorsement. That right to live in compliance in Redrain lands for those who integrate Shamanist ways into their worship of the Pantheon is granted by treaty. If I may answer what I think your real question is: Do I /like/ shamanist practice? No. I find it odd and unfamiliar, for these ways to be alongside the things I find so familiar in the worship of the pantheon is unsettling as it would be to see a cat riding a horse. But. I also guard the lives of Mirrormasks, and Tehomic shrines, and I do not find comfort in the public worship of Tehom in the Grayson or Lycene style either - I find it unpleasant, that public doubt. That does not mean it is not true worship, and Prince Talen and I have debated before the difference in these things. He finds himself closer to the Gods in worshipping as he does, and I can like and be happy for him in that even if it is a path I myself would never wish to take.

There are several paths to the Gods within the forest of the Faith, and everyone has their preferred way - the path in their eyes that is most beautiful. Providing people do not stray outside of the forest, they do not abandon the ways of the Faith to seek answers without guidance or protection, then I am more than happy to live with that diversity of opinion.

Written By Preston

May 21, 2018, 10:08 a.m.(10/13/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Cleo

I do not know you, but I see the ripples you cause. I hope you will, should you see this entry, take it in the spirit of advice from a watcher - for I hold no malice.

Choice is a very fine and delicate thing. Sadly you do not get to pick which outcomes one must choose from, life and the world and the actions of the past determine this. Sometimes your choice is only between how you will die, well or badly. Sometimes it is more meaningful, to lose as an honourable man or win as a monster, a tyrant as you say. Sometimes the choice is stark. To bend the knee and cease to be a threat, or to accept the consequences of hostility, and thus, accept the return of your soul to the wheel.

Skald says we shall have choice, he does not say those choices must be easy, or they are fair. Remember though, those in Redrain who chastise, they themselves made a choice some time back to bend the knee, to join the compact and to sign a treaty with the Faith that holds them responsible for their shamanic populations, that they must worship and integrate that worship to the pantheon. Lord Arik joins that responsibility. And it is a heavy one. For no House ever wishes to break a treaty with the Faith, or allow for those below them to do so on their behalf. So if you feel others are zealous in their enforcement of conformity, understand that they are obeying obligations undertaken long ago. Obligations that are important to ensure the strength of the Compact, and the safety of her citizens. One of which is yourself.

Written By Preston

May 17, 2018, 4:33 a.m.(10/5/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Thena

More brothers and sisters and disciples dead of the Faith Militant. Though Solace suffered lighter than the Templars overall, as many of their men looked to their duties on the roads, it is still a sting that those who survived the Gyre and returned to Arx should now die here in such a brutal fashion.

I feel for Dame Thena - to lead is to feel the guilt of each loss as though it was the swipe of a hot poker against your skin, no matter the responsibility nor the necessity. I hope she finds the answers she hunts for.

In the interim, I will bring more Templars into the city. Increase the guard on the Rectory and our shrines. And we will begin prayers. It is our most holy duty - that the Faith assembled in the Rectory should never again be harmed by our enemies.

Written By Preston

May 7, 2018, 8:37 a.m.(9/12/1008 AR)

Dame Thena puts it well - and firmly, for a pragmatist. Dissolution and divorce are not the name as an annulment - it was still an oath before the gods and still an oath broken. But many people break oaths, for good reason and for bad. Perhaps rather than blame any individual, we should instead ask ourselves as a society how we got to a point where it is seen as something even our ducal houses can do? How we came to care so little for the hurt we do to Gloria and to Limerance? And what implications that might have for the rest of our lives, when we ask our allies to fight and die with us based on our honour, on our word.

Of course, it is also a society where a number of nobles seem to believe they can speak for the Dominus. That is for the Dominus and Father Orazio alone to do, until the other legates rise to their places. Have your bickering, but do not bring his Most Holy into the matter.

Written By Preston

April 17, 2018, 10:27 a.m.(7/25/1008 AR)

Those that know me will know what an honour it was to meet the Seraph of Sanctum. What others may not know is that it was also an honour to meet the nobles of the Oathlands in their own lands. The last time I ventured to Sanctum was in the company of the Grandmaster of my order when I was a squire, in the company of the then-Dominus. I was unimportant, taken along to assist my Grandmaster, a favour to the Dominus that I was even there I am sure. This time I was there in my own right. Then we knew peace. Now we know war.

It was a pleasure to train the prodigals and with Oathlanders of long standing, to listen to their stories, to commiserate over losses. To welcome new brothers into the order as disciples. To get a chance to calm tensions and speak well of those who fought alongside us. I think it was well received - perhaps they simply humoured me, I do not know, that is for time to tell.

I had a chance to see the site we proposed near Sanctum for the memorial. Good solid ground, high above the water marks so the catacombs will be dry. It was a peaceful place. A place I would not mind spending eternity myself - though I know each of our souls must take our place on the wheel.

In some ways, I still think of myself as the young squire - unimportant, untested, that I must do my best to embody the Faith that raised me because I must prove myself. Perhaps this trip was a lesson that not all those things are true anymore, and that words can have an impact as great as the sword. But. I hope I do not lose that view of myself. That which makes me stride to be better, that which reminds me to be humble.

So I owe thanks to Father Orazio, to the Seraph of Sanctum, to Prince Edain and his nobles, for the trip to the Oathlands was a success. We found welcome, we found believers, we found brothers. And perhaps we found a little more of ourselves, in that home of the Faith.

Written By Preston

April 8, 2018, 6:52 p.m.(7/8/1008 AR)

I am told there was discussion of how we remember the fallen at the recent Assembly of Peers.

The Templars and the Knights of Solace are building a place to hold the bones of our honoured dead. A place where we can remember them, where their stories and deeds will be remembered. A place where the greatest amongst us, our heroes, our grandmasters, will have tombs in great halls where pilgrims might consider the price all of us pay to hold onto our way of life.

The Templars, the Knights of Solace, they do not fight alone or separate to the Fealties though. Our disciples mostly find their homes in Grayson, in Valardin, in Thrax, in Redrain and in the Lyceum. So we will build great halls for each of the fealties. And in each we will offer to inter the bones of your knights who died with us facing down the Pirate King at Stormwall, Setarco and at Darkwater Watch. Those who said oaths under Gloria, who were knighted, deserve remembrance and deserve their honouring of that oath to itself be honoured.

We will soon begin the drive to fund this project. It will be built at the home of the Faith, our ancestral birthplace, Sanctum. The Templars and Knights of Solace that guard and tend to it will be drawn from all of the fealties as well. In the interim, as debate over the Hall of Hero continues, know that whatever the outcome we will be here.

Written By Preston

April 4, 2018, 5:24 a.m.(6/27/1008 AR)

Lately many things seem to point me towards Gloria. That is probably no surprise that I would see that, for the devotion we hold to her. It is also no surprise given that we have been at war. A place that will naturally make us think of Gloria, pray to her,seek comfort in her.

The message she has sent back is clear. The manner of our fighting, our conduct, is what is important. She will love us if we win or lose, providing we do so justly. So I hope that both the recently created knights and those of us who have worn the title for a little time will reflect. Our job is not to win, but to hold up to the ideals of our oath. Our duty is not just to our House or our Fealty, but to Gloria and to the Gods under whom we take our oaths. And in doing so, in holding faith with the Gods, in holding faith with Gloria, in being willing to sacrifice victory to hold onto the just nature of our cause, perhaps in those sacrifices we may actually find the final victory we so need and want.

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