Written By Shadow
May 20, 2017, 6:25 p.m.(7/2/1006 AR)
~Written in Oathlands Shav~
Tonight I am taking part in some form of auction before I leave for my hunt, This should.. be interesting. I do not know what exactly to expect only that it is to help a friend with one of their hopes.
Tonight I am taking part in some form of auction before I leave for my hunt, This should.. be interesting. I do not know what exactly to expect only that it is to help a friend with one of their hopes.
Written By Shadow
May 17, 2017, 1:50 p.m.(6/23/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Lark
~Written in Northlands Shav~
I received word after hearing of the proclamation from the one I called friend and named Bird Princess, She has decided to sever all ties with me and like so many others in this city that spoke words of friendship has since turned their back and abandoned me. Perhaps this is why the spirits kept me so long on the mountain alone. To weather the storm that is the city and the ways of her people. Or maybe they are simply cruel and find amusement in it. I have never before questioned the will of the spirits near as much as I do now. She seemed so different when I met her and when we would meet. I saw something different in her, and perhaps it is still there. But if it is I do not see it in this moment, In this gathering shadow of the backs that are turning against me because of my honesty with Freja. I only wish she had asked to hear my side, to know my feelings and see the truth in my eyes. I shall treasure the moments we shared and the friendship that we seemed to have. Maybe someday she will ask to know what really happened.
I received word after hearing of the proclamation from the one I called friend and named Bird Princess, She has decided to sever all ties with me and like so many others in this city that spoke words of friendship has since turned their back and abandoned me. Perhaps this is why the spirits kept me so long on the mountain alone. To weather the storm that is the city and the ways of her people. Or maybe they are simply cruel and find amusement in it. I have never before questioned the will of the spirits near as much as I do now. She seemed so different when I met her and when we would meet. I saw something different in her, and perhaps it is still there. But if it is I do not see it in this moment, In this gathering shadow of the backs that are turning against me because of my honesty with Freja. I only wish she had asked to hear my side, to know my feelings and see the truth in my eyes. I shall treasure the moments we shared and the friendship that we seemed to have. Maybe someday she will ask to know what really happened.
Written By Shadow
May 16, 2017, 3:08 p.m.(6/21/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Samantha
~Written in Northlands Shav~
Her views on the abandoned as they call them here in the compact are very much true. Those fears and concerns were part of what kept me secluded on the mountain for so many years. I came down because the spirits guided me to. The path has not been an easy one but it has been mine.
Her words speak volumes as to how much she strives to understand those outside of the compact and those who recently or may soon desire to join with it and give their knee much like I did. And much like so many others have done before me.
Her words alone would earn my respect not that it holds much weight in this world I find myself now living in. But just the same they would.. and they have.
Her views on the abandoned as they call them here in the compact are very much true. Those fears and concerns were part of what kept me secluded on the mountain for so many years. I came down because the spirits guided me to. The path has not been an easy one but it has been mine.
Her words speak volumes as to how much she strives to understand those outside of the compact and those who recently or may soon desire to join with it and give their knee much like I did. And much like so many others have done before me.
Her words alone would earn my respect not that it holds much weight in this world I find myself now living in. But just the same they would.. and they have.
Written By Shadow
May 16, 2017, 2:03 p.m.(6/21/1006 AR)
~Written in Northlands Shav~
When Freja banished me, I felt very much lost. Lost without my honor. For a long time it has been all that I have had that is a constant. I have no tribe like so many others, No family to speak of. It was always my honor, my word and the spirits. I am thankful for those who reminded me of my word, and that just because she stripped my honor away that I did not have to live as such.. That I still had given my word and made promises. And so, I will keep my word, and fulfill those promises.
Freja believes that my wish to leave the Redrain fealty when I had asked to be released was because of a crush, a desire and nothing more. She could not be more wrong and she did not even care to get to the root of the matter before sending me away in banishment.
Her blindness to the truth is unbecoming a voice but I do not think there is much that can be done with words to show her the truths. My desire to be released from my oath was to do with the way of the Northerners in the city by and large. I have seen more kindness and friendship from those of other places far from my homelands and our ways than I ever saw from those of the north here. It is sad she did not listen and hear anything but what she wished and wanted to. That is not to say all from the north were cold towards me or looked through me. But many of them did.
She asked me my reasons, And in the end would not even hear them out. It makes one wonder why she asked me to be honest if all she wanted was soft spoken words and untrue views.
When Freja banished me, I felt very much lost. Lost without my honor. For a long time it has been all that I have had that is a constant. I have no tribe like so many others, No family to speak of. It was always my honor, my word and the spirits. I am thankful for those who reminded me of my word, and that just because she stripped my honor away that I did not have to live as such.. That I still had given my word and made promises. And so, I will keep my word, and fulfill those promises.
Freja believes that my wish to leave the Redrain fealty when I had asked to be released was because of a crush, a desire and nothing more. She could not be more wrong and she did not even care to get to the root of the matter before sending me away in banishment.
Her blindness to the truth is unbecoming a voice but I do not think there is much that can be done with words to show her the truths. My desire to be released from my oath was to do with the way of the Northerners in the city by and large. I have seen more kindness and friendship from those of other places far from my homelands and our ways than I ever saw from those of the north here. It is sad she did not listen and hear anything but what she wished and wanted to. That is not to say all from the north were cold towards me or looked through me. But many of them did.
She asked me my reasons, And in the end would not even hear them out. It makes one wonder why she asked me to be honest if all she wanted was soft spoken words and untrue views.
Written By Shadow
May 16, 2017, 9:17 a.m.(6/21/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Armel
~Written in Northlands Shav~
You may be able to read this chicken scratch yet you fail to spell words in your native tongue properly. Even I can spell information in Arvani..
~Written in Arvani~
Information..
Information...
Information....
Information.....
~written in Northlands Shav~
Also what illness plagued you that made you still a child when you were 16? Is the city truly so different that age is not manhood but still viewed as being a child?
You may be able to read this chicken scratch yet you fail to spell words in your native tongue properly. Even I can spell information in Arvani..
~Written in Arvani~
Information..
Information...
Information....
Information.....
~written in Northlands Shav~
Also what illness plagued you that made you still a child when you were 16? Is the city truly so different that age is not manhood but still viewed as being a child?
Written By Shadow
May 15, 2017, 10:04 p.m.(6/20/1006 AR)
~Written in Northlands Shav~
This is to serve as my last will and testament.
With my home lands removed from me and the threat of hunt if I return to them I give these words to serve as last instructions before the spirits reclaim me and I return to the wilds and the lands where I come from on the winds and in ash..
My beloved pup and the blessing of the wolf shall go to Petal Penrose. May she long care for him and may he serve her well protecting her as I will not be there to.
The contents of my shop and my yurt I gift to Reese Grayson, Princess of roses and Pink Ribbon as I fondly call her. May she keep what gives her fond memories and use what is left to help those abandoned like me that give knee and are lost within the city but need the kindness of a stranger.. The kindness she showed to me.
And to Freja Redrain, I gift the knowledge that it was her words and inability to understand the issue, Her failures as a voice and mind of reason that have brought about this. The blood that stains the ground and the fire that consumes my flesh was her doing..
This is to serve as my last will and testament.
With my home lands removed from me and the threat of hunt if I return to them I give these words to serve as last instructions before the spirits reclaim me and I return to the wilds and the lands where I come from on the winds and in ash..
My beloved pup and the blessing of the wolf shall go to Petal Penrose. May she long care for him and may he serve her well protecting her as I will not be there to.
The contents of my shop and my yurt I gift to Reese Grayson, Princess of roses and Pink Ribbon as I fondly call her. May she keep what gives her fond memories and use what is left to help those abandoned like me that give knee and are lost within the city but need the kindness of a stranger.. The kindness she showed to me.
And to Freja Redrain, I gift the knowledge that it was her words and inability to understand the issue, Her failures as a voice and mind of reason that have brought about this. The blood that stains the ground and the fire that consumes my flesh was her doing..
Written By Shadow
May 7, 2017, 8:59 p.m.(6/4/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Sasha
~Written in Northlands Shav~
This one came into the shop looking to get a dress and lowcut boots. I helped her and now she has asked that I teach her my language. I am not sure about this, But I have agreed to help so long as she also learns some of our ways. She seems to want to explore and believes it will help her, I guess only the spirits know if she will do well in this path. But perhaps she is made for it.
This one came into the shop looking to get a dress and lowcut boots. I helped her and now she has asked that I teach her my language. I am not sure about this, But I have agreed to help so long as she also learns some of our ways. She seems to want to explore and believes it will help her, I guess only the spirits know if she will do well in this path. But perhaps she is made for it.
Written By Shadow
May 3, 2017, 9:49 p.m.(5/23/1006 AR)
~Written in Northlands Shav~
I have the last of what is needed gathered so I can give woads to those few who have expressed interest in private to me. Surprising none of them have been from the north. Though perhaps they were all seen to in the large woad ceremony.
I have the last of what is needed gathered so I can give woads to those few who have expressed interest in private to me. Surprising none of them have been from the north. Though perhaps they were all seen to in the large woad ceremony.
Written By Shadow
May 3, 2017, 9:47 p.m.(5/23/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Kahlana
~Written in Northlands Shav~
She made a deal to pay off the last bit on a blade, She swears plenty but she seems excited and happy about the smiling skull she bought. May it serve her well.
She made a deal to pay off the last bit on a blade, She swears plenty but she seems excited and happy about the smiling skull she bought. May it serve her well.
Written By Shadow
May 3, 2017, 9 p.m.(5/23/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Joslyn
~Written in Northlands Shav~
I am not sure if it is because of my poor skills with the words of the city dwellers and their.. tongue of trades and lies or if it is simply the fact that when she looks to me and my messages and sees nothing but a savage. My help was offered, and dismissed. My request ignored.
I am not sure if it is because of my poor skills with the words of the city dwellers and their.. tongue of trades and lies or if it is simply the fact that when she looks to me and my messages and sees nothing but a savage. My help was offered, and dismissed. My request ignored.
Written By Shadow
May 3, 2017, 8:56 p.m.(5/23/1006 AR)
~Written in Northlands Shav~
I have gathered those I could to help defend the city, Others like me that come from the wilds and have bent knee in the face of the darkness outside the gates. Those who know that it is not simply a fight for the compact and for those within the city but one for our blood far beyond these walls and the spirits of the wilds.
I hope that we are ready for the fight ahead, I am not a man who commands and yet here I have gathered these others to fight with me.. I hope only that I can help see them through the trouble ahead and that I am able to protect those who I call friend when the time comes..
When the need is there and greatest.
I have gathered those I could to help defend the city, Others like me that come from the wilds and have bent knee in the face of the darkness outside the gates. Those who know that it is not simply a fight for the compact and for those within the city but one for our blood far beyond these walls and the spirits of the wilds.
I hope that we are ready for the fight ahead, I am not a man who commands and yet here I have gathered these others to fight with me.. I hope only that I can help see them through the trouble ahead and that I am able to protect those who I call friend when the time comes..
When the need is there and greatest.
Written By Shadow
May 3, 2017, 8:54 p.m.(5/23/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Silas
~Written in Northlands Shav~
If only our first true meeting and discussion could have been under better circumstances. I am sorry not because of what I said about your brother the oath breaker but because of your loss. It is never easy.
If only our first true meeting and discussion could have been under better circumstances. I am sorry not because of what I said about your brother the oath breaker but because of your loss. It is never easy.
Written By Shadow
May 3, 2017, 8:52 p.m.(5/23/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Lark
~Written in Northlands Shav~
She has taken me on as her Protege, From what I understand this can be a very good thing for me. I thought it best to accept given the friendship between us as well as the numerous items she purchases from me and has commissioned. I look forward to seeing where this path leads..
She has taken me on as her Protege, From what I understand this can be a very good thing for me. I thought it best to accept given the friendship between us as well as the numerous items she purchases from me and has commissioned. I look forward to seeing where this path leads..
Written By Shadow
May 3, 2017, 8:49 p.m.(5/23/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Aiden
~Written in Northlands Shav~
It isn't the fact that you believed that I would be capable or guilty of murder that makes me question if there is friendship there or can be..
It is the fact that rather than coming to me and asking first you decided to go to those who have much emotion invested in such things.
It is that you did not simply ask me as friends before asking me as Questioning.. as interrogator.
It isn't the fact that you believed that I would be capable or guilty of murder that makes me question if there is friendship there or can be..
It is the fact that rather than coming to me and asking first you decided to go to those who have much emotion invested in such things.
It is that you did not simply ask me as friends before asking me as Questioning.. as interrogator.
Written By Shadow
April 29, 2017, 1:35 p.m.(5/13/1006 AR)
~written in Northlands Shav~
I do not know if this is madness or not anymore, The line of the path becomes blurred.
Is this truly the way of the city? Have i become so lost?
Or maybe it is what I have taken in within the last year..
But I still do not hear their whispered words, Do not feel their touch.
I feel as if they are there, But without hearing.. without feeling..
How can I be sure? Are they truly there just out of reach whispering and waiting..
Or have they left me, Have they left this place truly.
My belief remains strong as ever, It is my hope that begins to wane.
I do not know if this is madness or not anymore, The line of the path becomes blurred.
Is this truly the way of the city? Have i become so lost?
Or maybe it is what I have taken in within the last year..
But I still do not hear their whispered words, Do not feel their touch.
I feel as if they are there, But without hearing.. without feeling..
How can I be sure? Are they truly there just out of reach whispering and waiting..
Or have they left me, Have they left this place truly.
My belief remains strong as ever, It is my hope that begins to wane.
Written By Shadow
April 24, 2017, 12:03 p.m.(5/2/1006 AR)
~Written in Northlands Shav~
Last night, A night a beauty and of darkness.
The wedding of the Princess I call Pink Ribbon was last night, She was a sight in her dress of white. A beauty to her that I have seldom seen or encountered even with all the wonders of the wilds and the spirits..
She married the Lazy Prince, Who I managed to meet before the wedding as he was readying for it. I told him that if he hurts her that noble or not I will come for him and I will make a pouch from his root and stone. The man laughed it off and clapped me on the shoulder, I am not sure if he thinks I was joking.. But I wasn't. I care about the Pink Ribbon and do not wish to see her hurt, Don't wish to see her pained.
When they kissed it became too much for me, I tried to leave but as I was and freeing myself of that soft shirt that they favor here in the city and from what I have been told in the south pup and the other animals began to react strangely.
Once I realized something was wrong I tried to get to Pink Ribbon and her new husband, her chosen but the ground broke beneath me. It was a strange sensation, To feel the ground give way and start to slide down. I thought perhaps that was it for me.
In that moment, that one moment where you find yourself tumbling towards the darkness and the unknown that lurks within I tried with all I had to call to the spirits, To call to the thunderborn but none would listen, None even whispered to me. This has not ever happened that I can remember, at least not to me. This.. is troubling, deeply so. I tried to call on them to protect Pink Ribbon and others, accepting in that moment that I might fall.. But even then.. They did not listen, they did not whisper.
The spirits have abandoned me, What sin I have made against them I do not know. Perhaps I have eaten too many sins and that is why they no longer wish to hear me.. no longer whisper to me. But I ate those sins so others would know peace, Would be once again one with the wilds and the spirits.. And now.. This.
I do not know what I did to anger the spirits so, To make them. My only family forsake me. I was always told I was born of them, that my father was thunderborn. Now I am not sure, Or maybe that is my sin.. That I am not of either world and they now see that.
Soon after I tried to fight the thing with my fists, It did not go well. The Dark one hitting me through a few wedding tables and leaving me with wood sticking from me in places..
I do not what hurts more, The spirits abandoning me or my body..
It was a sad night that got only worse for me.. I do not know what path is mine now.. I am lost.
Last night, A night a beauty and of darkness.
The wedding of the Princess I call Pink Ribbon was last night, She was a sight in her dress of white. A beauty to her that I have seldom seen or encountered even with all the wonders of the wilds and the spirits..
She married the Lazy Prince, Who I managed to meet before the wedding as he was readying for it. I told him that if he hurts her that noble or not I will come for him and I will make a pouch from his root and stone. The man laughed it off and clapped me on the shoulder, I am not sure if he thinks I was joking.. But I wasn't. I care about the Pink Ribbon and do not wish to see her hurt, Don't wish to see her pained.
When they kissed it became too much for me, I tried to leave but as I was and freeing myself of that soft shirt that they favor here in the city and from what I have been told in the south pup and the other animals began to react strangely.
Once I realized something was wrong I tried to get to Pink Ribbon and her new husband, her chosen but the ground broke beneath me. It was a strange sensation, To feel the ground give way and start to slide down. I thought perhaps that was it for me.
In that moment, that one moment where you find yourself tumbling towards the darkness and the unknown that lurks within I tried with all I had to call to the spirits, To call to the thunderborn but none would listen, None even whispered to me. This has not ever happened that I can remember, at least not to me. This.. is troubling, deeply so. I tried to call on them to protect Pink Ribbon and others, accepting in that moment that I might fall.. But even then.. They did not listen, they did not whisper.
The spirits have abandoned me, What sin I have made against them I do not know. Perhaps I have eaten too many sins and that is why they no longer wish to hear me.. no longer whisper to me. But I ate those sins so others would know peace, Would be once again one with the wilds and the spirits.. And now.. This.
I do not know what I did to anger the spirits so, To make them. My only family forsake me. I was always told I was born of them, that my father was thunderborn. Now I am not sure, Or maybe that is my sin.. That I am not of either world and they now see that.
Soon after I tried to fight the thing with my fists, It did not go well. The Dark one hitting me through a few wedding tables and leaving me with wood sticking from me in places..
I do not what hurts more, The spirits abandoning me or my body..
It was a sad night that got only worse for me.. I do not know what path is mine now.. I am lost.
Written By Shadow
April 23, 2017, 8:15 p.m.(5/1/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Ailys
~written in northaldns shav~
Princess Patch as I call her. She stitched me up and likely will need her to again. A nice woman from what I saw.
Princess Patch as I call her. She stitched me up and likely will need her to again. A nice woman from what I saw.
Written By Shadow
April 23, 2017, 8:07 p.m.(5/1/1006 AR)
~Written in Northlands shav and holding a stain here and there from spilled whiskey~
Soon I will leave to see the wedding, But I do not feel like myself. This skin..these clothes they are so strange to me. How these city folk and southerners wear these shirts I will never understand I fear. It feels nice but every movement I take I feel like I am gonna fucking tear the thing.
It is a sad day, But a good day.
Soon I will leave to see the wedding, But I do not feel like myself. This skin..these clothes they are so strange to me. How these city folk and southerners wear these shirts I will never understand I fear. It feels nice but every movement I take I feel like I am gonna fucking tear the thing.
It is a sad day, But a good day.
Written By Shadow
April 23, 2017, 12:57 p.m.(4/28/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Luca
~Written in Northlands Shav~
He is the one who is marrying the Princess I call Pink ribbon, I must find him to talk and make sure he is good. That he won't hurt her. Not sure he realizes yet that if he does title or not that I will break him. .
He is the one who is marrying the Princess I call Pink ribbon, I must find him to talk and make sure he is good. That he won't hurt her. Not sure he realizes yet that if he does title or not that I will break him. .
Written By Shadow
April 23, 2017, 12:52 p.m.(4/28/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Seva
~Written in Northlands Shav~
She is a Thrax, Just when I was begining to fear that the Thrax might only see those to be put under foot or blade when they look at the abandoned or us prodigals she makes me think different. She treated me as a person and with great kindness, and has been very helpful around the shop. And it would seem she will be my new neighbor, The smell of incense already taking to the air in a most wonderful way..
She is a Thrax, Just when I was begining to fear that the Thrax might only see those to be put under foot or blade when they look at the abandoned or us prodigals she makes me think different. She treated me as a person and with great kindness, and has been very helpful around the shop. And it would seem she will be my new neighbor, The smell of incense already taking to the air in a most wonderful way..
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