Written By Cambria
March 31, 2018, 2:07 a.m.(6/18/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Hadrian
All this talk about fickle hearts...
Better to be without one, it sounds like. And here you tried to make it sound as though it was a bad thing.
Better to be without one, it sounds like. And here you tried to make it sound as though it was a bad thing.
Written By Cambria
March 30, 2018, 5:32 p.m.(6/16/1008 AR)
Some questions are asked in a spirit of inquiry, to obtain answers, while yet others are asked to intimidate or badger or coerce agreement with a point of view and establish the irreproachable virtue of the persons who ask them.
Written By Cambria
March 25, 2018, 5:25 p.m.(6/5/1008 AR)
A recent meeting with a Godsworn left me with this kernel of wisdom: every act made is a prayer. But to which god does the that of forgiveness fall under? It seems my less than pious side is thus shown for what it is with such a question, but such is life.
Written By Cambria
March 24, 2018, 9:12 p.m.(6/4/1008 AR)
It takes an unusually philosophic mind to accept that all one's suffering might be to no end, really, in the larger scheme of things.
Written By Cambria
March 24, 2018, 4:38 p.m.(6/3/1008 AR)
You live life and you begin to realize that not every path is well trod, that not every path is set out with even pavestones and unambiguous signs.
Written By Cambria
March 18, 2018, 2:14 p.m.(5/19/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Terese
House Mazetti is happy to assist its friends and allies when and where it is able. The sword, so wonderfully named Wyrmclaw, is a gift we were glad to give to her Highness, princess Terese. More, we are only too humbled by her valor and generosity of spirit. She is a shining beacon to all of what a dragon of Valardin represents. I am certain her own House could not be more proud.
Written By Cambria
March 18, 2018, 2:46 a.m.(5/18/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Hadrian
You can win even when you lose. Because, even in losing, you might still succeed in making your point. In saying you refuse the way they want it.
Written By Cambria
March 13, 2018, 9:06 p.m.(5/10/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Theron
Give them the story they want you to.
Written By Cambria
March 8, 2018, 10:38 p.m.(4/28/1008 AR)
I should like to follow up on something Archduchess Eleyna recently wrote of, concerning children and the sins of their parents:
Just as no one can choose to whom they are born, neither can anyone choose which culture to be born into, nor can they be blamed for how that culture evolved in past centuries.
Whatever we wish to achieve in the future, it must begin by knowing where we are in the present - not where we wish we were, or where we wish others to think we are, but where we are in fact.
Just as no one can choose to whom they are born, neither can anyone choose which culture to be born into, nor can they be blamed for how that culture evolved in past centuries.
Whatever we wish to achieve in the future, it must begin by knowing where we are in the present - not where we wish we were, or where we wish others to think we are, but where we are in fact.
Written By Cambria
March 7, 2018, 8:26 p.m.(4/26/1008 AR)
It has recently come to my attention that there are people in this world that think babies are delivered by faerie dragons from--
Well, the where is not important, all things considered.
I did not have it in my heart to tell them otherwise, though. The light shining in their eyes was so fervent and bright, so genuine. I think that they must really wish to see this spectacle. And you know what?
Everyone should be allowed to dream.
Well, the where is not important, all things considered.
I did not have it in my heart to tell them otherwise, though. The light shining in their eyes was so fervent and bright, so genuine. I think that they must really wish to see this spectacle. And you know what?
Everyone should be allowed to dream.
Written By Cambria
March 5, 2018, 8:51 p.m.(4/22/1008 AR)
There seems to be, quite within reason, a good deal of journals these past few days written to, or for, loved ones. Whether it comes from the one departing, or is the one that must stay behind - sometimes even from those travelling together or travelling apart! I, too, have loved ones leaving Arx for the fight, but they are my relatives and so the sort of love I am referring to does not apply here.
While I of course pray that my family returns home safe and sound, and send with them all my well-wishes and hopes, the intent of this journal is for a rumination on love, and what I might say were I in the no doubt heart-wrenching position of so many men and women:
I do understand that you can look into someone's eyes, and suddenly know that life will be impossible without them. Know that their voice can make your heart miss a beat and that their company is all your happiness can ever desire and that their absence will leave your soul alone, bereft and lost.
While I of course pray that my family returns home safe and sound, and send with them all my well-wishes and hopes, the intent of this journal is for a rumination on love, and what I might say were I in the no doubt heart-wrenching position of so many men and women:
I do understand that you can look into someone's eyes, and suddenly know that life will be impossible without them. Know that their voice can make your heart miss a beat and that their company is all your happiness can ever desire and that their absence will leave your soul alone, bereft and lost.
Written By Cambria
March 3, 2018, 9:12 p.m.(4/18/1008 AR)
As recent events have proved to me, seeking is not the same as finding, and finding is not the same as succeeding.
Written By Cambria
March 2, 2018, 8:12 p.m.(4/16/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Giulio
Things have only just begun.
Written By Cambria
March 1, 2018, 8:38 p.m.(4/14/1008 AR)
It takes considerable knowledge just to realize the extent of your own ignorance.
Written By Cambria
Feb. 26, 2018, 7:41 p.m.(4/8/1008 AR)
Fear, n. A sense of the total depravity of the immediate future.
Written By Cambria
Feb. 25, 2018, 2:48 p.m.(4/5/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Hadrian
Really, now, Marquis? I just so happened to overhear Flora telling Charity how much she would LOVE seeing you, shirtless and...dare I say it? Oh, I do so dare. One must be scandalized now and again...
Sweaty and covered in dirt.
Charity agreed, of course. With a titter, in fact. Then together they giggled about how they could offer to draw you a bath and give you a massage thereafter.
But I guess you do not really want to transform that sunken little bird's chest of yours. And oh, as my uncle noted, once you creep into the thirties, of which you are not far from, you start to get this bit of paunch at your gut. It isn't as if I have to look at it, so I am really not that concerned.
Sweaty and covered in dirt.
Charity agreed, of course. With a titter, in fact. Then together they giggled about how they could offer to draw you a bath and give you a massage thereafter.
But I guess you do not really want to transform that sunken little bird's chest of yours. And oh, as my uncle noted, once you creep into the thirties, of which you are not far from, you start to get this bit of paunch at your gut. It isn't as if I have to look at it, so I am really not that concerned.
Written By Cambria
Feb. 25, 2018, 2:33 p.m.(4/5/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Daemon
Sir Daemon,
While I do not often use the white journals as a means of communication to others, I am making an exception in this case: I will indeed accept hugs from you. I may even be persuaded into giving you hugs. After all (please pay attention to the following statement, Theron), we do still take our morning walks, even if they have become you power-walking far, far ahead of me and then politely waiting for me to catch up after so many leagues.
They are leagues, right?
With a mental hug,
C.
While I do not often use the white journals as a means of communication to others, I am making an exception in this case: I will indeed accept hugs from you. I may even be persuaded into giving you hugs. After all (please pay attention to the following statement, Theron), we do still take our morning walks, even if they have become you power-walking far, far ahead of me and then politely waiting for me to catch up after so many leagues.
They are leagues, right?
With a mental hug,
C.
Written By Cambria
Feb. 25, 2018, 2:15 p.m.(4/5/1008 AR)
For quite some time my husband and I have settled disputes with words, agreements, and when necessary taking the knees out from beneath our social opponents...
...I recognize now that I can not be so focused in my methods of enacting my will across the Compact. I've always been surrounded by capable swordsmen, but I've never taken up a weapon myself. That will be changed, I will take up the sword, the spear, perhaps even the glaive so favored by my people, and begin training. To ensure that when the time comes, when words fail, my blade will be able to see what I want come to pass.
Especially now that I know that if I mur- *the ink here is blotted out, and the writer begins anew.* If I slay someone in self defense, all I need do is say a few prayers, pay a fine, and find myself free to go.
I have convinced the Marquis to join me in this martial endeavor, as he has some skills already with the sword, even if he has allowed those skills to grow a bit rusty. I am told this will be excellent bonding time, and it was even confirmed, if only inadvertently, by a one master Voss who informed me he intended two people to spar and instead they ended up falling in love. I do not expect love, but I certainly would never use this as a way of taking out all my frustrations on the Marquis with a deadly weapon. Any rumors one may have heard about my breaking his wrist are just that, and foul besides!
It was an accident.
...I recognize now that I can not be so focused in my methods of enacting my will across the Compact. I've always been surrounded by capable swordsmen, but I've never taken up a weapon myself. That will be changed, I will take up the sword, the spear, perhaps even the glaive so favored by my people, and begin training. To ensure that when the time comes, when words fail, my blade will be able to see what I want come to pass.
Especially now that I know that if I mur- *the ink here is blotted out, and the writer begins anew.* If I slay someone in self defense, all I need do is say a few prayers, pay a fine, and find myself free to go.
I have convinced the Marquis to join me in this martial endeavor, as he has some skills already with the sword, even if he has allowed those skills to grow a bit rusty. I am told this will be excellent bonding time, and it was even confirmed, if only inadvertently, by a one master Voss who informed me he intended two people to spar and instead they ended up falling in love. I do not expect love, but I certainly would never use this as a way of taking out all my frustrations on the Marquis with a deadly weapon. Any rumors one may have heard about my breaking his wrist are just that, and foul besides!
It was an accident.
Written By Cambria
Feb. 24, 2018, 1:12 p.m.(4/3/1008 AR)
Seldom do people think things through foolishly. More often, they do not bother to think things through at all, so that even those we recognize as highly intelligent can reach untenable conclusions because their knowledge means little if it is not deployed and applied.
Written By Cambria
Feb. 24, 2018, 12:16 a.m.(4/2/1008 AR)
It is hard to imagine a more stupid or more dangerous way of making decisions than by putting decisions in the hands of people who pay no price for being wrong.
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