Written By Lys
Oct. 15, 2023, 11:41 p.m.(1/7/1021 AR)
For once I did not have nightmares. Instead a blissful, emptiness game to my dreams. No laughter, no hollow bells, only a soft warm silence. I know the reason why but it cannot be written down into words.
Written By Lys
Oct. 15, 2023, 11:40 p.m.(1/7/1021 AR)
Relationship Note on Malcolm
Duke Shepherd has both given me a new puppy to help ward off my nightmares and taken me as a protege. We have a goal in mind now. And I think... it may be the most ambitious thing I have ever worked for.
Written By Lys
Oct. 14, 2023, 10:11 p.m.(1/5/1021 AR)
I know the world does not revolve around me, but why is everything so heavy? Why do I feel cursed. All the laughter is gone. The colors of my world with it.
Written By Lys
Oct. 9, 2023, 3:23 a.m.(12/21/1020 AR)
I dreamt of laughter in the halls again, and the clattering of feed running amongst them. But when I searched for the sounds there was nothing and no one. The house was still and silent... like it always is.
Written By Lys
Oct. 4, 2023, 2:28 a.m.(8/26/1020 AR)
I dreamt I was wrapped in funerary wool. I dreamt I was lowered down in the well. And it was sealed above me. I woke spitting up water... That Bower had knocked over from a goblet on my nightstand onto my face.
Written By Lys
Oct. 4, 2023, 2:06 a.m.(8/25/1020 AR)
I walk these empty halls and I wonder-- Why me? Why am I the one left standing. I locked all the rooms. I closed up all of their rooms. But I cannot lock away their ghosts. Maybe I shall set this cursed house on fire.
Written By Lys
Sept. 28, 2023, 1:48 p.m.(8/14/1020 AR)
I dreamt of my king of stone again. Eyes of of faceted sapphire. Hair formed from stygian. I cursed. I pleaded. I kicked. I screamed. I wept before his marble feet. He remained unmoved. I woke with blood on my tongue.
Written By Lys
Aug. 31, 2023, 10:30 a.m.(6/14/1020 AR)
I dreamt of laughter ringing in the halls, but everywhere I looked I found nothing but silent shadows. The more I searched the further away the laughter got. In desperation I searched the house from top to bottom but it was as it always is-- empty and cold.
I woke standing outside the vault door.
I woke standing outside the vault door.
Written By Lys
July 10, 2020, 12:21 p.m.(8/18/1013 AR)
I dreamt of the well again. I sat on the lip of it, and watched as others came to it and dipped their cups in. They drank deep and glowed with satisfaction. I watched as each was healed of grievous wounds. I watched as the lame drank and could walk away. I watched as the old grew young once more. I watched as the dead were brought back to life.
But when I dipped my own cup into the well the water turned to ash in my mouth.
But when I dipped my own cup into the well the water turned to ash in my mouth.
Written By Lys
July 1, 2020, 10:21 a.m.(7/27/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Shard
I'm pretty sure you don't trust anyone, friend.
Written By Lys
June 30, 2020, 12:45 p.m.(7/26/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Piccola
Whoops.
Written By Lys
June 27, 2020, 6:25 p.m.(7/20/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Sirius
It isn't easy, my prince. When the laughter dies and the silence fills up that space. When joy is cut off with one deft move and the quiet rushes in louder than it has any right to be... it hurts. Silence isn't empty, it's full. It's a painful fullness.
Written By Lys
June 26, 2020, 5:24 a.m.(7/17/1013 AR)
I dreamt that laughter died, and the silence was filled only with hollow ringing bells.
Written By Lys
June 23, 2020, 5:45 p.m.(7/12/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Eleyna
I miss you terribly. I'm lost without your guidance and your grace. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to act. I wish you were here to help me.
Written By Lys
June 21, 2020, 2:24 a.m.(7/7/1013 AR)
I dreamt I walked through a laughing crowd. I tried to join in on the fun and merriment, but they turned away or looked straight through me. I dreamt that when I spoke my words fell on deaf ears. I dreamt of screaming at the top of my lungs but no one heard me.
I dreamt of a cold stone floor, of laughter in the hallway, and drunks stumbling by in the night.
When I woke I went to his room to find company, but he is gone. And his room sits collecting dust.
I dreamt of a cold stone floor, of laughter in the hallway, and drunks stumbling by in the night.
When I woke I went to his room to find company, but he is gone. And his room sits collecting dust.
Written By Lys
June 19, 2020, 12:18 a.m.(7/3/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Brianna
Lady Brianna Halfshav continuing to take potshots at me after Champions have been called is a touch disgraceful. But I will endure until after the matter is settled with our Champions.
Written By Lys
June 16, 2020, 11:55 p.m.(6/27/1013 AR)
It's quite strange how a single moment of kindness, can cause you to have faith in your fellow man again.
Written By Lys
March 31, 2019, 11:25 p.m.(11/5/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Audric
I cannot express how much I miss you in words. How do I express what it is like to have your legs cut from underneath you, yet being expected to keep walking? How do I express what it is like to have the rope holding you up out of the water suddenly cut. How do I express what it is like to lose the only family you have ever had...
I miss you.
I miss you.
Written By Lys
March 29, 2019, 3:29 p.m.(10/28/1010 AR)
I dreamt I stood on the balcony of a high, high tower. I watched below me as the world burned, and drank sweet wine while below me the people screamed.
Written By Lys
Feb. 7, 2019, 8:06 a.m.(7/11/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Audric
I dreamt of the well before you. I drank deep from the sorrows within the well. I sat beside the well and dipped my goblet in over, and over. Drinking deeply down until I felt nothingness. I drank from the void until there was nothing left inside. Still, I continued to drink. Let my body be like my soul. But then your hand closed over my wrist and you made me drop my cup. Instead in my fingers you placed a knife. You pulled me to my feet and you taught me how to use that blade to reclaim a smile with every cut, every splash of blood of our enemies.
You taught me to dance my pain away with a knife and a laugh, but your laughter was the music I danced too. My smiles were all a mimicry of yours.
You taught me to dance my pain away with a knife and a laugh, but your laughter was the music I danced too. My smiles were all a mimicry of yours.
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