Written By Nisaa
May 2, 2021, 8:32 p.m.(5/25/1015 AR)
Relationship Note on Aiden
Duke Aiden, you told me you had a feeling you would not be returning. I was thinking that it was just perhaps being nerves. Hoping. I told you I would hold the things you sent to me, and give them to you when you returned.
You are not to be returning, not here. It is instead the Wheel you will see again. I am supposed to feel comfort in that, but what I feel is despair to lose yet another friend. I remember so many good times spent with you. Dinner with Silas, you, my Malik, and I. The talks we had in the aviary. How excited I was to be able to have a small shop within your menagerie. The Butterfly Garden there where Malik had a plaque with my name on it to surprise me. The time we sat by the river and laughed about the idea of carrying a pet fish around.
That is what I find comfort in, the memories of moments shared. That is the most treasured thing our hearts can hold, isn't it? The memory of someone dear to us who is with us no more.
You are not to be returning, not here. It is instead the Wheel you will see again. I am supposed to feel comfort in that, but what I feel is despair to lose yet another friend. I remember so many good times spent with you. Dinner with Silas, you, my Malik, and I. The talks we had in the aviary. How excited I was to be able to have a small shop within your menagerie. The Butterfly Garden there where Malik had a plaque with my name on it to surprise me. The time we sat by the river and laughed about the idea of carrying a pet fish around.
That is what I find comfort in, the memories of moments shared. That is the most treasured thing our hearts can hold, isn't it? The memory of someone dear to us who is with us no more.
Written By Nisaa
Nov. 4, 2018, 5:35 p.m.(12/7/1009 AR)
Like many others, I was attending the Masquerade on the night of the Eclipse. It was being an interesting evening, and a surprising one as well. While I was not able to take part in all of the things I was hoping to, I cannot say that I would change a thing. Well, perhapsing that I could have spoken to Tehom, but I shall instead seek more time in his shrine. I have spoken to some insightful people there.
Written By Nisaa
Oct. 1, 2018, 10:43 p.m.(9/15/1009 AR)
The sea, it called to me today and so I sat upon the shore. I did not remove my shoes and dance barefoot in the sands, as I so often do. I did not lift my voice in song. Today was not a time for that. Today was a time to watch the light of the sun disappear from the sky as day turned to night. It was a time to be witness to the blanket of darkness settle over the sea and beyond to the horizon, like velveted silk caressing the skin. It was a time to walk along the beach in quiet solitude and feel the water kiss my toes, to flow through me, cleansing my soul with its tears. Today was a time to remember what was, to cherish those memories. And, it was a time to know, that no matter how much you wish upon the glittering stars in the heavens, some dreams are simply not meant to come true. Even if people are promising to you that they will.
Written By Nisaa
June 24, 2018, 10:43 p.m.(1/27/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Fredrik
I met the Lord Fredrik of Redtyde tonight at the Feast for the Senses, hosted by Princess Jaaenelle Velenosa. I was not sure what to be expecting from this meal, but I found myself to be enjoying myself greatly. The food was delicious and it was being a unique experience I am sure to not be forgetting anyime soon. I accidentally spilled the soup on the Lord, to which I felt so apologetic. He insisted it was his fault though. I look forward to a day I can be speaking with him more without a blindfold on. The accessory certainly does make the act of eating much more difficult, especially when you are meant to be feeding your companion. Thank you, Lord Fredrik, for sharing the experience with me, even if it was by pure happenstance.
Written By Nisaa
March 25, 2018, 11:07 p.m.(6/6/1008 AR)
I too am full of sorrow for the loss of Abbas. I have seen others speak of their loss of him as well. I have also been seeing many speak of the man in the time since I have arrived in Arx, focusing on the atrocities he committed. He knew he was not endeared to most peoples. I know what many think too. But for me, he was being a man who listened to what I had to say. He helped me when I was in need of guidance. I am deeply saddened by the loss of him. I wish I could erase the last images of him that haunt my memories, replace them with the ones of more happiness I had of him before that moment. He was a friend, of whom I will always be holding dear in memory along side a deeper sorrow that I could not help him more.
I am of course saddened by the many lives given in battle. Most I did not know well myself. But Abbas, and Estaban have left their marks upon me. I will also miss Baron Estaban Saik. He was always a sweet, kind friend to me. It has been a long time since we had the opportunists to speak, but I was happening upon him not long ago in the street. We stopped, hugged, and shared a smile with the few words of pleasantness we had time for. That is my last memory of him, and one I will cherish. I am hoping his wife will find some peace in the knowings of how kindly he was thought of by so many.
May all who lost their lives find their way to the wheel with ease, and may all who remain to mourn find solace for the memories in the hearts. We are all so many of us filled with heartache and grief. Do not be pushing aside the despair too soon. Let the tears fall, for they are a mark of how deeply we have loved, whether in friendship, romance, or family bondings.
I am of course saddened by the many lives given in battle. Most I did not know well myself. But Abbas, and Estaban have left their marks upon me. I will also miss Baron Estaban Saik. He was always a sweet, kind friend to me. It has been a long time since we had the opportunists to speak, but I was happening upon him not long ago in the street. We stopped, hugged, and shared a smile with the few words of pleasantness we had time for. That is my last memory of him, and one I will cherish. I am hoping his wife will find some peace in the knowings of how kindly he was thought of by so many.
May all who lost their lives find their way to the wheel with ease, and may all who remain to mourn find solace for the memories in the hearts. We are all so many of us filled with heartache and grief. Do not be pushing aside the despair too soon. Let the tears fall, for they are a mark of how deeply we have loved, whether in friendship, romance, or family bondings.
Written By Nisaa
Sept. 24, 2017, 1:19 p.m.(4/10/1007 AR)
There is much to be said about what can be conveyed in the gaze of a person. Some peoples say that the eyes are windows to the soul. This, I am believing, is true. I am also of believing that the eyes can often tell the tale of our innermost thoughts. Thoughts and souls may not always be in the tandem of things. A person can be having villainous thoughts, but be the bearer of a 'good' soul.
I have been witness to such an intense gaze recently, that in only a few moments, it spoke an entire story, and left me with quite the suspenseful hanging from the cliff. Is that the correct cliche? I am of certain that anyone who reads this might know what I mean.
I have been witness to such an intense gaze recently, that in only a few moments, it spoke an entire story, and left me with quite the suspenseful hanging from the cliff. Is that the correct cliche? I am of certain that anyone who reads this might know what I mean.
Written By Nisaa
Sept. 20, 2017, 10:25 a.m.(4/2/1007 AR)
Last evening, I attended the art showing for the Freedom Art Show. It was long ago that Prince Mason Grayson spoke to me about his idea for this showing. We had a disagreement of opinions on likening something to a slave auction, and in effort to understand one another's thoughts, he invited me to tea to speak on it. I was thankful for his willingness to be open minded, and appreciated his view, even if I still did not wholly be agreeing with it. At the time, Malik was going to offer his paintings to the show as well. But he left before it took place.
A long time passed when I heard nothing about the show. I was disappointed when I heard that it was happening, because I had offered to dance for it on that long ago day and I was not contacted. I had wished to tell the story of a slave becoming free with my movements. I had felt forgotten, and maybe I was. However, when I arrived at the show, I was so overcomed with emotion at some of the paintings, one in particular, that had I not been prepared before hand to see them, I am not sure I would have been able to dance. Some of the paintings, as they say, hit too close to the home. One was a direct stabbing in my heart.
I am still saddened that I could not take part in the show, given perspective as a former slave, but I am glad that the topic is being brought to the light, even though Thralldom was more the focus than slavery. They are alike, but yet different. With the profound talent of the Mister Fortunato Grayhope, people were given a chance to visualize and imagine the pain that can be happening. Perhaps it will bring deeper understanding.
I am gladdened that Mayir Grayhope was in attendance. He is a new friend, and being one that helped to calm my emotions in the moment, and in the end, let me enjoy bits and pieces of the night.
I am sorry I was unable to socialize with more of the crowd, and truthfully, it was so large and I so affected, I did not even notice who half of the people were. I caught a glimpse of Princess Denica Thrax, but was not able to speak with her. Nor was I able to speak with Saedrus, or Lady Lucita Igniseri. Prince Mason briefly spoke, but as host, had to flit away. I am hoping to speak again to these people soon.
And to hopefully not be forgotten.
A long time passed when I heard nothing about the show. I was disappointed when I heard that it was happening, because I had offered to dance for it on that long ago day and I was not contacted. I had wished to tell the story of a slave becoming free with my movements. I had felt forgotten, and maybe I was. However, when I arrived at the show, I was so overcomed with emotion at some of the paintings, one in particular, that had I not been prepared before hand to see them, I am not sure I would have been able to dance. Some of the paintings, as they say, hit too close to the home. One was a direct stabbing in my heart.
I am still saddened that I could not take part in the show, given perspective as a former slave, but I am glad that the topic is being brought to the light, even though Thralldom was more the focus than slavery. They are alike, but yet different. With the profound talent of the Mister Fortunato Grayhope, people were given a chance to visualize and imagine the pain that can be happening. Perhaps it will bring deeper understanding.
I am gladdened that Mayir Grayhope was in attendance. He is a new friend, and being one that helped to calm my emotions in the moment, and in the end, let me enjoy bits and pieces of the night.
I am sorry I was unable to socialize with more of the crowd, and truthfully, it was so large and I so affected, I did not even notice who half of the people were. I caught a glimpse of Princess Denica Thrax, but was not able to speak with her. Nor was I able to speak with Saedrus, or Lady Lucita Igniseri. Prince Mason briefly spoke, but as host, had to flit away. I am hoping to speak again to these people soon.
And to hopefully not be forgotten.
Written By Nisaa
Sept. 17, 2017, 10:06 p.m.(3/25/1007 AR)
It was good to be dancing in front of a crowd again. It felt good to be able to spread my wings and fly free. I was hired with Cesare Whisper as entertainment for an event held by Lady Lucita and Lady Quenia. I did not get to mingle for much, but everyone seemed to have a wonderful time. I can also now say with pride, I have danced before another King!
Not everything is being wonderful though. I wanted to help my new friends that are of the Thrax peoples, but it seemed that no one had anything for me to be helping with. I am understanding, of course. But I worry for them in this very difficult times. I feel so strongly that I should be helping, that I could be doing something, but, I am not sure what. I hope with my heart of hearts that they are all returning home soon, and if not in good health, in soon to be good health of recovery.
Not everything is being wonderful though. I wanted to help my new friends that are of the Thrax peoples, but it seemed that no one had anything for me to be helping with. I am understanding, of course. But I worry for them in this very difficult times. I feel so strongly that I should be helping, that I could be doing something, but, I am not sure what. I hope with my heart of hearts that they are all returning home soon, and if not in good health, in soon to be good health of recovery.
Written By Nisaa
Aug. 27, 2017, 12:08 p.m.(2/7/1007 AR)
I have had much difficulty lately. It has been a very long time since I have felt so unsure, and so alone. So much has been happening, and I am left wishing I could share it all with Malik, but he is well entrenched in his travels. There have been moments where I am feeling absolutely terrified. But, I am reminded that there are still people who are caring about me, that are still here to help me through all of this confusion I now face. The people of Thrax have been very helpful, and I am liking to thank them all;
Duke Harald Grimhall - For your time and encouragement, and for agreeing to sail me out into the waters to see what could be learned.
Count Turo Navegant - For hearing me out, and your trust.
Countessa Arcelia Navegant - A new found friend, I am thinking. She has eased many of my worries, and invited me into her home, offering me conversation whenever I am in need. I am thankful for all of her kindnesses.
Lady Melinda Grimhall - I was nervous when first meeting her, as I was in the midst of conversation, but she too eased my fears and even gifted to me a beautiful gown.
Baron Edward Stormbreak - He has become a person that I feel trust in, and someone who has gone out of his way to help me in my time of need. We have long been acquaintanced, but now, I am able to count him as a dear friend. He is an excellent student as well.
I should also mention appreciation for Marquis Hadrian Mazetti and his wife, Marquessa Cambria Mazetti, the man I sat near to watch the game of Donkey Knights, Lord Ian Kennex, the man who humorously, albeit a bit grotesquely in my views, wore a pig suit to the festivities (I am sorry, I only know him as Sir Ham), and the others that evening who filled my moments with laughter and smiles that were very much needed. Thank you all.
And as always, Prince Aiden Grayson and Baron Silas Whitehawk. Even though I have not been seeing them lately, I know that they are always there for me when I need.
So thank you to each of you. You have all aided in helping me through tough times, even if you were not fully aware of your impact in the happenings of my life.
Duke Harald Grimhall - For your time and encouragement, and for agreeing to sail me out into the waters to see what could be learned.
Count Turo Navegant - For hearing me out, and your trust.
Countessa Arcelia Navegant - A new found friend, I am thinking. She has eased many of my worries, and invited me into her home, offering me conversation whenever I am in need. I am thankful for all of her kindnesses.
Lady Melinda Grimhall - I was nervous when first meeting her, as I was in the midst of conversation, but she too eased my fears and even gifted to me a beautiful gown.
Baron Edward Stormbreak - He has become a person that I feel trust in, and someone who has gone out of his way to help me in my time of need. We have long been acquaintanced, but now, I am able to count him as a dear friend. He is an excellent student as well.
I should also mention appreciation for Marquis Hadrian Mazetti and his wife, Marquessa Cambria Mazetti, the man I sat near to watch the game of Donkey Knights, Lord Ian Kennex, the man who humorously, albeit a bit grotesquely in my views, wore a pig suit to the festivities (I am sorry, I only know him as Sir Ham), and the others that evening who filled my moments with laughter and smiles that were very much needed. Thank you all.
And as always, Prince Aiden Grayson and Baron Silas Whitehawk. Even though I have not been seeing them lately, I know that they are always there for me when I need.
So thank you to each of you. You have all aided in helping me through tough times, even if you were not fully aware of your impact in the happenings of my life.
Written By Nisaa
June 25, 2017, 9:44 p.m.(9/21/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Malik
He gives me butterflies, in every possible way that he can. Even when held still in his embrace, my heart and soul feel as if I am dancing and light as air; free and flying high.
Written By Nisaa
June 18, 2017, 7:09 p.m.(9/5/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Malik
No one will ever tell us again, that we cannot be as we wish, my artist. No one can ever tell us again that we cannot dance with each other.
And like dance, you lift my spirits and make me feel free. And the best part is, I know that our dance is only beginning.
And like dance, you lift my spirits and make me feel free. And the best part is, I know that our dance is only beginning.
Written By Nisaa
June 4, 2017, 11:41 p.m.(8/4/1006 AR)
it has been both a wonderful, and a difficult week.
I have tried to soar free since arriving here in Arx. Tried to be like the butterfly and spread my wings. I have felt that, since I have been here; a sense of freedom unlike that which I have felt before.
Something happened this week that reminded me of the weight of chains, of how it feels to be insignificant and unwanted.
Yet, something else happened to lift me higher and smile brighter, that made me feel wanted, but also needed. And now, I know, I am forever out of the reach of chains.
I have tried to soar free since arriving here in Arx. Tried to be like the butterfly and spread my wings. I have felt that, since I have been here; a sense of freedom unlike that which I have felt before.
Something happened this week that reminded me of the weight of chains, of how it feels to be insignificant and unwanted.
Yet, something else happened to lift me higher and smile brighter, that made me feel wanted, but also needed. And now, I know, I am forever out of the reach of chains.
Written By Nisaa
May 28, 2017, 11:54 p.m.(7/18/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Malik
We have come so far, Malik and I. From lands so far away and so dangerous to get to, almost no one makes the trip alive... Our lives are so different now, and so are we. And yet, we are the same, in a whole new way.
Written By Nisaa
May 28, 2017, 9:37 p.m.(7/18/1006 AR)
Life has been so different in this city from what I imagined we would find. My time here has been full of surprises, thankfully all quite pleasant ones. I still have difficulties understanding the culture here sometimes, and appreciate when others are helpful in explaining to me. There are many people I have heard mentioned, that I wish I could have a chance to meet. It is difficult to be getting foot stuck in door, as some say, I think. People are more welcoming to those they know well, and sometimes, I am to feel invisible. Malik would likely tell me I am quite mistaken and that I never am, but, I cannot be helping how I feel at times.
I now have a stage, and beautiful costumes to wear though, so I must stop procrastinating and host a showing of my dance. This way, perhaps people will understand better what I mean when I say that I am dancing the ways of the Eurusi dance.
I now have a stage, and beautiful costumes to wear though, so I must stop procrastinating and host a showing of my dance. This way, perhaps people will understand better what I mean when I say that I am dancing the ways of the Eurusi dance.
Written By Nisaa
April 16, 2017, 6:02 p.m.(4/14/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Aiden
Prince A-den has been a nice person to talk to. He is very shy, and at times, [aukword is crossed out] awkward, especially when many people are about. We had an interesting talk about animals one day while sitting by the river. He knows a lot about birds and comes alive when talking about them. I told him I did not think there was an [anminal is crossed out - amin is crossed out] pet that is right for me. We laughed when thinking of me carrying a fish in a bowl around. I feel [pri-vlgjd is crossed out] blessed to know him.
Written By Nisaa
April 16, 2017, 5:42 p.m.(4/14/1006 AR)
The people at the [arkiveists is crossed out] archives offered to write for me. I asked instead they help check what I [right is crossed out with write written above] or help me spell.
Malik and I are [settle-ing is crossed out] settling in to the city. I think that he is add-just-ing more quickly than I. Already, he has many who wish for him to paint for them, and other work lined up. My trunk was lost somewhere from since we left the ship. Wilhem, though, says he will help me with a costume. I just have to be [payshent is crossed out] patient. He is a busy man. Once I have my costume, I can perform, and then, things will land into place.
I have met many people though. Many nice people. I was worried about being so foreign here, but so far, I am treated well. I hope it continues to be case.
Malik and I are [settle-ing is crossed out] settling in to the city. I think that he is add-just-ing more quickly than I. Already, he has many who wish for him to paint for them, and other work lined up. My trunk was lost somewhere from since we left the ship. Wilhem, though, says he will help me with a costume. I just have to be [payshent is crossed out] patient. He is a busy man. Once I have my costume, I can perform, and then, things will land into place.
I have met many people though. Many nice people. I was worried about being so foreign here, but so far, I am treated well. I hope it continues to be case.
Written By Nisaa
April 12, 2017, 12:27 p.m.(4/6/1006 AR)
dancing is like the sea
at times rolling calm
others in fierce motion
each step has a purpose
each hand gesture a meaning
each movement is a whisper
the tide of the story is told
waves sweeping in and out
with the sway of a hip
draped in silks and gold
whether all eyes are on you
or you dance alone
your heart lifts
your soul rises out of the cage of your body
and you move with a blissful freedom
filling you with joy
until the dance ends
sending you crashing into shore
like the beautifully dangerous sea
dance sweeps you in
taking over your soul
at times rolling calm
others in fierce motion
each step has a purpose
each hand gesture a meaning
each movement is a whisper
the tide of the story is told
waves sweeping in and out
with the sway of a hip
draped in silks and gold
whether all eyes are on you
or you dance alone
your heart lifts
your soul rises out of the cage of your body
and you move with a blissful freedom
filling you with joy
until the dance ends
sending you crashing into shore
like the beautifully dangerous sea
dance sweeps you in
taking over your soul
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