Written By Shard
Sept. 16, 2017, 4:13 p.m.(3/22/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Audric
Written By Shard
Sept. 10, 2017, 3:37 a.m.(3/9/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Merek
Written By Shard
Sept. 7, 2017, 12:48 a.m.(2/28/1007 AR)
I didn't kill for any gods today and while I'm not dancing on any corpses, I'm not in the slightest bit fucking ashamed of what I did either. You called it a culling, and that's exactly what it fucking was, because that's exactly what it needed to be.
Written By Shard
Sept. 7, 2017, 12:02 a.m.(2/28/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Sparte
If you have a problem following other people's orders when it comes to combat, what the fuck are you doing on a mission in which lives depend on it?
Written By Shard
Sept. 5, 2017, 12:52 p.m.(2/25/1007 AR)
And some it seems like every last fucking one of them has drawn your gods-damned number, and you spend hours after the battle is done getting an arrowhead cut out of your back and the wound burned shut.
Considering what happened, I'm fucking lucky. I'll be fine, with just another scar to show for it. It would be another story without even the leather armor and the cloak I had been wearing. Never ever get cocky in a fight, but particularly when there's still an archer on the field.
Written By Shard
Sept. 4, 2017, 4:56 a.m.(2/22/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Calarian
I have been an extremely loud voice in the preparation for this mission on behalf of the Abandoned. What's done is done. From what I've heard since, the right call was made. For that matter, you and others talked down at least some of those who actually did have a choice, and you somehow managed it in the heat of battle. Those you didn't? They had a choice too. They chose.
I'm confident that there was never going to be a better outcome to this encounter. I suspect if we hadn't caught them mid-hunt, you would have had even less success in convincing anyone to defect, because their Writ-bound leaders would not have been distracted by other prey.
Written By Shard
Sept. 3, 2017, 12:53 p.m.(2/21/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Preston
Written By Shard
Sept. 3, 2017, 2:27 a.m.(2/20/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Harlan
Where a wolf hunt fails is when the herd refuses to run. A herd that refuses to run, but merely circles to face the pack, with its weaker, smaller members protected in the middle, presenting a strong, united front, cannot be harried and split apart. A herd that refuses to run does not show its weaknesses to the pack. A pack will snap and snarl and try to get them to flee, sometimes for hours at a time, but eventually, the herd that stands strong will outlast a hunt and the pack will move on to easier, weaker prey.
If you must think of your enemies as wolves, then think of this mission as circling the herd.
Written By Shard
Sept. 3, 2017, 1:46 a.m.(2/20/1007 AR)
That's a good thing, though, because if they don't die, they're likely to stay committed to whatever their fucking awful decision was. Most people will learn from their mistakes; but these people never, ever do.
I ran into at least one today. Hopefully there wasn't two of them.
Written By Shard
Aug. 29, 2017, 2:07 a.m.(2/10/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Petal
Oh, I'm sure the prayer wasn't comfortable, but it's about the nicest fucking version of it there ever could be. That's war. That's what happens when villages get raided. That's what happens when tribes get destroyed, even when it's a tribe that absolutely, in every way, without any possible argument from anyone decent, has it coming. And how often does that happen, I wonder?
Seems about right that the reaction here is that a bunch of them get mortally offended at some seamstress who seems physically incapable of raising her voice or showing a glimmer of temper for daring to ask their goddess to be good to them and maybe, possibly, if she has the time, to try to get them to stop killing people who don't need killing quite so much.
Written By Shard
Aug. 27, 2017, 11:56 p.m.(2/8/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Blacktongue
No, these people are the ones that walk up and start prodding and pulling at me. They poke. They insinuate. Sometimes they demand or mock. Smile! Laugh! Be happy! Like I'm a dog trained to respond to their commands. The intent is obvious: I'm supposed to make them more comfortable. Pretending is perfectly acceptable, so long as they can't tell the difference.
I'm not interested in that, and never have been. That's why my job involves killing people for money, instead of making friends at court.
Written By Shard
Aug. 26, 2017, 9:09 p.m.(2/6/1007 AR)
Written By Shard
Aug. 25, 2017, 12:09 p.m.(2/3/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Lou
I mean that question in all sincerity, I've found no god or his followers more personally baffling since coming to Arx than Petrichor.
Written By Shard
Aug. 24, 2017, 2:52 p.m.(2/1/1007 AR)
There are two people that, every now and then, my mind tries to make into heroes. It's easy, because those people are dead, and I never actually knew them, so I can invent all sorts of ridiculous, stupid stories to turn them into whatever I want. When I was young, I did this all the time. I wanted them to be heroes. I made them into the most outlandish, overblown heroes you can possibly imagine. I probably needed them to be. I don't do that any more, because I'm not a child. Those people weren't heroes, they were people. Now and then I have to remind myself of that.
There's nothing wrong with stories as long as we remember the difference. But don't turn people into stories, especially if they're living. And don't make the mistake of thinking of yourself as one. That's a quick way of ending up dead, or insufferable.
Written By Shard
Aug. 23, 2017, 12:20 p.m.(1/27/1007 AR)
Obviously, words, even these kinds of words, are cheap. Actions are what matter. What happens when good intentions run up against resistance is what matters. What happens when all of this gets hard and they get pushback from their own people is what matters. But it's so different from everything I've seen and come to expect so far that I have to give credit where it's due. So I'll give them this, without reserve. My expectations have been shattered in the best way possible. That doesn't happen often, and never before when it comes to this. So, okay, Grayson. Now. Go, prove you mean it.
Written By Shard
Aug. 22, 2017, 11:23 p.m.(1/26/1007 AR)
*the rest of the page is ripped out.*
Written By Shard
Aug. 21, 2017, 6:14 a.m.(1/22/1007 AR)
The Compact is obsessed with its records, so let this small journal state that on this day, at this hour, my first decision was to get slowly but thoroughly and very decisively drunk.
Written By Shard
Aug. 18, 2017, 12:19 a.m.(1/16/1007 AR)
As for what happened, what else can be said that won't be said in a thousand other journals? I didn't witness it, so I don't have my own account. It happened, read it from those who saw for themselves. And if you're willing to believe that every single Thraxian ship--and only Thraxian ships--sinking at the exact same time and taking most of their crews down with them in the middle of the day is a completely ordinary coincidence that can be entirely explained away by 'bad cargo', then I think you're an impossible idiot and you probably think I'm a mad fool, so hearty congratulations to us both.
Written By Shard
Aug. 13, 2017, 5:42 p.m.(1/7/1007 AR)
It's not like that here, and it leaves me feeling constantly twitchy and restless, like there are things I'm meant to be doing that I'm not. It's not that I don't have work flowing out of my ears, that I can't keep myself busy, but that it's not the right work. Working numbers on a page, running contracts and keeping the others in line doesn't feel like Winter's work, and it gets under my skin in ways that drive me a little mad. I don't sleep well in the winter since coming to Arx. It's both too quiet and too noisy. Too warm. My stomach is too full--work that one out. Even when we're out on contract, it doesn't feel quite right.
I'll be glad when spring comes again. I hate winters since coming to the city.
Written By Shard
Aug. 11, 2017, 1:41 a.m.(1/2/1007 AR)
I suspect, though, it's just another canyon's difference in perspective. A little like the practice of marking the turn of the year on a specific day, something I'm still not entirely used to, except with a lot more effort, money, and work hours thrown in, instead of a few parties, extra sentimentality and a lot of drinking.
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