Written By Harmon
Oct. 7, 2018, 9:49 p.m.(9/26/1009 AR)
Performed act of charity. Necessary. Helpful to feel human. Hopeful that it is enough. Helps with nightmares.
Written By Harmon
Sept. 29, 2018, 12:28 a.m.(9/9/1009 AR)
nightmares started again. hands, dark, smoke and sinew. they steal pieces of me, am unaware but now I am lesser each moment. cannot defend. must defend. how to find information how to destroy a mnemonophage? infophagy? Does it rely on the information having been known first?
Written By Harmon
March 11, 2018, 9:41 p.m.(5/6/1008 AR)
Three hours have passed. Cat is on lap. Cannot move without waking up cat. Must not wake up cat. Test of endurance.
Written By Harmon
March 4, 2018, 12:04 a.m.(4/18/1008 AR)
Belief: Science is needed for future of all people. Knowledge, reason will elevate and either's absence will collapse any society. Yet, currently using science to build weapons meant to terrorize, inflict pain, destruction. Doing so in defense of home, family. Still difficult to justify seeming inevitability of science being used for scales of destruction and terror no sword will ever be able to inflict. Guilty? Complicit? Justified? Maybe all. Am I a murderer? Only as much as any general defending homeland. Hands will still be soaked red. Perhaps use of weapon will deter future invasions, save lives by taking. Dangerous mathematics.
Written By Harmon
Feb. 24, 2018, 11:59 p.m.(4/4/1008 AR)
Calypso brought me a cat, the other day. Was told Jakob von Mousebatton (name) would be helpful, may be able to see Shadow Hunters. Helpful, if true. Side project: understand cat behavior. Creature behaves erratically, sometimes sprints in circles for unknown reasons. Makes sounds at door to be let out. I let him out. He makes sounds outside door to come back in. Repeat as many times as takes until Jakob is bored. He enjoys feathers on long strings tied to sticks.
Written By Harmon
Jan. 29, 2018, 12:08 a.m.(1/20/1008 AR)
Minor progress in learning to socialize. Find great success in keeping mouth closed, just listening. People off-put by speech pattern, can't drink to mitigate every time. Almost attended wedding, water too deep to step into just yet. Will. Someday. Many more weddings ahead to practice on.
Written By Harmon
Nov. 12, 2017, 9:11 p.m.(7/26/1007 AR)
"Met possible colleague today. Corinne. Intelligent, helpful, may possibly be able to fill out gaps in own skills (mostly with people.) Looking forward to possibilities of cooperation. Speech pattern similar to own. Hopeful to have similar mind nearby. Otherwise... all will continue as it was."
Written By Harmon
Oct. 29, 2017, 11:07 p.m.(6/27/1007 AR)
Wish there was a way to maintain two lines of thought at once. So many need help, mind fractured but not in productive way. Pieces still need to be connected. Will help Eirene to best of ability this week, then return to ballistae design next. Wish I could continue in my sleep.
Written By Harmon
Oct. 22, 2017, 10:57 p.m.(6/13/1007 AR)
Mind needed again. Makes me happy that this thing can still find ways to be useful to others, in spite of how it torments me sometimes. Lady Calypso visited me today, interrupted a vision of eyes in the inkwell, red, possibly from tears. She asked for help. Happy to oblige. Takes mind off of sounds.
Written By Harmon
Oct. 1, 2017, 8:44 p.m.(4/26/1007 AR)
Research continues. Continues. Continues. No longer able to sleep on normal schedule. Feel more... vigorous at night. Unsure of reasons. Perhaps sunlight too cloying. Getting everywhere. Not a good sign. Can't stop, though.
Written By Harmon
Sept. 10, 2017, 10:28 p.m.(3/11/1007 AR)
Sleep difficult. Having dreams again, first time I saw outside of the real. Remember terror, confusion, why I could feel the walls breath, sweat, grind their teeth. Maybe burning that place down was hasty.
Written By Harmon
Aug. 20, 2017, 2:09 a.m.(1/20/1007 AR)
Growing sick of dragons. Consumptive, hateful beasts. Too powerful. Are there benevolent powerful beings? Benevolent because of intersecting desires? Happy accident. Power can't be trusted, but necessary. Reason why the second sword was built.
Written By Harmon
Aug. 7, 2017, 12:34 a.m.(12/22/1006 AR)
More to focus on. Dragon, incredible creature, shame to kill but necessary. Perhaps corpse can be used to create new kinds of armor, medicine? Must salvage good from death, even if Dragon is malicious. Especially if malicious. I feel more at home researching these things, these days. Good or bad? Unknown. Stranger in normal land.
Written By Harmon
April 3, 2017, 12:50 a.m.(3/15/1006 AR)
These sigils make me scream. I know they have secrets, meanings that are right there for the taking yet for all my knowledge I am still unequipped to understand. What is it about immortality that warps/enhances/changes/SOMETHING your eyes so? I find myself unable to talk of anything else. I was never good at smalltalk anyways. Words too tiny for my clumsy lips to speak. I am more comfortable with the skull of a monster than having to make conversation with others. People terrify me. Monsters just... are.
Written By Harmon
March 26, 2017, 11:32 p.m.(3/1/1006 AR)
It's been a long time since I've had the unfortunate luck of being in the middle of a war, let alone one with supernatural forces. Events are coming faster than I can piece them together. I haven't nearly finished my translations, or my experiments. Am I not as smart as I had hoped? I need more time. I need more resources. Maybe I don't? Maybe I've reached human limitations? Perhaps this is how a fall begins.
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