Written By Jaenelle
Sept. 12, 2021, 9:43 p.m.(3/11/1016 AR)
It is always a deeply satisfying feeling to be seen. To know well enough that an understanding is formed.
Written By Jaenelle
Aug. 8, 2021, 8:35 p.m.(12/25/1015 AR)
Learning is needed to continue to grow, hopefully others will heed such advice.
Written By Jaenelle
Aug. 5, 2021, 7:47 a.m.(12/18/1015 AR)
Relationship Note on Noah
Chaos to My Control
How embarrassing you mistook boredom for lowest. I'll not make such a mistake again. I know how, being as young as you are, it can be hard to focus on any specific task or topics for long but you'll be fine...until you aren't.
How embarrassing you mistook boredom for lowest. I'll not make such a mistake again. I know how, being as young as you are, it can be hard to focus on any specific task or topics for long but you'll be fine...until you aren't.
Written By Jaenelle
Aug. 4, 2021, 9:47 a.m.(12/16/1015 AR)
Relationship Note on Noah
Longest year of my life.
Autumn is my favorite season so I think it was why I was so susceptible to your barely there charm and your not quite there yet good looks.
Now I know not to be so agreeable in the future when the leaves change color.
Autumn is my favorite season so I think it was why I was so susceptible to your barely there charm and your not quite there yet good looks.
Now I know not to be so agreeable in the future when the leaves change color.
Written By Jaenelle
July 19, 2021, 8:16 a.m.(11/12/1015 AR)
Relationship Note on Noah
Upon hearing my betrothed still tolerates me, I thought I would share my own feelings in the matter to preserve this part of life.
Prince Grayson, I have found you adequate enough, and when I think of you I have yet to feel overwhelmingly disappointed. Just enough disappointment to make it interesting. Or perhaps the disappointment comes from liking you as much as I do. Regardless, disappointment.
Prince Grayson, I have found you adequate enough, and when I think of you I have yet to feel overwhelmingly disappointed. Just enough disappointment to make it interesting. Or perhaps the disappointment comes from liking you as much as I do. Regardless, disappointment.
Written By Jaenelle
July 5, 2021, 12:41 p.m.(10/13/1015 AR)
There was a time in my life that I sought balance. That I held onto it with a white knuckled grip that would appear painful if I was not so determined to keep it in my life. Balance was always something that was required; a balance of personal and public, of duty and desire.
I have had relationships that were my balance, those emotional connections which felt as if I was strong enough to do anything. And I did. At those points in my life balance was important, it is what I needed and fulfilled something in me that I was lacking.
I welcome what comes next:
Chaos:
- complete disorder and confusion.
- behavior so unpredictable as to appear random, owing to great sensitivity to small changes in conditions.
I have had relationships that were my balance, those emotional connections which felt as if I was strong enough to do anything. And I did. At those points in my life balance was important, it is what I needed and fulfilled something in me that I was lacking.
I welcome what comes next:
Chaos:
- complete disorder and confusion.
- behavior so unpredictable as to appear random, owing to great sensitivity to small changes in conditions.
Written By Jaenelle
May 9, 2021, 10:30 p.m.(6/11/1015 AR)
There is something to be said about having tea with people, ranting about other people.
Written By Jaenelle
May 2, 2021, 9:38 a.m.(5/24/1015 AR)
Names on a page mean very little without context. They are just names, after all. But when you remember that these names have families, history, dreams and goals, it causes a moment's pause. How do you make a decision that can change the lives of everyone they have touched, change the lives of all those they have yet to meet? One command and they are off without hesitation.
The other side of the coin that I have heard each time one of these decisions comes to light is that they are soldiers. They knew before hand what the possibilities of war can bring. How peace is not forever and the Compact is in constant war with those who are not part of it. They knew, so my guilt is raking their choice from them, that it is lessening their sacrifice because I have felt the weight of the burden.
As stories trickle in, as reports find their way to my desk, I know we as a whole have made the right decision. The only decision there was in order to keep our freedom and to show others who might consider us weak that we are not. We stood shoulder to shoulder and defended what makes up the very core of the Compact.
These names, the ones on these pages that will never return: you will never be forgotten. Your sacrifice will never be forsaken. I will continue to forever shoulder this burden.
The other side of the coin that I have heard each time one of these decisions comes to light is that they are soldiers. They knew before hand what the possibilities of war can bring. How peace is not forever and the Compact is in constant war with those who are not part of it. They knew, so my guilt is raking their choice from them, that it is lessening their sacrifice because I have felt the weight of the burden.
As stories trickle in, as reports find their way to my desk, I know we as a whole have made the right decision. The only decision there was in order to keep our freedom and to show others who might consider us weak that we are not. We stood shoulder to shoulder and defended what makes up the very core of the Compact.
These names, the ones on these pages that will never return: you will never be forgotten. Your sacrifice will never be forsaken. I will continue to forever shoulder this burden.
Written By Jaenelle
April 19, 2021, 11:02 p.m.(4/28/1015 AR)
Relationship Note on Sabella
That would be like me asking High Lord Liara why you are no longer a Grayson Voice. I don't believe it is my business to ask.
Written By Jaenelle
April 18, 2021, 10:05 p.m.(4/25/1015 AR)
Prince Noah Grayson is not as bad as he believes himself to be. In fact, he is a delightful companion. When there is no one else available.
Written By Jaenelle
March 7, 2021, 7:55 p.m.(1/25/1015 AR)
I would like to think that the recent even Lord Dycard and I hosted went well, and no one lost an arm. Perhaps the only thing that went /too/ well was everyone wishing to race honorably without using any tricks of the track or ramming into each other with their chariots. Perhaps next time!
Written By Jaenelle
March 3, 2021, 7:29 a.m.(1/16/1015 AR)
Relationship Note on Deva
Princess Deva has recently decided she needs a new hobby, one that will keep her from trouble. I find that it is not often the person's fault that trouble always finds them, but troubles ability to know which person would be the most entertaining to deal with. Those of us who seem to find trouble, regardless if we are looking or not, may find it is an inevitable thing and you should simply make the best of it.
Though here are a few suggestions as to hobbies that seem trouble-free:
Pot stirrer.
Lamplighter.
Paintbrush cleaner.
Pillow Fluffer.
Sleeping.
Hobbies that seem they are asking for trouble:
Walking
Talking
Moving
Though here are a few suggestions as to hobbies that seem trouble-free:
Pot stirrer.
Lamplighter.
Paintbrush cleaner.
Pillow Fluffer.
Sleeping.
Hobbies that seem they are asking for trouble:
Walking
Talking
Moving
Written By Jaenelle
Feb. 28, 2021, 10:07 p.m.(1/12/1015 AR)
As I prepare for another Feast of the Senses, I am reminded why I do all the work that leads up to the dinner itself. I have heard after the dinner how much enjoyment those who attended have, how intimate it is despite the ballroom full of people. Something new, exciting, and creates memories that are imaginative and about the moment rather than the usual social even where you wander around aimlessly and the greetings are strained until you find a tray of drinks and a shadowed corner to enjoy them. The Feast encourages conversation, it encourages imagination, and the food is amazing as well.
Written By Jaenelle
Feb. 28, 2021, 10:03 p.m.(1/12/1015 AR)
Nicknames are odd things. When people will begin to call you something based on a phrase or small personality trait, you often have no control over what someone decides you are that fits better than your name. Some of these nicknames come almost instant as if the person honoring you with such have known you for years rather than moments. Other names come over time and are not to be rushed. I have learned to embrace the nicknames I have either earned or those that were thrust upon me from those I never expected to do such.
It is also always amusing to learn the nicknames of others.
It is also always amusing to learn the nicknames of others.
Written By Jaenelle
Feb. 28, 2021, 1:58 p.m.(1/11/1015 AR)
I am related to almost everyone, so it is no surprise that when Princess Deva invited me to join her at the Valardin dinner, I agreed as the Valardin's favorite cousin that I am. Sometimes it is nice to be able to enjoy an event without hosting such.
Also if anyone speaks of shields and boats they are lying. Shield make terrible boats.
Also if anyone speaks of shields and boats they are lying. Shield make terrible boats.
Written By Jaenelle
Feb. 4, 2021, 7:58 a.m.(11/16/1014 AR)
There is just something about sitting around a table with people who understand. To know at that moment it is fine to smile, to laugh when everything else around us is dark. Thank you.
Written By Jaenelle
Jan. 24, 2021, 9:21 p.m.(10/23/1014 AR)
I have been informed I need to hire someone whose sole purpose is to open doors.
Written By Jaenelle
Dec. 17, 2020, 7:16 p.m.(8/3/1014 AR)
Relationship Note on Valerius
I am not quite ready yet. Perhaps one day, in the distant future, but not today. The words are not right. The moment is not right. I am not sure if they ever will be.
Written By Jaenelle
Nov. 18, 2020, 8:55 p.m.(5/28/1014 AR)
After many prayers, and many long hours of quiet contemplation, I have decided to become a disciple within the Harlequins. There is much to thank the Queen of Endings for.
Also now that I have joined, no one is dissolving anything. That just isn't a thing I approve of. Why must you upset me, Waldo?
Also now that I have joined, no one is dissolving anything. That just isn't a thing I approve of. Why must you upset me, Waldo?
Written By Jaenelle
Sept. 22, 2020, 7:16 p.m.(1/26/1014 AR)
Relationship Note on Khanne
My dearest and most favorite person named Duchess Khanne Halfshav (whom I have given the middle name of Gladys Herbert Pebble), the best part of winter in Arx is dragging a small boat to the highest peak of the capital above the boroughs, getting in the small boat, and sliding all the way down without plummeting to your death.
It is wandering around the maze on the Velenosa grounds, completely lost in frosted covered hedges, having only foot prints of previously wrong turns as your guide.
The stillness of my favorite pool, iced over and trapped in a moment of perfection.
Arx is quite beautiful, even covered in snow.
It is wandering around the maze on the Velenosa grounds, completely lost in frosted covered hedges, having only foot prints of previously wrong turns as your guide.
The stillness of my favorite pool, iced over and trapped in a moment of perfection.
Arx is quite beautiful, even covered in snow.
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