Written By Porter
Sept. 12, 2020, 10:20 p.m.(1/6/1014 AR)
Relationship Note on Bree
I've been skimming the writings of friends and family and I'm delighted to see that winter is here! And that we all have an opinion on it. My opinion is that it's a fantastic season. And I can't for every winter festival so that I can throw snowballs at people, and so that myself and Dame Bree can emerge victorious from as many contests as we can manage.
I'm also glad that she's returned from her most recent trip out of the city and that she's not upset I started volunteering her for things while she was gone.
I'm also glad that she's returned from her most recent trip out of the city and that she's not upset I started volunteering her for things while she was gone.
Written By Porter
Sept. 2, 2020, 7:30 a.m.(12/13/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Brigid
Are you saying something about the cleanliness of my beard, Lady Brigid??? You know what, it could be days before you read this. I'm going to write a letter.
Written By Porter
Sept. 1, 2020, 10:54 a.m.(12/11/1013 AR)
I've reached a point in my life where people know more about my beard than me.
Written By Porter
Aug. 30, 2020, 10:18 p.m.(12/8/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Austen
Over the last year, I've been lucky enough to receive three wonderful drawings from Sir Austen. After the most recent one, I told him that I was going to hold an art show and charge people admission to view them. Three doesn't seem like enough drawings to hold a show. So I wrote to other people to see if they had any, but alas. There are none.
I fear that I've played my hand too early and he won't send me anymore.
I fear that I've played my hand too early and he won't send me anymore.
Written By Porter
Aug. 30, 2020, 8:26 p.m.(12/8/1013 AR)
I find myself continuously surprised by the interest others have shown in my choice to become godsworn. I don't imagine that most of it is really /about/ me though. I think maybe it's about themselves. Not in a way that's self-centered, mind. But maybe, more... asking for self-discovery? I don't know. I think I might be rambling. I was awake a long time last night and I stopped at the tavern for a few pints of ale before I came here. I definitely don't mind the occasional letter written to me about either-- ah, there I go. Still rambling.
Written By Porter
Aug. 23, 2020, 8:56 p.m.(11/22/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Bree
I need to know more about roses in caves. Where did it come from??
Written By Porter
Aug. 22, 2020, 11:11 p.m.(11/20/1013 AR)
There's not nearly enough ships.
Written By Porter
Aug. 20, 2020, 9:51 a.m.(11/15/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Brigid
It was just a joke, don't murder me!
Written By Porter
Aug. 16, 2020, 8:36 p.m.(11/8/1013 AR)
I finally remembered to pick up those pictures Sir Austen drew for me. I'm going to hang them up above the trophy shelf on the Damsel! They're VERY impressive works of art and I'll happily show them off to anyone who wants to visit and see them!
Written By Porter
Aug. 16, 2020, 11:43 a.m.(11/8/1013 AR)
I took my vows yesterday. A lot of the process was an incredible blur. I remember feeling incredibly nervous and also surprised by the amount of people that were there. And then TREMENDOUS CRUSHING ANXIETY as a I realized they were going to be watching me the entire time. But Father Aureth was great and Grandmaster Jeffeth was equally as great so I ended up not flailing nearly as much as I thought I was going to.
And Aethan was there. Which meant probably more than I could possibly put into words.
I hope he appreciated me not laughing until well after he sat down.
But I lied. I'm not sorry about the hug at all.
And Aethan was there. Which meant probably more than I could possibly put into words.
I hope he appreciated me not laughing until well after he sat down.
But I lied. I'm not sorry about the hug at all.
Written By Porter
Aug. 16, 2020, 11:39 a.m.(11/8/1013 AR)
This has been an incredibly draining week. I feel as if I'm tired down to the very bones of my body.
But also good, in a way.
But also good, in a way.
Written By Porter
Aug. 8, 2020, 11:22 a.m.(10/19/1013 AR)
I have maybe two weeks, roughly, until I take my vows in the Great Cathedral. Since my decision became more public, I've had a few different people approach me with questions. Most of which boil down to 'why?'.
At the heart of it, this is a deeply personal decision that's difficult to condense down into something easy for anyone who isn't me to understand. I can say that it's been a very long year and I spent a signifcant portion of it mediating on the kind of person that I've been in the past, and when I measured it all up, I found myself lacking. That sensation can leave you feeling very hollow. I found myself unobservant of the suffering of other people, to a degree that I had never realized before. Or maybe I did? But it didn't affect me as profoundly until now.
My discipleship with the Knights of Solace and the new relationships that I've developed there gave me a feeling of completion that I didn't realize I was even missing, until suddenly I had them. And I decided that I could serve better, do more for others, by committing myself completely to that cause. And so that's what I'm doing. I have no regrets about what I'm about to do.
And I don't view this as abandonment of my family. Because it's not. My brothers will always and forever hold a signifcant piece of my heart. My door will always be open to them, if they want to walk through it. And the same goes for the rest of the Kennex family. But as bittersweet as it may be, it's time to forge forward with my own path, on my own terms.
At the heart of it, this is a deeply personal decision that's difficult to condense down into something easy for anyone who isn't me to understand. I can say that it's been a very long year and I spent a signifcant portion of it mediating on the kind of person that I've been in the past, and when I measured it all up, I found myself lacking. That sensation can leave you feeling very hollow. I found myself unobservant of the suffering of other people, to a degree that I had never realized before. Or maybe I did? But it didn't affect me as profoundly until now.
My discipleship with the Knights of Solace and the new relationships that I've developed there gave me a feeling of completion that I didn't realize I was even missing, until suddenly I had them. And I decided that I could serve better, do more for others, by committing myself completely to that cause. And so that's what I'm doing. I have no regrets about what I'm about to do.
And I don't view this as abandonment of my family. Because it's not. My brothers will always and forever hold a signifcant piece of my heart. My door will always be open to them, if they want to walk through it. And the same goes for the rest of the Kennex family. But as bittersweet as it may be, it's time to forge forward with my own path, on my own terms.
Written By Porter
Aug. 2, 2020, 3:23 p.m.(10/8/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Bhandn
I had the opportunity to ride with the Knights of Solace this week. I rode myself straight into a tree branch, broke my nose and ended up on my back on the forest floor. I guess that it could have ended a lot worse, like in me breaking my neck.
Many thanks to Sir Bhandn, who not only is my educator in drinking tea but also the person who set my nose. Everything is still pretty swollen and painful but I swear I'm breathing better than I have in years.
Many thanks to Sir Bhandn, who not only is my educator in drinking tea but also the person who set my nose. Everything is still pretty swollen and painful but I swear I'm breathing better than I have in years.
Written By Porter
Aug. 2, 2020, 3:01 p.m.(10/8/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Mabelle
I heard that your body is decaying.
Written By Porter
July 26, 2020, 9:31 p.m.(9/22/1013 AR)
I'm very tired. Down to the absolute bones of my body tired.
Written By Porter
July 24, 2020, 11:14 a.m.(9/17/1013 AR)
I didn't ever expect myself to settle into any kind of discipleship. And if there were moments where I did entertain it, it wasn't under Gild with the Knights of Solace. And yet, here I am. And it somehow feels very familiar and comfortable after only a few short months.
Written By Porter
July 19, 2020, 9:11 p.m.(9/8/1013 AR)
Recently I was able to win two of my matches! This is a change of pace from just losing fight after fight. Lady Esme and Lord Alecstazi were challenging opponents, however. Have no doubt about that! I have the bruises on my body to prove it.
I didn't manage as well against Bree the following day, but it seems only right that she was able to beat me back with the sword I'd just given her.
It really was a donation. I swear.
I didn't manage as well against Bree the following day, but it seems only right that she was able to beat me back with the sword I'd just given her.
It really was a donation. I swear.
Written By Porter
July 16, 2020, 8:56 p.m.(9/2/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Narcissa
I'm glad she doesn't want to throw me down a deep, dark, hole in the ground.
Written By Porter
July 12, 2020, 10 p.m.(8/22/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Brannen
Not entirely like his sister. But I wonder if they realize they both do the same sort of fist-to-chest greeting? Maybe that's standard knight behavior. I probably should have ask. I got distracted talking about axes.
Written By Porter
July 5, 2020, 10:03 p.m.(8/8/1013 AR)
A few months ago, Rorik and I decided to throw a party across our ships. Well, we finally held it and it was a great deal of fun. Rorik had a bunch of robes made up and I had a pair of ridiculous trophies commissioned. And it went over great. Good night. Quite a bit of a hangover.
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