Written By Rinel
Feb. 5, 2019, 1:05 p.m.(7/8/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Cerdensulathara
Mistress Ferrier's proposal is intriguing. If perhaps Master Brass would be amenable to putting his artifice to an economic use in the Mourning Isles, it might blunt the worst effects of freeing the thralls.
In my opinion, though, the consideration does not rely on ease. Lord Skald has declared slavery an abomination. We must be true to our Gods.
In my opinion, though, the consideration does not rely on ease. Lord Skald has declared slavery an abomination. We must be true to our Gods.
Written By Rinel
Jan. 18, 2019, 9:44 a.m.(5/19/1010 AR)
I have brought shame to myself and to those around me. I have dishonoured my name and the discipleship which has rightly cast me out.
I am here to begin the long road of penance that lies before me.
I recant and repent, without reservation, any and all claims I have made in the past as to the illegitimacy of the Faith or any of its attendant institutions.
I recant and repent, without reservation, my claim to be free from the authority of the Godsworn of the Faith. I especially recant the implication that I was at any point free from the authorities of the Faith who gave me certain directives.
I repent of my public insolence when I should have conveyed my concerns through appropriate channels.
I recant and repent of every insubordinate action I have taken.
I recant and repent of every claim I have made contrary to church dogma.
I publicly acknowledge, without reservation, all promulgated dogma of the Faith of the Pantheon, born in Sanctum and headed by the Seraph of Arx, Dominus Orazio, Closest to the Gods, with whose Voice the three Legates speak. I acknowledge the authority of the priests of the Faith.
In the name of the Lady Lagoma, I humbly entreat for mercy that I do not deserve. In the name of the Lord Limerance, I vow obedience to the Faith and its laws. In the name of the Sentinel, I await the penance that I deserve, with the knowledge that it will befit my many sins.
I apologise to the Inquisition, whose relationship with the Faith I maligned. It is my fervent hope that comity between the Inquisition and the Faith continues, and that in time, should the Gods will it, the Sentinel may once more have a discipleship. My comments did not aid that wish. They harmed it.
I offer my apologies without reservation to the Peers of the Realm, whose Assembly I interrupted. I offer in particular my apologies to His Grace the Highlord Thrax, whose lawful commands I disobeyed. I have enjoyed the favour of Great House Thrax and repaid them poorly for it indeed.
I apologise to my former patron, Count Duarte Amadeo of Bravura, whose association with me has undoubtedly lowered him in the eyes of the Faith.
I apologise to the Iron Guardsman Sparte Fatchforth, whose honest contrition serves as an example of proper conduct.
I apologise to the Archscholar Sina Godsworn, whose trust in me I repaid with deceit.
I apologise to all of those whom I have wronged in my vainglorious pride and blind self-righteousness.
I submit myself to the judgment of the Faith, dispensed fairly in the name of the Sentinel. I pledge my loyalty to the Faith and its doctrine in the name of Lord Limerance. For my sins, I beg the mercy I do not deserve in the name of Lady Lagoma.
In contrition, I am
Rinel Tern
I am here to begin the long road of penance that lies before me.
I recant and repent, without reservation, any and all claims I have made in the past as to the illegitimacy of the Faith or any of its attendant institutions.
I recant and repent, without reservation, my claim to be free from the authority of the Godsworn of the Faith. I especially recant the implication that I was at any point free from the authorities of the Faith who gave me certain directives.
I repent of my public insolence when I should have conveyed my concerns through appropriate channels.
I recant and repent of every insubordinate action I have taken.
I recant and repent of every claim I have made contrary to church dogma.
I publicly acknowledge, without reservation, all promulgated dogma of the Faith of the Pantheon, born in Sanctum and headed by the Seraph of Arx, Dominus Orazio, Closest to the Gods, with whose Voice the three Legates speak. I acknowledge the authority of the priests of the Faith.
In the name of the Lady Lagoma, I humbly entreat for mercy that I do not deserve. In the name of the Lord Limerance, I vow obedience to the Faith and its laws. In the name of the Sentinel, I await the penance that I deserve, with the knowledge that it will befit my many sins.
I apologise to the Inquisition, whose relationship with the Faith I maligned. It is my fervent hope that comity between the Inquisition and the Faith continues, and that in time, should the Gods will it, the Sentinel may once more have a discipleship. My comments did not aid that wish. They harmed it.
I offer my apologies without reservation to the Peers of the Realm, whose Assembly I interrupted. I offer in particular my apologies to His Grace the Highlord Thrax, whose lawful commands I disobeyed. I have enjoyed the favour of Great House Thrax and repaid them poorly for it indeed.
I apologise to my former patron, Count Duarte Amadeo of Bravura, whose association with me has undoubtedly lowered him in the eyes of the Faith.
I apologise to the Iron Guardsman Sparte Fatchforth, whose honest contrition serves as an example of proper conduct.
I apologise to the Archscholar Sina Godsworn, whose trust in me I repaid with deceit.
I apologise to all of those whom I have wronged in my vainglorious pride and blind self-righteousness.
I submit myself to the judgment of the Faith, dispensed fairly in the name of the Sentinel. I pledge my loyalty to the Faith and its doctrine in the name of Lord Limerance. For my sins, I beg the mercy I do not deserve in the name of Lady Lagoma.
In contrition, I am
Rinel Tern
Written By Rinel
Jan. 17, 2019, 8:51 a.m.(5/17/1010 AR)
I find myself continually surprised at the level of attention and response that is occasioned by the writings of a peasant from the Oathlands. Though confused, I am nevertheless gratified that princes and commanders alike should take the time to read and respond to my journals. I pray that my thoughts will in time find a welcome reception in their minds.
On the matter of time: my sudden release from the obligations of discipleship has given me more time than I accustomed to having. I have established a morning routine--to visit each shrine. After several abortive attempts, I admit that I pass over the shrine if the Thirteenth. Perhaps it is indicative of a refusal to reflect upon my actions--or perhaps I have simply grown tired of Marachian notions of duplicity and concealment. Certainly such notions have infected my modes of thinking as of late. The young scholar arriving in Arx two years prior would never have dared to partake in the slaughter I abetted.
I think it long past due I revisit the Faith of the Orthodox. Perhaps others may navigate the treacherous waters of Marachian doctrine without peril, but my brief forays into such realms have met only with disaster. The Orthodoxy is simpler. Safer. More demanding--and far less dangerous.
I shall serve the penance that is assigned to me. I shall finish my treatise on Aion and the Thirteenth. Perhaps I shall take a pilgrimage to Sanctum. Though they seem the natural habitat of so many within this city, the shadows do not agree with me. It is long past time I returned to the light.
On the matter of time: my sudden release from the obligations of discipleship has given me more time than I accustomed to having. I have established a morning routine--to visit each shrine. After several abortive attempts, I admit that I pass over the shrine if the Thirteenth. Perhaps it is indicative of a refusal to reflect upon my actions--or perhaps I have simply grown tired of Marachian notions of duplicity and concealment. Certainly such notions have infected my modes of thinking as of late. The young scholar arriving in Arx two years prior would never have dared to partake in the slaughter I abetted.
I think it long past due I revisit the Faith of the Orthodox. Perhaps others may navigate the treacherous waters of Marachian doctrine without peril, but my brief forays into such realms have met only with disaster. The Orthodoxy is simpler. Safer. More demanding--and far less dangerous.
I shall serve the penance that is assigned to me. I shall finish my treatise on Aion and the Thirteenth. Perhaps I shall take a pilgrimage to Sanctum. Though they seem the natural habitat of so many within this city, the shadows do not agree with me. It is long past time I returned to the light.
Written By Rinel
Jan. 16, 2019, 4:19 p.m.(5/16/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Laric
The Grandmaster Preston does not and has never claimed to speak for the Gods. Nevertheless, he is a beacon of righteousness whose actions and words only a fool would fail to heed.
Written By Rinel
Jan. 16, 2019, 1:07 p.m.(5/16/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Shard
For too long has that excuse been used to hide wickedness from purifying light. Indeed, in this case the Count Amadeo has made quite clear to me the necessity of guarding certain aspects of knowledge.
Yet this does not excuse a Faith that routinely fabricates truth for its own convenience. A fallen discipleship is no lighthouse for the Church.
Yet this does not excuse a Faith that routinely fabricates truth for its own convenience. A fallen discipleship is no lighthouse for the Church.
Written By Rinel
Jan. 15, 2019, 5:29 p.m.(5/14/1010 AR)
I have been expelled from the Scholars for failing to disclose important information to the Blessed Archscholar Sina Godsworn. This is just and right. I swore an oath to the Gods, and my conduct was unbecoming of that oath.
I am no longer a member of Lord Vellichor's discipleship. But my expulsion has opened my eyes--and freed me from the authority of those who would have me abet their deception.
Truth is not a tool to be cast aside when inconvenient. It is a guiding light for our Compact, and while we are charged to protect and guard truth by our Lord Vellichor, we do not follow His divine precepts when we hide truth through the creation of secrets.
I charge those who have ordered the creation of these secrets to rescind their order and allow the truth, in its entirety, to be brought to light. It is sunlight that drives away the darkness of evil.
--Rinel Tern
I am no longer a member of Lord Vellichor's discipleship. But my expulsion has opened my eyes--and freed me from the authority of those who would have me abet their deception.
Truth is not a tool to be cast aside when inconvenient. It is a guiding light for our Compact, and while we are charged to protect and guard truth by our Lord Vellichor, we do not follow His divine precepts when we hide truth through the creation of secrets.
I charge those who have ordered the creation of these secrets to rescind their order and allow the truth, in its entirety, to be brought to light. It is sunlight that drives away the darkness of evil.
--Rinel Tern
Written By Rinel
Jan. 6, 2019, 4:44 p.m.(4/23/1010 AR)
I trust none of these newcome ambassadors, but those from Eurus I trust least of all. I pray familiarity has not bred a lack of caution among Arvani. The false faith of the east is close enough to ours to easily sow the seeds of heresy and doubt.
Written By Rinel
Dec. 23, 2018, 7:30 p.m.(3/22/1010 AR)
Poetry is /hard/. I did not realise.
Written By Rinel
Dec. 9, 2018, 4:39 p.m.(2/22/1010 AR)
I managed to offend someone important today. Again. I'm awful with the nobility.
But, on the bright side, it's provided an opportunity to enter the Whisper House! For etiquette training. I've never really interacted with the Whispers professionally.
...I hope I don't offend them, too.
But, on the bright side, it's provided an opportunity to enter the Whisper House! For etiquette training. I've never really interacted with the Whispers professionally.
...I hope I don't offend them, too.
Written By Rinel
Dec. 2, 2018, 4:07 p.m.(2/8/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Preston
I thank you for your kind words. I pray only that my journey ends in the service of our holy Gods--for it is in such that will I find happiness.
Written By Rinel
Dec. 2, 2018, 7:06 a.m.(2/7/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Duarte
I believe I have learned something about my patron.
I hope I can exact revenge for past humiliation with it.
I hope reading this causes concern to him. More likely it will cause amusement.
Yes, I know you're reading this, Count Bravura.
I hope I can exact revenge for past humiliation with it.
I hope reading this causes concern to him. More likely it will cause amusement.
Yes, I know you're reading this, Count Bravura.
Written By Rinel
Dec. 1, 2018, 9:46 p.m.(2/6/1010 AR)
Father Aureth has commanded me to right many of my past wrongs before he will allow me to join the ranks of the Godsworn. Chief among said wrongs is the disaster I have caused with the Knights of Solace.
I cannot pretend to emotions other than disappointment--and more than a little frustration. But it is my duty as a member of the Faith to follow the directions of my superiors, and honour compels me to take responsibility for the harms I have caused.
I hope Sir Bayweather will be receptive. If not, I shall have to regain sufficient honour to be worthy of his attention.
I am one step closer to joining the ranks of the Faith--and yet I feel as though I have never been more distant.
I cannot pretend to emotions other than disappointment--and more than a little frustration. But it is my duty as a member of the Faith to follow the directions of my superiors, and honour compels me to take responsibility for the harms I have caused.
I hope Sir Bayweather will be receptive. If not, I shall have to regain sufficient honour to be worthy of his attention.
I am one step closer to joining the ranks of the Faith--and yet I feel as though I have never been more distant.
Written By Rinel
Nov. 25, 2018, 11:21 p.m.(1/22/1010 AR)
A late addendum: seeing so many missives flying about (sometimes literally--I really must discover the nature of these so-called "animal couriers") on Sunday requesting lessons before the week begins makes me think that perhaps there might be an opportunity for a weekly get together--an intellectual sip and spar.
Not that the attendees of the Golden Hart's weekly fête /lack/ intellect, of course. It is simply that the mêlée is more physical in nature. Perhaps the Hart would allow attendees interested in learning a side room.
Sip and suspect? Sip and substrate. Sip and seriously ponder...
Not that the attendees of the Golden Hart's weekly fête /lack/ intellect, of course. It is simply that the mêlée is more physical in nature. Perhaps the Hart would allow attendees interested in learning a side room.
Sip and suspect? Sip and substrate. Sip and seriously ponder...
Written By Rinel
Nov. 25, 2018, 11:15 p.m.(1/22/1010 AR)
Now that the Lodge is protected, the citizenry of Arx has turned its mind from battle to learning. I have been positively deluged with requests for teaching! It is most flattering, but I am uneasy--I cannot help but think myself an imposter, one who merely flaunts at knowledge instead of truly possessing it.
Atreke says that this is normal for people like me. I don't know if that was a compliment.
Atreke says that this is normal for people like me. I don't know if that was a compliment.
Written By Rinel
Nov. 24, 2018, 6:43 p.m.(1/20/1010 AR)
It is so difficult to find time to speak to someone who has the authority to allow me to seek the path of the Godsworn. I am tempted to leave Arx for a time and seek ordination from a distant Seraph--but with all the disfavour I have incurred within the capital, I fear that would be seen as an attempt at avoiding the consequences of my actions. So I must continue to persevere and prove my worth in the eyes of the Faith here in Arx.
I fear it will be a long time coming.
I fear it will be a long time coming.
Written By Rinel
Nov. 18, 2018, 5:23 a.m.(1/7/1010 AR)
Sudden Endings
May Night's Queen take within Her gentle hands
the frayèd threads and tattered strands
of lives--whose tap'stries lay
now all around Her, no more in day's
light viewed, or to in zephyrs play--
for now askew upon the floor they rest,
the cloth of souls. May they be blest
by She Who spins upon the Wheel
the lives of mortals. May they be healed.
- R. Tern
May Night's Queen take within Her gentle hands
the frayèd threads and tattered strands
of lives--whose tap'stries lay
now all around Her, no more in day's
light viewed, or to in zephyrs play--
for now askew upon the floor they rest,
the cloth of souls. May they be blest
by She Who spins upon the Wheel
the lives of mortals. May they be healed.
- R. Tern
Written By Rinel
Nov. 4, 2018, 11:30 p.m.(12/8/1009 AR)
The halls of Aion's shrine have stood empty too long. Is there none who is willing to represent the unrepresentable? The Dreamer deserves more than we have given Them.
Written By Rinel
Oct. 28, 2018, 8:50 p.m.(11/21/1009 AR)
I forgot it was my birthday. That's not unusual, really. I never keep an eye on the date. Normally Maman or Papa would remind me, or one of my friends. Last year Wynna did.
They say birthdays are the hardest. But everything that reminds me of her is the hardest.
I miss you.
They say birthdays are the hardest. But everything that reminds me of her is the hardest.
I miss you.
Written By Rinel
Oct. 21, 2018, 11:51 p.m.(11/8/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Meriah
Triage will always have a home with me, if ever his care should prove too difficult.
Written By Rinel
Oct. 14, 2018, 10:56 p.m.(10/13/1009 AR)
It is harder to find a friendly face than it once was. Where once there was kindness, or at least sufferance, I see now wariness and caution. I should like to ascribe this to my cane--that perhaps having a cane makes one imperious by nature, and therefore intimidating. One need only look at Blessed Brigida or His Highness the Inquisitor Gareth for examples.
Atreke has expressed her opinion that it is more likely that I am being avoided because I have frequently acted rashly and without regard to consequence, and that I have therefore alienated a sizable proportion of the Faith--and thereby the Compact at large. It is her view that this is a good thing--that there is no need to act any other way than how I truly am, and that I will eventually find people whose company I find tolerable.
Atreke informs me that her sole source of social interaction is drinking with a group of three other scribes once every fortnight.
Atreke is very honest. But I do not think I wish to emulate her example with regard to socializing.
There are many kind faces who do not glance askance at me when they see me. They are a blessing from Lord Limerance, and I cherish them deeply--enough so that I will not reveal their names here, for fear of reprisal. Yet they are increasingly rare as my penance drags on.
It is strange how lonely a person can be in a city so full of people.
Atreke has expressed her opinion that it is more likely that I am being avoided because I have frequently acted rashly and without regard to consequence, and that I have therefore alienated a sizable proportion of the Faith--and thereby the Compact at large. It is her view that this is a good thing--that there is no need to act any other way than how I truly am, and that I will eventually find people whose company I find tolerable.
Atreke informs me that her sole source of social interaction is drinking with a group of three other scribes once every fortnight.
Atreke is very honest. But I do not think I wish to emulate her example with regard to socializing.
There are many kind faces who do not glance askance at me when they see me. They are a blessing from Lord Limerance, and I cherish them deeply--enough so that I will not reveal their names here, for fear of reprisal. Yet they are increasingly rare as my penance drags on.
It is strange how lonely a person can be in a city so full of people.
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