Written By Gaspar
March 23, 2022, 5:24 p.m.(5/2/1017 AR)
My tolerance for wine is legendary. So I know it's not to blame for the vision I beheld in the Black Fox today. Some that know me, know me to be a skeptic. Of a great many things.
Some of that changed when a figure materialized in front of me. A female...ghost? She was bedecked in armor that was rough and rent. Her uniform was terribly out of fashion for many years. I've only seen a handful of sketches in books of history that even come close to resembling it, but otherwise was completely foreign to me.
Her body was ravaged. She both moved and didn't, but came directly for me. I dare not put the words she uttered to me onto the page. I don't know what power may be in them, if such a thing is possible.
I will say this: I'm a skeptic no more.
Some of that changed when a figure materialized in front of me. A female...ghost? She was bedecked in armor that was rough and rent. Her uniform was terribly out of fashion for many years. I've only seen a handful of sketches in books of history that even come close to resembling it, but otherwise was completely foreign to me.
Her body was ravaged. She both moved and didn't, but came directly for me. I dare not put the words she uttered to me onto the page. I don't know what power may be in them, if such a thing is possible.
I will say this: I'm a skeptic no more.
Written By Gaspar
Sept. 22, 2021, 10:59 p.m.(4/3/1016 AR)
Relationship Note on Sabine
Once more I am a ship at full-sail without a rudder.
The marquessa provided purpose for me. We were united as show of good faith to the blood of Velenosa, to strengthen the bonds within the Lyceum. Most knew our marriage was duty-bound but few knew how deeply devoted we were to ensuring the other succeeded.
And this will forever be my greatest failure.
Once Lord Constantin comes of age, he will assume his rightful place as Count of the March of Iriscal. It is now the responsibility of everyone in our House, especially my own, to see he is given what he needs to succeed in the way of tutelage, experience and encouragement. He will make his House, his Sister, his Aunt and his Mother very proud. I swear this.
While the words of our dear cousin, General Piccola, are not to be taken without proper warning, I will offer no warning of my own. There will be no precursor of wrath, no herald of doom. Just the silence of finality, in whatever form is deemed most appropriate for those found responsible.
The marquessa provided purpose for me. We were united as show of good faith to the blood of Velenosa, to strengthen the bonds within the Lyceum. Most knew our marriage was duty-bound but few knew how deeply devoted we were to ensuring the other succeeded.
And this will forever be my greatest failure.
Once Lord Constantin comes of age, he will assume his rightful place as Count of the March of Iriscal. It is now the responsibility of everyone in our House, especially my own, to see he is given what he needs to succeed in the way of tutelage, experience and encouragement. He will make his House, his Sister, his Aunt and his Mother very proud. I swear this.
While the words of our dear cousin, General Piccola, are not to be taken without proper warning, I will offer no warning of my own. There will be no precursor of wrath, no herald of doom. Just the silence of finality, in whatever form is deemed most appropriate for those found responsible.
Written By Gaspar
Jan. 24, 2021, 7:45 p.m.(10/23/1014 AR)
Change. It is inevitable and yet I loathe it. At least the notion /of/ it. Every time it comes around, it almost always proves to be for the better. And more changes have come for me in recent weeks. More still come tomorrow. And the next day. And the following week. Month. Season.
The time draws near for a journey. Those that come with me increase in number at a stead pace. That makes me more hopeful that we will succeed in our purpose. And fills me with more worry. Responsibility. This has been a new concept since coming to the capital.
I hope I'm prepared for it by now.
The time draws near for a journey. Those that come with me increase in number at a stead pace. That makes me more hopeful that we will succeed in our purpose. And fills me with more worry. Responsibility. This has been a new concept since coming to the capital.
I hope I'm prepared for it by now.
Written By Gaspar
Jan. 3, 2021, 9:23 p.m.(9/9/1014 AR)
It's a wonderful thing, to celebrate with friends and family. And an even more wonderful thing to know all of the mysteries around you when other only have pieces. Thank you, friends and family. You made an otherwise ordinary evening quite spectacular.
Written By Gaspar
Dec. 27, 2020, 12:03 p.m.(8/22/1014 AR)
Direction. Purpose. I never expected to find it and I certainly never would have thought I wanted it. Now that I have it? It's all-consuming.
We approach the day, each morning brings us closer. The list of allies grows and those that are willing to help House Tessere is both humbling and admirable. Those of you that read this: you know who you are. And you have my thanks from now until my last day.
We approach the day, each morning brings us closer. The list of allies grows and those that are willing to help House Tessere is both humbling and admirable. Those of you that read this: you know who you are. And you have my thanks from now until my last day.
Written By Gaspar
Dec. 13, 2020, 8:43 p.m.(7/23/1014 AR)
Relationship Note on Mirk
I've recently had the pleasure of making an acquaintance of Lord Mirk Halfshav. The depth of this man's knowledge is astounding and he is precisely what I needed to find at exactly the right time. He's the consummate host and a wonderful conversationalist. Watch yourself, scholar. He may be primed to take your job one day.
Written By Gaspar
Dec. 3, 2020, 4:06 a.m.(7/1/1014 AR)
Time continues to pass and each day continues to surprise. For the first time perhaps in my life, it feels almost complete. I have a purpose with my wife and will sing her praises long past the time I am hoarse. Our House will prosper, thanks to her vision and direction.
Blessings continue to find me and I continue to ask what I've done to deserve them. New people come into my life and they are eagerly received. They filled a need that I've had and haven't realized. Old relationships have been reconnected. Not as they once were, perhaps, but enough so that a healing may begin. Healing from a wound that I created. It has been a wonderful few weeks.
Now, if only these dreams would stop so that I could sleep with my wife undisturbed...
Blessings continue to find me and I continue to ask what I've done to deserve them. New people come into my life and they are eagerly received. They filled a need that I've had and haven't realized. Old relationships have been reconnected. Not as they once were, perhaps, but enough so that a healing may begin. Healing from a wound that I created. It has been a wonderful few weeks.
Now, if only these dreams would stop so that I could sleep with my wife undisturbed...
Written By Gaspar
Nov. 16, 2020, 3:45 p.m.(5/24/1014 AR)
Relationship Note on Leonel
My brother and I have reunited. For two decades now, I thought he wanted nothing to with me. That's not the case. We have a lot of lost time to make up. Beware, citizens of Arx. We're a formidable force.
Written By Gaspar
March 22, 2020, 12:15 a.m.(12/20/1012 AR)
What a grand adventure on which we are about to embark.
Written By Gaspar
Feb. 21, 2020, 2:38 p.m.(10/18/1012 AR)
It's a wonderful thing, to be surprised. There has been a great deal of that over the last several days. Progress has been made on projects, connections have been made with darling people. I even got to see sweet Lottie Parkins for the first time in an age.
Some would wait for the other shoe to drop, to stamp out the enthusiasm and hopefulness of tomorrow. Some would say it's only a matter of time before fortune becomes folly.
I choose not to believe that. This is the beginning of great things for myself, for Velenosa and for the Compact.
Some would wait for the other shoe to drop, to stamp out the enthusiasm and hopefulness of tomorrow. Some would say it's only a matter of time before fortune becomes folly.
I choose not to believe that. This is the beginning of great things for myself, for Velenosa and for the Compact.
Written By Gaspar
Oct. 20, 2019, 9:56 p.m.(1/19/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Tyche
I strongly urge those that have never been to a party thrown by a Countess on, or near, her birthday, to endeavor to do so the next time the opportunity presents itself. I found myself with a number of gems to spend and I'm having trouble deciding how to use them...
Written By Gaspar
Oct. 3, 2019, 8:57 a.m.(12/12/1011 AR)
Perhaps I am ignorant to the sensitivities leading up to this decry of the date auction that is upon us soon.
Perhaps there are things deep-rooted and embedded that I've little exposure to.
But.
Perhaps those are involved as simply seeing this as a good cause. Those involved are /volunteering/ their time for a cause they deem worthy: the end of thralldom, even if it is one date at a time.
No one is being forced to participant. No one is being forced to do anything they don't want to do. It is an auction of time. Time that is willingly being offered by those volunteers to whomever wins for the evening.
Is this the greatest means of raising funds? Likely not. Is it a bit on the nose? Perhaps.
But its spirit is what matters. I, for one, commend almost any means to end thralldom. But there is much to be done past the finish line.
Perhaps there are things deep-rooted and embedded that I've little exposure to.
But.
Perhaps those are involved as simply seeing this as a good cause. Those involved are /volunteering/ their time for a cause they deem worthy: the end of thralldom, even if it is one date at a time.
No one is being forced to participant. No one is being forced to do anything they don't want to do. It is an auction of time. Time that is willingly being offered by those volunteers to whomever wins for the evening.
Is this the greatest means of raising funds? Likely not. Is it a bit on the nose? Perhaps.
But its spirit is what matters. I, for one, commend almost any means to end thralldom. But there is much to be done past the finish line.
Written By Gaspar
Oct. 2, 2019, 10:35 a.m.(12/10/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Evangeline
And brag she did, but it is unfounded. I've been blessed with the meeting of several Whispers so far and each have been the very embodiment of what I've expected. I can only hope that all of the Whispers see these women as examples of poise, grace and dignity.
Whisper Evangeline is charming and an incomparable host. It was my first visit, but I sincerely hope it is not my last.
Whisper Evangeline is charming and an incomparable host. It was my first visit, but I sincerely hope it is not my last.
Written By Gaspar
Sept. 29, 2019, 8:28 p.m.(12/5/1011 AR)
The days grow shorter and possibilities more plentiful. The challenge comes in weighing those choices in these waning hours. Is it unseemly to do the selfish when the selfless needs tending? Where is the balance? I suppose that is the truest challenge of Arx.
Written By Gaspar
Sept. 15, 2019, 8:43 p.m.(11/4/1011 AR)
Each day brings newness. And oldness, but also newness. That which was continues to be, but changes, ever so slightly.
It reminds me of the old philosophical question.
I have a ship. One of the planks along the bow becomes damaged and as a result needs to be replaced. Is it then the same ship as before? If not, is anything ever the same as it was? If yes, at what point does it become something new? How many planks must be replaced until that threshold is reached.
There is change in the Compact, yet it is still the same. The same struggles, but on a different scale.
I fear that the scale will soon be known by more than just a few.
It reminds me of the old philosophical question.
I have a ship. One of the planks along the bow becomes damaged and as a result needs to be replaced. Is it then the same ship as before? If not, is anything ever the same as it was? If yes, at what point does it become something new? How many planks must be replaced until that threshold is reached.
There is change in the Compact, yet it is still the same. The same struggles, but on a different scale.
I fear that the scale will soon be known by more than just a few.
Written By Gaspar
Sept. 8, 2019, 11:13 p.m.(10/19/1011 AR)
I learned something new about the Thrax today.
Written By Gaspar
Aug. 25, 2019, 8:49 p.m.(9/18/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Cassimir
My friend, you've a brilliant mind. Far beyond the capacity of mine own. It's been a privilege to see it work, for the betterment of the Compact. You should know this by now, but in case there was any doubt, let all know it: if you have need of anything, come to me.
Written By Gaspar
Aug. 18, 2019, 8:04 p.m.(9/4/1011 AR)
It's a magical thing watching romance blossom in the most unlikely of places, between the most unlikely of people.
Written By Gaspar
Aug. 11, 2019, 5:06 p.m.(8/18/1011 AR)
It's a wonderful thing, to know that you have family in Arx waiting your arrival. And it's an even more wonderful thing to find your family in Arx and get to know them.
I'm a blessed man with so many caring people around me, full of talent and capabilities.
I'm a blessed man with so many caring people around me, full of talent and capabilities.
Written By Gaspar
Aug. 4, 2019, 10:42 p.m.(8/5/1011 AR)
A glorious week with a glorious ball. Yes, I'm late on the journal and the buzz may have died down, but I will never forget the colors and display on that night. Until the next one then! May it be remembered even more fondly than the last.
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