Written By Lucrezia
March 29, 2022, 6:09 p.m.(5/15/1017 AR)
The sky blinked. No, it wasn't a drunken hallucination.
Written By Lucrezia
Jan. 16, 2022, 6:41 p.m.(12/11/1016 AR)
If I could forget him, I would. Spineless bastards ought to be ground down and forgotten by time.
Written By Lucrezia
Oct. 3, 2021, 10:16 p.m.(4/25/1016 AR)
Relationship Note on Sebastian
I am unspeakably jealous.
Written By Lucrezia
Sept. 26, 2021, 9:53 p.m.(4/11/1016 AR)
Questing after a promised treasure feels so much more heroic than just finding treasure. I like the feel of it.
Written By Lucrezia
Feb. 7, 2021, 8:23 p.m.(11/23/1014 AR)
If I ask you to write down a lie, does that make it truth because you faithfully transcribed exactly what I told you to?
Written By Lucrezia
Jan. 31, 2021, 6:48 p.m.(11/9/1014 AR)
She asked what was below the locked door. Demons.
I've been told there is no truth in folktales. Lies.
Searching has been fruitless. Fury.
All I hear is music.
I've been told there is no truth in folktales. Lies.
Searching has been fruitless. Fury.
All I hear is music.
Written By Lucrezia
Jan. 24, 2021, 1:20 p.m.(10/22/1014 AR)
Initial scouting reports are coming in. Soon.
Written By Lucrezia
Dec. 25, 2020, 3:14 p.m.(8/18/1014 AR)
Father, how did you handle this? To be loved was such a shining ideal.
This not love, though.
Was I wrong?
This not love, though.
Was I wrong?
Written By Lucrezia
July 12, 2020, 3:04 p.m.(8/22/1013 AR)
I was promoted to Iron Kraken this week. It may be only temporary until cousin Celeste recovers from her injuries, but I will spend all my energy relentlessly pursuing the enemies of Pravus. Nothing makes me happier.
Written By Lucrezia
July 12, 2020, 3:42 a.m.(8/21/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Belladonna
What was I thinking? I agreed to let her dress me up?
I wasn't even drunk.
I wasn't even drunk.
Written By Lucrezia
Jan. 5, 2020, 1:40 p.m.(7/5/1012 AR)
The wedding wrecked me more than I thought it would.
I wore pink because it'd be funny. Savor it while it lasted and too bad to those that missed it!
That isn't why it wrecked me. Just rubbed me raw that it was what I wanted, but was only used to insult me. I want to be over it, but my pride is still hurt. I don't still love one that is that dishonorable and hurtful to one supposedly loved. Still, my pride. The things I want should not hurt.
It wasn't fun until I got to dunk my sister in the pool of wine. Can you believe there was no rum? Who does that?!
Also, I was reminded of the Princess gig. I dread that. I do not want any bit of it. It'll ruin my reputation. Being Lady is bad enough. I chose the Wanton, not a dress. I'm Wanton, not Princess.
I wore pink because it'd be funny. Savor it while it lasted and too bad to those that missed it!
That isn't why it wrecked me. Just rubbed me raw that it was what I wanted, but was only used to insult me. I want to be over it, but my pride is still hurt. I don't still love one that is that dishonorable and hurtful to one supposedly loved. Still, my pride. The things I want should not hurt.
It wasn't fun until I got to dunk my sister in the pool of wine. Can you believe there was no rum? Who does that?!
Also, I was reminded of the Princess gig. I dread that. I do not want any bit of it. It'll ruin my reputation. Being Lady is bad enough. I chose the Wanton, not a dress. I'm Wanton, not Princess.
Written By Lucrezia
Oct. 17, 2019, 3:35 p.m.(1/12/1012 AR)
It'll work out how I said I would do.
I sail for Setarco this week to shop for dresses. I will even take some family to help. No, the dresses aren't for me, don't be crazy.
It turns out mother is alive. All this time I had believed the assassin had gotten her, too. Yes, I am only taking family along so they can do the dress shopping while I catch up with mother and ask her all the things I need to know.
*The ink here looks blotchy.* I guess there's no urgency now, but still am leaving this week.
I sail for Setarco this week to shop for dresses. I will even take some family to help. No, the dresses aren't for me, don't be crazy.
It turns out mother is alive. All this time I had believed the assassin had gotten her, too. Yes, I am only taking family along so they can do the dress shopping while I catch up with mother and ask her all the things I need to know.
*The ink here looks blotchy.* I guess there's no urgency now, but still am leaving this week.
Written By Lucrezia
Oct. 13, 2019, 10:08 p.m.(1/5/1012 AR)
Poison.
In the Lyceum it comes in many forms. Liquids, powders.
But, the worst is conversation.
I have never had patience for the game, especially when it is ill-played. Father died by poison. Anyone who thinks I enjoy the cowardice of poison does not understand me at all.
In the Lyceum it comes in many forms. Liquids, powders.
But, the worst is conversation.
I have never had patience for the game, especially when it is ill-played. Father died by poison. Anyone who thinks I enjoy the cowardice of poison does not understand me at all.
Written By Lucrezia
Oct. 9, 2019, 7:20 p.m.(12/25/1011 AR)
All of Arx is in a tizzy over the thrall release crisis, but in mourning for my crew, I find myself conflicted upon the issue. It is clear I cannot and must not take any former thralls into service when I go about seeking to replace my crew, but I am really not in the mood to asking that question unless I want to start a brawl. I am in that sort of mood, but that will lose me favor with Pravus. All I can do is recruit crew from far, far away.
Also, the recent day to honor my father. I was overwhelmed and surprised. I think this is the first time I've let myself mourn for him. But to see him honored so made me so very happy and more desirous than ever to be something he would be proud of. When I think of that, I can only think of my blood on the deck as Wanton was torn apart. Is that a dream that also might have died that day? I came back to Arx with a new, but crewless Wanton. We are full of a terrible hunger which we must answer soon as we get enough of a crew together.
I let him know children may no longer be something I can give him. Maybe I couldn't see far enough into this choice to know I could have only one dream or the other. I can't unchoose, but I do want to make it so I can have both. I want him and Wanton. If I can't have children... is that what that horrible sense of loss was about? I worry he won't want me if the answer is yes. Just thinking about that makes me want to go on a mad rampage.
I have so many more questions now. Somehow I feel it will involve studying. Lots of studying.
Ugh.
Also, the recent day to honor my father. I was overwhelmed and surprised. I think this is the first time I've let myself mourn for him. But to see him honored so made me so very happy and more desirous than ever to be something he would be proud of. When I think of that, I can only think of my blood on the deck as Wanton was torn apart. Is that a dream that also might have died that day? I came back to Arx with a new, but crewless Wanton. We are full of a terrible hunger which we must answer soon as we get enough of a crew together.
I let him know children may no longer be something I can give him. Maybe I couldn't see far enough into this choice to know I could have only one dream or the other. I can't unchoose, but I do want to make it so I can have both. I want him and Wanton. If I can't have children... is that what that horrible sense of loss was about? I worry he won't want me if the answer is yes. Just thinking about that makes me want to go on a mad rampage.
I have so many more questions now. Somehow I feel it will involve studying. Lots of studying.
Ugh.
Written By Lucrezia
Sept. 22, 2019, 11:42 p.m.(11/19/1011 AR)
Sometimes it's eerie how much we agree, but other times it makes me so giddy. I stood out by the statue of my parents today, brooding over what father would think of me and my choices. Would he have wanted me to marry someone just like him, like I wanted to be? Or, is it just my reckless nature, greedily reaching for something I've always wanted. Maybe he would have wanted someone more temperate to moderate me. I am sure mother had despaired that this day would ever come. I wonder who they would have chosen for me. Like a child I whispered if they approved to their statue.
All I heard was that song.
All I heard was that song.
Written By Lucrezia
Sept. 22, 2019, 3:25 a.m.(11/17/1011 AR)
I wasn't planning on going to the Leadership Ball, but I am glad that I did. I learned important negotiation skills, such as employ the worst drink you can inflict upon yourself and, more importantly, the other party is necessary. It "smooths" the process. Also, when you accidentally give your cities away because you are so drunk from your own smoothing over, don't forget to empty them of gems and jewels first.
I was going to do that last anyway!
Look at me, half a diplomat. Have fear Arx, deep fear: Diplomat Lucrezia is coming!
Lord Martino and Lady Catalana were excellent hosts.
In a heroic act that saved some man's feet, I left in the middle of dancing. Ugh, why does everyone try to get me to dance?
I was going to do that last anyway!
Look at me, half a diplomat. Have fear Arx, deep fear: Diplomat Lucrezia is coming!
Lord Martino and Lady Catalana were excellent hosts.
In a heroic act that saved some man's feet, I left in the middle of dancing. Ugh, why does everyone try to get me to dance?
Written By Lucrezia
Sept. 15, 2019, 9:49 p.m.(11/5/1011 AR)
This was too much of a theater production to suit my tastes. I don't see how anyone's honor was assuaged by the performance. I was not the only one who thought there was not enough blood, but was probably the only one that voiced it. This is why I am not champion knight.
Those at odds were satisfied, so I guess it worked out.
Those at odds were satisfied, so I guess it worked out.
Written By Lucrezia
Sept. 15, 2019, 9:09 p.m.(11/4/1011 AR)
It would not be a good week if I did not engage in at least one scandal.
I laid across my Duchess' desk and heard the words I have longed to hear since I fled a decade ago. It is worth my undying loyalty. It may yet be worth my heart.
If that was not scandalous enough for you, how I plan to celebrate my birthday will be. I will get what I want on land every bit as much as I do when on sea. I will not forget any who try to stand in my way, who scorn or look down upon me. Wanton hasn't been washed in blood in far too long, we are hungry.
Final note: Jumping off the Duchess' balcony is painful, for the morbidly curious. If you heard her screaming last night, yes I did it, but that isn't why I jumped.
I laid across my Duchess' desk and heard the words I have longed to hear since I fled a decade ago. It is worth my undying loyalty. It may yet be worth my heart.
If that was not scandalous enough for you, how I plan to celebrate my birthday will be. I will get what I want on land every bit as much as I do when on sea. I will not forget any who try to stand in my way, who scorn or look down upon me. Wanton hasn't been washed in blood in far too long, we are hungry.
Final note: Jumping off the Duchess' balcony is painful, for the morbidly curious. If you heard her screaming last night, yes I did it, but that isn't why I jumped.
Written By Lucrezia
Sept. 15, 2019, 8:39 p.m.(11/4/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Lycoris
Since the day our father was murdered we have not seen each other, but it is a sorrow to hear murder has taken another loved one from her. I think that our family is not lucky. I hope she finds strength in the days to come and does not wither beneath this blow. I should send her some trinket or another from the horde for condolences.
Written By Lucrezia
Sept. 8, 2019, 9:18 p.m.(10/19/1011 AR)
You would not believe the headache I have right now. It turns out that rum wine is a mythical beast best pursued by heroes and fools.
So if you heard rumor that I was in the Queensrest Inn last night, you heard right. It was a pretty wild night. Half the party needed to be carried(or escorted) home. My childhood dream of becoming a hero was achieved last night: I saved Lady Mabelle from the drudgery of work. Yes, there was less than heroic drunken debauchery afterwards, but I am what I am, I gave up the hero's way years ago. Everyone thought it was fun, so no harm done.
Remember your lessons on poisons. If you listened to them better than me, you'll know what to eat and not eat, in what company, and such.
I still wonder if that rum tea was poisoned a little. Someone there was called Cupcake and Ribbons. I really, really doubt my recall on those two.
Before that I met Thea who promised to tell me stories about her brothers, which I am looking forward to. And also Svoli.
I asked him his favorite color and he gave me a poem I will never forget.
Let's not forget that Martino made it night for me so we could continue our drunken debauchery through the morning.
So if you heard rumor that I was in the Queensrest Inn last night, you heard right. It was a pretty wild night. Half the party needed to be carried(or escorted) home. My childhood dream of becoming a hero was achieved last night: I saved Lady Mabelle from the drudgery of work. Yes, there was less than heroic drunken debauchery afterwards, but I am what I am, I gave up the hero's way years ago. Everyone thought it was fun, so no harm done.
Remember your lessons on poisons. If you listened to them better than me, you'll know what to eat and not eat, in what company, and such.
I still wonder if that rum tea was poisoned a little. Someone there was called Cupcake and Ribbons. I really, really doubt my recall on those two.
Before that I met Thea who promised to tell me stories about her brothers, which I am looking forward to. And also Svoli.
I asked him his favorite color and he gave me a poem I will never forget.
Let's not forget that Martino made it night for me so we could continue our drunken debauchery through the morning.
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