Written By Neve
Jan. 29, 2018, 8:52 p.m.(1/22/1008 AR)
Hello Arx,
My name is Neve. I grew up spoiled rotten by my adopted warrior-father. I got to know amazing people, and I love my home, the Greenwood. I came to this land angry, wild, and untamed. Since coming here I have realized that I dont have a right to be angry. Being calm and in control is far better than being wild and carefree, and..well, I'm still rather untamed. I have realized that to be happy in life, you have to take it. I have to make my own happiness. I look in the mirror, and used to hate what I saw. Now I look into it and I feel confident. I look absolutely beautiful. I'm lovely. I have control of myself and this makes me strong. My beauty makes me strong. I am intelligent, and this makes me strong. I am a good woman, and I am filled with love, with a strong heart. I can finally say - I love myself. And this realization makes me feel happy.
My name is Neve. I grew up spoiled rotten by my adopted warrior-father. I got to know amazing people, and I love my home, the Greenwood. I came to this land angry, wild, and untamed. Since coming here I have realized that I dont have a right to be angry. Being calm and in control is far better than being wild and carefree, and..well, I'm still rather untamed. I have realized that to be happy in life, you have to take it. I have to make my own happiness. I look in the mirror, and used to hate what I saw. Now I look into it and I feel confident. I look absolutely beautiful. I'm lovely. I have control of myself and this makes me strong. My beauty makes me strong. I am intelligent, and this makes me strong. I am a good woman, and I am filled with love, with a strong heart. I can finally say - I love myself. And this realization makes me feel happy.
Written By Neve
Dec. 22, 2017, 9:40 p.m.(10/26/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Killian
I did not have the opportunity to know Killian. However I knew him from extension of my best friend, Lady Arianna. The Lady is a very strong, special woman and a man that had convinced her to open her heart to him was a special man indeed. I respected the man, and had been looking forward to meeting him. We see how others affect our lives and Killian had a positive effect. There are many different beliefs. I believe that we remember those we love and they live on within our hearts and minds. It is the duty of the living to grieve for the dead. And part of that grief is remembering who they were, how strong they are, their good points, their bad.
Killian was a great man. He was a loved man. I respected him, and I offer prayers to the Goddess of Death. You have a special one in your hands.
My respect to the family and loved ones.
Killian was a great man. He was a loved man. I respected him, and I offer prayers to the Goddess of Death. You have a special one in your hands.
My respect to the family and loved ones.
Written By Neve
Dec. 20, 2017, 10:17 a.m.(10/21/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Edwyn
I once viewed Valardin as bitter enemies. This patient Prince has thought me that a heart that hangs onto such resentment and hate is a heart that is left unfulfilled. I've grown closer to this Prince whom has taught me a few lessons in life.
The Valardin are a strong and courageous people. I can see why he takes such pride in being a prince of these people.
I am still looking for where my place is exactly. But I feel this Prince helps me towards my overall effort - to be a lady that my house can be proud of. I don't think I have gotten there yet. I wonder if I will know the day that my house is proud of me. I suppose change is something that is possible and positive change is there for those that would fight for it.
The Valardin are a strong and courageous people. I can see why he takes such pride in being a prince of these people.
I am still looking for where my place is exactly. But I feel this Prince helps me towards my overall effort - to be a lady that my house can be proud of. I don't think I have gotten there yet. I wonder if I will know the day that my house is proud of me. I suppose change is something that is possible and positive change is there for those that would fight for it.
Written By Neve
Dec. 17, 2017, 11:35 p.m.(10/16/1007 AR)
Sometimes you have a good day. Yesterday was not one of those days. Today wasn't much better.
I met someone yesterday whom told me that they did not want to hear my words. They did think I was worth the effort to even bother to hate. That I wasn't worth a kindness. That I was only afforded polite words. That I was not worth any of their time. This man then went on to talk about the good relationship that he has with my cousins. This man.. he has hurt me with his words, cutting into me like a knife. He seems to find solace in finding me of no reasonable value. He's hurt me. And if I were a more confident person it wouldn't have bothered me. But it did. It's made me realize that I need to find value in myself. So I have decided to double my efforts to better myself and do what I can for those around me. I have value - but sometimes I just have to beleive in the words.
I've found comfort in the arms of a lovely man.
Good points:
*Caring
*Fun
*Freindly (to me at least!)
*Handsome
*Humors me often
Bad points:
*Likes to tickle me
*Likes to tease me
Other honorable mentions are Princess Alarissa Thrax, she is a lovely, proper woman. She has taught me, and is still teaching me manners, how to behave myself, and many things that a girl of the wood didn't learn when she should have. No longer an abandoned, I suppose I'm prodigal now. Princess Alarissa is on one of the more adventuresome adventures - the maiden voyage of motherhood. I wish her well, and many fond hopes for her and Prince Victus little one.
Marquis Greenmarch - another one that deserves respect. Ever-patient I've tested his patience, and I hope I dont try it as much as I did when I first arrived. I enjoy my time with my cousin, and hope talks can move to things of less seriousness but equally important - like the talk of most effective way to cook bacon.
Prince Aurelian Valardin - Had a disagreement, but we settled it quickly. Had a nice conversation, and I've invited him to dinner. Now..what does a Prince eat? I suppose I should expand my menu of Bacon to include other less bacony-things. Hmmn. I look forward to planning something fun to do with him. But not trivia. I think he would be really good at trivia.
Sometimes I'm not happy with myself, with how I feel, but I am finally satisfied with how I act. I am in control of my actions, and I make the choices in my life, I run them, they do not run me. It's been a hard week. Painful. But at this point I'm feeling good. I'm feeling optimistic. And I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I feel like building something. A relationship, a project, I want to do something constructive and positive!
I met someone yesterday whom told me that they did not want to hear my words. They did think I was worth the effort to even bother to hate. That I wasn't worth a kindness. That I was only afforded polite words. That I was not worth any of their time. This man then went on to talk about the good relationship that he has with my cousins. This man.. he has hurt me with his words, cutting into me like a knife. He seems to find solace in finding me of no reasonable value. He's hurt me. And if I were a more confident person it wouldn't have bothered me. But it did. It's made me realize that I need to find value in myself. So I have decided to double my efforts to better myself and do what I can for those around me. I have value - but sometimes I just have to beleive in the words.
I've found comfort in the arms of a lovely man.
Good points:
*Caring
*Fun
*Freindly (to me at least!)
*Handsome
*Humors me often
Bad points:
*Likes to tickle me
*Likes to tease me
Other honorable mentions are Princess Alarissa Thrax, she is a lovely, proper woman. She has taught me, and is still teaching me manners, how to behave myself, and many things that a girl of the wood didn't learn when she should have. No longer an abandoned, I suppose I'm prodigal now. Princess Alarissa is on one of the more adventuresome adventures - the maiden voyage of motherhood. I wish her well, and many fond hopes for her and Prince Victus little one.
Marquis Greenmarch - another one that deserves respect. Ever-patient I've tested his patience, and I hope I dont try it as much as I did when I first arrived. I enjoy my time with my cousin, and hope talks can move to things of less seriousness but equally important - like the talk of most effective way to cook bacon.
Prince Aurelian Valardin - Had a disagreement, but we settled it quickly. Had a nice conversation, and I've invited him to dinner. Now..what does a Prince eat? I suppose I should expand my menu of Bacon to include other less bacony-things. Hmmn. I look forward to planning something fun to do with him. But not trivia. I think he would be really good at trivia.
Sometimes I'm not happy with myself, with how I feel, but I am finally satisfied with how I act. I am in control of my actions, and I make the choices in my life, I run them, they do not run me. It's been a hard week. Painful. But at this point I'm feeling good. I'm feeling optimistic. And I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I feel like building something. A relationship, a project, I want to do something constructive and positive!
Written By Neve
Dec. 7, 2017, 10:23 p.m.(9/23/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Kael
I have seen this goat. I have warned Prince Edain he shall awake one day to it eating his hair. He said that he is aware.
Written By Neve
Dec. 3, 2017, 9:10 p.m.(9/15/1007 AR)
I have come to realize that I perhaps make the absolutely worst first impressions perhaps in all our land. It's like I have a talent for coming off like a moron when first meeting people. That being said, I will continue to strive hard. I've not done well the last day or two. However, I have showed poise and maturity. Instead of making enemies, making friends. Though somehow, I seem to still manage to embarass myself with saying the wrong thing. Neve - sometimes you just need to learn to shut your mouth. Imagine what your Papa would say - Neve, shut your mouth! I should apply this. From time to time.
I've had a very personal moment where I had a social situation that could have gone badly, and could have been taken offense that was not of my doing. It could have been taken as a slight against the house, or my own family's house. I think for a change I handled it with composure, and made a friend instead of pointing out behavior not satisfactory, and by making a friend I did not bring any shame to my house, and did not result in making an enemy. Maybe this is a first for me. But I placed myself as a noble above a situation and thought about it. Acted like it. And..for a change. I thought of my house, my people, and I do not get to say this very often of myself but - I am proud of myself.
I've had a very personal moment where I had a social situation that could have gone badly, and could have been taken offense that was not of my doing. It could have been taken as a slight against the house, or my own family's house. I think for a change I handled it with composure, and made a friend instead of pointing out behavior not satisfactory, and by making a friend I did not bring any shame to my house, and did not result in making an enemy. Maybe this is a first for me. But I placed myself as a noble above a situation and thought about it. Acted like it. And..for a change. I thought of my house, my people, and I do not get to say this very often of myself but - I am proud of myself.
Written By Neve
Dec. 3, 2017, 5:24 p.m.(9/14/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Edwyn
So Princes are not quite what you expect of them. I suppose that will teach me to have expectation. You expect something stuffy, and you get something surprisingly refreshing. Prince Edwyn, you are worth far more in insight than you give yourself credit for. Fare well, Valardian Prince.
Written By Neve
Nov. 29, 2017, 8:55 p.m.(9/7/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Archeron
An unexpected meeting in the forest. Interesting words exchanged, and a new friendship forged. I hope that we can have a fun adventure sometime soon!
Written By Neve
Nov. 29, 2017, 8:49 a.m.(9/6/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Victus
Had a nice chat with Lord Victus and he gave me some sound fashion advice. He is actually a pretty good conversationalist. You just have to look past the scowling and the grunts is all. He has some pretty solid insights. Hmmn. I will have to get him a gift. Bacon is always good. Maybe something stabbier though. He seems like he would enjoy stabbing things. I shall have to look for a dagger or something like that.
Thank you for a brief, if wonderful evening.
Thank you for a brief, if wonderful evening.
Written By Neve
Nov. 23, 2017, 5:25 p.m.(8/20/1007 AR)
I have been through horrible hardships in my life, yet my life has also been filled with wonder and wonderful moments. I must say that though I never got to know my birth parents per se, I haven’t had a bad life because of it. I am thinking of this because after speaking with Lord Darrow, I know there are many refugees that are suffering. I don’t know of many things in the world. I have been closed off, but finding now the destruction wrought by Abyssal forces, I find myself needing to assist. I have agreed to take in 40 refugee families into Greenwood. Good people, who are willing to work. We have a home, and we can teach them a trade. I think we need to welcome in those that need us most. I have also pledged my own coin to assist with the navy rebuilding project and assistance with the refugees, and encourage anyone else who can spare it to do so as well. I have also connected Lord Darrow with Marquis Marius to broker a fair deal for timber. I was fortunate enough that my worst misfortune came at a time where I was too young to understand. I feel compelled to help those whom are experiencing such pain now in a very real, conscious way. Even though there is great pain now, I know as someone whom has been through pain before that life can have meaning – even if you seem lost or listless for a time. I hope that we can provide them a better life for the immediate future. I also hope I do not offend them. I am not good at speaking, and I speak with the grace of a woman with a potato stuck in her mouth. A large potato – very starchy. And uncooked. Like a large, starchy, uncooked potato in her mouth. I may have someone else do the actual welcoming.
Written By Neve
Nov. 20, 2017, 7:20 p.m.(8/15/1007 AR)
Uh oh White Journal!
Well..it seems that a lot of people read these journals. I would of thought they wouldn't, thinking it's more a place to put your thoughts. But..apparently that is a black journal? So..I found out pretty quickly that other people read these.
So I've found out how it feels to have a relationship end via messenger. And..it does hurt about as much as I expected. I deserve it though. I really do. I've hurt people because I've been a girlish nightmare, and well..it is time to grow up. I've been trying to become a good respectable lady, it's been a long road, and I think I have been making progress. Neve will always be a work in progress. But until she can be whom she strives to be, maybe Neve just isn't meant to be married.
I have to thank Lady Alarissa Thrax. I think she has a fancier title..but...I dont remember it. I'm sorry Alarissa! But she has taken me in and taught an unruly woman-child that is Neve. I am thankful for her tutelage, and freindship because by all means I certainly irk her! She has been tolerant, and even supported me financially when it was needed. House Greenmarch has returned my coin in a lesser amount. However I have to respect that Alarissa has put up with me, so I hope I can find a place in house Thrax and continue to be of use, as she teaches me how to be a proper lady. Back in Greenmarch settlements before the compact things were often discussed by a punch to the face. And while that's not quite the approach I take, it still takes getting used to. It's a world of words as weapons. I'm not very well equipped for it - and I'm afraid I will never live up to be the perfect face of genteel..genty..gantreal..there, that seems close enough. I will never be as fancy as someone like her, or as calm and sly as Monique. Or as sturdy and studious as Marius. That is because I'm a Neve. And this Neve, she is flawed. She has her problems. But if Neve can learn to live in this land of men instead of trees, then Neve will be Alarissa's success story.
Neve can say, or well, write that she has never felt so lonely than in Arx, being surrounded by so many people she is the loneliest she has ever felt in her life. Neve is ill mannered. Resolute to the point of being rude. And she has been selfish - so selfish. She has alienated family. Freinds. Lovers and loved ones. And Neve hurts. Neve has been selfish and consumed by her own wants, desires, and needs and really didn't consider anyone else's. And Neve regrets that. Neve cannot change the fact she was stupid in the past. But she tries to face the next day being a little wiser, learning from her mistakes. If she learns a little each day, and applied those lessons..maybe Neve can become a good person. Neve hopes that is how that works.
And apparently a sword has many meanings. And melons. One has to be careful what they say these days, one word should not have so many different meanings. Live in Arx is very difficult.
So this is Neve Greenmarch. Feeling very blue. Feeling sad. Feeling of hurt inside, and feeling of change. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. I hope so. Because I like to smile, and it feels like the smiles these days are becoming harder and harder to find.
Well..it seems that a lot of people read these journals. I would of thought they wouldn't, thinking it's more a place to put your thoughts. But..apparently that is a black journal? So..I found out pretty quickly that other people read these.
So I've found out how it feels to have a relationship end via messenger. And..it does hurt about as much as I expected. I deserve it though. I really do. I've hurt people because I've been a girlish nightmare, and well..it is time to grow up. I've been trying to become a good respectable lady, it's been a long road, and I think I have been making progress. Neve will always be a work in progress. But until she can be whom she strives to be, maybe Neve just isn't meant to be married.
I have to thank Lady Alarissa Thrax. I think she has a fancier title..but...I dont remember it. I'm sorry Alarissa! But she has taken me in and taught an unruly woman-child that is Neve. I am thankful for her tutelage, and freindship because by all means I certainly irk her! She has been tolerant, and even supported me financially when it was needed. House Greenmarch has returned my coin in a lesser amount. However I have to respect that Alarissa has put up with me, so I hope I can find a place in house Thrax and continue to be of use, as she teaches me how to be a proper lady. Back in Greenmarch settlements before the compact things were often discussed by a punch to the face. And while that's not quite the approach I take, it still takes getting used to. It's a world of words as weapons. I'm not very well equipped for it - and I'm afraid I will never live up to be the perfect face of genteel..genty..gantreal..there, that seems close enough. I will never be as fancy as someone like her, or as calm and sly as Monique. Or as sturdy and studious as Marius. That is because I'm a Neve. And this Neve, she is flawed. She has her problems. But if Neve can learn to live in this land of men instead of trees, then Neve will be Alarissa's success story.
Neve can say, or well, write that she has never felt so lonely than in Arx, being surrounded by so many people she is the loneliest she has ever felt in her life. Neve is ill mannered. Resolute to the point of being rude. And she has been selfish - so selfish. She has alienated family. Freinds. Lovers and loved ones. And Neve hurts. Neve has been selfish and consumed by her own wants, desires, and needs and really didn't consider anyone else's. And Neve regrets that. Neve cannot change the fact she was stupid in the past. But she tries to face the next day being a little wiser, learning from her mistakes. If she learns a little each day, and applied those lessons..maybe Neve can become a good person. Neve hopes that is how that works.
And apparently a sword has many meanings. And melons. One has to be careful what they say these days, one word should not have so many different meanings. Live in Arx is very difficult.
So this is Neve Greenmarch. Feeling very blue. Feeling sad. Feeling of hurt inside, and feeling of change. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. I hope so. Because I like to smile, and it feels like the smiles these days are becoming harder and harder to find.
Written By Neve
Nov. 20, 2017, 1:08 p.m.(8/14/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Gailin
He is a tall man, with a really big sword. I think he is probably a very strong warrior, but I wouldn't really know. For as strong as he seems to be, he can also be just as gentle, open, and direct. He is a count of...somewhere I truly forget. Lots of titles. We talked while I ribboned some of Ariannas Home. He is Ariannas sister.
He is looking for a wife to join him on his new adventure of running a country. I will have to keep an eye out for any girls who like big swords. I wonder if he will keep the ribbon on it that I tied. Personally, that was a really big sword, when he pulled it out I shrieked and told him to put it away. That being said..seems nice. I hope he finds a nice wife, and has lots of children so I can tie ribbons into their hair!
He is looking for a wife to join him on his new adventure of running a country. I will have to keep an eye out for any girls who like big swords. I wonder if he will keep the ribbon on it that I tied. Personally, that was a really big sword, when he pulled it out I shrieked and told him to put it away. That being said..seems nice. I hope he finds a nice wife, and has lots of children so I can tie ribbons into their hair!
Written By Neve
Nov. 20, 2017, 9:19 a.m.(8/14/1007 AR)
So...I can put my thoughts into this huh? I write and then..I'm not sure. But I don't know if I have thoughts worth thinking about. Hmm. Okay I will give this a try! My name is Lady Neve Greenmarch. I like the Greenwood, and forests. I like cheap apple wine, and bacon. I like to tie colored ribbons everywhere to give a splash of colors.
No..no, that is me, but that isn't what I am thinking of. I am thinking that I am a coward. I am someone whom selfishly became so wrapped up in themselves that almost forgot who they were. Even now, I'm not sure where Neve begins and ends. I need to be a better Neve for her family. Monique cut off her support, no money. She felt my behavior was bad, and it likely was. Monique however is more than willing to punish but completely unwilling to teach, to put in the hard work. I am disappointed in her and hope we can do better. Having no money didn't bother me, but I am supported by Thrax now. I wonder if that means I am somehow part of House Thrax. I will have to ask. If I am, I will need to wear fancier clothes.
So Neve is looking for a spouse. She thinks she prefers a woman, but a man might be okay. It's easier to deal with the familiar, and men are so different. Do all men like tying women up as part of their preferences? I've heard this a couple times now, but I know few men close enough to ask. Neve is working her hardest to be a good potential wife. Though Neve will not tolerate being tied up, that gets you punched in the boob.
So dear diary..wait, what's that? Journal? Oh, ok. Right. Dear Journal buddy. I am Lady Neve Greenmarch. Can you find me a spouse? If so, please contact Marquis Marius. He's the guy with the pensive frown. And the bacon. How can one still be so frowns when they eat bacon? Neve doesn't understand.
If we are bringing things, Neve would also like some purple flowers, a new purple blanket, and a nice dress would be nice. Journal buddy, do you think I should go revealing? Like a license. Neve has heard you want to show the fruit but not let them eat it before the offer is made. So perhaps you can also send me some of these fruits that I can display? I have heard from the dock area that melons are particularly delightful, so please send me some melons and a basket, and I will partially hide them so that I can attract a potential mate. Do you think I could eat the melons afterwards? They might go well with some of Lady Ariannas strawberry wine. After I am done, maybe I will share my melons with Ari. Yes yes, I think she would like that. So dear Journal, if you know of anyone that would love me to share in my melons, that is if you should happen to provide some to me, please let Neve know.
Neve isn't sure how you say goodbye in a journal, so she will leave you with a word of wisdom she has heard. Give a man a fish, and he will eat for a day. Teach a man to fish, and he will eat for an entire lifetime. Hmm. That is good advice. We should teach more people to fish...
No..no, that is me, but that isn't what I am thinking of. I am thinking that I am a coward. I am someone whom selfishly became so wrapped up in themselves that almost forgot who they were. Even now, I'm not sure where Neve begins and ends. I need to be a better Neve for her family. Monique cut off her support, no money. She felt my behavior was bad, and it likely was. Monique however is more than willing to punish but completely unwilling to teach, to put in the hard work. I am disappointed in her and hope we can do better. Having no money didn't bother me, but I am supported by Thrax now. I wonder if that means I am somehow part of House Thrax. I will have to ask. If I am, I will need to wear fancier clothes.
So Neve is looking for a spouse. She thinks she prefers a woman, but a man might be okay. It's easier to deal with the familiar, and men are so different. Do all men like tying women up as part of their preferences? I've heard this a couple times now, but I know few men close enough to ask. Neve is working her hardest to be a good potential wife. Though Neve will not tolerate being tied up, that gets you punched in the boob.
So dear diary..wait, what's that? Journal? Oh, ok. Right. Dear Journal buddy. I am Lady Neve Greenmarch. Can you find me a spouse? If so, please contact Marquis Marius. He's the guy with the pensive frown. And the bacon. How can one still be so frowns when they eat bacon? Neve doesn't understand.
If we are bringing things, Neve would also like some purple flowers, a new purple blanket, and a nice dress would be nice. Journal buddy, do you think I should go revealing? Like a license. Neve has heard you want to show the fruit but not let them eat it before the offer is made. So perhaps you can also send me some of these fruits that I can display? I have heard from the dock area that melons are particularly delightful, so please send me some melons and a basket, and I will partially hide them so that I can attract a potential mate. Do you think I could eat the melons afterwards? They might go well with some of Lady Ariannas strawberry wine. After I am done, maybe I will share my melons with Ari. Yes yes, I think she would like that. So dear Journal, if you know of anyone that would love me to share in my melons, that is if you should happen to provide some to me, please let Neve know.
Neve isn't sure how you say goodbye in a journal, so she will leave you with a word of wisdom she has heard. Give a man a fish, and he will eat for a day. Teach a man to fish, and he will eat for an entire lifetime. Hmm. That is good advice. We should teach more people to fish...
Written By Neve
Feb. 26, 2017, 11:56 p.m.(1/1/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Rowan
I need my wilderness the same way I need the sun splashing warm across my face. I need to remember the sweetness of home and the life of the forest. Do you remember running through the thick brush and vines and tree roots that rose up from the ground in great arcs? The way we ran, jumping and leaping so often that we thought we were flying? Nothing could touch us, our Forest wrapped us up in her sweetness and showed us the best parts of ourselves. I don't want to forget what those parts are.
Written By Neve
Feb. 26, 2017, 11:51 p.m.(1/1/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Muiryn
I don't know what words I have for him right now. Neither one of us expected to see the other covered in blood and ichor, neither one of us expected to have to do what we had to do to survive the horrors we came upon. All I can say is this:
I am Neve Greenmarch,
Daughter of Muiryn Greenmarch.
Where he leads, I follow.
Where he speaks, I listen.
Where he fights, I stand.
I am Neve Greenmarch,
Daughter of Muiryn Greenmarch.
Where he leads, I follow.
Where he speaks, I listen.
Where he fights, I stand.
Written By Neve
Feb. 26, 2017, 11:46 p.m.(1/1/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Niamh
I have seen this woman move across blood and darkness in the blink of an eye. I have seen her obliterate evil with one swing of a (very large) stick. I have walked in true darkness at her side and I would do so again. She is more than just family. She is the woman I hope to become one day, she always has been. Before... Before she seemed fearless and untouchable. Now I know that no one is untouchable, she is still the woman I hope to become one day. Strong. Confident. Brutal.
Written By Neve
Feb. 26, 2017, 11:40 p.m.(1/1/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Calathane
I come to these journals after a journey I took to what can only be the very edge of evil. It is the kind of journey that makes one examine their heart and recognize the truth of it. I have faced fears I didn't know I have and seen horrors that will haunt me for the rest of my life. I know I will wake every night screaming for what I cannot save and what I cannot change and the sickly wet sounds that are made in the true dark. And still... I know my heart. As the future descends upon us, you will be my light and I yours.
Written By Neve
Feb. 26, 2017, 11:35 p.m.(1/1/1006 AR)
I have looked into the great abyss of evil. I have seen the true nature of suffering. I have walked against a darkness so great I think I may never understand what light is again. Our trip was supposed to be scouting, finding.. looking. But what we found and what we did was far more than anyone had bargained for. I cannot describe the horrors, I cannot put words to them. I killed a man.. or something like a man. He wore our shape, he spoke language, but nothing human could have wrought the horrors he had and what he would have done to us. I still... I do not understand what I saw. Abandoned... Shav... I don't know what those words mean anymore.
What frightens me the most, though, is knowing that what I saw is only the very surface of the evils lurking in the darkness. This is only the beginning. Spirits willing, we will live to see the end.
What frightens me the most, though, is knowing that what I saw is only the very surface of the evils lurking in the darkness. This is only the beginning. Spirits willing, we will live to see the end.
Written By Neve
Feb. 18, 2017, 11 a.m.(12/12/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Eirlys
It's easy to take things like family for granted. They've always been there so you just assume they always will be, and that nothing can touch them. To be sure, too, we Greenmarchers are no strangers to death and loss. It's a part of the way of living. But after this last battle, when I look around and see all these folk mourning the ones that didn't come back, I'm only selfishly grateful that you and Fia did.
Written By Neve
Feb. 18, 2017, 10:52 a.m.(12/12/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Calathane
I know that you will go to the ends of the earth and back. I know that you will climb the mountain and descend into the ravine. I know that you will choose the path of the righteous and that yours is a true heart. The spirits brought us together and guide your path and at the end of your quest I will be waiting.
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