Written By Eirene
May 24, 2018, 6:16 p.m.(11/2/1008 AR)
Unrelated topic. I picked names for the baby if it's a boy or girl. I won't share them here else some prego woman who pops before me steals them.
Pregnancy sucks. I am only doing this the one time for the sake of duty to House Malvici and then it's back on herbs the rest of my miserable life.
But I am really trying to be more positive for this kid. They don't deserve a screwed up mother like me. I want better for them. And it scares me to think of what monsters are out there (literal and figurative) which I'll have to shield them from. Because I've seen those monsters.
Pregnancy sucks. I am only doing this the one time for the sake of duty to House Malvici and then it's back on herbs the rest of my miserable life.
But I am really trying to be more positive for this kid. They don't deserve a screwed up mother like me. I want better for them. And it scares me to think of what monsters are out there (literal and figurative) which I'll have to shield them from. Because I've seen those monsters.
Written By Eirene
May 24, 2018, 6:10 p.m.(11/2/1008 AR)
Broke shit at the Thirteenth's lecture today.
Mostly I need to break myself so I can start to heal.
Damn if I'm not already broken enough...
Mostly I need to break myself so I can start to heal.
Damn if I'm not already broken enough...
Written By Eirene
May 23, 2018, 11:45 a.m.(10/17/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Godric
Seriously understand you on the dead body bit. They're much better company than the living sometimes.
Written By Eirene
May 21, 2018, 1:15 p.m.(10/13/1008 AR)
I'm craving a damn sandwich. Heaped with meat and cheese and spreads topped with crisp bacon. And maybe some red and green stuff thrown in for 'healthy' sake. I'm blaming the baby for weird cravings at odd hours. Like egg salad. I can't stand the texture but this kid seems to love it.
So I wonder what's the weirdest thing any of the other preggo ladies of Arx have ever craved. So far I think mine is sugar-donuts dipped in mustard.
So I wonder what's the weirdest thing any of the other preggo ladies of Arx have ever craved. So far I think mine is sugar-donuts dipped in mustard.
Written By Eirene
May 19, 2018, 6:16 p.m.(10/10/1008 AR)
My two motivating factors are revenge and this damn -- no, excuse me scholar, I need to start giving this baby the respect it deserves as a member of both Malvici and Velenosa... This kid. That's my other reason for living and not doing something -very- stupid with my life.
Written By Eirene
May 18, 2018, 6:18 p.m.(10/8/1008 AR)
Nightmares again. They had gone away for a little while but now are back with a vengeance.
The face of the man being ripped apart changes from time to time now.
I'm starting to pity this poor baby. Stuck inside someone as messed up as me.
The face of the man being ripped apart changes from time to time now.
I'm starting to pity this poor baby. Stuck inside someone as messed up as me.
Written By Eirene
May 17, 2018, 4:42 p.m.(10/6/1008 AR)
I'm very thankful to all the friends and family who have been with me during this fucked up six months. Half a damn year and I've lost three people who I cared for most in the world.
I don't know where I'd be right now if not for you, your support, and this damn baby. Someday this poor kid is going to look up mommy's journals and cry because I didn't love them enough or some shit. Or they better not. Any kid of mine is going to learn you don't cry when people can see you.
And that's why I've been spending lots of time alone lately.
I don't know where I'd be right now if not for you, your support, and this damn baby. Someday this poor kid is going to look up mommy's journals and cry because I didn't love them enough or some shit. Or they better not. Any kid of mine is going to learn you don't cry when people can see you.
And that's why I've been spending lots of time alone lately.
Written By Eirene
May 17, 2018, 11:27 a.m.(10/5/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Roxana
Roxy - I don't love you romantically. That's why you're not dead, dummy.
I lost my very first love during the war with Tor. He died on my operating table. I say mine though I was still an apprentice then. His last words were "I always wanted to die in the arms of a beautiful woman... so if you could go find me one I'd appreciate it." A joker to the last and it set my humor down that path.
I never told you about him. I rarely talk about him. But since then, if I happen to give my heart to anyone they end up painfully dead in ways that appeal to our enemies.
I am pretty damn sure Lucien's to blame; there were things that crept about in the darkness during that war which in retrospect make sense. I have no proof other than a string of dead and mutilated lovers but it's proof enough to me.
I lost my very first love during the war with Tor. He died on my operating table. I say mine though I was still an apprentice then. His last words were "I always wanted to die in the arms of a beautiful woman... so if you could go find me one I'd appreciate it." A joker to the last and it set my humor down that path.
I never told you about him. I rarely talk about him. But since then, if I happen to give my heart to anyone they end up painfully dead in ways that appeal to our enemies.
I am pretty damn sure Lucien's to blame; there were things that crept about in the darkness during that war which in retrospect make sense. I have no proof other than a string of dead and mutilated lovers but it's proof enough to me.
Written By Eirene
May 16, 2018, 10:07 a.m.(10/3/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Niklas
It's the worst. Trust me. I've got three more months of it too.
And I Really. Really. Really want nothing more than crawl in a bottle for a little while too.
And I Really. Really. Really want nothing more than crawl in a bottle for a little while too.
Written By Eirene
May 15, 2018, 4:47 p.m.(10/2/1008 AR)
I was always a little in love with Eos Saik.
I had strong affections for Juliet Fidante.
I loved Cicero Velenosa-Malvici enough to marry him and bear his child.
I had a deep love for Armel Godsworn to where I trusted him with my secrets as much as my body and heart.
I had loved Cassius Pravus for years and only grew enough courage to tell him after never telling Cicero as much. We had a few happy months to share it.
To be loved by me is to die at the hands of the Abyss.
Lucien must have done something to me during the war to curse me like this.
If not for this baby... I don't know what I would be doing right now.
I had strong affections for Juliet Fidante.
I loved Cicero Velenosa-Malvici enough to marry him and bear his child.
I had a deep love for Armel Godsworn to where I trusted him with my secrets as much as my body and heart.
I had loved Cassius Pravus for years and only grew enough courage to tell him after never telling Cicero as much. We had a few happy months to share it.
To be loved by me is to die at the hands of the Abyss.
Lucien must have done something to me during the war to curse me like this.
If not for this baby... I don't know what I would be doing right now.
Written By Eirene
May 15, 2018, 4:22 p.m.(10/2/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Cassius
My love is a death sentence.
Written By Eirene
May 15, 2018, 3:49 p.m.(10/1/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Karadoc
Regarding Dame Leola - Have seen. Can confirm.
Written By Eirene
May 15, 2018, 3:11 p.m.(10/1/1008 AR)
I've been quiet but I'll clarify exactly what the duel was over. That impromptu large gatherings in small bars should be either held in large bars or scheduled in advance. That was my position. As my champion lost, I rescind the request.
I've apologized for any slight taken by Bliss Whisper as set forth by Sir Jeffeth and as far as I'm concerned the matter is closed and I won't be writing anything further.
I've apologized for any slight taken by Bliss Whisper as set forth by Sir Jeffeth and as far as I'm concerned the matter is closed and I won't be writing anything further.
Written By Eirene
May 14, 2018, 11:44 a.m.(9/27/1008 AR)
I've never challenged anyone to a duel I didn't fight myself before. Mostly these were mock things done in the middle of camp to amuse ourselves or to settle an issue of minor importance.
Bliss is going to fight for me and I'll clarify my position at the duel because it looks like people are missing the key points. Me, subtle? Wonders never cease.
Bliss is going to fight for me and I'll clarify my position at the duel because it looks like people are missing the key points. Me, subtle? Wonders never cease.
Written By Eirene
May 11, 2018, 12:53 p.m.(9/21/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Alaric
So there wasn't many people lined up to roast the King last night so I got up and did it. Was it the nicest thing? Of course not, that's the point of a roast. Someone has to be an asshole and make terrible comments.
Since I'm known for being both loud and obnoxious and foul mouthed, who better?
Seriously though. Don't execute me your majesty. You're pretty chill and easy to get along with and you can certainly say whatever you like about me anytime you want.
Since I'm known for being both loud and obnoxious and foul mouthed, who better?
Seriously though. Don't execute me your majesty. You're pretty chill and easy to get along with and you can certainly say whatever you like about me anytime you want.
Written By Eirene
May 9, 2018, 1:59 p.m.(9/17/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Saoirse
I don't stoop to petty squabbling in my white journals. If you missed the actual point behind the challenge I'll explain it to you at the duel itself.
Written By Eirene
May 9, 2018, 1:39 p.m.(9/17/1008 AR)
I'd comment more on this Salon issue but it annoyed me enough to issue a Challenge over it so I won't. I guess we'll see after Bliss and Jeffeth meet.
Written By Eirene
May 8, 2018, 4:36 p.m.(9/15/1008 AR)
Relationship Note on Orazio
Thank Jayus I won't be the only person with a dumb song sung about them.
Written By Eirene
May 8, 2018, 10:10 a.m.(9/14/1008 AR)
I'm trying to decide how many fucks I have to give towards challenging someone (2 someones) to duels. Considering I tend to roll my eyes at how stupid many of them are, and the proclivity of certain people to raise them, it's not many fucks at all.
Any Champions want to consult with me on this? Do ya'll need work or are bored out of your skulls?
Any Champions want to consult with me on this? Do ya'll need work or are bored out of your skulls?
Written By Eirene
May 5, 2018, 7:40 p.m.(9/9/1008 AR)
I managed not to throw up when I docked in Southport and saw the place where Cicero died. I suppose that's a victory...
Mission went well. We helped a lot of people, found a lot of common ground, and didn't see a single weird freaky form in a mirror. I guess that's good. The next step of the mission is to help settle the ones who deserve settling and deal with... what needs dealing.
Mission went well. We helped a lot of people, found a lot of common ground, and didn't see a single weird freaky form in a mirror. I guess that's good. The next step of the mission is to help settle the ones who deserve settling and deal with... what needs dealing.
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