Written By River
Dec. 14, 2018, 5:17 p.m.(3/4/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Orathy
I never thought I'd hear, but I either have Caught him drunk, or he's having a particularly good day, but Let the records show that Orathy, can say I love you. It's only once, but I write it here, so if he never says it again, I still can prove it one time.
Written By River
Dec. 2, 2018, 3:40 a.m.(2/6/1010 AR)
I have met a variety of interesting people in recent weeks, quite a few of them members of the clergy. They all seem to be of different personalities, and backgrounds. But, they all seem to have a dedication to their work and it is refreshing to see. I find that all of it is etruly fascinating and the more I talk with them the more I wish to learn more. Probably as it should be.
Written By River
Nov. 30, 2018, 3:29 a.m.(2/2/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Sophie
The Mercies have been so kind in helping me try and handle osme fo het things that have happened to me recently, most noteably Mother Sophie.
She. She has had a true bit of compassion for me that shows why she holds the position that she does. NOt even t ospeak f oher skill in what she does.
She deserves all the thanks I can give her even though I don't think we found a salution to the problem specificly.
She. She has had a true bit of compassion for me that shows why she holds the position that she does. NOt even t ospeak f oher skill in what she does.
She deserves all the thanks I can give her even though I don't think we found a salution to the problem specificly.
Written By River
Nov. 24, 2018, 6 p.m.(1/20/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Sina
I think this is a wonderful idea, and I do hope that my writings here in regards to your observations have not offended You. But truly I think your idea of holding public forums and discussions could be very benefitial, and to cover such a variety of topics. I am quite interested and would be glad to help if possible. I do hope that these pages will reflect all the best of our society, even though it may also shed light on some of our worst faults as well.
Written By River
Nov. 23, 2018, 11:21 a.m.(1/17/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Sina
Maybe you are right. But if as a society a people chooses to protect the ones who make poor decisions, such as some of the things we write about here, It is easy to put blame on the people who stand by and say, it is not me who did this act, but he did what he thought was best for the compact, it is at best being passive to the suffering of people who must make difficult choices beneath the weight of death by the compact. it is not as if peace and love is brought to every shav, sometimes it is force and threats, under the guise of we do this for your greater benefit. If we ignore that fact, that there are selfish and evil men who do things under the banner of the compact, then we take on their blame as well. I do not blame anyone here in this situation, but to say that the compact always acts for the good of others is only coming from the situation of those who are in the compact. I am sure that thralls was very good for Thrax in many ways, but to the Thralls, I am not sure they see living under debt that is passed from mother and father to son and daughter benefitial for them.
My point is just because it is good for a people or a society, does not mean that we cannot see the other side and how it is painful and ruins everything for the people we turn from their traditions to the crown.
My point is just because it is good for a people or a society, does not mean that we cannot see the other side and how it is painful and ruins everything for the people we turn from their traditions to the crown.
Written By River
Nov. 22, 2018, 8:50 p.m.(1/16/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Sina
I wish many could take the approach in your response to Shard, but in this situation. NO matter what you do it is us against them. It is going into a person's home, telling them they are wrong, changing their culture, forcing them to swear fealty, and then if they don't well, they have the hope of dying or even worse being taken and used by the horned one. So, with that impossible choice I can understand the response of us, and them, because it is us and them, it's not we all serve the same king or the same god As Sir Jeffith says, it is some of us serve the same gods and kings willingly, and some are broken on the sword. It's not right or wrong that I comment on. All, have differing opinions on that point, but the resentment will always be there, it may even grow, but recognizing that resentment in my opinion does more than to say some of us are nicer than others.
I do not mean to be insulting, this is just how I read this statement. But then again I don't feel like my opinion matters in the long run. I am a former thrall, I was a whisper, now I am neither of these things, Lords tell me what direction is right, I sometimes disagree, but it wouldn't matter if I said I disagreed or not. So, in a way I find myself feeling that same divide. Maybe it would be best to show people how there is no divide in arx, how we want good for all, and that might ease tensions such as this.
I do not mean to be insulting, this is just how I read this statement. But then again I don't feel like my opinion matters in the long run. I am a former thrall, I was a whisper, now I am neither of these things, Lords tell me what direction is right, I sometimes disagree, but it wouldn't matter if I said I disagreed or not. So, in a way I find myself feeling that same divide. Maybe it would be best to show people how there is no divide in arx, how we want good for all, and that might ease tensions such as this.
Written By River
Nov. 22, 2018, 8:37 p.m.(1/16/1010 AR)
So I am sitting here reading through the whites today and the various thoughts of the people who either have gone and slane them, or who have thought them as enemies, or who seem to have a righteous cause or not. And I can only say to myself after shaking my head, how sad it is that is a pissing contest on who has done the most grieves acts and who has seen the most bloodshed. It seems that no matter what side anyone is on in this debate, it is a still a sinful stain, for life should be more precious than this.
It's not to say that it shouldn't be done, or that actions shouldn't be taken, but this... these words, these thoughts that people place on display, makes me ill, that the guilt is not seen in any of it. Maybe it is just the cold and my own moods, but I think I may keep to my own musings here. It is cowardly maybe, but it is better than to fill myself with such sadness.
It's not to say that it shouldn't be done, or that actions shouldn't be taken, but this... these words, these thoughts that people place on display, makes me ill, that the guilt is not seen in any of it. Maybe it is just the cold and my own moods, but I think I may keep to my own musings here. It is cowardly maybe, but it is better than to fill myself with such sadness.
Written By River
Nov. 22, 2018, 4:09 a.m.(1/15/1010 AR)
It scares me, it truly scares me of late that the work I love doing is turning into a punishment. I sleep and I toss and turn, I hurt when I leave my clients, the counsel I give makes me suffer. And I just want it to ease, to give me some peace so when I close my eyes I do not ache, so that my bones do not feel as if they are being ground to dust at times, or that someone's anxieties are my own. But I swear I will find the cause of this unease, this thing that separates me from the things I care about so that I may be better.
Still, for now. It is only prayer and tolerance that give me comfort, though I am slowly yet surely running out of the latter.
Still, for now. It is only prayer and tolerance that give me comfort, though I am slowly yet surely running out of the latter.
Written By River
Nov. 21, 2018, 1:29 a.m.(1/12/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Jeffeth
I am so sad to see you in such states as I have, but I think that today, we've come to an understanding. I hope there is room to improve on a friendship even though we disagree. I'll pray for your comfort and that you can find some peace.
Written By River
Nov. 21, 2018, 1:27 a.m.(1/12/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Amund
Such a direct, yet interesting man I met today, while drinking tea. Very kind, direct, but honorable too, I think
Written By River
Nov. 21, 2018, 1:19 a.m.(1/12/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Orathy
I have warned you plenty of times that if you can't remember you shouldn't make a repeat of it.
Written By River
Nov. 19, 2018, 11:31 a.m.(1/9/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Orathy
Love is a silly thing, it is awkward, it ignores so many flaws, mends wounds, highlights slights, and hurts, and heartache. But I can truly say, that I love you, and will continue to love you. I hope it makes you better and I hope it helps you find some peace and brings some light back to your eyes. From one bleeding heart to a heart of stone, aim higher, reach for the stars as I do the same, my Husband.
Written By River
July 17, 2018, 8:10 a.m.(3/16/1009 AR)
I've had the opportunity to work with Guildmaster JOscelin, and others for the Crafter's hall opening. The fashion show was absolutely spectacular and all the models showed off their skills. The work was great, and the air of positivity and group initiative, I couldn't ask for more. Really, was a blast.
Written By River
June 27, 2018, 5:18 a.m.(2/3/1009 AR)
MIrari has entered into a large commission work for me, and given her talent with the other jewelry I am wearing at the moment. I have no doubt she's going to do well with it. I'm excited to see what the whole thing looks like, but the Cologne came in today, and it is an amazing scent, and worth the price in deed. Here's to hoping it can make me compete with Saedrus, though I doubt it. He's in a league of his own. But, it would be nice.
In other news, I may have a patron lined up if I can manage not to be a disgrace to myself.
In other news, I may have a patron lined up if I can manage not to be a disgrace to myself.
Written By River
June 18, 2018, 8:42 a.m.(1/13/1009 AR)
Another night of useless violence, unneeded conflict and dick waving. I really hope it calms down, just for a day. One day...that's really all I want.
Written By River
June 17, 2018, 9:26 p.m.(1/13/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Fredrik
I think that I have found another great conversationalist today, in the midst of conversing of all this mess with the Pantheon in the city. Fredrik is very knowledgeable, and had brought up many points that I didn't really think about myself. Still. it's difficult to say what so many I deal with think. But, the ability to have a level discussion with someone about difficult topics without defensiveness is a thing that I enjoy immensely.
Written By River
June 17, 2018, 9:29 a.m.(1/12/1009 AR)
After reading some of the words written in the whites recently I can only conclude, that if The Shamans of the city wish to serve in a group of their own, perhaps it is time to find own congregation, and ways to bind themselves together as an organization. I know there must be a way for individuals to still serve others, and if Shamanism is So common, as it seems to be, it doesn't seem to me that finding a new tie to one another is difficult, so long as it falls into appropriate standards. That being said, I believe it is the Pantheon that suffers from this as they have told their faithful to look elsewhere for service. Still, there will be more to rise up and fill the places left vacant. Does it help matters? It does not. Is it a decision I can understand? yes. I think it is a poor decision though.
Written By River
June 17, 2018, 1:33 a.m.(1/11/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Selene
IN my short time in Whisper House I have had the great fortune to work on becoming someone I'd like to be. And I am so glad to have Radiant Selene be there to help me. Hopefully soon, I will finish up my first contract signing and bring yet another family into our roster.
Written By River
June 16, 2018, 8:40 a.m.(1/9/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Lyiana
All I can say is she has a temper and I walked into a storm I'm not sure I want to even begin to try and navigate. There was no way to salvage that. I think Dame Alexis and I should maybe just depart for quieter conversations next time.
Written By River
June 16, 2018, 8:38 a.m.(1/9/1009 AR)
So often these days I find myself watching, watching others and their successes, their failures, there struggles and their times of peace. and I wonder, is it because I am a person who sits apart, , or is it because I just feel so little or know so little that I cannot attach. I have no family. I have no home, and yet I am in a new place and doing my best.
Do I feel sorry for myself? I am not sure, but...I miss it, the closeness brought together by blood, and tradition. True family. And so I'll keep watching and living from the outside. I'll continue to study the smiles of others. Even if desperately I'm praying every night that there is peace, and a home a resting place for me. Even now the scribe who takes these words down, shakes his head, and sees the pity I heap into the pages. So, I will leave it be for the moment. Before I do, I miss you Mother...I miss you. I wish you still were alive, and still could pass down wisdom, and every morning, noon, and night, I still remember you.
Do I feel sorry for myself? I am not sure, but...I miss it, the closeness brought together by blood, and tradition. True family. And so I'll keep watching and living from the outside. I'll continue to study the smiles of others. Even if desperately I'm praying every night that there is peace, and a home a resting place for me. Even now the scribe who takes these words down, shakes his head, and sees the pity I heap into the pages. So, I will leave it be for the moment. Before I do, I miss you Mother...I miss you. I wish you still were alive, and still could pass down wisdom, and every morning, noon, and night, I still remember you.
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