Written By Emmelline
Oct. 30, 2023, 2:05 p.m.(2/8/1021 AR)
Relationship Note on Gogil
My lord, I am only grateful, I did not impart with you to whom I am making it for.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 30, 2023, 1:24 p.m.(2/8/1021 AR)
Relationship Note on Gogil
Met the lord Redreef today. he is quite an amiable sort. Funny too, it was a pleasant time spent.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 28, 2023, 10:43 p.m.(2/5/1021 AR)
I had such a lovely time at the celebration ball tonight. I got to meet so many other people, and got to know others so much better. For once in this large city, I did not feel so alone. The queen is so gracious and such a lovely host. Things could not have been anymore perfect. though I cannot lie. My dance with the Archduke Patrizio was most certainly the highlight of my evening. I had thought I might not attend, after all I do not know so many people with whom to mingle with. And then when I did arrive, I must admit I felt quite overwhelmed, and as if I had walked into the wrong place. But the queen Symonesse was so welcoming and charming, I found myself soon relaxing, and had a marvelous time. I hope there will be another such ball soon. Though I do realize these things take an age to plan.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 22, 2023, 10:03 p.m.(1/21/1021 AR)
Some people have told me in the past, that it is a good thing, that I should wear my heart on my sleeve. They have called it honesty and perhaps bluntness. However, I curse it, now more than ever. For when I cannot share what is on my mind, for when I cannot share what is on my heart, those thoughts and feelings haunt me endlessly. I am unable to get them off my mind, and I lack a confidante, with whom I could share everything. I can only hope, that this too shall pass.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 21, 2023, 5:20 p.m.(1/19/1021 AR)
I wish I had a confidante. Back when I first arrived in the city, I had so many friends and acquaintances. Or at least so it seemed. People with whom I could be wholely familiar with, and with whom I could confide in my most inner thoughts. Here and now, I do not have such. And while things weigh on my mind, and when I have questions that need answering, or at least mulling over, I find myself utterly lacking in a confidante. Especially with the winter chill, I find myself feeling more lonely than ever. I have never been one to hold back my thoughts. I have usually, spoken my mind. But when I cannot, for whatever reason, I always wish to speak to someone about just such. Only now, it is not possible. I only have myself, and my own thoughts to keep me company.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 19, 2023, 6:23 a.m.(1/14/1021 AR)
I made a rather embarrassing social blunder the other day. Four-and-twenty, you'd think I'd have mastered the idea of not voicing whatever comes to my mind. And yet, I feel things, or think things, and off my mouth goes. Before my mind can control it. Luckily, no one took offense. Though of course, my face turned like five shades of vermillion. Any redder, and my face might as well have been on fire. But that is sometimes how it goes I suppose. I have never quite been able to keep from wearing my heart on my sleeve, or keeping my thoughts out of my mouth, no matter how I might try.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 17, 2023, 10:30 p.m.(1/11/1021 AR)
Relationship Note on Bridget
Met the princess Bridget today. She is quite different from the Prince Patrizio, and the Princess Gabriella. I rather like her. Though we have only met but once, she already treats me with the familiarity of an old friend. I rather admire that about her. It is something I've always done with people. And so it is lovely to see that in others. A princess no less. I hope we will have plenty of opportunities in future to meet.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 16, 2023, 10:54 p.m.(1/9/1021 AR)
I know I have been gone from the city long. I know that a lot of my friends and acquaintances have moved on from the city. And yet, today I found out that someone I considered a dear friend has passed away. On a mission. I do not know how long ago this might have been. How many years have gone by since his passing. Regardless, I find myself deeply saddened by this news. I have always hoped the best for those whom I considered friends, even though we've lost touch since I had left the city. But lately, I found out two people whom i considered close friends have gone. While I do make strides to build new friendships and connections, in this hour I feel so truly alone. I feel no one whom I might know, or no one who might remember me is in the city. All gone, passed away and disappeared into the wind. It makes me wonder, whether anyone will remember me when I am gone from this world. I am unmarried, no one to call mine, who might mourn my passing. I have always tried to have a positive outlook on life. But for this moment in time, I feel nothing but grief and true and utter loneliness. I am sure, this too shall pass, but I feel it with my whole heart now. I will allow myself to feel this sadness and grief, and to feel this loneliness. I will fully feel it, so that gradually, with time, I can move on from those feelings and leave them behind.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 16, 2023, 6:15 a.m.(1/8/1021 AR)
Relationship Note on Aksel
Met a knight in the hospital ward. He was grievously injured during the recent battle. Perhaps it is because of the duties that he must perform, but his outlook upon life is so bleak. Some might call it realistic, but I thought it was too bleak. he said that all that awaited him was a fiery death. That he has moments of happiness, but that they are always over and end. I tried cheering the man, probably giving him unwanted advice. I know that I cannot change this man's lived experiences, or the way he views his life and the world. But I ardently wish I could, to make it better even just slightly.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 15, 2023, 10:08 p.m.(1/7/1021 AR)
Relationship Note on Gabriella
Was introduced to the Princess Gabriella today. She seems quite an intimidating woman. And she so happened to walk in, when I was teasing his highness the archduke. I can only hope she didn't take it too seriously, and that it hasn't put a black mark against me.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 15, 2023, 10:07 p.m.(1/7/1021 AR)
Relationship Note on Viviana
Was introduced to Viviana for the first time today. She seems such a delightful sort of person. I feel she and I will get on swimmingly, and pray that we might become fast friends.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 15, 2023, 10:06 p.m.(1/7/1021 AR)
Relationship Note on Patrizio
Had a lovely opportunity to spend some time with the Prince Patrizio at the traders tavern. He is such a gentleman through and through, but I fear he takes the things I say too seriously. I hope I haven't given the man any offense, and hopes that he might realize that about ninety percent of the things I say, I say in gest. Perhaps that is a fault of mine, treating people with too much familiarity. But then if it is, it has always been so. I can only hope the prince will take it in with good grace, and that we will forge a strong friendship.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 12, 2023, 10:22 p.m.(1/1/1021 AR)
Relationship Note on Eirene
Met the lady Eirene today. She is such an amiable sort, just the same in many ways as lady Medeia. I will enjoy working with obth of them. though I think lady Eirene at least, will be out in the filed moe, should war come to our lands. I was made liaison of the valardin ward today. Which sounds amazing, and I was told in some respect what my duties will entail. But... I am still unsure on my job, and hope I will receive some training sooner than later.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 12, 2023, 6:20 a.m.(12/28/1020 AR)
Relationship Note on Medeia
Met the lady Medeia at the hospital the other day. She is such a gracious lady, and was quite welcoming. I am sure I can learn so much from her, and draw from her experiences. She referred me to a couple other people whom I must seek out within the city. Hopefully, with my return to the guild our visits will not be infrequent, and we might forge a friendship together.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 11, 2023, 2:47 p.m.(12/26/1020 AR)
Relationship Note on Patrizio
Met Prince Patrizio the other day. He is quite an amiable sort of man. I hope we can forge a friendship. We spoke of so many things, though I will admit much of it went quite over my head. I am afraid, that he will think me quite daft.
Written By Emmelline
Oct. 9, 2023, 11:43 p.m.(12/23/1020 AR)
It's been awhile since I've been in the city proper. I've been catching up on the events that have past since I last was here. I am truly saddened to hear the passing of Prince Niklas. I remember he and his wife, and how truly in love they were. I still remember that winter's event, when he and she went on that sled ride, where in both of them ended up unceremoniously in the snow. My goodness, how many years ago was that? It was back when they were only just married. It seems though, that Sabella is coping well with the lost. I am only sorry I could not be there during her time of need. I considered both her husband, and she close friends.
Written By Emmelline
July 26, 2018, 8:34 a.m.(4/8/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Harlan
Met Duke Harlan the other day. The orangery was quite lovely. I do hope we might see each other again.
Written By Emmelline
July 21, 2018, 2:26 p.m.(3/26/1009 AR)
It is nice to be back in the city once more. I have been too absent. I really ought to go out more, see my friends whom I have not seen in a long while. I do hope they are fairing well.
Written By Emmelline
June 29, 2018, 3:31 p.m.(2/8/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Barric
Saw Princess Coraline and Prince Barric a few days ago at the winter festival. The festival was very good, with all sorts of different games. I did so enjoy cheering them both on during the snowball wars, though it was rather hard, since they opted to be on separate teams. All in all though, it was a very fun outing.
Written By Emmelline
June 26, 2018, 1:01 a.m.(2/1/1009 AR)
Relationship Note on Coraline
I was able to join the physicians guild today. Surprisingly, Princess Coraline is also in the guild. She is such a comforting presence, I am happy to be working and learning beside her.
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