Written By Teireno
May 11, 2019, 11:06 p.m.(2/2/1011 AR)
When did I become so indecisive in my life? Perhaps when I left those who usually made the decisions for me. I want so many things, but I fear the consequences of acting out on them. I've been shielded from those consequences for so long that it is hard for me to deal with them when they come up, and to fight or stand my ground when it is challenged.
If I am to be worth anything to anyone, I will have to learn to stand on my own feet. That means standing up for my right to try for what I want. Even if failure is certain, at least I can say I tried. At least others can say that I have courage, even in the face of defeat.
If rejection is my fate, then I want to see it and hear it myself.
If I am to be worth anything to anyone, I will have to learn to stand on my own feet. That means standing up for my right to try for what I want. Even if failure is certain, at least I can say I tried. At least others can say that I have courage, even in the face of defeat.
If rejection is my fate, then I want to see it and hear it myself.
Written By Teireno
May 4, 2019, 1:44 p.m.(1/16/1011 AR)
It hasn't been long since I've been living alone, and already I am starting to feel overwhelmed. Not so much by loneliness, mind you; there are plenty of family and new friends that help in that aspect. It is the indecisiveness in my future that is making me feel unease. I never knew how much I relied on my father's overbearing nature until it is gone.
There are so many paths my life can take right now. It's hard to not feel compelled to travel all of them.
There are so many paths my life can take right now. It's hard to not feel compelled to travel all of them.
Written By Teireno
April 25, 2019, 12:39 p.m.(12/26/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Samuele
I can't thank you enough for this opportunity to model, honestly. My nerves aside, I am quite excited.
I hope I do well for you and your house!
I hope I do well for you and your house!
Written By Teireno
April 16, 2019, 4:41 p.m.(12/8/1010 AR)
I am long overdue in my writing, it seems.
My arrival to Arx went as well as I expected, perhaps even more so on the positive. I haven’t had a chance to properly meet the family here, but from what interactions I had, they all seem welcoming. It has been a while since I’ve talked to family outside of my father. Being dragged off to neighboring countries to practice the art of the courtier does that to someone, I suppose.
Let’s see if father’s hard work actually stuck… or if I’ll fail in some sort of fantastic fashion, like usual. Hopefully it’d be an entertaining failure, or else I am really screwed.
My arrival to Arx went as well as I expected, perhaps even more so on the positive. I haven’t had a chance to properly meet the family here, but from what interactions I had, they all seem welcoming. It has been a while since I’ve talked to family outside of my father. Being dragged off to neighboring countries to practice the art of the courtier does that to someone, I suppose.
Let’s see if father’s hard work actually stuck… or if I’ll fail in some sort of fantastic fashion, like usual. Hopefully it’d be an entertaining failure, or else I am really screwed.
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