Written By Mikani
Jan. 18, 2024, 10:47 a.m.(7/28/1021 AR)
Relationship Note on Artorius
We must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. We will face our fears. We will permit it to pass over us and through us. And when it has gone past we will turn our eyes to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only we will remain - stronger.
((OOC I know it's a Dune quote but it fits the occasion))
((OOC I know it's a Dune quote but it fits the occasion))
Written By Mikani
Sept. 29, 2023, 11:28 a.m.(8/16/1020 AR)
Relationship Note on Kyler
What can I say about Lord Kyler.
The man has been ever helpful on my task to bring an indoor garden to Magnotta Manor. I didn't know that there was so much to learn about plants. While I have experience, it is nothing compared to the vast knowledge that Lord Kyler has.
His gardens are exquisite. They take my breath away. Also, the passion he has for every decision and choice makes me excited to just be in his presence.
I cannot wait to see how my indoor garden will pan out.
The man has been ever helpful on my task to bring an indoor garden to Magnotta Manor. I didn't know that there was so much to learn about plants. While I have experience, it is nothing compared to the vast knowledge that Lord Kyler has.
His gardens are exquisite. They take my breath away. Also, the passion he has for every decision and choice makes me excited to just be in his presence.
I cannot wait to see how my indoor garden will pan out.
Written By Mikani
Sept. 6, 2023, 3:20 p.m.(6/27/1020 AR)
Relationship Note on Artorius
When I joined Magnotta as Countess, I was excited for a new adventure. Don't mistake my words, I am still excited for the new adventure that awaits me, I was just talking about my feelings on the wedding day. If I had known what would be available to me since joining this amazing house, I don't think I could have waited to visit Caer Morien or join the house.
My amazing husband has encouraged me to redecorate the house!
I love the transformation. The house was beautiful before, but now it's starting to become stunning. I have looked over reports and histories and am bringing in things that have meaning to the house. It is starting to feel more and more like a home. So much of the family is here in Arx and I am growing in fondness to each and every one of them.
My amazing husband has encouraged me to redecorate the house!
I love the transformation. The house was beautiful before, but now it's starting to become stunning. I have looked over reports and histories and am bringing in things that have meaning to the house. It is starting to feel more and more like a home. So much of the family is here in Arx and I am growing in fondness to each and every one of them.
Written By Mikani
Aug. 29, 2023, 3:33 p.m.(6/11/1020 AR)
Relationship Note on Jian
Oh, Gods and Spirits ... I tasted a vegetable dumpling today.
I have never been so blown away nor have I been so obsessed with a certain food.
I sent poor Artorius out several times to get me more. Where has it been all my life?!
Jian, thank you!
I have never been so blown away nor have I been so obsessed with a certain food.
I sent poor Artorius out several times to get me more. Where has it been all my life?!
Jian, thank you!
Written By Mikani
Aug. 29, 2023, 10:39 a.m.(6/10/1020 AR)
There are people that come into your life and you know that somehow they will change not only how you see yourself but the world around you. Sometimes they even surprise you. I thought I was a good judge of knowing a person. That I was good at seeing people for who they were not who they pretended to be. I fear I might have gotten arrogant in my skills. I now know better. I still need to look deeper and not just assume I know.
It was a very good lesson.
It was a very good lesson.
Written By Mikani
Aug. 27, 2023, 2:44 p.m.(6/7/1020 AR)
We are getting settled in well at Magnotta Manor. The children all get along for the most part. Nothing major. Just minor growing pains. The Magnotta Heirs have done well including my children in these games. To me they look like army drills but the children love it. At the end of summer when the Crovane Clan returns from Stormwall they will start their Magnotta education.
Nakoa is excited. More focus on his martial skills. Emma, she's looking forward to spending more time on ships. Dia, my little Dia, she seems content watching. I hope she will do well. I'm excited for them all to grow. To see them expand. My heart is warm. I've found a home.
Nakoa is excited. More focus on his martial skills. Emma, she's looking forward to spending more time on ships. Dia, my little Dia, she seems content watching. I hope she will do well. I'm excited for them all to grow. To see them expand. My heart is warm. I've found a home.
Written By Mikani
Aug. 16, 2023, 9:55 a.m.(5/12/1020 AR)
Relationship Note on Jan
Jan, your white journal about marriage interested me.
I had a marriage based on love. There were other factors but love was there and there was even a duel for my honor on the issue. I loved him very much. However, that love clouded much of what I should have seen before entering into such a relationship or contract.
Now I'm in a marriage that while there isn't love, there is mutual respect and there is a desire for us to achieve not only our goals but to help the other achieve theirs. I have great affection for my husband and I know one day there will be love. It's just that love isn't the base of our marriage. It is something much deeper.
Now this isn't my way of trying to sway you one way or another. It is more my explanation for my thinking. Even if I were a commoner, I think I would prefer the base of the marriage to be respect and the desire for helping the other. Love can fade. The others won't.
Just my two pieces of silver.
I had a marriage based on love. There were other factors but love was there and there was even a duel for my honor on the issue. I loved him very much. However, that love clouded much of what I should have seen before entering into such a relationship or contract.
Now I'm in a marriage that while there isn't love, there is mutual respect and there is a desire for us to achieve not only our goals but to help the other achieve theirs. I have great affection for my husband and I know one day there will be love. It's just that love isn't the base of our marriage. It is something much deeper.
Now this isn't my way of trying to sway you one way or another. It is more my explanation for my thinking. Even if I were a commoner, I think I would prefer the base of the marriage to be respect and the desire for helping the other. Love can fade. The others won't.
Just my two pieces of silver.
Written By Mikani
May 15, 2023, 1:37 p.m.(10/23/1019 AR)
I finally did it. I started to clean out my closets. I had no idea I was such a sentimental fool nor a pack rat. It was good to get things out and to know that people will be wearing the items taken. Much better than being shoved into a place where no one will see them.
Written By Mikani
June 25, 2022, 12:50 p.m.(11/22/1017 AR)
I have a new and shiny scar. This is thanks to the Nighcove ... well for the sake of the scribe I will keep my language proper. You thought you could kill me and squash my voice? I am the thing you fear most. I am a born Thrall who was ennobled. Now my voice is heard. People know my face and name. I cannot be hidden in some crowd and clumped into some group you can easily look away from.
I am the picture of your secret Traditionalist shame. I didn't commit a crime to become a Thrall. Nor did my father. He was kidnapped and forced into those chains. When he died, I was forced to carry out a sentence for an imaginary crime. There was no 'second chance' as there was no first. I was a baby. An innocent baby!
Well, I was angry before. I contented myself to bite my tongue to keep some semblance of peace, Thralls were being freed. But now you have gone and done it. I'm done carrying scars for the sake of your Traditionalist Ideals'. As my cousin, Ember has said, "I'll send you all to the abyss and smile ...." Well, I might have paraphrased some of that.
I am the picture of your secret Traditionalist shame. I didn't commit a crime to become a Thrall. Nor did my father. He was kidnapped and forced into those chains. When he died, I was forced to carry out a sentence for an imaginary crime. There was no 'second chance' as there was no first. I was a baby. An innocent baby!
Well, I was angry before. I contented myself to bite my tongue to keep some semblance of peace, Thralls were being freed. But now you have gone and done it. I'm done carrying scars for the sake of your Traditionalist Ideals'. As my cousin, Ember has said, "I'll send you all to the abyss and smile ...." Well, I might have paraphrased some of that.
Written By Mikani
June 25, 2022, 12:36 p.m.(11/22/1017 AR)
[Relationship note: Edward]
You were a complicated man and we had a complicated past. As children, I was expected to keep you out of trouble as I did for Ember and Marina. I took the punishment and the yelling for the time I could not keep you safe. That time you broke your arm and I spent the summer entertaining you with stories to make you laugh ... well that only softened the blow. Yet I look upon that summer fondly. We were too young to understand the politics we were living out.
We grew into adults. You were more traditional and I was as non-traditional, Isles standards, as one could get and we drifted apart. Yet, I still watched you grow from afar. I worried for you from afar. I always thought I would have more time to tell you how I felt. That I loved you in my own way. You were family, in a way. The end you had, well it wasn't how your story should have ended. You deserved better than that.
So farwell Edward. I hope the wheel treats you well. That you are able to find peace.
You were a complicated man and we had a complicated past. As children, I was expected to keep you out of trouble as I did for Ember and Marina. I took the punishment and the yelling for the time I could not keep you safe. That time you broke your arm and I spent the summer entertaining you with stories to make you laugh ... well that only softened the blow. Yet I look upon that summer fondly. We were too young to understand the politics we were living out.
We grew into adults. You were more traditional and I was as non-traditional, Isles standards, as one could get and we drifted apart. Yet, I still watched you grow from afar. I worried for you from afar. I always thought I would have more time to tell you how I felt. That I loved you in my own way. You were family, in a way. The end you had, well it wasn't how your story should have ended. You deserved better than that.
So farwell Edward. I hope the wheel treats you well. That you are able to find peace.
Written By Mikani
Feb. 14, 2022, 1:54 p.m.(2/12/1017 AR)
Sometimes I wonder if I'm turning into someone unrecognizable ....... No scholar I am not depressed. Just contemplative .... You didn't need to write that.
Written By Mikani
June 27, 2021, 1:55 a.m.(9/24/1015 AR)
Relationship Note on Magnus
It's always wonderful to reconnect with old friends. I'm so glad you have come back from Bonespire.
Written By Mikani
May 4, 2021, 10:05 p.m.(6/1/1015 AR)
Relationship Note on Aella
Countess Aella is back in town! I am honored to have the woman who taught me to speak Northlands Shav like a true Northerner back. Though it could have been the whiskey we were drinking. I mean at least she didn't drop me into a tribe and get me to figure out how to get home safe. Seems like something she would do .....
Written By Mikani
April 30, 2021, 3:44 p.m.(5/21/1015 AR)
The last will and testament of Lady Mikani Crovane. I of sound mind and body on May 21, 1015 AR parcel out my estate in the following terms.
My Ingi Axes are to go to Lord Ian Kennex, I have fought by his side on many adventures and he has trained me. These axes are a sign of our friendship.
My History Book Collection shall go to Baroness Ember Redreef. She knows her place in this world and where she wants to make her mark upon our history. May she know she has already done so with flair and passion.
My other books to Marquis Consort Cadern Blackwood, for all our studies together. May knowledge guide your path and may you remember our times in your library. I will never forget them.
Finally Lady Zoey Kennex, I leave you my house - Sonder Lodge - to manage until my children are of age and the rest of my possessions. In life, you were the closest to me on my path and I will never forget your love and kindness. Please remind my children that they were loved deeply by two loving parents and that life should be filled with love and adventure above all things. They are to spend summers in Crovane and their formative years in Byrne. Yet please remind them of their mother's roots in the water and the isles. Speak to them in many tongues so they don't forget. I know this is a heavy burden I'm asking of you. Though it is one I know you can carry.
I will see you all on the wheel and where the spirits may lead me.
By my hand,
Lady Mikani Crovane
My Ingi Axes are to go to Lord Ian Kennex, I have fought by his side on many adventures and he has trained me. These axes are a sign of our friendship.
My History Book Collection shall go to Baroness Ember Redreef. She knows her place in this world and where she wants to make her mark upon our history. May she know she has already done so with flair and passion.
My other books to Marquis Consort Cadern Blackwood, for all our studies together. May knowledge guide your path and may you remember our times in your library. I will never forget them.
Finally Lady Zoey Kennex, I leave you my house - Sonder Lodge - to manage until my children are of age and the rest of my possessions. In life, you were the closest to me on my path and I will never forget your love and kindness. Please remind my children that they were loved deeply by two loving parents and that life should be filled with love and adventure above all things. They are to spend summers in Crovane and their formative years in Byrne. Yet please remind them of their mother's roots in the water and the isles. Speak to them in many tongues so they don't forget. I know this is a heavy burden I'm asking of you. Though it is one I know you can carry.
I will see you all on the wheel and where the spirits may lead me.
By my hand,
Lady Mikani Crovane
Written By Mikani
March 9, 2021, 11:09 a.m.(2/1/1015 AR)
Relationship Note on Medeia
I finally did it! I crossed over to the dark side. In theory any way.
I distilled a whiskey. Yes scholar, someone from the Isles can make something other than Vodka or Rum. Yes, I know I'm known for my rums. Yes, I'm just as surprised as the rest of us.
It is a black whiskey. Made from aged blackwood casks. Everything about it screams "I am a Crovane Whiskey!" I should have a party to celebrate it. We need more parties in our lives.
Yes scholar, you can come. Everyone will be invited.
I have to give thanks to Lady Medeia Eswynd. Without her, I wouldn't know what to do with this stuff. It would just gather dust on a shelf. So thank you!
I distilled a whiskey. Yes scholar, someone from the Isles can make something other than Vodka or Rum. Yes, I know I'm known for my rums. Yes, I'm just as surprised as the rest of us.
It is a black whiskey. Made from aged blackwood casks. Everything about it screams "I am a Crovane Whiskey!" I should have a party to celebrate it. We need more parties in our lives.
Yes scholar, you can come. Everyone will be invited.
I have to give thanks to Lady Medeia Eswynd. Without her, I wouldn't know what to do with this stuff. It would just gather dust on a shelf. So thank you!
Written By Mikani
June 16, 2020, 5:08 p.m.(6/26/1013 AR)
So much to learn. So much to research. Back to the library with me.
Written By Mikani
May 14, 2020, 2:08 p.m.(4/16/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Rysen
I find it interesting all this talking on my behalf. A few things I found very interesting. Social Climber. Yes I was ennobled in a Barony and now am Lady in a Duchy. When I hear Social Climber, to me this sounds like something that is methodically planned and something I set out to do with charts and figures. That isn't the case. I wanted to find a home for my skills. Where I would be appreciated for what I could bring to the house. Be it still in Redreef or in Crovane ... or another Barony to /gasp/ a high house. Though being ennobled in a Barony, would make it very hard for me not to be a social climber by Princess Sorrel's definition. Most houses are higher than Redreef in status.
As for a love match. I assure everyone that while I do love my husband. I make no excuses that there was love before we married. That there would have been /no marriage/, I repeat, /no marriage/ if it was not logically and diplomatically desirable for Byrne /and/ Crovane for us to wed. Me stepping down for Graham was the right thing to do and the relationship for Byrne and Crovane is a beneficial one. Not one born from my lust. Which to me just seems ridiculous. I am able to reign in my passions for the sake of my house. I am just a woman that was blessed by the gods. I thought that is what the Pantheon preached. That if the gods find you worthy you are blessed and you succeed in life. Isn't that what we teach our children? If the gods deem you worthy for a gift you will have it?
I am not being prideful. I honor the gifts given to me and try my hardest to honor the gods with what I have been blessed with. I have bore children to Crovane and I have honored the marriage contract that was set before me. Just like every other noble that has been talking about me in the whites.
While this will not stop the duel and the outcome is in the hands of Gloria and Sentinel .... I know I will continue to honor the gods with my gifts, talents and service. It is all I can do as a noble of Arvum. As a citizen of Arvum. I hope you all do the same. I will not be responding to attacks against this white. I am quite done with reading about what people have decided happened in my life. Thank you.
As for a love match. I assure everyone that while I do love my husband. I make no excuses that there was love before we married. That there would have been /no marriage/, I repeat, /no marriage/ if it was not logically and diplomatically desirable for Byrne /and/ Crovane for us to wed. Me stepping down for Graham was the right thing to do and the relationship for Byrne and Crovane is a beneficial one. Not one born from my lust. Which to me just seems ridiculous. I am able to reign in my passions for the sake of my house. I am just a woman that was blessed by the gods. I thought that is what the Pantheon preached. That if the gods find you worthy you are blessed and you succeed in life. Isn't that what we teach our children? If the gods deem you worthy for a gift you will have it?
I am not being prideful. I honor the gifts given to me and try my hardest to honor the gods with what I have been blessed with. I have bore children to Crovane and I have honored the marriage contract that was set before me. Just like every other noble that has been talking about me in the whites.
While this will not stop the duel and the outcome is in the hands of Gloria and Sentinel .... I know I will continue to honor the gods with my gifts, talents and service. It is all I can do as a noble of Arvum. As a citizen of Arvum. I hope you all do the same. I will not be responding to attacks against this white. I am quite done with reading about what people have decided happened in my life. Thank you.
Written By Mikani
May 13, 2020, 3:43 a.m.(4/13/1013 AR)
A year ago today, a little man came into my life and made me a mother. My whole world changed. Lord Nakoa Crovane.... Happy Birthday! I am proud to call myself your mother and cannot wait to see what your future holds for you.
Written By Mikani
April 19, 2020, 2:34 a.m.(2/21/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Kritr
Lord Kritr's fast action got me out of a water logged situation. I will be ever grateful.
Written By Mikani
March 30, 2020, 3:15 p.m.(1/10/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Valencia
Team Princess Valencia. All the way!
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