Written By Carmen
March 25, 2021, 10:06 a.m.(3/4/1015 AR)
Back in town a few days, already seen so many new faces. So far everyone has been polite and (more imporantly) smart. I just cannot suffer fools. How long before I lose my temper again because of someone else's stupidity? Anger has already cost me too many friends. It's made me too many enemies, too many bad first impressions, though I'm not sure I care what idiots think of me.
It's only a matter of time before some idiot pisses me off and I lose it again. I guess I'll just have to do my best to keep it together. At least booze helps.
Written By Carmen
Nov. 15, 2020, 5:39 p.m.(5/22/1014 AR)
What can I do. Continue to wait? Or maybe enlist on my own.
Written By Carmen
Dec. 22, 2019, 12:19 a.m.(6/3/1012 AR)
Silk comes from the coccoons of a worm that eats mulberry leaves or something.
Where does STEELSILK come from?
Written By Carmen
Dec. 16, 2019, 1:29 a.m.(5/19/1012 AR)
Written By Carmen
March 31, 2019, 7:31 a.m.(11/3/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Venturo
If I have a care for a person and I'm to see that person well and soundly sloshed for the first time, may the gods melt my eyeballs if I give them cider to do it.
I'm hurt to the bottom of my mercenary _soul_ right now.
Written By Carmen
Feb. 7, 2019, 6:36 a.m.(7/11/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Audric
Written By Carmen
Jan. 16, 2019, 9:34 a.m.(5/15/1010 AR)
I put an arrow through the throat of a woman that turned one of my people into red goop. If you want to blame some spring rheumatism, fine, but I find my knees aren't feeling so penitent right now.
And I'm sick to death of being lectured for keeping secrets by the people keeping secrets. A little daylight would do us all good.
Written By Carmen
Jan. 13, 2019, 11:21 p.m.(5/9/1010 AR)
Written By Carmen
Jan. 11, 2019, 8:01 p.m.(5/5/1010 AR)
I'm not saying training would have helped in all of this. I wasn't there (and that's a whole other problem). But I hope people know they can learn, if they want to - and they should. It's a dangerous world.
Written By Carmen
Jan. 6, 2019, 11:55 a.m.(4/22/1010 AR)
Written By Carmen
Jan. 6, 2019, 11:23 a.m.(4/22/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Joscelin
Written By Carmen
Dec. 30, 2018, 8:04 p.m.(4/9/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Violet
Written By Carmen
Dec. 17, 2018, 8:51 a.m.(3/9/1010 AR)
Good news, I guess, is that we didn't see anything too terrible at the hospital from the snow. Some cuts and bruises on account of people being disoriented, a lot of vomit. You hand them a bucket, some water, some bread and tell them to sit still. They don't listen, which you knew that they wouldn't. You do it anyway because it's the only thing you have. It's a gods damned farse. These aren't soldiers. They're people. Normal, everyday civilians not doing anything but living. The whole world is sideways, and all you can do is hope that the people who know how to fix it, do.
If you're one of them: Thanks. Please help. In the meantime I'm substituting alcohol for water because that's a great idea.
(You know what works best on bruises? Snow. You know what I can't put on bruises today because it's green and acidy?
Seriously. Make it stop.)
Written By Carmen
Dec. 14, 2018, 9:42 p.m.(3/5/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Violet
Of course, I'm still going to try to win the next one, too.
Written By Carmen
Dec. 12, 2018, 10 a.m.(2/28/1010 AR)
We have no shortage of smart people thinking hard on leadership, even as I still can't explain what it is. I know it when I see it, sure. But it's a giant bucket. Getting people to want to do what you want them to do. Picking a path. Solving problems. Growing good people. How you talk and what you say while you're doing it.
How someone thinks about the question and gets to an answer is almost as interesting as where they end up. In sort-of-short, this has been great, better than I had a right to expect, and I'm not even halfway through the list of people I need to get back in touch with. If I were a writer, I'd note everything down for others. As it is, I'll count myself a lucky and (I hope) worthy student.
(Note: if you are reading this and are one of the people I haven't been back in touch with? I haven't forgotten you. Thank you.)
Written By Carmen
Dec. 7, 2018, 10:32 p.m.(2/19/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Joscelin
When we talked about doing "contracted services", I didn't know you meant it quite so literal.
Written By Carmen
Dec. 6, 2018, 8:37 a.m.(2/15/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Sparte
I'm serious. You can't make someone be kind when kindness means "not silent". Can't make people do most things, as point of fact, no matter how much you poke and prod. They get a say, even if it's to say naught. So drink or throw things or be not silent to someone in need or whatever else helps you deal with it.
Assuming, you know, you've told her or him there's a problem instead of meandering over it here. Not to say there is a problem. We're just talking in a general way about kindness or some such.
Written By Carmen
Dec. 3, 2018, 8:02 a.m.(2/9/1010 AR)
Adora and Gilroy: No.
Written By Carmen
Nov. 28, 2018, 11:50 a.m.(1/27/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Audric
Thanks for taking the time to correct my understanding. I think I'm squared away now.
Written By Carmen
Nov. 28, 2018, 12:31 a.m.(1/26/1010 AR)
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