Written By Esme
Dec. 23, 2023, 11:34 a.m.(6/4/1021 AR)
I have no words for the steps I am about to take. I have found myself in deep contemplation on what words would be the right ones. What actions would be the correct ones. What sacrifices must we make on our oaths of fealty to protect those we have sworn to protect? There are times when it feels even the Gods hold their breath to see what we might do.
Regardless of the outcome, let it known to all dearest, that I am proud of you. That I serve the whole of our compact and I am astounded by how amazing each and every one of you are. Your talents. Your opportunities. The things that make you vastly wonderful as people. We are on the cusp of something big, but remember, there is nothing bigger than us. There is nothing that we cannot do. That we cannot survive.
If we must shed our tears, let those offering destruction to drown in the waves of them. If we are to burn down what we have constructed, let us rise from the ashes. If we are lost in doubt, let hope warm our hearts and lead us to direction.
What the next steps bring, know they are brought with honor, devotion, fealty, and love. We are all the concepts the Gods have taught and in that, we will continue to live on to the next sunrise before us.
Regardless of the outcome, let it known to all dearest, that I am proud of you. That I serve the whole of our compact and I am astounded by how amazing each and every one of you are. Your talents. Your opportunities. The things that make you vastly wonderful as people. We are on the cusp of something big, but remember, there is nothing bigger than us. There is nothing that we cannot do. That we cannot survive.
If we must shed our tears, let those offering destruction to drown in the waves of them. If we are to burn down what we have constructed, let us rise from the ashes. If we are lost in doubt, let hope warm our hearts and lead us to direction.
What the next steps bring, know they are brought with honor, devotion, fealty, and love. We are all the concepts the Gods have taught and in that, we will continue to live on to the next sunrise before us.
Written By Esme
Nov. 28, 2023, 8:01 p.m.(4/11/1021 AR)
Very well.
You have asked and I shall answer.
You have asked and I shall answer.
Written By Esme
Nov. 9, 2023, 6:49 p.m.(3/1/1021 AR)
Most Beloved Readers,
We are feeling those moments of change. It is all around us. It is opening the swirling paths before us and we shall find ourselves at the fork in the road. Oh, but what a time we are blessed to live in. For the Gods take notice of us, but so then do those that seek not our betterment. We cannot fall to a depravity that takes the will from others, so that ours might be done. We must hold true to who we are and for what we seek and fight.
Do we even know what we fight for?
That is first question, but please remember that you are loved. In times of questions, there are not always ready answers. Sometimes, we must write our own answers on the path that we walk, but still we must walk. You must look deep into your souls and understand who you are so completely. For in coming times, I feel we are going to be sure to have this twisted and doubted.
I cannot speak for the Faith. I cannot speak for Limerance. I speak only for myself, but know that I am here to listen. I am here to counsel if I know the answers and I am here to admit I do not know them all. We live in blessed times and our blessed by the Concepts that we choose to worship.
We are feeling those moments of change. It is all around us. It is opening the swirling paths before us and we shall find ourselves at the fork in the road. Oh, but what a time we are blessed to live in. For the Gods take notice of us, but so then do those that seek not our betterment. We cannot fall to a depravity that takes the will from others, so that ours might be done. We must hold true to who we are and for what we seek and fight.
Do we even know what we fight for?
That is first question, but please remember that you are loved. In times of questions, there are not always ready answers. Sometimes, we must write our own answers on the path that we walk, but still we must walk. You must look deep into your souls and understand who you are so completely. For in coming times, I feel we are going to be sure to have this twisted and doubted.
I cannot speak for the Faith. I cannot speak for Limerance. I speak only for myself, but know that I am here to listen. I am here to counsel if I know the answers and I am here to admit I do not know them all. We live in blessed times and our blessed by the Concepts that we choose to worship.
Written By Esme
Aug. 4, 2023, 8:53 p.m.(4/17/1020 AR)
Relationship Note on Artur
You are back.
We have much to catch up with each other about.
We have much to catch up with each other about.
Written By Esme
July 9, 2023, 10:48 p.m.(2/21/1020 AR)
Relationship Note on Cufre
My Most Beloved Readers,
I wonder when I have last wrote to those that would read these words. It seems a lifetime has come and passed and yet, I know that is not the truth of the matter. It seems that we never slow down enough to really feel the movements of time and the life around us. We are always moving towards the next thing. Oh! Here I am getting all sorts of distracted.
Today it's about a jeweler that I happened to meet. It was random, really. She was where I turned around. Praise to Limerance for putting her in my path of my footfalls that belong to him. I had her commission a piece that I struggled with for the longest time. She did so with so much ease and beauty. Truly, I could not praise her enough in this. Well. I suppose I could praise her enough for it, but if you happen to see Cufre, do send business her way. She was efficient and offered wonderful conversation during the consultation.
I wonder when I have last wrote to those that would read these words. It seems a lifetime has come and passed and yet, I know that is not the truth of the matter. It seems that we never slow down enough to really feel the movements of time and the life around us. We are always moving towards the next thing. Oh! Here I am getting all sorts of distracted.
Today it's about a jeweler that I happened to meet. It was random, really. She was where I turned around. Praise to Limerance for putting her in my path of my footfalls that belong to him. I had her commission a piece that I struggled with for the longest time. She did so with so much ease and beauty. Truly, I could not praise her enough in this. Well. I suppose I could praise her enough for it, but if you happen to see Cufre, do send business her way. She was efficient and offered wonderful conversation during the consultation.
Written By Esme
April 18, 2023, 12:28 a.m.(8/24/1019 AR)
Relationship Note on Aethan
Good Gauntlet.
I now know how to motivate you to run your fastest. I will direct others to ask Ian how.
I now know how to motivate you to run your fastest. I will direct others to ask Ian how.
Written By Esme
April 16, 2023, 1:46 p.m.(8/21/1019 AR)
My Most Beloved Readers,
I do hope your souls are found to be in perfect condition and there is nothing weighing too much upon it. If there is, please don't think twice about reaching out. I will listen and I will only offer advice if it is asked for. We all must travel our own paths, but it does not mean we cannot lean on another.
I have been thinking about trust. Is it not an exquisite sort of thing? If you really break down the thoughts of it. There is so much caring and hope that is cast out when one trusts another. It should always be respected. However, sometimes through our actions, decisions, words, or even our inactions we break that trust. What is it that we do to repair it? Is that not how the heart wonders. For a heart wound is the worst sort of wounds. I would say time and compassion leads us there. However, we must also understand that it will never again be how it was before it was broken. The people are never the same. That hurts my heart. There is always a shard that we hold in our hearts, as they never fully mend from broken trust and betrayal.
I caution all be wise with words and actions as they have a ripple effect on lives around us. Sometimes we do not realize the things we put in motion we cannot take out of motion. Or we are unwilling to do what we must to stop a boulder already rolling.
Be the wonderful beings that you are and as always be kind.
I do hope your souls are found to be in perfect condition and there is nothing weighing too much upon it. If there is, please don't think twice about reaching out. I will listen and I will only offer advice if it is asked for. We all must travel our own paths, but it does not mean we cannot lean on another.
I have been thinking about trust. Is it not an exquisite sort of thing? If you really break down the thoughts of it. There is so much caring and hope that is cast out when one trusts another. It should always be respected. However, sometimes through our actions, decisions, words, or even our inactions we break that trust. What is it that we do to repair it? Is that not how the heart wonders. For a heart wound is the worst sort of wounds. I would say time and compassion leads us there. However, we must also understand that it will never again be how it was before it was broken. The people are never the same. That hurts my heart. There is always a shard that we hold in our hearts, as they never fully mend from broken trust and betrayal.
I caution all be wise with words and actions as they have a ripple effect on lives around us. Sometimes we do not realize the things we put in motion we cannot take out of motion. Or we are unwilling to do what we must to stop a boulder already rolling.
Be the wonderful beings that you are and as always be kind.
Written By Esme
March 17, 2023, 9:55 p.m.(6/18/1019 AR)
I am undeserving of this change in my life, but I am excited by it.
Written By Esme
Dec. 15, 2022, 9:21 p.m.(1/19/1019 AR)
Everything is beautiful when covered in ice.
Snow makes everything look so clean and special.
Cold gives a reason to cuddle.
I'm trying really hard to come up with positives about the winter. Trying.
Snow makes everything look so clean and special.
Cold gives a reason to cuddle.
I'm trying really hard to come up with positives about the winter. Trying.
Written By Esme
Oct. 7, 2022, 7:13 p.m.(7/9/1018 AR)
Has anyone noticed just how bright and beautiful the summer skies have been lately?
Written By Esme
Sept. 28, 2022, 8:43 p.m.(6/19/1018 AR)
Relationship Note on Porter
While times have removed our social activities from each other, it has never once removed him from my heart. He has been and will forever remain my favorite chariot ride around the city on our first meeting. For a while, he was a constant friend and I adore every memory that has ever been made. I even got my most sacred of answers and callings at his event.
This said. I have heard the most horrid tale that his person might be in a form of danger. I do not believe a person could think such harsh things about the man. He has his own brand of humor sometimes, but his heart is well. We should only be judged for our hearts and our duty. I would have it known that if I need to talk to someone to convince them of his valor; I would be more than willing.
Failing that. I have never shied away from offering my sword when it was needed.
This said. I have heard the most horrid tale that his person might be in a form of danger. I do not believe a person could think such harsh things about the man. He has his own brand of humor sometimes, but his heart is well. We should only be judged for our hearts and our duty. I would have it known that if I need to talk to someone to convince them of his valor; I would be more than willing.
Failing that. I have never shied away from offering my sword when it was needed.
Written By Esme
Sept. 28, 2022, 8:39 p.m.(6/19/1018 AR)
My most beloved readers,
I just wanted to take a moment to share my thoughts today. I had a most lovely talk with the Iron Guard as they stopped me today. I didn't have anything of interest, but they did remark on Kindness. I do so love my sword. They also said that I forgot to peace knot it. We talked a moment about Limerance and the sacred nature of fealty and duty. I do believe they are going to stop by the shrine later. I made sure to have extra cookies and muffins there. It is a lot of work to protect the citizens; especially when each fealty has it's own code of conduct. It just reminds me how beautiful it is that we all blend together so seamlessly.
I just ask, darlings, that should you find your heart heavy with the burden of war - do know you are not alone. The Gods do not always reply how we would like to believe, but they listen. Your hearts are known to them. The concepts that we embrace. I ask even when the guards are doing their duty, that we treat them with kindness. I am sure that some are put out by such things, but most Beloved; they sometimes have to ask as they must to protect that which they do. We have enough enemies to not look within to find more. Travel safe and travel with kindness and love.
I just wanted to take a moment to share my thoughts today. I had a most lovely talk with the Iron Guard as they stopped me today. I didn't have anything of interest, but they did remark on Kindness. I do so love my sword. They also said that I forgot to peace knot it. We talked a moment about Limerance and the sacred nature of fealty and duty. I do believe they are going to stop by the shrine later. I made sure to have extra cookies and muffins there. It is a lot of work to protect the citizens; especially when each fealty has it's own code of conduct. It just reminds me how beautiful it is that we all blend together so seamlessly.
I just ask, darlings, that should you find your heart heavy with the burden of war - do know you are not alone. The Gods do not always reply how we would like to believe, but they listen. Your hearts are known to them. The concepts that we embrace. I ask even when the guards are doing their duty, that we treat them with kindness. I am sure that some are put out by such things, but most Beloved; they sometimes have to ask as they must to protect that which they do. We have enough enemies to not look within to find more. Travel safe and travel with kindness and love.
Written By Esme
July 8, 2022, 9 p.m.(12/21/1017 AR)
Relationship Note on Arianna
I found myself thinking of Arianna today. Some may be shocked by that. Some may not. I have been thinking of who I was at the start of my time in Arx and who I am now. I have been thinking over conversations that gave me ... enlightenment? Once upon a time, I spent a great deal at the Pravus home when it was located in a different place. There were moments that were placed before me from there and with those that carry that last name. Some of them touched my heart in those conversations. This one though. She led me down a different path that I had planned to start. She led me in some ways where I am now. I just wanted to let people know that every now and again, I still think about her.
Written By Esme
July 5, 2022, 11:54 p.m.(12/15/1017 AR)
I saw a testing for the Explorers. It was all I was eager to see, also not what I thought it was. It made me want to do my own test and see what I can come up with. A true testing of one's skills.
Written By Esme
June 29, 2022, 5:10 p.m.(12/2/1017 AR)
Relationship Note on Lorenzo
He's just the best. That's all.
Written By Esme
June 17, 2022, 10:48 a.m.(11/6/1017 AR)
Sometimes I am struck by what steps I should take in life as it involves duty and oaths. While I have no doubt my oaths to the Faith were the right choice, it is sometimes hard to figure where I now belong to the peerage of the realm.
To all of you though, my prayers are daily with each of you to find honor in duty, duty in courtly love, and keep fast to your oaths.
To all of you though, my prayers are daily with each of you to find honor in duty, duty in courtly love, and keep fast to your oaths.
Written By Esme
June 2, 2022, 10:45 a.m.(10/4/1017 AR)
Darling Readers,
I know that life sometimes has pain and we walk that path as long as it takes in our grief. You never have to put a time on your sorrow, but I only ask you one thing. Will you please remember there is always hope? We are always on the cusp of change, of something different, a step, a path... or just our next breath. I ask that you each in these hard times also try to remember love and understanding. Do not speak oaths in your grief that might cause the harm of innocents. Oaths are not to be spoken lightly for their weight is a presence felt by all.
Honor and duty are some of our most wonderful things to embrace, but so is the ability to make our own choices. I only ask that you think before you think and before you react. There is always a time of action, just make sure that it is that and not a reaction. Regardless of your choices in the coming times before us, know you are loved. Know that no matter the victory or the defeat; you alone could not hold the balance of it. You alone cannot be responsible, but if you have stumbled on your path; you still have time to make it right. Forgiveness can be given to a heart of redemption. Every time that we awaken from a slumber, we are able to create a new day. We are able to be better than we were before we shut our eyes; even if it was only to blink.
For those in pain - my heart shatters a million times over for you. Know that I am here if you need to speak. Reach out to those you call friends and family. You do not need to be alone in grief. We are all here for you. If you trust not the mortal words, then lean upon your Gods. They know your heart. They wish only to see you live in honor, duty, and love. May the blessings of the Gods be upon you.
I know that life sometimes has pain and we walk that path as long as it takes in our grief. You never have to put a time on your sorrow, but I only ask you one thing. Will you please remember there is always hope? We are always on the cusp of change, of something different, a step, a path... or just our next breath. I ask that you each in these hard times also try to remember love and understanding. Do not speak oaths in your grief that might cause the harm of innocents. Oaths are not to be spoken lightly for their weight is a presence felt by all.
Honor and duty are some of our most wonderful things to embrace, but so is the ability to make our own choices. I only ask that you think before you think and before you react. There is always a time of action, just make sure that it is that and not a reaction. Regardless of your choices in the coming times before us, know you are loved. Know that no matter the victory or the defeat; you alone could not hold the balance of it. You alone cannot be responsible, but if you have stumbled on your path; you still have time to make it right. Forgiveness can be given to a heart of redemption. Every time that we awaken from a slumber, we are able to create a new day. We are able to be better than we were before we shut our eyes; even if it was only to blink.
For those in pain - my heart shatters a million times over for you. Know that I am here if you need to speak. Reach out to those you call friends and family. You do not need to be alone in grief. We are all here for you. If you trust not the mortal words, then lean upon your Gods. They know your heart. They wish only to see you live in honor, duty, and love. May the blessings of the Gods be upon you.
Written By Esme
May 27, 2022, 1:33 p.m.(9/20/1017 AR)
Relationship Note on Vitalis
We have been friends for a bit of time. Perhaps for a long bit of time. I just want to say that I appreciate after all this time that I still get to learn things about you and from you. Thank you for existing.
Written By Esme
May 16, 2022, 7:39 p.m.(8/27/1017 AR)
Dearest Readers,
There is not one out there that would believe I was good at deception and misdirection. Well, maybe there are a few, but not those that know me well. I fear that I wear my happiness and my truth too close to the surface. Today, I got to learn the finer points of ly-- no, I don't want to say lying. It's more WHY a person might tell a falsehood to achieve an objective. It has been interesting to learn it. A different sort of situation and perception.
There is not one out there that would believe I was good at deception and misdirection. Well, maybe there are a few, but not those that know me well. I fear that I wear my happiness and my truth too close to the surface. Today, I got to learn the finer points of ly-- no, I don't want to say lying. It's more WHY a person might tell a falsehood to achieve an objective. It has been interesting to learn it. A different sort of situation and perception.
Written By Esme
May 6, 2022, 6:33 p.m.(8/7/1017 AR)
Most Beloved Reader,
I am so happy and honored that you decided to read my whites! Thank you for that and I hope you have all the blessings of Gods in your life. I don't really have a certain reason to write today, I just felt the need to put down words.
We travel so much in life even if we never leave the house of our birth. We travel through time and through ideas. We change as the people we were to the ones we are. It is exciting. I know that life is always faster than we thought. I know there are times that we have been hurt, that our heart yearned, that we were lost - but my darlings, we heal, we find, we are found. Do not forget that you are very loved. You are very wanted. You are worthy. You are the perfect you that have ever been and ever will be. You are the only you. Don't let the judgments of others tell you differently, your soul may have been through the Wheel before, but that is not who you are to be. You are just loved and I want to remind those to love as you have been.
We choose every day what words to use, what things to do -- let us not forget the Concepts of the Gods. Let us not forget to choose love and kindness as well as honor and duty. Also, let us not hide behind them when it is time to make decisions and to wear our armor as we should.
Until the next words - I am blessed to be able to share your journeys. Thank you to those that have let me do that in person or shared here so that I might see the impacts upon your lives. I am humbled by it.
With all my affection.
I am so happy and honored that you decided to read my whites! Thank you for that and I hope you have all the blessings of Gods in your life. I don't really have a certain reason to write today, I just felt the need to put down words.
We travel so much in life even if we never leave the house of our birth. We travel through time and through ideas. We change as the people we were to the ones we are. It is exciting. I know that life is always faster than we thought. I know there are times that we have been hurt, that our heart yearned, that we were lost - but my darlings, we heal, we find, we are found. Do not forget that you are very loved. You are very wanted. You are worthy. You are the perfect you that have ever been and ever will be. You are the only you. Don't let the judgments of others tell you differently, your soul may have been through the Wheel before, but that is not who you are to be. You are just loved and I want to remind those to love as you have been.
We choose every day what words to use, what things to do -- let us not forget the Concepts of the Gods. Let us not forget to choose love and kindness as well as honor and duty. Also, let us not hide behind them when it is time to make decisions and to wear our armor as we should.
Until the next words - I am blessed to be able to share your journeys. Thank you to those that have let me do that in person or shared here so that I might see the impacts upon your lives. I am humbled by it.
With all my affection.
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