Written By Nicia
Sept. 30, 2018, 1:49 p.m.(9/12/1009 AR)
As things loom on the horizon I find myself feeling the need to put words to paper...recording my feelings and thoughts.
I could never have imagined what I would have found waiting for me when I arrived in the city, and I am thankful for every day that I happened to be at the Valardin ramparts the day I was, and at the time that I was, for if I had not been there things would have been different in my life.
I love my family, and perhaps some with hearts of stone could say that love is a weakness, it makes you cautious and reluctant to do risky things for fear of losing them. I find that my family, my husband, my children, they are a source of strength for me. It is my love for them that spurs me to do the things I do, make the decisions that I make, colors my every choice and makes me willing to take risks.
I could never have imagined what I would have found waiting for me when I arrived in the city, and I am thankful for every day that I happened to be at the Valardin ramparts the day I was, and at the time that I was, for if I had not been there things would have been different in my life.
I love my family, and perhaps some with hearts of stone could say that love is a weakness, it makes you cautious and reluctant to do risky things for fear of losing them. I find that my family, my husband, my children, they are a source of strength for me. It is my love for them that spurs me to do the things I do, make the decisions that I make, colors my every choice and makes me willing to take risks.
Written By Nicia
Dec. 17, 2017, 10:58 a.m.(10/15/1007 AR)
I do not often find myself at a loss for words, and I usually never allow anger to rule my thoughts. But I have to admit that I have found myself in such a state that I was both angry and at a loss for words recently. In addition to this, I found myself to be confused. It is not a state that I enjoy, and if ever anyone wishes to know what sort of things happen when I find myself in such a state....to you I say, beware of bees and always look behind you.
Written By Nicia
Dec. 4, 2017, 10:18 p.m.(9/17/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Alis
With the BEEara comes great responsibility...I shall forever shoulder this burden.
Written By Nicia
Sept. 12, 2017, 9:57 a.m.(3/14/1007 AR)
The reception was this week, and although we kept the wedding small, family and close friends, I was pleased to see how many came to the reception itself. It was beautiful, and simple, and the cake was wonderful. Saedrus Whisper was the perfect organizer for this, he listened to everything we wanted and there was absolutely no fuss at all.
To everyone that came, thank you.
To everyone that came, thank you.
Written By Nicia
Sept. 2, 2017, 11:30 a.m.(2/19/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Cristoph
Often I have thought back to that moment where I made my way onto the ramparts. Many times I have asked myself what would have happened had I chosen to go somewhere else. I'm glad that I did not make a different choice.
I look forward to our future together. I wish that I could find the words to describe how everything feels at this moment, but the only word that comes to mind is infinite.
I look forward to our future together. I wish that I could find the words to describe how everything feels at this moment, but the only word that comes to mind is infinite.
Written By Nicia
Aug. 14, 2017, 2:43 p.m.(1/9/1007 AR)
I went to the Tournament of Roses, the melee battle. It was not at all what I was expecting, and I honestly do not know if I would attend one again. I think that I'm ill-suited to such events.
There were some very spectacular moments, but there was one that filled me with a sense of dread and anxiety, and I am not ashamed to admit my ill-suitedness for that activity in the future. Lessons learned, yes?
There were some very spectacular moments, but there was one that filled me with a sense of dread and anxiety, and I am not ashamed to admit my ill-suitedness for that activity in the future. Lessons learned, yes?
Written By Nicia
Aug. 13, 2017, 4:43 a.m.(1/6/1007 AR)
A new year....and spring draws closer each day.
Never before have I been looking so forward to spring. I have begun counting the days.
Never before have I been looking so forward to spring. I have begun counting the days.
Written By Nicia
Aug. 6, 2017, 5:53 p.m.(12/21/1006 AR)
The party that Princess Alarissa and Lady Monique threw was beautiful, and the prizes were lovely. I had a chance to speak with the King when there was not a long line of individuals waiting to congratulate him and the lovely Queen and it it was a very entertaining conversation. Evidently tree throwing is a thing? I can't even imagine how that is possible, but several there assured me that it was.
Written By Nicia
July 26, 2017, 4:36 a.m.(11/26/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Clover
If it were not for this wonderful Lady, I would never have been able to provide the salty and sweet flavor of the bacon and chocolate that was suddenly in high demand.
Written By Nicia
July 16, 2017, 3:25 p.m.(11/7/1006 AR)
It seems as though I was not successful about writing more this week. About collecting my thoughts, which I still find that I have many but none I'd deem of both interest or importance to write down. I've met a number of people this week, new people, and I've had a number of offers made to aid me in preparation for a trip in the spring. Which, I believe that I may take them up on it, at least in parts.
I'll be honest, I do not think that I have ever been more excited and impatient for a season change than I am for both my first winter with snow....and then the end of that winter, for spring and the promises that it holds. I can wait until spring, I can. I will not lie, though, and say that it is going to be very easy, but I at least have the excitement of snow and winter festivities to distract me.
Then there is always work. Work is, as always, a distraction which I do love. It has been a fairly slow week, which has been nice, it has allowed me to finalize some research, and to get some reading done, make some plans.
I'll be honest, I do not think that I have ever been more excited and impatient for a season change than I am for both my first winter with snow....and then the end of that winter, for spring and the promises that it holds. I can wait until spring, I can. I will not lie, though, and say that it is going to be very easy, but I at least have the excitement of snow and winter festivities to distract me.
Then there is always work. Work is, as always, a distraction which I do love. It has been a fairly slow week, which has been nice, it has allowed me to finalize some research, and to get some reading done, make some plans.
Written By Nicia
July 16, 2017, 2:07 a.m.(11/6/1006 AR)
Smells?
Comforting or familiar smells that I find I enjoy:
Ink
Parchment
Warm Sand
There are a few new scents that I'm growing fond of, but I hesitate to say, yet.
Comforting or familiar smells that I find I enjoy:
Ink
Parchment
Warm Sand
There are a few new scents that I'm growing fond of, but I hesitate to say, yet.
Written By Nicia
July 8, 2017, 1:20 p.m.(10/19/1006 AR)
I don't feel as though I write as much as I should. I mean to, but I always find myself with too much to do, and then I forget to make the time for this. Maybe I should set aside a certain time every day simply to collect my thoughts, and put them down on paper. It may be a good way of making certain that I'm not forgetting the events of the day, the week, or even the month.
This week has been quite busy, but very productive. I've high hopes for several things that have been put into motion, and I hope to see the fruition of these things soon. Some will undoubtedly happen sooner than others, and some I fear remain secret until they do actually come to fruition.
However, one thing I am happy to finally see become public is the announcement of my cousin's wedding. I wish her all the happiness in her match.
This week has been quite busy, but very productive. I've high hopes for several things that have been put into motion, and I hope to see the fruition of these things soon. Some will undoubtedly happen sooner than others, and some I fear remain secret until they do actually come to fruition.
However, one thing I am happy to finally see become public is the announcement of my cousin's wedding. I wish her all the happiness in her match.
Written By Nicia
July 2, 2017, 10:42 p.m.(10/7/1006 AR)
Someone mentioned the way frost looks in winter.....and I realize....I'm going to get to see an actual winter. I'm both excited, and terrified to be honest. What if I hate it?
Written By Nicia
July 2, 2017, 11:39 a.m.(10/6/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Caelis
It was pure happenstance that we met, but it seems like it was meant to be. I look forward to more of our walks and talks.
Written By Nicia
July 2, 2017, 11:34 a.m.(10/6/1006 AR)
The Festival went well, the Fashion show seemed to go well, everything is going very well it seems. I'm so very pleased that everyone's events have seemed to go off without a hitch. It makes me feel like I should do more, sometimes. But I doubt that anyone wants to come listen to me read dusty tomes involving disputes of grazing rights. Maybe I'll appeal to someone better suited to these things.
On a less introspective note, I know what cornholing is.
On a less introspective note, I know what cornholing is.
Written By Nicia
June 25, 2017, 7:53 p.m.(9/21/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Katarina
The Princess' wedding was spectacular. I do not think that I have ever seen a more beautiful bride, and I'm doubly-honored and humbled that even on her wedding day she still has far too many kind words for others.
Written By Nicia
June 25, 2017, 1:07 p.m.(9/21/1006 AR)
I'm not very good at putting my thoughts down on paper, not that I do not spend plenty of time thinking them, but I've always felt that once they are written they become somewhat more real, more finite, more apt to focus the attention. When logic and reasoning, or circumstances and new knowledge means those thoughts have changed, or adapted...those words are still there. On paper.
Due to that, I'm not a very prolific writer.
I'm going to try and change that, I think. We shall see if I become better at such things in time. Less apt to want to scratch it all out so that an old thought isn't still glaring at me like some evil accusation of a changed mind.
Due to that, I'm not a very prolific writer.
I'm going to try and change that, I think. We shall see if I become better at such things in time. Less apt to want to scratch it all out so that an old thought isn't still glaring at me like some evil accusation of a changed mind.
Written By Nicia
June 18, 2017, 8:51 p.m.(9/5/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Niamh
When the news of Lady Niamh's death reached me I have to admit that it was a bit of a surprise. It seemed like just the other day that I had met with her and spoken with her. I regret that I did not have the chance for further conversations.
Written By Nicia
June 15, 2017, 1:35 p.m.(8/26/1006 AR)
I liked the study...it was quiet, and usually had some of the best bottles of things to drink in it. I suppose that I will like it again after a while, but I keep catching myself avoiding it, not looking towards the door, and certainly not walking into the room. Not even to see what might have gotten destroyed and is missing.
I wasn't there for the incident. Not that my presence would have been any help beyond being in the way, but yet there is one very, very small part of me that feels guilty I wasn't there. Emotions are such illogical things.
I wasn't there for the incident. Not that my presence would have been any help beyond being in the way, but yet there is one very, very small part of me that feels guilty I wasn't there. Emotions are such illogical things.
Written By Nicia
June 5, 2017, 2:35 a.m.(8/5/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Victus
A surprisingly approachable, has possibly the most entertaining dinners.
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