Written By Caelis
June 24, 2022, 2:31 a.m.(11/19/1017 AR)
Arx, what a wonderful pile of rocks. Spending time at home bouncing along the coastlines I'd forgotten the smell, but it's a little nostalgic to have walked through the city again. It's still hard, but it feels like an old wound now and I can breathe again. I've been catching up on the news since we docked, still it seems life moves ever faster. It's nice to be home.
Written By Caelis
March 22, 2021, 11 p.m.(2/28/1015 AR)
It's been over a year. No letters, no news.
A room was never meant to feel so empty.
I should have had him painted so his children would remember his face.
I never thought I would need to.
Are you coming home?
Mangata grant you rains and calm seas, I can do nothing for you.
A room was never meant to feel so empty.
I should have had him painted so his children would remember his face.
I never thought I would need to.
Are you coming home?
Mangata grant you rains and calm seas, I can do nothing for you.
Written By Caelis
Aug. 14, 2020, 7:48 p.m.(11/4/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Edain
I need your help husband. You're not dead, but you are gone and the ghost of you is everywhere. Our battles, even when fought apart were fought together and you've gone to someplace I can't follow. Tell me what am I to do in a city where you haunt me in memory? How am I to live with the rather large knight shaped hole in our home where you aren't? The children miss you fiercely and the precious firsts you will miss.
May your hopes find safe harbors Edain, because I could fill a sea with misery.
May your hopes find safe harbors Edain, because I could fill a sea with misery.
Written By Caelis
Aug. 7, 2020, 7:39 p.m.(10/18/1013 AR)
The older I become the more I feel I understand the sea. Just now I appreciate her cold depths and wild storms for that is what I feel in my heart. I shall pray my prince survives his quest, but I fear we shall be strangers if he ever returns to these shores. All my secrets were his, but he never saw fit to open his depths to me. Such is the peril in marriage.
I shan't say goodbye to him. He didn't see fit to say farewell to me.
In short, husband, I have several ideas on where you can shove your lance.
I shan't say goodbye to him. He didn't see fit to say farewell to me.
In short, husband, I have several ideas on where you can shove your lance.
Written By Caelis
May 14, 2020, 3:58 a.m.(4/15/1013 AR)
My youngest is three already, and brave Samuel is five. It is astounding how quickly that time has past and how frighteningly clever small children are. I feel the next time I look again Samuel will be in his road to knighthood and our sweet, curious Sugan will be off to her fostering. I wonder what I shall do with myself then? Perhaps spend more time at sea. I miss the spray of salt water and wind crisp enough to take the breath away. The sky at night when the seas are calm and the stars sparkle on the water...
May your hopes find safe harbors.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
Written By Caelis
Sept. 17, 2018, 2:46 a.m.(8/13/1009 AR)
I got to just recently. It's something I've seen Edain do so many times. I was pleased and surprised to find I was not bad. I've come a long way from getting cold shakes looking at a horse. I'm no natural Oathland rider, but I'm sure given time I might even be good.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
Written By Caelis
June 16, 2018, 1:12 a.m.(1/9/1009 AR)
Today I learned a man who showed me kindness and welcomed me as kin hid a duplicitous nature. I pray the gods steer him right as the wheel turns, that he learns kindness and goodness to atone in the next life for the evil he brought to this one. Perhaps it is a sign, that life so long ashore has soften me for my heart to ache for a traitor who brought so much pain. Where I felt anger I feel sorrow. I wonder if my intuition abandons me? These are troubling thoughts.
May your hopes find safe harbor.
May your hopes find safe harbor.
Written By Caelis
June 3, 2018, 3:37 a.m.(11/26/1008 AR)
Had a wonderful picnic with Prince Edain, just us, no little Princeling. I'm always a little in awe of seeing him in the wild. So often he wears the weight of his station and his immense care for those he has to protect. But when we steal away an afternoon I get to see the knight he dreamed of being before so much responsibility fell to his shoulders. I don't know that I could choose between them, my errant knight and the Prince of Sanctum. So often our thoughts and feelings for each other are kept private, once in a while there's a great need to cry out to the world that my husband is a lovely man. We've found a way to build a romance from our matching, thanks be to the Gods. I will be quite heart broken when young Prince Samuel is grown like his father to learn the crafts he plies. I pray, after our lovely picnic, that our son finds such pleasure in simple things and enjoys a pause for even a rare afternoon like his father does.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
Written By Caelis
April 30, 2018, 10:05 p.m.(8/26/1008 AR)
Things I want to remember to do in the near future:
Rematch against my husband on that one track we rode now that he's riding a different horse. This one may not abandon him in trees.
Convince my brother to spar with me with cutlasses to see who's better with out that tree splitting monster he wields.
Continue working on rebuilding the navy because boats are cool and all the really popular, cool kids fight at sea!
Rematch against my husband on that one track we rode now that he's riding a different horse. This one may not abandon him in trees.
Convince my brother to spar with me with cutlasses to see who's better with out that tree splitting monster he wields.
Continue working on rebuilding the navy because boats are cool and all the really popular, cool kids fight at sea!
Written By Caelis
April 3, 2018, 7:15 p.m.(6/26/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Eirene
I'm teaching that song to every child I have. It will be immortalized. I should send Baroness Lucita flowers for bringing such an amazing homage to your wonderousness, Auntie.
Written By Caelis
March 30, 2018, 12:30 p.m.(6/16/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Ann
Please do not send my husband any form of pork sword. I don't need this home dragging out in my life.
Written By Caelis
March 18, 2018, 10:33 p.m.(5/20/1008 AR)
My first battle since the baby, and so soon after! I feared, for the first time that I would not come back to my little son. I have always been a cautious woman, affairs in order before I leave for dangerous deeds. This is the first time however that I felt my heart clutch at the thought of not seeing Samuel's tiny nose of feel his small, soft fingers curled around mine. He is so little and the world is so dangerous these days. I pray for my little son, he will carry such a burden on his little shoulders. Still, as a noble it's my duty to be present and defend. I will simply cuddle my son all the more when I am home to do so.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
Written By Caelis
Feb. 25, 2018, 7:09 p.m.(4/6/1008 AR)
I was so happy when Edain said we could name the baby for my father if it was a boy. He's so sweet. Dark hair like us, his eyes are blue, I hope they stay blue. For now he seems to mostly want to watch until he's too tired to look at the world and sleep. I can't imagine leaving him to his nurse while we go fight, but that is what we must do. For now I want to steal every moment I can with this small person in case the worst should happen.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
Written By Caelis
Feb. 17, 2018, 2:20 a.m.(3/16/1008 AR)
I look forward to fitting in my armor again. I look forward to readily seeing my toes, fighting, moving freely. Most of all, I look forward to seeing this small person I've spent near a year with. Prince Edain and I have finally chosen names one way or the other, my will is up to date. Gods willing I see my way through child birth and the battles to come.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
Written By Caelis
Feb. 3, 2018, 11:42 p.m.(2/12/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Estaban
I am ever impressed at how your skill with a blade grows. I hope Riptide does you credit. I know you were passed the blade and job rather quickly, but I think you are a credit to Southport. There will be trying days ahead and many will look to you. Remember the symbol of the station on your hip and the skill as admiral you have shown so far. I'm always a messenger away as well. Thank you for the sparing match today.
I take some small relief knowing I can still beat you six months and a half pregnant if I wanted to.
I take some small relief knowing I can still beat you six months and a half pregnant if I wanted to.
Written By Caelis
Jan. 28, 2018, 12:06 a.m.(1/18/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Aurelian
I like him. Of my Valardin cousins I have so many of now, I think he spends the most time with me. Often over porridge by the kitchens on quiet mornings or the like. Though for his quiet humor, I worry he's quite exasperated with me. This evening I had a wonderful evening time at Baron Estaban's wedding and poor Aurelian was doing his best to attend me before letting his guard down. I gave him the slip like so many guards and hope he is not too cross with my clever antics.
Written By Caelis
Jan. 24, 2018, 4:52 p.m.(1/12/1008 AR)
Dear Oathlands, we need to have a talk about this liver and milk sauce dish I keep being sent from the kitchens. Princess Alis assures me it is a traditional dish for pregnancy, that being said-no one in the kitchens gets to look at me funny when I ask for raw fish with lemon on it ever again. This child will be a proper Oathlander, so I am doing things by the book. But the next one you can bet I will be eating more Southport styled dishes. I crave seafood salad, I dream about it. I want nothing more than to sit with my poor feet in the water with a whole bucket of oysters and some lemon. I can't recall the last time I have thought about food so often or been so constantly hungry. Only a few months to go.
Written By Caelis
Jan. 21, 2018, 4:40 p.m.(1/6/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Edain
I like listening to you read to our child. I think that is the time it's the most active. Perhaps our little heir knows your voice already. That's a warming thought to me. I know dangerous days are ahead of us, but the time we get to spend together, listening to you read or just having a quiet evening in each other's company is something to cherish.
Written By Caelis
Jan. 17, 2018, 12:41 a.m.(12/24/1007 AR)
The most daring thing I think I have planned for a while will be trying to pawn more sweets of the cooks. I am happy to do my part and save lives, but next time I believe I will try to do so less pregnant. I say this knowing if we go to war at sea tomorrow-nothing will keep me off my ship, but as far as endeavors on land go, I have quite had my fill until the baby comes. It would seem hanging around at my cousins sides has at least given me enough of an education in land tactics that with Princess Alis to help we avoided casualties. Perhaps Alis and I won't find out if the other sibling throws his shoes.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
May your hopes find safe harbors.
Written By Caelis
Jan. 14, 2018, 5:35 p.m.(12/20/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Edain
I have the most amazing, considerate, forgiving husband.
He's so sweet and kind.
Please don't be cross with me dearest.
He's so sweet and kind.
Please don't be cross with me dearest.
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