Written By Artorius
April 28, 2022, 2:34 p.m.(7/18/1017 AR)
I received a copy of this and felt the need to enter it into my own journal, because in a way it reaffirms how I feel and obviously better written.
Sir Preston Writes, of Knighthood:
"To be a knight is a most solemn thing for all. It is true, for a common person it can indeed be a greater change - a chance to be seen, to advance, but that is a byproduct of it. And the importance, the solemnity, applies whether it is a noble or a commoner. It is not simply a saying of words, or the meeting of some arbitrary goal. You give your oaths, before the Gods and your people. You swear your service to another, not to yourself or your own needs. The test, if there is one, is to choose wisely to whom you grant your service. For you are bound, by oath, to them. And in turn that they accept you, knowing your dishonour will also be theirs, just as theirs is yours."
I will consider these words thoroughly in the coming weeks, Sir Preston.
Sir Preston Writes, of Knighthood:
"To be a knight is a most solemn thing for all. It is true, for a common person it can indeed be a greater change - a chance to be seen, to advance, but that is a byproduct of it. And the importance, the solemnity, applies whether it is a noble or a commoner. It is not simply a saying of words, or the meeting of some arbitrary goal. You give your oaths, before the Gods and your people. You swear your service to another, not to yourself or your own needs. The test, if there is one, is to choose wisely to whom you grant your service. For you are bound, by oath, to them. And in turn that they accept you, knowing your dishonour will also be theirs, just as theirs is yours."
I will consider these words thoroughly in the coming weeks, Sir Preston.
Written By Artorius
March 16, 2022, 1:48 a.m.(4/15/1017 AR)
I had a rock garden built in the backyard.
It's quiet there.
I mediate there, building my stone cairns.
Though the hobby of mine now has a sourness to it, as if every stone that I stack has a painful memory to it.
Sadness, grief, and anger ... they've become stronger in me, since I've returned to Arx...
... I often wonder why I am here.
It's quiet there.
I mediate there, building my stone cairns.
Though the hobby of mine now has a sourness to it, as if every stone that I stack has a painful memory to it.
Sadness, grief, and anger ... they've become stronger in me, since I've returned to Arx...
... I often wonder why I am here.
Written By Artorius
March 16, 2022, 1:35 a.m.(4/15/1017 AR)
I don't tend to pry into other people's business, it's not my way. One journal entry ... by Lord Mattheu caught my eye. Perhaps my ire as well.
I can relate to having so very few ... really, very few, ... in truth one person ... that accepts me for who I am and wants to include me in their life on a daily basis. She knows who she is.
I had told a couple people of my truth directly and the result was ... abandonment. Those who I've told my story too, those I thought I could trust with it, have not accepted me for it and have turned to pursue relationships with others who carry less...baggage.
I find it harder and harder to open up, knowing the result is my truth ends up in their choice to leave.
Better to be alone with my truth then rejected for it.
And if someone does come along that accepts me, then let not the world condemn them for it. Let a person have peacefulness in that companionship and love. Let them cry out for that love, let them hold to it because... because loneliness is paralyzing. Regret, shame, sadness ... are slow death sentences.
Still, love doesn't have to nor should it always result in marriage. You can love, absolutely, without marriage bonds. That's not my drum to beat, as I've two under my belt which catered to the idea of love over duty - lessons I've learned from. After all divorce ... is a stain on you that lasts.
Take it from me, don't hope for love resulting in marriage, hope for a marriage that can turn to love, if marriage is what you seek. If love is all you seek, then love is all you need.
...
I can relate to having so very few ... really, very few, ... in truth one person ... that accepts me for who I am and wants to include me in their life on a daily basis. She knows who she is.
I had told a couple people of my truth directly and the result was ... abandonment. Those who I've told my story too, those I thought I could trust with it, have not accepted me for it and have turned to pursue relationships with others who carry less...baggage.
I find it harder and harder to open up, knowing the result is my truth ends up in their choice to leave.
Better to be alone with my truth then rejected for it.
And if someone does come along that accepts me, then let not the world condemn them for it. Let a person have peacefulness in that companionship and love. Let them cry out for that love, let them hold to it because... because loneliness is paralyzing. Regret, shame, sadness ... are slow death sentences.
Still, love doesn't have to nor should it always result in marriage. You can love, absolutely, without marriage bonds. That's not my drum to beat, as I've two under my belt which catered to the idea of love over duty - lessons I've learned from. After all divorce ... is a stain on you that lasts.
Take it from me, don't hope for love resulting in marriage, hope for a marriage that can turn to love, if marriage is what you seek. If love is all you seek, then love is all you need.
...
Written By Artorius
Feb. 19, 2022, 1:25 p.m.(2/22/1017 AR)
Knighthood is not simply given when it is asked for, nor is it won during a contest. It is earned through merit and selfless deeds. It is an oath not to be broken once sworn upon, as it reflects the weight of the trust between liege Lord and sworn knights, for those who become knighted are thereby a knight who represents the name of their Lord with every choice.
It is a sacred and an honored tradition. Gods help anyone who bastardizes it.
It is a sacred and an honored tradition. Gods help anyone who bastardizes it.
Written By Artorius
Feb. 16, 2022, 11:36 p.m.(2/17/1017 AR)
Grief is a personal journey. There's no right or wrong way to handle it. You can only move fluidly with it, as it takes you along for a ride. Sometimes the sorrow lasts days, weeks, months, perhaps years. Perhaps a lifetime. There is no time limit to grieving for the lost. There is no feeling better from it, there is only adjusting to the life as it is now, without those who you cherished in it beside you. There is emptiness where there was friendship or love. I've lost too many, over two dozen...
I'm reluctant to replace those I lost, because loss is so hard to bear anew. Yet, the emptiness is worse.
All I can say to those who lost recently is do not pressure yourself to be who you were, before your loss. Do not pressure yourself to speedy recovery. Take what time you need... to adjust.
I'm reluctant to replace those I lost, because loss is so hard to bear anew. Yet, the emptiness is worse.
All I can say to those who lost recently is do not pressure yourself to be who you were, before your loss. Do not pressure yourself to speedy recovery. Take what time you need... to adjust.
Written By Artorius
Sept. 1, 2021, 12:39 p.m.(2/16/1016 AR)
My first DAY back in the city was busy. I heard some rumors of Bastion, caught up with Lord Martino and Countess Thea, arranged futures for Magnotta. Then I was notified of three socials I must attend from three individuals; Softest Whisper, a Princess, and saucy Lady. Whom I'm taking to what remains unseen. Then I drank deeply for my lamenting of Count Domonico, sent letters out for the support I received from Marquis Gaspard, and responding to inquiries that were concerning the children of our late cousin.
More drinking transpired.
Then I met a Lord that I would drink with again, for he has some fine wine but I suspect finer company. There was also an old Prince there and a young Lady. The conversation was mostly about Bastion and war, and realizing how much time I've been away and that I absolutely know nothing of the current affairs...
At last, I got to wind up my day. Thank you to lady Red, who gave me a warm welcome home during such cold nights.
More drinking transpired.
Then I met a Lord that I would drink with again, for he has some fine wine but I suspect finer company. There was also an old Prince there and a young Lady. The conversation was mostly about Bastion and war, and realizing how much time I've been away and that I absolutely know nothing of the current affairs...
At last, I got to wind up my day. Thank you to lady Red, who gave me a warm welcome home during such cold nights.
Written By Artorius
Sept. 17, 2017, 12:49 p.m.(3/24/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Melinda
I am honored and humbled to call you my wife.
We will accomplish great things together, I just know it.
We will accomplish great things together, I just know it.
Written By Artorius
Aug. 31, 2017, 4:12 p.m.(2/15/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Estaban
Congratulations on your new position as Admiral of the Malvici Fleet.
My sister tends to be wise in professional decisions, so I'll put my faith in her decision -and- your skill at sailing.
Do your best!
My sister tends to be wise in professional decisions, so I'll put my faith in her decision -and- your skill at sailing.
Do your best!
Written By Artorius
Aug. 31, 2017, 4:08 p.m.(2/15/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Caelis
It will certainly be a wonderful occasion.
I'm so proud of you.
I'm so proud of you.
Written By Artorius
Aug. 27, 2017, 6:55 p.m.(2/7/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Alis
I've met Princess Alis once before, but alas it was in passing before a battle. Today though, I had the greatest pleasure of meeting and truly speaking with the Princess.
We talked on many things, including how each of us respected the other's house and why such Houses were worthy of respect and admiration. She is another prime example to me of why Valardin is a house of kindness and honor, a primary reason of why I think we get along so splendidly. Can't wait to call her as my family.
She also showed me around the manor...which is possibly the shiniest I've ever seen.
Especially the dining room.
We talked on many things, including how each of us respected the other's house and why such Houses were worthy of respect and admiration. She is another prime example to me of why Valardin is a house of kindness and honor, a primary reason of why I think we get along so splendidly. Can't wait to call her as my family.
She also showed me around the manor...which is possibly the shiniest I've ever seen.
Especially the dining room.
Written By Artorius
Aug. 27, 2017, 3:38 p.m.(2/7/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Sivard
I met the guy who's gonna be my brother-in-law.
He seems a nice fellow, though by the way he was staring at me from across the room and maybe sharpening his sword when I wasn't looking may prove me wrong.
Nice guy though! Can't wait to learn more about him.
He seems a nice fellow, though by the way he was staring at me from across the room and maybe sharpening his sword when I wasn't looking may prove me wrong.
Nice guy though! Can't wait to learn more about him.
Written By Artorius
Aug. 27, 2017, 3:36 p.m.(2/7/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Melinda
Can't wait.
We'll do both of our families proud, I swear it.
We'll do both of our families proud, I swear it.
Written By Artorius
Aug. 27, 2017, 3:36 p.m.(2/7/1007 AR)
Relationship Note on Melinda
Can't wait.
We'll do both of our families proud, I swear it.
We'll do both of our families proud, I swear it.
Written By Artorius
Aug. 6, 2017, 10:58 p.m.(12/22/1006 AR)
I ended up attending the wedding between King Alaric and Queen Symonesse and it was quite the spectacle....first time I ever attended a wedding of such a caliber, and even moreso the first time I've met our monarchs.
Both of which are rather splendid.
A marvelous night indeed that I feel was celebrated for longer than a day in Arx.
Both of which are rather splendid.
A marvelous night indeed that I feel was celebrated for longer than a day in Arx.
Written By Artorius
Aug. 6, 2017, 10:56 p.m.(12/22/1006 AR)
There's a grand melee coming up for the tournament of roses?
Sign.
Me.
Up.
Sign.
Me.
Up.
Written By Artorius
July 30, 2017, 8:06 p.m.(12/7/1006 AR)
I cannot wait until the duel event in the Iron Pentathlon....so many fighters in one place.
It'll be great!! I can't remember the last time I was this excited.
It'll be great!! I can't remember the last time I was this excited.
Written By Artorius
July 24, 2017, 11:17 a.m.(11/22/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Calypso
My cousin got married....I still remember she and I dueling in the meadows when we were but children, spending time with our other cousins...those were good times.
I'm getting old.
I'm getting old.
Written By Artorius
July 24, 2017, 11:16 a.m.(11/22/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Melinda
Indeed, Lady Melinda.
I find us to be quite lucky, let us pray that we do not prove we are undeserving of your fathers permission. I find a great deal of happiness in his permission altogether!
I find us to be quite lucky, let us pray that we do not prove we are undeserving of your fathers permission. I find a great deal of happiness in his permission altogether!
Written By Artorius
July 16, 2017, 12:43 a.m.(11/6/1006 AR)
I find it quite interesting that people are asking others en masse what scents they enjoy, but I suppose I can join in on the trend this once. I happen to enjoy these scents:
Vanilla.
Campfires.
Saltwater.
Lemon.
Cedarwood.
Most flowers.
What an interesting game...I wonder what others said for theirs?
Vanilla.
Campfires.
Saltwater.
Lemon.
Cedarwood.
Most flowers.
What an interesting game...I wonder what others said for theirs?
Written By Artorius
June 30, 2017, 12:44 p.m.(10/3/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Khanne
I had the pleasure of meeting the Lady Khanne Halfshav thanks to the suggestion of my wise cousin Calypso. She is a rather friendly sort and a solid intellectual. For entirely my own reasons, and with the help of Calypso, I'm very lucky to have met her. Her wisdom has been most helpful!
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