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Written By Alecstazi

May 13, 2020, 4:39 p.m.(4/14/1013 AR)

Relationship Note on Shard

Ugh. Stop being such a reasonable asshole.

Written By Alecstazi

May 12, 2020, 4:35 p.m.(4/12/1013 AR)

Relationship Note on Rysen

Clearly you have been nursing this upset for quite a while -- and you should have done the appropriate thing and called for Champions and been done with it. It's extremely unNorthern of you to hold tight to such a grudge. If I am so unwise, such a bad Peer, then surely my opinions have no weight to them. If my criticisms bore no merit why would anyone care? Perhaps it is that there is a nugget of truth within them, like a spec of sand within an oyster, eventually becomes a pearl of... I don't know. Again, not a poet.

I am a traditionalist, and I will never apologize for that. But you *do* realize that part of that tradition is... accepting and attempting to acclimate to one's new home and culture? As crass as I consider your continued attempt to plead your case publicly even after the challenge issued was accepted, I suppose I can lower myself to explain this in small words and simple concepts, whereas normally I would not deign to continue this spectacle and let the duel speak for itself.

Social standing is one of, if not *the* supreme tool of the Peerage. It is a way to maintain order and civility within our ranks and it dictates and determines the necessary hierarchy to establish said order. Before Brianna I had courted a Princess of Lenosia, some ten years ago, and that courtship fell through when she died of poisoning. Having relationships is not the same as courting. I have had lovers plenty, but that is personal and private. Courting is the intent to marry, and I have never asked to court anyone, as I believe it was my duty to obey the desires of my family with regard to marriage. Marriage and love are not at all the same thing, nor should they be. I would have, as I stated before, been content to continue a discreet relationship with Brianna and been married to a Princess. It was High Lord Victus who asked me to court Brianna, and I did so, happily. I continue to stress this fact: I never asked for the freedom to marry Brianna, because that would have been selfish. My life belonged to Thrax, and that Victus chose to place me into a contract with Halfshav is between him and Duchess Khanne.

Tradition is greatly important to me. Such as the tradition of openly adopting the culture of one's new House. Were I to cling to Thrax ideals that would hardly benefit my new House. While I hope to impart some of the wisdom of the Isles, I am not arrogant enough to cling to that which is gone. If you know my wife, you will know that she takes her role as Champion with extreme seriousness. If she felt that she could not fairly and honorably represent me, she would have told me to pick another. Or are you questioning *her* honor now too?

"Let no one mistake Lord Alecstazi for a man of principle. His legacy in the Whites is an account of pettiness, meanness and arrogance. It is his love for my friend that redeems him. May it ever be so."

If I had not already challenged you, this alone would be cause for one. If I were you, Rysen Crovane, I would shut my mouth before more crow is shoved in there for you to eat.

Written By Alecstazi

May 11, 2020, 2:15 p.m.(4/10/1013 AR)

Relationship Note on Rysen

...Does anyone else hear the sound of farting on the wind?

I swear it seems to be coming from somewhere in the Ward...

Written By Alecstazi

May 11, 2020, 2:10 p.m.(4/10/1013 AR)

Relationship Note on Victus

"Rest assured, Lord Alecstazi is a dutiful man who had the best interests of his family at heart. Love did not blind to his responsibility as an honored peer."

Too soon cousin. I was not blinded by love, it was this small ball that exploded and sent sharp bits into my eyes.

But hey, I got better.

Written By Alecstazi

May 10, 2020, 11:49 p.m.(4/9/1013 AR)

Relationship Note on Rysen

For a moment I thought to answer in rhyming couplets, but then... enh. I'm no poet, and that's alright. You say that I spoke out against your marriage to Lady Mikani. You're right, I did. At the time she'd recently married into a house, assumed Regency, then abdicated to marry you. I noted that this appeared to be quite the bit of social climbing, as well as a marriage based on love, which I do not think has ever been denied.

To this, I take your prose to infer some hypocrisy on my part, having recently been wed to Lady Brianna, to whom I hold great affection. To this, I say: You are wrong. It is as simple as that. Lady and I were enjoying a quiet companionship when my High Lord asked me to formally court her. Thus I did. Our families dealt with the negotiations. So, while yes, I admit I did get lucky that my political match worked out in my favor, but I did not ask for a love match, in fact Lady Brianna and I had discussed the fact that I very well could have been married to someone else, and we understood that the relationship would continue on discreetly or end as we felt appropriate.

But keep on trying Lord Smug.

Thank you for the welcome.

Written By Alecstazi

Oct. 8, 2019, 7:52 p.m.(12/23/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Eleanor

I did not comment on hereditary debt because that was abolished some time ago and is no longer relevant to any discussion of thralls made under the auspices of criminal justice. An abolishment that I entirely agreed with, I might add. I said before that there were changes needed, and that corruption existed.

If it makes you feel better to continue to try to paint me as some sort of cruel tyrant, then by all means.

Written By Alecstazi

Oct. 7, 2019, 10:02 a.m.(12/20/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Eleanor

I did not design the system, nor, if you may recall, did I say that it was without flaw. But just because something has flaws does not mean it has no merit either. Change, I believe is a viable option. Refining a system is oft better than simply abandoning it entirely.

This is all conjecture, however, as the High Lord has made his promise, and like any honorable personage, shall be keeping it.

I simply challenge the apparent groundswell of righteousness to point out that these people that so often get labeled as innocent victims are, by and large, nothing of the sort.

Written By Alecstazi

Oct. 4, 2019, 3:06 p.m.(12/14/1011 AR)

The scholar tasked with reading me the issues of the day has left the poor woman quite parched. I gave her a glass of water and a rest before requesting that she pen this for me.

My first thought upon hearing all of the words written on this topic is that so many people are quick to wring their hands and wail and moan for the poor, poor victims of Thralldom. Clearly these innocent souls have suffered tragically in their lives of forced labor, having done nothing at all to deserve it.

Except that is not the case at /all/. We do not simply walk up to people minding their own business and slap them in irons and declare them Thralls. These are criminals, thieves, rapists, murderers and shavs who have taken up swords against people of the Compact. Those who have stolen from the law-abiding peoples who want only safety, security and peaceful lives. We enthrall those who have broken with the social contracts or live so far outside the boundaries of civilization to spit on the the thought of rejoining it. These are people, who in other parts of this Compact would be put to death. Was the system flawed? Of course. Were there those abusing it? Absolutely. But I ask you to find me a system of criminal justice anywhere that is without flaw or corruption.

Mainlanders are fond of punishing Compact citizens who commit terrible crimes by saying they are no longer members of the Compact, effectively turning them into abandoned, which in turn renders them unprotected from whatever Lord has decided to go on a cleansing rampage of getting those sorts off their lands.

What really gets me, however, about this event, or debacle that is raging is that it is attempting to shame those seeking to raise money to abolish something that they themselves abhor. I can see why there are those calling it crass or gross. Not because it seeks to normalize something as foul as the slave auctions of Eurus, but rather that it cheapens the horror of it. Instead of reacting with an innate horror at the imagery of a human being being paraded about like a sub-human animal, judged and allocated a price, it becomes a titillation. A means of deriving some sort of arbitrary social esteem that, while I can see how it might be flattering, nevertheless reduces a person down to a monetary value.

The appeal there is clear for those whose own ego is not enough to sustain them but requires some outside validation in the form of garnering an exorbitant price, or at least one that is higher than that Lord or Lady you secretly despise.

To those who protest, however, I ask you this: What harm is it really doing? If a person is not self-aware enough to see the reasons for why such a thing is, by its very nature, gauche, are words really going to change their mind? If this is how they choose to raise money to pay for a short-term non-solution to a greater problem that is, effectively, being kicked down the road for future conflicts to swell and fester, just roll your eyes and let them.

As for Whisper House and their participation, well. I'd have thought that they would choose the politically correct avenue, but I cannot fault them for adhering to the principals of Skald either. Let who so ever desires to, make themselves look like an ass. I do it all the time.

Written By Alecstazi

Sept. 22, 2019, 2:14 a.m.(11/17/1011 AR)

*The text is written in a different hand than the other entries*

Dictated to Scholar Sereladi.

I have returned to Arx, humbled but unbowed, less than I was, but determined to regain what was lost. The trip was more successful than I could have hoped, though that is not to say there was no cost.

I continue to learn more, often more than I am comfortable with. I have spent quite a lot of time with Northerners, the Halfshavs in particular and it is a curious thing, seeing how other families operate.

I count myself fortunate to be able to speak these words, to be once more within the city, with its sounds.

Written By Alecstazi

Sept. 13, 2019, 2:10 p.m.(10/28/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Raimon

If the timing is right, I'd be glad to team up with you.

Written By Alecstazi

Aug. 26, 2019, 2:56 p.m.(9/20/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Edward

So, I have heard on good authority, that apparently Baron Edward Stormbreak chose to withhold even a meager stipend from his former wife, leaving her penniless and dependent on the charity of others. While it is within the purview of a lord to dictate how things are to be within his lands, that goes hand in hand with following unspoken rules, both in common decency and sense. To deny anyone of your noble House access to funds for basic things is deplorable. Such a thing might be reserved as punishment in extreme circumstances, but given a well defined period of time that is just.

That being said I am still against the concept of divorce in general, though I recognize that is my opinion. I can think of a few other options for dealing with a spouse that is so maliciously negligent. Call for Champions, tell the world of his deeds. Shame can be a compelling force. Likewise, bring his perfidy to the attention of the Peerage, either via the Assembly, calling for a review of his fitness for Lordship or by bringing charges of negligence up to the Court to be ruled on by the magistrate.

Should this information be accurate and IF the Baron of Stormbreak did act in this wretched manner, he should be shamed for it. Now I must ask: Does he deny that he acted this way?

Written By Alecstazi

Aug. 25, 2019, 4:02 p.m.(9/18/1011 AR)

This little saga in the Whites has been, admittedly, fairly entertaining. One Baroness railing against civilization, casting aspersions at her husband and generally making scenes.

But divorce? I really have to wonder at the reasoning for allowing such a thing. Obviously the Dominus is the highest authority, and his will must be respected, it is just... odd. Unsettling.

Our society is built on the bonds of faith, of fidelity. We stand by our word, for if our word cannot be trusted, then what do you have? Nothing. Part of being a noble is understanding that your life is not your own. You are a pawn to be used in the pursuit of prosperity and security of your House. This is not an evil or bad thing. For the stronger and more prosperous the House, the better the lives of those entrusted to it. We flourish so that our vassals and serfs know security. A noble marriage is not for love, it is a contract sealing two Houses together, strengthening them both. When you marry, you do so to provide for the vassals under your House. Open yourself to the potential for happiness, but commit yourself to the work of building something within your partner. For that is what a spouse is. A partner in getting work done.

Divorce over hurt feelings is ridiculous. I am not saying that is what this Stormbreak divorce was, it seems insane to me that the Dominus would agree to a dissolution for such an insipid reason, so it could not be that. If you find there is no compatibility at all with your spouse... nothing says you must live together. If you must produce an heir, well... there are always nephews. I just do not understand how this is so tolerated. It literally undermines our society. By normalizing divorce we are all but saying that the vows we take might not be kept. We are weakening the strength of our word. If we continue to allow these divorces, if it becomes as much of a fad as marrying for love seems to have become we admit that our word is meaningless.

I hear all these voices offering solace and compassion and support to the divorcee. Publicly. That is appalling. Each person doing this is only encouraging that erosion of the taboo. You are saying it is okay to go back on your word. It is alright to undo promises on a vast level. These people should be pariahs. They should be scorned. If there is no consequence to going back on your word then you make it easier to break it. Afterall, if nothing bad is going to happen... then why should we all not just do whatever we want?

Written By Alecstazi

Aug. 21, 2019, 10:07 p.m.(9/11/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Brianna

No, Lady Halfshav you will not walk your path alone. For my goose is faithful and devoted. And jealous. Well, I suppose he's *YOUR* goose now. Tell your servants to mind their fingers.

Written By Alecstazi

July 31, 2019, 7:24 p.m.(7/24/1011 AR)

It is unacceptable for a commoner to strike a member of the Peerage. Period.

That being said, it should beneath the dignity of a peer to bully, challenge or otherwise provoke one of the common born. Ours is to embody the principles of nobility, chivalry and graciousness. When we fail in this we bring shame to our House, to our families. We stand above, draped in wealth and privilege, and the price of that is that we must always be aware of our actions, our words. We do not have the freedoms to give into our emotions. We must be better. If we're not? Then we do not deserve to be named noble.

Lord Alban, *if* his behavior is as it was described, should be ashamed, and his House should be ashamed of him. If he was indeed picking on a commoner, getting in his face and deliberately provoking him? Then may the masses recognize his failings.

There must be punishment for Ras' assault on a Lord of the realm. There are other ways of responding to obnoxious behavior. If he was struck first? All bets are off. A person is allowed to defend themselves. Next time, instead of throwing the first blow, leave. Shout, scream, yell, but the moment it turns physical? Unacceptable.

Written By Alecstazi

July 28, 2019, 10:55 a.m.(7/18/1011 AR)

So this is what crow tastes like.

Worth it.

Written By Alecstazi

July 21, 2019, 2:55 p.m.(7/4/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Brianna

How is it that you can make me smile even while you smash me intro the dirt? Something is deeply strange here.

Written By Alecstazi

July 19, 2019, 3:43 p.m.(6/28/1011 AR)

Despite the more vehement voices of the day, I maintain there is a distinct difference between thralldom and slavery. People like to throw around words saying it is the same but give them a choice between the two, my guess is most would pick thralldom. Slavery removes a person's humanity, rendering them no more than beasts. I do not know the details of the situation that led to Fatima's disgrace, but I know that working with slavers pots a stain on the honor of all Thrax. Victus and the Faith saw fit to grant a path to redemption. There is nothing gray or confusing here. It is the Thrax way.

Written By Alecstazi

July 11, 2019, 9:09 p.m.(6/12/1011 AR)

I have to agree with the growing chorus of voices speaking out about this apparent betrothal of a Crovane Lord and the Lady Byrne. See, the problem with neonobility, is that they lack the depth of training and dedication to one's House that is drilled into a Peer from the day they are old enough to understand words. When that is the case, you see examples like this, a woman elevated to a Lady, who marries a man on his deathbed, becoming a Countess. I was actually pleasantly surprised to hear her abdicate her position to Count Graham, a man born to the Peerage, if never previously in line to inherit. That base training was there, in place. I thought the move a good one, a smart one. Except that it was not out of devotion to her new House, a House she herself renamed, a symbol of her pledge to the people of Cedar Vale to shepherd them into excellence, to give them pride again. No, the decision was made because she sought to climb up another tier of the social hierarchy, marrying into a ducal family.

This is the sort of self-serving arrogance that has been allowed to blossom here within Arx. Marrying for love is an act that should be condemned as the thoughtless and selfish act that it is. Marriage is not about love. It is about bettering the standing of two Houses, strengthening them both. It is placing your own whims and needs above those of your family. Selfish.

Now, this Lady Byrne at least has the excuse of her neonobility. What I am curious about is how this match benefits Crovane at all? I suppose that there must be *something* else I imagine the Faith would have said no. But this train of inappropriate alliances, matches made for sentiment over logic... it is appalling and makes me question just what is going on in this city for this to be such a rampant trend.

By all means, marry someone you can abide. Do not make yourself miserable. But the needs of your House should *always* come first.

Always.

Written By Alecstazi

July 10, 2019, 11:33 a.m.(6/9/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Shard

While this has been a fantastic exercise in learning methods for debating with a brick wall, I have been told who and what you are. You are a hypocrite. A hypocrite who cannot handle the truth of her own actions and deeds, and so you scream at the world about the things that you hate trying to assuage your guilt or hide the fact that you are the monster you claim to hate. That you are no better than those you so enjoy shouting at. So your words? Meaningless. You know what you did. And you will have to live with that knowledge for the rest of your life.

Written By Alecstazi

July 9, 2019, 11:24 a.m.(6/7/1011 AR)

Relationship Note on Shard

There is no need to defend your courage to me, I have never belittled your contributions to the defense of the Compact. My words spoke to your statements of loathing butchery when you work as a sellsword for one of the most brutal mercenary groups in Arvum. And you clearly are attempting to make us a better people, hence the lecturing and hectoring and excoriating that you do within the pages of these journals. And that is fair and fine, we are all entitled to our opinions and we are charged by Vellichor to share such things.

Why would I ignore what I asked for? You are not a martyr, do stop painting yourself as one.

When raiders attack us, yes, they should be killed. And I believe you must stop killing when they are all dead, yes? I do not know what stories you have heard, but I can tell you from my personal experience, that if we are responding to a raid, we are not simply going to lay waste to the first people we find. If the raiders take the time to frame another group for their wrong doing... why place the blame on us? Do they not deserve the scorn for setting up these so-called innocents? Why is the burden on the victim? You say yourself that those who were framed are not inclined to explain the situation, because they hate us. So I ask... what justice is in this? Are you saying that those who attack us should simply go unpunished because they might have been framed or are unwilling to defend themselves?

They *are* on our land. If you have an issue with this, you can take it up with the King. That is well above my level of decision making, thank you very much. And yes, if a tribe does the right thing and rejoin the Compact they *do* get to stay where they were. And their work is exchanged for protection, assurances that they will not starve, that they will have access to education and medical care and all of the other things that come with being a citizen of the Compact.

The Nox'alfar, Jadairal, Cardia and Eurus are all governed by bodies that can and do engage in diplomacy and trade. Abandoned tribes are, by definition, criminals and trade with them is strictly forbidden by our laws. There is also no government to speak of, if they wish to join the Compact I know countless Houses looking for more serfs, soldiers or vassals. We do negotiate with tribes that make efforts to join the Compact and bend the knee. Your comparison of how we treat with Cardia and Abandoned is nonsense at best, and at worst, being deliberately obtuse. See above, regarding Cardia being a united kingdom with a governmental body that can be dealt with, with diplomacy. There is no such Abandoned body.

Again, you speak as though your opinion were fact. You say that it is not that we follow laws, but rather that the Abandoned have no power -- again, a patently false statement. The Abandoned outnumber the Compact by a factor of ten or more. They are entirely dangerous to us by sheer numbers alone. Fragmented as they are, and thank the gods for it, no. They could not destroy the Compact. But because they are fractious, rebellious and generally unwilling to submit to law and order, we do, by our willingness to work together, manage to stay strong.

Yes. If you were born Abandoned, you were born a criminal. Welcome to the laws of the land. If you have issue with it, there are several magistrates and of course the King available to speak to about them.

I did ask for ideas and suggestions, because if you cannot offer them, then what is the point? You say we're doing it all wrong but until there are viable options, how can there be a change? I wouldn't call the Undying Empire or Cardia enemies? I do not know of any Abandoned that have joined either as allies, so I'm not entirely sure what you mean here. As to ensuring their hatred of us... perhaps they ought to stop raiding us and rethink their positions as criminals. Stop breaking the law, rejoin civilization, honor the gods and there will be no need for conflict. You paint them all as victims, when they are the ones who break laws and attack *us*.

Please tell me you yell at them too?

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