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Written By Khanne

April 8, 2018, 11:19 p.m.(7/8/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Venturo

Though this was probably the most calm Assembly of Peers I have ever seen.... I have to think Master Brewer Venturo Thayne. Was he there? No. But, his Smoky Evenings Whiskey filled my flask for the festivities.

For once, I sipped from my flask ONLY because I enjoyed the drink, and not also because I needed something to dull the pain.

He is truly a Master of his trade, and I hope he knows, I want one of everything he makes, ever. Hear that Venturo? Set a bottle aside for me next season!

Written By Khanne

April 8, 2018, 10:47 p.m.(7/8/1008 AR)

To all those who have inquired:

No, Perce and I are not expecting children yet, nor are we planning to any time soon.

However, I know someone who I think might be....

Written By Khanne

April 1, 2018, 9:27 p.m.(6/22/1008 AR)

I have a lot of people to meet this coming week... Drysi is desperately trying to make appointments, but time is so scarce. And I am finding when I am available, those I need to speak to haven't been. I will get to you all though.. somehow. Somehow.

I was going to write this whole entry that was thoughtful and... now I simply don't remember where I was going with my thought. It's been that kind of day. I have been easily distracted and found myself daydreaming far too often. Sorry Scholars.

My thoughts are flitting about like the fireflies that once danced around my hair in the Stone Grove.

Written By Khanne

March 28, 2018, 8:23 a.m.(6/11/1008 AR)

To all:

I adore rabbits. I always have. I am fairly sure the Spirits and Petrichor adore them too. However, there is a disease amongst them that makes them hazardous to our well being. As stated in the Crown proclamation, any seen within a days ride of Arx should be hunted and killed. This is not only to protect ourselves and those we love, but to end the suffering of the diseased bunnies. I love most creatures, but would not want any to suffer so greatly when I can help them so easily.

This is important. Pay attention, I am about to use Agatha's big letters.

DO NOT EAT THEM. DO NOT SAVE THEIR FURS. Their bodies are to be cleansed by fire before being properly disposed of, as you would any hazardous item. Remember the plague blankets Abbas used that everyone was utterly disgusted by to the very fiber of their morale beings? Well... these rabbits are like hopping, breathing, nose twitching plague blankets. They must be destroyed to end the disease. One day healthy bunnies will return to the area, but first, we have to make it safe for them to do so.

As others have said. the rabbits are prey. They are food not only to us, but to many other predators. The disease could spread to a number of different creatures. The more it spreads, the more difficult it will be for us to eradicate the disease. I pray you all can see just how serious a matter this is.

Written By Khanne

March 25, 2018, 6:28 p.m.(6/5/1008 AR)

My mind is still in a bit of a whirlwind about all that occurred at Stormwall. I stayed north, trying to help where I could... trying to speak with others who survived, to help them through everything they were feeling and thinking. We, as survivors, are of course happy we were able to; happy we can see our loved ones again, continue our paths to achieve goals set, see the sun rise another day... But, many also feel a sense of guilt... questioning why did they get to survive when the person standing beside them in battle may not have.

I was, at one point, going to give an account of what happened where I was, what I saw, but really, Felicia did an excellent job of that.

I have yet to return to Arx.. I was on my way when I received a request that had me changing paths and heading north again; to Farhaven. I've had a lot of time for contemplation and reflection; perhaps too much time... It's been welcome though in some ways. Gives me time to let it all sink in... what happened, what will be happening... the good, (the amazing), and the bad.... the next thing to prepare for.

The best moment was seeing Perce again. In that moment I felt the weight of the world rise up off my shoulders for a bit. It is the effect he has on me often. But I have also enjoyed the many messengers that find me, albeit a bit slowly. Well, I've enjoyed most of them, there were a few I'd rather have done without... but, I have received some from someone I have not met yet, though, I was the instigator, and I look forward to meeting them when i return to the city. At the least, perhaps I have another friend through correspondence.... that is how many of my best friendships began. I'm looking at you, Lianne... Mydas, or Ettore... that really is going to take getting used to...

Anyway, I am sure my scattered state of mind has left this entry incomprehensible enough. I should send it off now. I hope all is well in Arx!

Written By Khanne

March 19, 2018, 8:47 a.m.(5/21/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Ainsley

I would like to state that it was I who Prince Ainsley was protecting. I and the other shamans.

When we are in the midst of a ritual many of us are not physically able to be on guard. We are often in a meditative state, focused on the Spiritual world, not always what is around us. It is in thanks to Prince Ainsley, as well as the others protecting our group (Felicia, and Tovell, as well as my brother Arik, and Lord Brogan) that I was able to keep one eye on the battle below and see that a little more... illumination... was needed. With the others keeping watch over the many shamans, and some of the healers, it was Felicia and Ainsley who stuck by my side, without fail, until I told them they should focus their attention on helping the others get rid of the very large, very powerful foe that had come, the very one that ended up taking Eirlys' life.

I am exceedingly grateful for the direct protection of both Ainsley and Felicia and hope that no one would fault either of them for their bravery and duty in watching my back, allowing me to do what I was there to do.... which, I am told, helped save many lives.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you to you both.

Written By Khanne

March 18, 2018, 12:37 p.m.(5/19/1008 AR)

I have made mistakes in my life, plenty of them... some worse than others. There are brief moments in which I think I regret them, but think what you will... I do not, not truly. Mistakes made are learning lessons, opportunities for growth, to recognize ones own weaknesses or places where they falter. Some of my worst mistakes have brought these lessons and required me to focus on myself, and some of these lessons have proven to be tests. Tests that not only I must strive to pass, but involves others as well. Some of those closest to me know what I speak of. I faced a test.... we faced a test... and we are passing with flying colors.... in my ever-so-humble opinion.

What I do regret though.... is time lost with far too many because of some of these mistakes. My time in Stormwall, what I saw, what I watched others sacrifice, what so many of us endured... has deepened my drive to never lose time unnecessarily ever again. I know there is never enough of it for all we must do, all we wish to do. Never enough time in a say, a week, a year.... ever. But, I am going to strive harder to not let moments slip between my fingers.... and to fight for moments that are so important.

No more time wasted. No more looking back with regret at time lost. I will fight for those I care about. I will fight for those I love. I will do my best to ensure that every single one of those I do love and care for, know it, whether it be the occasional acquaintance, or the holder of my heart.

Written By Khanne

March 18, 2018, 12:27 p.m.(5/19/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Eirlys

Eirlys... this one is a hard one to write. So much time was lost, with so many, and you among them. I am fortunate that we were recently able to speak after so many years. It was awkward at first, for certain, but throughout the course of that conversation... steps were made, hands extended, and a bridge created, the beginning of steps forward.

What you said to me, mere moments before your passing, will always be carried in my heart, Eirlys. Thank you for the trust, and the sentiment. I will keep my promise to keep them safe, do all I can to ensure it for as long as I draw breath.

May your journey to the Wheel be a peaceful one, my friend. I feel confident in calling you that, because in the end, I do believe it is what we had once more. And when you are ready, when the time is right, may your return to the living lands bring you to a life where you are able to inspire anew with all that you are.

Written By Khanne

March 12, 2018, 3:46 p.m.(5/7/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Percephon

It is an echo of a statement heard a fair bit in regards to the recent proclamation announcing my betrothal to Lord Percephon Telmar.

Finally!

It is a sentiment that makes me smile to hear, no matter how many times I have, because it is a thought that I share.

Finally!

Finally, I am able to speak of Percephon without holding back what I feel or hopes I have for our future. Finally I am able to smile at him across a room and not care who thinks I might be flirting. Finally! Finally so many things!

Finally, I can say: Perce, you bring a smile to my face every single day, and make sure I fall asleep with one every single night. We have such a bright future before us, and I look forward to every single moment we are able to share with one another. The ties that will bind our houses will be strong and we will make formidable allies. I hope we will have decades together, full of organizing and reading books, discovering mysteries, philosophical discussions, piecing puzzles together, and deep laughs over puns... as well as all the mushy stuff that I will save for our private discussions and not put in the journal. I promise to try to ensure that your every day also begins with a smile, and that your every evening ends with one as well.

We've gone through so much, those closest to us know, and come out stronger for it. I am thankful for my stubbornness in never giving up hope. I am thankful for forgiveness. I am thankful for second chances. I am thankful for the Spirits and the Gods that smile upon us.... Most of all... I am thankful for you and can't wait to be your wife.

Written By Khanne

March 9, 2018, 1:30 p.m.(5/1/1008 AR)

To echo Laric and Rei and Tikva and anyone else: I do not believe anyone has wished harm to the children, or said that they should suffer consequence of any sort. However, ennoblement in the Compact is a 'big deal'. People have thrown fits over some people earning titles of nobility... People who have -saved lives- of many others. Those who have ennobled them suffer hits to their reputation. Many of the nobility in the Compact rather frown upon the process, regardless of reason.

How is it so surprising when a House is questioned when they ennobled Crwonsworn children, without explanation, without mention of the mother, without anything other than, these babies are now Lord and Lady Pravus? I am not saying it was wrong or right of them, as I do not know the details, but, I do believe that is what has so many in a fervor, there were none given in regards to the ennoblement, taken in as orphans might be, when they are not such. I am most caught off kilter by the fact the children's parents are both well and able-bodied people, even if one has been handed a punishment for his crimes. That people are so surprised at the reaction of many baffles me.

I know that when I thought to give nobility to one sworn but commoner, I suffered consequences of the peanut gallery, and the process never even finished.

That's all I am saying, whether we wish the Compact to understand and not raise a brow at all, society is what it is, and does not tend to change over night. It shouldn't come as a surprise that it is questioned.

No one who has spoken out in the whites has called for harm to the children, that I have seen thus far. If any had actually, I would have expected a rather volatile cascade of responses from many across all of the houses. What sense would it make to punish a man for things he has done, in part to children, then wish ill upon his children? None. That would be hypocritical.

I, for one, wish the children the best in their futures, may they be bright and full of all the things children need to flourish.

Written By Khanne

March 9, 2018, 11:08 a.m.(5/1/1008 AR)

Isn't non-alcoholic mead just.... flavored water? Would that make it tea?

Written By Khanne

March 6, 2018, 3:53 p.m.(4/23/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Joscelin

Is it praise Josie day?

I hear she makes the best scones. I do not really know how true this might be, as every time we talk about sitting together for tea and scones something happens and we do not. So, I have to take the word of others on that.

However, I do know her talent with jewels, and often wear at least one example if not many of such. One of my current absolute favorite pieces is by her and I cherish it, not only because of how insanely beautiful it is..... but also because of who gifted it to me.

Thank you, Josie, for sharing your artistic talent with us.

I still want a scone, dammit.

Written By Khanne

March 5, 2018, 7:38 a.m.(4/21/1008 AR)

I am as prepared to go to Stormwall as I ever will be. I have spoken to as many people as I could, arranged for my provisions and supplies, gathered shamans and those willing to fight as well, helped others with their tasks, donated to the cause... Now, I just wait for it to be time.

Times of war are interesting from a social aspect. There are people trying to enjoy their lives to the fullest, just in case. Parties full of decadent foods and drinks are had with music ringing through the air and peals of laughter supplying harmony. Others tend to brood, and worry, and shake their fists at the rabble rousers, for 'how dare they' in this time before we head to battle be so frivolous. Others, well... no time like the present, is there? So many birth announcements, or, 'we're expecting!' announcements, betrothals, and marriages.

I myself have been to the celebrations of a few marriages lately, and they fill me with such joy.

Some thoughts, on marriage.... I look forward to having the rest of my life to spend with someone I am able to hold conversation with. Whether that be serious discussions about the world around us and our work in it, or the more trivial chatter of day to day routines or even (gasp) gossip. I also see in the future many moments of cherished silence with one another, with naught but the sound of a crackling fire, the wind outside, and perhaps each others heart beats to listen to. When I think of the future, I know it will be spent with someone who is integral to my own being, our souls entwined as if we are one, but also able to stand on our own feet with no lack of strength. We will not be alike in all things, but compliment each other in the best of ways, and contrast each other enough to keep our own identities.. when you think of it, working with someone who might see things from a different perspective is often highly beneficial to success... Of course the same principal would apply here. Anyway... I have reached that point of tiredness where I am apt to begin rambling... so... I will end by saying... I look forward to my future, and that is one of the reasons I do all I can to ensure there is a future to be had, not just for me... but for all people in the Compact.

Always.

Written By Khanne

March 4, 2018, 10:13 p.m.(4/20/1008 AR)

Congratulations to Esoka and Calaudrin on their marriage. It is a joy to see two people together as they are, laughing, loving, enjoying the time they are given in this life. I wish nothing but the best for them in their futures and may they always be a source of smiles for one another.

Written By Khanne

March 4, 2018, 7:34 p.m.(4/20/1008 AR)

Relationship Note on Morrighan

Her work is phenomenal. I am so very lucky to own a few of her pieces. She knew just how much I had been looking forward to Spring, and when she was inspired, when she worked her magic with the needle, thread, and silk, I am the one who benefited.

Thank you, Morrighan. I cannot wait to show off this beautiful spring gown.

Written By Khanne

Feb. 25, 2018, 11:20 p.m.(4/6/1008 AR)

It's Spring! A time of rebirth, of hope... of light breaking through the grey of winter (yes, I love winter, I do.... but...). I have waited for the change of seasons, for spring to come for quite some time now. I have looked forward to seeing the buds appear on bare tree branches, for petals to begin to unfurl and grace us with the beauty of their flowers, and even for the sun to warm my cheeks. It is spring! And when I stop for a moment in whatever else I have going on to remember this... I smile.

Perhaps I should have a small spring celebration soon.

Written By Khanne

Feb. 19, 2018, 11:22 p.m.(3/22/1008 AR)

You can find unity not only in and with the faith, but with all people. That is unity. To say that you can only find it there, is quite limiting. More often, people have a marriage of beliefs; beliefs that combine the Gods of the Pantheon and the Spirits of Shamanism. There is unity in that as well. There is unity when a Shaman works along side one of the Faith. There is unity in all of the Great Houses working together. There is unity in learning about one another and trying to understand.... even if we might find it difficult at times. Unity is found in all of us working together to face a common foe. We are the Compact, and that alone unifies us, despite all of our differences.

Yes, the time for unity is now. True unity.

Written By Khanne

Feb. 18, 2018, 10:18 p.m.(3/20/1008 AR)

I should have made time over the last few days for some levity. My head hurts as the items on my to do list go through my mind. So many people I need to meet with (if you think I've forgotten, it is possible.... feel free to remind. Except you, I've written about a dozen versions. You know who you are [probably]). So many tasks to complete, straps to tighten, bags to pack, plans to make...

I believe some meditation is required, to center and focus my thoughts.

Or a hot bath.

Perhaps both.

Written By Khanne

Feb. 13, 2018, 8:32 a.m.(3/2/1008 AR)

I swear, half this city's population has lost their damned minds.... if I didn't have so much shit to do, I'd go relax in the mountains. Y'all make it difficult to keep my balance sometimes...

No, scholar, I am not hungover and cranky.




........okay, maybe a little. I don't even remember what it was. Something spicy. It hurt my nose.

Written By Khanne

Feb. 12, 2018, 9:42 p.m.(3/1/1008 AR)

Since I have arrived in Arx, I have learned many things. I have also tried to teach many things. One thing that I try to promote is keeping an open mind. Another is of course, unity... working together, learning about one another, understanding one another, and knowing that if someone is from a different house, or has a different religion, it does not mean you are against one another. It means that we should embrace our differences, because when they are all combined in a productive way, we are stronger and more knowledgeable. Diversity can be power.

Which all starts with.... keeping an open mind.

Yes, I come back to this. Because... keeping an open mind is so incredibly important. Part of keeping an open mind is not jumping to conclusions without gathering as much information as possible. Assumptions can be dangerous. They can be dangerous to others you make them against, and possibly dangerous to yourself. Even if you feel you know something beyond a shadow of a doubt, it is good to look at it from other perspectives. It is imperative you do so if you are not an expert in the field and do not have concrete proof. I would like to help teach many people many things.... this being one of the most important.

One thing does not always mean the same thing. Some words have many definitions, and as I said today to someone... Flour and water do not only make dough. Stir it differently and you have paste.

So please, please, remember to look into matters, gather all information, before you jump to conclusions or assumptions... I beg you.

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