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Written By Ilira

Jan. 29, 2023, 5:09 p.m.(4/25/1019 AR)

Relationship Note on Caspian

If I come home to find a bear curled up by your fire, we are going to have words.

Written By Ilira

Jan. 17, 2023, 10:29 a.m.(4/1/1019 AR)

I hate when I miss things I've never had--siblings, in this case.

Written By Ilira

Dec. 24, 2022, 5:57 p.m.(2/9/1019 AR)

I have wasted so much of my time not doing what I want.

Written By Ilira

Dec. 21, 2022, 12:14 p.m.(2/3/1019 AR)

Relationship Note on Caspian

You tried.

Written By Ilira

Nov. 25, 2022, 11:12 p.m.(12/8/1018 AR)

I LOVE TO DANCE!

Written By Ilira

Nov. 21, 2022, 11:32 p.m.(11/28/1018 AR)

This is a slow evanescence.

Written By Ilira

Nov. 1, 2022, 5:08 p.m.(9/3/1018 AR)

That was a disappointment. The first half of the evening was lovely, at least, as well as the place I escaped to after.

Written By Ilira

Oct. 31, 2022, 7:58 p.m.(9/1/1018 AR)

Relationship Note on Savio

Personally, I wear a mask to become myself. It isn't important that I'm hidden, only that I feel like I am. I think that was your point and I agree with it!

Written By Ilira

Oct. 28, 2022, 4:20 p.m.(8/23/1018 AR)

I shed blood and tears over the past months for the next two outfits I plan to debut, both of them conceptualized and coveted for far longer than that.
I'm excited.

Written By Ilira

Oct. 25, 2022, 3:44 a.m.(8/16/1018 AR)

I can feel the Eclipse in my blood.

Written By Ilira

Oct. 20, 2022, 5:09 a.m.(8/6/1018 AR)

Love, like art, arises not from perfection but flaws, or perhaps on the cusp of the two.

Bath thoughts.

Written By Ilira

Oct. 3, 2022, 1:01 a.m.(6/28/1018 AR)

What is it about summer? It's like the season dictates our emotion.

Written By Ilira

Sept. 20, 2022, 9:48 p.m.(6/3/1018 AR)

It can be difficult to tell the difference between numbness and resilience. I thought I'd go numb if this happened again, but all I feel is free, and inexplicably contented.

Written By Ilira

Aug. 14, 2022, 3:30 a.m.(3/12/1018 AR)

A smile can mean many more things than happiness.

Last night, I returned from a rescue mission in Artshall. A pocket of survivers were trapped by debris after the implosion of the hospital. I wasn't there the night of, and I wish I could say I wish I was, but the mere aftermath was enough to enervate me, both in the city itself and at the Saving Grace days before. We all of us in this capital know the skin-crawling chill of seeing our friends and our loves so broken by battle, at the same time we are glad to /see/ them.

That's the way I felt, walking the streets of Artshall: like I was seeing a moribund friend, warped and mangled beyond recognition. But not dead.

Sometimes I get so afraid, so furious, so fucking fed up and pissed at the unrelenting brainlessness of enemies within and without--too low-witted and hive-minded to take the hint that we'll always persevere--that I forget how fully I love this Compact. I love this Compact, and I crave to see it whole and happy. I was not there for Bastion, but I will be here for Artshall, with the rest of you. Art, like Arvum, endures.

That's why I walked away smiling last night: not because of the light in a world that has fallen, but because I know it will rise again.
Though, singing with Lucita did help.

Written By Ilira

Aug. 11, 2022, 2:57 a.m.(3/6/1018 AR)

I cherish my hair! It is my prized possession amongst prized possessions, and I would sacrifice the rest in a heartbeat to retain it. I'm just curious, why are all the hair-centric celebrities I know of blonde or redheaded?
This is not to asperse either hair color (I am notably an admirer), but in my opinion, brunettes aren't getting NEARLY enough love!
Of course, I could be completely missing something; sometimes my hair gets in my eyes!

Written By Ilira

July 29, 2022, 6:35 p.m.(2/9/1018 AR)

Relationship Note on Amari

Savage
Ravage
Lavish?
Addage
Baggage
Passage
Wrappage

Written By Ilira

July 28, 2022, 8:42 p.m.(2/5/1018 AR)

Relationship Note on Caspian

Prepare for me to obsess. More than I already did.

Written By Ilira

July 24, 2022, 11:17 p.m.(1/25/1018 AR)

Out of everyone and everything I have ever loved, my hair remains the greatest.
Auda reminded me.

Written By Ilira

July 17, 2022, 7:40 p.m.(1/11/1018 AR)

Relationship Note on Savio

And yet you are so many things to so many people, everything to at least one.
You know as well as I that the voices you hear around you know better than the ones in your head. I wish you'd listen to us.
You are Savio, not nothing.

Written By Ilira

July 14, 2022, 8:49 a.m.(1/4/1018 AR)

Relationship Note on Monique

I miss you.

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