Written By Esoka
April 8, 2018, 11:05 p.m.(7/8/1008 AR)
Written By Esoka
April 7, 2018, 3:19 p.m.(7/5/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Reigna
Being noble means you probably did not consider this when you asked this question. By which I mean no insult, I just think it true. I do think it's a valuable one, for all that, which is why I've spent ink on it.
Written By Esoka
April 1, 2018, 7:18 p.m.(6/22/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Preston
Written By Esoka
March 31, 2018, 2:36 p.m.(6/19/1008 AR)
Written By Esoka
March 25, 2018, 10:27 p.m.(6/6/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Thena
Written By Esoka
March 21, 2018, 8:21 p.m.(5/26/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Eirlys
Eirlys Greenmarch is a hero and the only reason the demon who set upon me and so many others was slain. Her sacrifice saved my life and, to my view, the lives of every other warrior who faced that thing. Whatever our skills or whatever was within us, it was her death that saved us. There has been much talk of that fight, but this is the part I shall not forget and no one else should forget it, either.
Written By Esoka
March 18, 2018, 12:15 a.m.(5/18/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Armel
Written By Esoka
March 17, 2018, 12:57 a.m.(5/16/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Eirlys
Written By Esoka
March 15, 2018, 1:41 a.m.(5/12/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Calaudrin
I love you, too, obviously. Gild help you keep the city in one piece while we're off at Stormwall. I intend to be married to you for a very long time yet, so I'll do my best to get back soon.
If I've time, I'll try and do a little hunting. I still think you'd look good in a furry hat.
Written By Esoka
March 11, 2018, 11:08 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
The virtues of Limerance have been ones I've always felt clear on how to aspire to. My bonds with my kin and tribe, and later my oaths to the Rivens, gave my life and service purpose. I don't always feel I'm the best knight, but the vows I took when I became one shape how I conduct myself as a warrior in ways I think are good and right. I have always honored the fidelity of Limerance, and even felt Him as the god of love, for some of my oaths bound me to things I care for deeply.
When others sent prayers of romantic love to Him, though, I always privately thought it rather silly. I didn't think one had much to do with true fidelity or the more powerful things that held my oaths. What I thought I felt as 'love' as a teenage girl I now look back on as shallow and embarrassing. Over the years I've known passion and good friendship with many of the men who've shared my bed, but it never held my soul beyond that. My life seemed full enough without all that.
I don't know when I began to want more with Calaudrin Estardes. It feels a thing that happened so slowly I did not realize it had wrapped itself around the shape of my life until it had changed it in ways I couldn't undo. Did not want to undo. We've been lovers for over two years now, since the Siege of Arx, and in that time he's become one of the best friends I've ever had, one of the sturdiest soldiers I'd ever want beside me in battle, and a source of comfort and steadiness when everything else around me seems wrong. He's brave and funny and decent in a way that's rarer among men than I think he knows. When I picture my life two years from now, or twenty, I cannot see it without him in it. When I picture the children I want, I can't see their features without pieces of him in them. Even if they get his nose. I happen to think it's rather handsome.
We aren't highborn and we know no pressures to have heirs or cement alliances great houses and all of that. We're just common people and it matters to none but us if we ever marry or not. When he asked me, though, I felt very powerfully that I DID want the oaths. I wanted to honor the fidelity we shared, that was passion but so many other things, too. It is as important to me as my vows of knighthood or my vows to my liege Countess, and I wanted to give it a place equal to them in my own heart.
And, so, I'm married now. I'm happy in it so far, and I think we're doing all right by each other. I promise I'll uphold the vows I've taken as best my heart can.
Written By Esoka
March 9, 2018, 9:49 p.m.(5/2/1008 AR)
Whenever my heart prays to Mangata, they are prayers for home. For me, she has always been the goddess of the rivers I grew up on. The shores of the Son and Daughter were our fishing grounds that sustained us. I learned to swim in their depths, and my first fights were in defending our hunting grounds along them. Petrichor may be the god of the hearth but, for me, Mangata's currents have always carried me without fail toward a place I call home. I pray they shall carry me back to my hearth and those I love after this battle at Stormwall is over and done.
My sword goes with the blessing of Archlector Madeleine, on my lips is the taste of the goddess's spring wine, and in my heart assurance that the winds that blow me northward shall soon return me, one way or another. I am sustained, lady of winds and tides, and I shall fight for you with all that's within me.
Written By Esoka
March 6, 2018, 10:59 p.m.(4/24/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Calaudrin
But not before then. It's better that way.
Written By Esoka
March 4, 2018, 2:43 a.m.(4/18/1008 AR)
To Gloria, my prayers for courage and a bold heart in the face of a monstrous foe. To Limerance, may my mind remain focused and my heart stalwart and true in what I fight for. To Mangata, lady of the waves and tides, may we do your work well and cleanse your waters of this enemy.
Written By Esoka
March 3, 2018, 2:45 p.m.(4/17/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Saya
Written By Esoka
Feb. 25, 2018, 11:54 p.m.(4/6/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Tikva
Written By Esoka
Feb. 24, 2018, 10:13 p.m.(4/4/1008 AR)
Written By Esoka
Feb. 21, 2018, 1:05 a.m.(3/24/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Thesarin
Also, I would never pray to Gloria for victory. Perhaps some do, and I'll not quarrel wit them, either, but that also isn't me. I pray for the courage to ride into a battle where the odds are against me. I pray for the resolve to put the lives of my comrades or my cause ahead of my own blood, if it comes to it. And I pray that I conduct myself with honor, as much as a warrior in the thick of battle can. I pray for the virtues which I often lack. I figure I and my commanders have to take care of the victory part ourselves.
Written By Esoka
Feb. 18, 2018, 11:51 a.m.(3/19/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Emily
Written By Esoka
Feb. 13, 2018, 3:45 p.m.(3/3/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Magpie
As a Sword who is not highborn, I'm professionally curious. Will the lounge blade have a fearsome name?
Written By Esoka
Feb. 13, 2018, 12:59 p.m.(3/3/1008 AR)
I was granted Riven's heirloom weapon, the Twain, near two years ago, following the end of the Siege of Arx. I don't think I did any great acts of heroism in that battle to earn it, but I did my bit and am proud to be one of many who held the gates when the Silent Army came. Before that, I'd been a knight of the House for near 10 years, and a warrior undubbed years before that. So, I could manage a blade well enough, and had made a decent account of myself through my years of service. That's no stirring tale, but it's mine, and I hope I've continued to serve in good order since taking up the Twain.
I did not see the Twain as a personal honor or sign of my martial prowess. I'm sure there are warriors in the Twainfort who could best me in combat as often as not. I saw it then, and see it now, as an obligation to protect those sworn to my Countess and uphold the House's honor. I would never use the Twain to settle a personal matter, or fight over a petty slight, or to bully a weaker opponent, or do any act which is deemed wicked by the Faith or Crown. And, I pray to Gloria and Limerance, I shall never use it in a way that brings dishonor upon me, for that would be a shadow on Riven as well. I would fully expect to be dismissed, from the title and perhaps more, should I bring disgrace upon the heirloom blade.
That's what being a Sword means to me, at least. Maybe it means different things to others. Different men and women guard their honor and that of those they serve as they will. But the events of the past days made me wish to reaffirm my own commitments and so, by Limerance and Gloria, and set down in Vellichor's archives, I do so. If I fail in this, I expect to know it quickly and penance be demanded of me, for I'd be unworthy if I was held to a lower standard.
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