Written By Jenessa
June 8, 2020, 4:27 p.m.(6/10/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Rymarr
Prevail Through Calamity. For every Lyonesse that has come into existence since the formation of our House, these three words are deeply ingrained in both heart and mind. Never before has our motto filled my thoughts so completely. It is persistent and repetitious. My mantra.
There have been many hardships we Lyons have overcome, calamitous events survived and wars won since our foundation. We anticipate and expect, at all times, for anything and everything to go wrong, but still hold tightly to hope and the belief that we will prevail - I do, at least.
Even when the worst situation imaginable is held as a viable possibility, we are prepared to endure, to overcome, but I never saw this coming. Perhaps I should have, should have kept it in the back of my mind, that any day, any hour, it was a possibility. But I didn't. Had I done so, it might have prepared me for Rymarr's death. Instead I'm reeling from it, wondering what hit me, and how.
I'm numb. Lost. I keep repeating our motto with the hope that it will help me endure and provide me with comfort. There were six of us originally, Rymarr being the second eldest. I had three brothers, but we lost Marcorr and Dormire when I was a child, and then it was the four of us. We four endured together, and it was with Rymarr that I had the strongest bond with out of all my siblings. Now we are three.
We still had so much to do, brother. I had things yet to tell you, to share with you. I had yet to update you on my research, there is still so much, so much left undone, and I am filled with regret. I should have taken time to visit, I should have written more, and instead I was always nose deep in manuscripts and tomes, spending hours upon hours in the library or the Great Archives. I'm sorry.
You were always everything I thought a Lyonesse should be, the perfect epitome, an example that all Lyons should strive to learn from, if not become, in our own fashion. I looked up to you the most, you always had my utmost admiration and respect. I've always been tremendously proud of you, of everything you have accomplished, and to hear of your valor and heroism, of your final act in this world, I couldn’t be more proud. Some have said a legend has been born from this, and it undoubtedly has, but you've always been that sort of figure to me, since I was a child.
You were always there when I needed you. When tragedy struck after I came to Arx five years ago, and the mantle of responsibility abruptly fell on my shoulders, you were there to help me. Countless times did you offer your wisdom and guidance, gently nudging me onto the right path, many more times were you my confidant, always listening when I was troubled, angry, or distressed, and never casting any judgment on my inexperience and missteps while I was trying to settle into my role as Voice.
The world is a little less without you in it, brother, and I have simultaneously lost my best friend. I weep, knowing I'll never again have conversations with you, or hear that familiar clanking of your armor when your steps brought you to the Chateau, never again share with you the excitement when I found something of interest with my research. I will miss you, your sense of humor, and sending you pies when I might see one in the window of a shop when strolling about the city - I know you dearly loved pies.
I am beside myself with grief, but I know you wouldn't wish it, and I know that I must not falter, or let myself become overwhelmed with emotion or irrationality. It isn't our way. Your departure is acutely felt, but through this, too, I must prevail. There is work still to be done, and I promise you that I will not give up on that task. I will see it through, and I hope I can make you proud. I will miss you terribly, Rymarr, more than I can express with words, but never will you be forgotten. You truly were the greatest Lyon in our pride. I love you, brother, and we will prevail, I promise.
There have been many hardships we Lyons have overcome, calamitous events survived and wars won since our foundation. We anticipate and expect, at all times, for anything and everything to go wrong, but still hold tightly to hope and the belief that we will prevail - I do, at least.
Even when the worst situation imaginable is held as a viable possibility, we are prepared to endure, to overcome, but I never saw this coming. Perhaps I should have, should have kept it in the back of my mind, that any day, any hour, it was a possibility. But I didn't. Had I done so, it might have prepared me for Rymarr's death. Instead I'm reeling from it, wondering what hit me, and how.
I'm numb. Lost. I keep repeating our motto with the hope that it will help me endure and provide me with comfort. There were six of us originally, Rymarr being the second eldest. I had three brothers, but we lost Marcorr and Dormire when I was a child, and then it was the four of us. We four endured together, and it was with Rymarr that I had the strongest bond with out of all my siblings. Now we are three.
We still had so much to do, brother. I had things yet to tell you, to share with you. I had yet to update you on my research, there is still so much, so much left undone, and I am filled with regret. I should have taken time to visit, I should have written more, and instead I was always nose deep in manuscripts and tomes, spending hours upon hours in the library or the Great Archives. I'm sorry.
You were always everything I thought a Lyonesse should be, the perfect epitome, an example that all Lyons should strive to learn from, if not become, in our own fashion. I looked up to you the most, you always had my utmost admiration and respect. I've always been tremendously proud of you, of everything you have accomplished, and to hear of your valor and heroism, of your final act in this world, I couldn’t be more proud. Some have said a legend has been born from this, and it undoubtedly has, but you've always been that sort of figure to me, since I was a child.
You were always there when I needed you. When tragedy struck after I came to Arx five years ago, and the mantle of responsibility abruptly fell on my shoulders, you were there to help me. Countless times did you offer your wisdom and guidance, gently nudging me onto the right path, many more times were you my confidant, always listening when I was troubled, angry, or distressed, and never casting any judgment on my inexperience and missteps while I was trying to settle into my role as Voice.
The world is a little less without you in it, brother, and I have simultaneously lost my best friend. I weep, knowing I'll never again have conversations with you, or hear that familiar clanking of your armor when your steps brought you to the Chateau, never again share with you the excitement when I found something of interest with my research. I will miss you, your sense of humor, and sending you pies when I might see one in the window of a shop when strolling about the city - I know you dearly loved pies.
I am beside myself with grief, but I know you wouldn't wish it, and I know that I must not falter, or let myself become overwhelmed with emotion or irrationality. It isn't our way. Your departure is acutely felt, but through this, too, I must prevail. There is work still to be done, and I promise you that I will not give up on that task. I will see it through, and I hope I can make you proud. I will miss you terribly, Rymarr, more than I can express with words, but never will you be forgotten. You truly were the greatest Lyon in our pride. I love you, brother, and we will prevail, I promise.
Written By Jenessa
April 21, 2018, 2:39 a.m.(8/4/1008 AR)
This afternoon I managed to find a bit of time to visit the Menagerie, and it assuredly didn't disappoint. The grounds are simply beautiful and the variety of species available for viewing is astounding. Never before have I seen such exquisite creatures, and the birds in the aviary were so very lovely. I think perhaps it may end up being my favorite location within Arx. Sadly, I wasn't able to explore the Menagerie in its entirety as I had to return to the Chateau. Documents won't read themselves, you know. Ah, but the butterfly garden! I found a love for it immediately. I will certainly go back to thoroughly investigate all the exhibits, hopefully sometime soon.
Written By Jenessa
April 19, 2018, 11:42 p.m.(8/2/1008 AR)
The journey from Lyon's Redoubt to Arx was a considerable one, but it was well worth the distance traveled, just to expand my horizons and take in sights and places I have never before seen. I arrived at Lyonesse Chateau as of yesterday afternoon, and for the duration of the Marquessa's absence it has been decided that my duty and responsibility is to act as her Voice. It was a position I had not anticipated in the slightest, but I am determined to study and learn what is necessary to act in her stead. Already I have encountered several kind people who have given advice and guidance, and for their good will I am very grateful. It is my hope I will encounter many more along the way, and when time permits, venture out into the city proper to explore. I have been told the menagerie is a must-see location, but what else is out there, I wonder? I am eager to find out.
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