Written By Cahal
Aug. 18, 2021, 11:27 a.m.(1/16/1016 AR)
Relationship Note on Demura
I'm very much an admirer.
I doubt anyone is surprised.
I doubt anyone is surprised.
Written By Cahal
Oct. 7, 2019, 8:26 p.m.(12/21/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Shard
You made the hard choice when we had reached stalemate in a difficult situation.
Whilst I am not entirely happy about you taking the decision without me.
You should know that I do believe it was the right one.
Thank you.
Whilst I am not entirely happy about you taking the decision without me.
You should know that I do believe it was the right one.
Thank you.
Written By Cahal
June 15, 2019, 2:49 a.m.(4/15/1011 AR)
Lately i've been doing a lot of thinking about berserkers. Men and women who's rage and fury grows so great in battle that they gain the ability to endure astonishing injuries and perform the most gruelling feats.
On the surface it feels like a useful thing. Combat isn't something that comes natural to most people. Imagine what it would be like to just be able to turn it on and off like that?
But its a rare thing in this life that is not as good as it is bad.
How exactly DO you turn it off? What if your wife causes you slip into that state of mind where you can do nothing but kill and maim?
How do you live with yourself knowing that one wrong move might be all that it takes to cause you to do something that you can never, ever, live with afterwards.
Its hardly a surprise to read about so many of the men and women who have this ability killing themselves. But I'm sure there has to be a way to control it. I doubt it will be easy but surely we owe it to them to try?
On the surface it feels like a useful thing. Combat isn't something that comes natural to most people. Imagine what it would be like to just be able to turn it on and off like that?
But its a rare thing in this life that is not as good as it is bad.
How exactly DO you turn it off? What if your wife causes you slip into that state of mind where you can do nothing but kill and maim?
How do you live with yourself knowing that one wrong move might be all that it takes to cause you to do something that you can never, ever, live with afterwards.
Its hardly a surprise to read about so many of the men and women who have this ability killing themselves. But I'm sure there has to be a way to control it. I doubt it will be easy but surely we owe it to them to try?
Written By Cahal
June 15, 2019, 2:34 a.m.(4/15/1011 AR)
Right now I bet the clouds are pouring through the valley by my parents house to turn the world into that strange pale dream which vanishes once the sun has truly risen as if it were never there. Except for a thousand starlike dewdrops clinging to the shoots of wheat out in the fields. I miss that. Even when I remember how last time I was there, watching that mist, I was cold and miserable and couldn't wait to get away.
I miss my brothers (yes even you K) even if I am appreciating being the tallest man in the room more often than not.
I'm dreading the summer. June has only just started and already I can tell that I'm going to spend a lot of time sitting under trees wishing for the cool of the night.
Yet, despite that. I think I will grow to love Arx even more than I love those hills. All these people should make it claustrophobic, chaotic and busy but somehow thats not what its like at all. Instead there is a buzz of activity. Of Life. Of potential. And its really quite infectious. Even if I do miss climbing and hunting out on the red hills. And there are people here that I am already fond of. I probably shouldnt mention them here, so I wont, but I hope that they know who they are.
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