Written By Tanith
May 25, 2020, 2:48 a.m.(5/9/1013 AR)
Maybe I should bake her a cake. Or ... Hmm. Alcohol, maybe? Does the Queen drink? I should ask her.
...can I do that?
Written By Tanith
May 25, 2020, 2:44 a.m.(5/9/1013 AR)
I ought to introduce her to Emara.
Written By Tanith
May 24, 2020, 2:34 a.m.(5/7/1013 AR)
I'm not certain. He is a very -large- puppy and he's a bit calmer than what they're purported to be (I expected more bounding and mess but really, he's a lot better than the drunks I deal with), but there was a spider on the kitchen floor that he was carefully ... following. And sniffing at. But the moment he saw me, it was tails wagging and tongues out and I lost track of the little eight-legged friend. After making sure my furry companion didn't eat him, I concluded the spider got away. The puppy wouldn't tell me if it was an official escort across the house, but then I don't speak dog. That or he's mastered the Grayhope sense of composure.
Written By Tanith
May 22, 2020, 11:38 p.m.(5/5/1013 AR)
Well. One of them might be very excited by this. The other-
Written By Tanith
May 21, 2020, 10:29 p.m.(5/2/1013 AR)
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May 21, 2020, 3:33 p.m.(5/2/1013 AR)
Written By Tanith
May 21, 2020, 2:56 p.m.(5/2/1013 AR)
I can't say I've had a better one, surrounded by people that probably love me more than I deserve, barely any room to breathe with it all. Emotional too, the best kinds of gifts are the kind you can't hold. Unless hands count.
Experiencing a type of devotion that leaks everywhere. Can't be helped though; things needed to be made clear, and they were, deeply.
No. I can't say I've had a better birthday.
Written By Tanith
May 18, 2020, 6:12 p.m.(4/24/1013 AR)
Honestly. There's better metaphors. I know there are.
Written By Tanith
May 18, 2020, 1:50 a.m.(4/23/1013 AR)
Written By Tanith
May 17, 2020, 6:53 p.m.(4/22/1013 AR)
Shit has hit the rafters a few times in the last fortnight, and before that the rise was threatened but didn't crest over until recently. Testing the mettle of friendships, nothing I've forged between me and others has been found wanting. It's not a thrill or smug recap; it's a relief, sacred and profound and I'm just so damn grateful for it all. If the world ends tomorrow, I've got hands that will hold me through it, but more besides to fight next to to keep it moving into the next sunrise. No small thing, that. Not a small thing at all.
Written By Tanith
May 16, 2020, 1:59 a.m.(4/19/1013 AR)
Speaking of books, since opening the Salacious Baker in the commons courts, I've sold several of my collector's editions. My father doesn't understand what the big deal is about bread, and my mother bursts out laughing whenever she starts kneading dough. Emara continues to be scandalized, and I daresay that's my favorite thing about all this. It's the way she mutters at me, like she's horrified, says it's absolutely filthy, how dare I, etc., but then I catch it; my smile on -her- face, the one that starts in the corner and grows before you can stop it. I am very familiar with this smile. It's my worst tell.
I see you, Emara. I know you want the new book when it comes out. Just you wait. It'll be -amazing-.
Written By Tanith
May 14, 2020, 8:47 p.m.(4/16/1013 AR)
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May 13, 2020, 10:34 p.m.(4/15/1013 AR)
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May 12, 2020, 1:24 p.m.(4/12/1013 AR)
Today I threw an empty cup at a man dancing on a table near the hearth. Caught him right in the crotch, scholar. He was pants-less and drunk, but not even he deserved that. I write this here as a confess of regret. Maybe he will see it and know he shouldn't bloody do that kind of nonsense without pants.
What? No, of -course- his pants wouldn't have caught fire, scholar. Who's side are you on?
Written By Tanith
May 11, 2020, 8:49 a.m.(4/9/1013 AR)
Written By Tanith
May 5, 2020, 9:54 a.m.(3/25/1013 AR)
But. It is. Precious and new and shared. Some of the uncertainty is mine; I'm not sure where to go with it, so I'm clinging like a raft on a river, hoping the falls are just exciting and the journey enlightening. Who knows where this takes us? Maybe the Queen does. She seems to have a hand in everything I do these days.
Written By Tanith
May 3, 2020, 5:37 p.m.(3/22/1013 AR)
Written By Tanith
May 1, 2020, 11:33 p.m.(3/19/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Sydney
Really. The list is very short.
Written By Tanith
May 1, 2020, 10:44 p.m.(3/19/1013 AR)
Written By Tanith
May 1, 2020, 10:43 p.m.(3/19/1013 AR)
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