Written By Willow
March 24, 2019, 7:15 a.m.(10/17/1010 AR)
Hearing about some of the trials and travails of a woman warrior whom I am close to, I can only wonder in disbelief that any who move against her could ever find doubt or excuse or offense in their loss to her. Gloria is not a god, She is a Goddess.
Written By Willow
March 17, 2019, 9:30 a.m.(10/3/1010 AR)
I have rarely been so upset to see something I knew full well was coming play out. I got called out and publicly talked down to and accused of supporting something I have only.ever worked to end because I wanted to prevent this. If I drank...
Written By Willow
March 15, 2019, 1:54 p.m.(9/28/1010 AR)
There is room to have grief on behalf of people you are responsible for suffering, without needing to share the beliefs of those people personally. There is room to have your own beliefs and still be empathetic for the upheaval you know those you are responsible must bear. There is room to celebrate the liberty of some and still empathize for the loss that others will bear. Loss of traditions, culture, stability, and ostensibly some backbone of their identity. None of this means you share that belief, it only means that as the one responsible for overseeing something that will cause a profound sense of loss in areas that many need not consider, that you understand that loss that they will be experiencing. In what view is having understanding for your fellow human beings, especially those you are responsible for in some way, a bad thing?
Written By Willow
March 15, 2019, 9:17 a.m.(9/27/1010 AR)
For the first time since I truly saw death... i have hope. And it is terrifying.
Written By Willow
March 14, 2019, 6:09 p.m.(9/26/1010 AR)
I am very happy about the announcement about the thralls. Of late, I have been battling a lingering sense of homesickness. The end of summer is a welcome thing. The heat has been unbearable.
Written By Willow
March 9, 2019, 4:12 p.m.(9/16/1010 AR)
This past week has been a busy one, overseeing numbers and taking a supervisory position to learn the ins and outs of the duties overseen by the Duchess daily so that I can be better able to act in her stead when other obligations keep her occupied. I do wish to do her proud, it was a surprise to learn she was a handful of years my junior. I can imagine when the burden of her duty fell on her it was as intimidating as it was an honor to be able to serve the North and our family and allies in that capacity. She has done us all so proud, and I am humbled by the kindness of her heart and the shrewdness of her wits, every time we have the opportunity to spend time together directly instead of through missives and notices and records kept.
Written By Willow
March 9, 2019, 4:06 p.m.(9/16/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Arcadia
Lady Cady, I genuinely like you more than words can convey. You are sweet tempered, vivacious, and warm. Sometimes it hurts to be around you because you remind me of the me I once was, and that is a woman I miss. I am glad to call you friend and want to do all I can to help preserve the gormless joy in your eyes, smiling delight at this moment and that. You make duty feel heavy when countered against your bouyant lightness.
Written By Willow
March 9, 2019, 4:01 p.m.(9/16/1010 AR)
I despise myself when emotion gets the better of my reasoning in awkward moments. Luckily, this only happens on occasion and all but two times since hitti g puberty, it has been while drinking. This, truly, is why I do not drink.
Written By Willow
March 7, 2019, 5:12 p.m.(9/12/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Martino
Ha, never lay at my feet even the ambiguous possibility I may have called you old, my Lord. Let alone that such might be considered a negative by me. I say this only half jokingly. For as long as I have remembered I have dreamed of the day when I will have had enough life experience to be considered an elder. Where I come from, that is a title of Esteem my Lord.
Additionally, that party. I am not sure anything else could be said on the topic without reminding of things best left forgot. Suffice to say, there is a reason I do not as a prsctice drink.
Additionally, that party. I am not sure anything else could be said on the topic without reminding of things best left forgot. Suffice to say, there is a reason I do not as a prsctice drink.
Written By Willow
March 6, 2019, 6:26 p.m.(9/10/1010 AR)
I received the loveliest urn today as a gift from an admirer on having viewed one of my works. A priceless treasure as the first of its kind, I have put it on display in the newly redone outer hall of the estate.
Written By Willow
March 4, 2019, 11:44 a.m.(9/6/1010 AR)
I need to learn better composure. Ah, well, it is possible it is also the locale. I have never lost my temper publicly in another location and today makes it twice in the same one. It was all I could do to keep it to words and not start throwing things. I suppose even though I got dark hair from my mother's side, I am dosed heavily with a northern proclivity to just snap.
Written By Willow
March 3, 2019, 10:19 p.m.(9/5/1010 AR)
I think I may have truly met my match for temprament, and had an insight into someone I have only met a couple times but oft admired in my thoughts. I hope a new friend and an old love find comfort and joy in the company of one another. It felt good and healing to speak to a lover once lost. And yet I find myself ever wishing I could spend more time with the first true friend I ever made, missing that companionship something fierce, even.
Written By Willow
March 1, 2019, 3:30 a.m.(8/27/1010 AR)
I think I may finally have met a northman with a temprament complimentary to mine and enough love of beauty and love for our long talks on it to nourish my soul. I have long thought it unlikely I will ever marry, and I imagine such will likely remain the case, but for the first time in a long time, I am reminded that my hopes for a possible match aren't impossible to find with someone who is not well aged enough to have fathered me. Not that I mind the age, in fact, my first intended was twenty years my senior and I loved him so much it hurt. There is a sort of wisdom and perspective that a long life grants which teaches one to play the long game rather than to bolt forward feckless and wholehearted into rash decisions.
I should very much like to hear Lord Rysen's poetry sometime. He seemed to be perhaps the only one to.have seen my paintings that fully seems to "get" the language of the symbolism used in them to not just show an image but to tell a story. I wish I could hear his critique on the painting I did of the Lady and her Knight.
I should very much like to hear Lord Rysen's poetry sometime. He seemed to be perhaps the only one to.have seen my paintings that fully seems to "get" the language of the symbolism used in them to not just show an image but to tell a story. I wish I could hear his critique on the painting I did of the Lady and her Knight.
Written By Willow
Feb. 28, 2019, 10:16 a.m.(8/26/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Martino
It is a pleasant but not wholly surprising thing to learn that the most fashion loving man I know is the one person to respond! Up until this past week, seasilk has been my obsession due to the way it plays with colors, and then I found a volume in the family library so old I see no attributed author called 'The Silk's Guide to Silks' where I read about it. It is not an exaggeration to say I have two dozen lengths being woven as we speak in different color combinations. I think it is the painter in me that gives me such appreciation for the way a weave can alter the color play and finish of a garment without even the variances used in a pattern.
Written By Willow
Feb. 27, 2019, 5:48 a.m.(8/23/1010 AR)
Did you know what shot silk is? Anyone but Petal? Ah, well. It certainly puts seasilk to shame, on one hand at least. On the other hand it makes me wonder if blue-purple and pink-orange seasilk might be given the same treatment, and whether the effect would be an iridescent watercolor sunset
Written By Willow
Feb. 24, 2019, 11:01 a.m.(8/18/1010 AR)
It is perhaps fortunate that I both have a number of older brothers and also refuse to marry out of my House. It makes the fact that most of my dalliances are wildly inappropriate weigh less at me. I had an intended once as a teenager. He was killed before my eyes. I am certain there is some exception which would involve both marrying /up/ and being attracted to the person in question which might persuade me, but as there has only been one to fit that criteria and they seem to be involved with someone older than I already, that seems unlikely.
Still, if I should find a prospective match who would marry in rather than me being expected to marry out, I am not dead set against a match. I am too bound up in my identity as a northerner to feel comfortable owing fealty to another land. I think the only other land I would feel like I could really identify with is Lenosia. The love of beauty, the romantic aspect, and the embrace of eccentricities and oddities and love of the arts, I feel a deep appreciation for and love of. It is little surprise, in that light, that my childhood friend also married Lenosian.
Still, if I should find a prospective match who would marry in rather than me being expected to marry out, I am not dead set against a match. I am too bound up in my identity as a northerner to feel comfortable owing fealty to another land. I think the only other land I would feel like I could really identify with is Lenosia. The love of beauty, the romantic aspect, and the embrace of eccentricities and oddities and love of the arts, I feel a deep appreciation for and love of. It is little surprise, in that light, that my childhood friend also married Lenosian.
Written By Willow
Feb. 21, 2019, 1:22 a.m.(8/11/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Lydia
Finally got the chance for some face time and really enjoyed meeting the Duchess. I think I'd like to keep calling her Aunt Lydia though, after mentally calling her that since she took up the mantle of Duchess, if just feels more normal. She keeps so busy at work for the family I cannot help but admire and look up to her.
Written By Willow
Feb. 21, 2019, 1:16 a.m.(8/11/1010 AR)
Had so much fun with Mikani, Baltus, and Brady after the drinking contest when we all went back to take a dip in the hot springs and just talked for a while while everyone sobered back up.
Written By Willow
Feb. 19, 2019, 8:56 p.m.(8/8/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Lydia
I finally had the good fortune to be able to meet face to face with the Duchess of my House. it was worth the wait in every sense of the word. Also, northern short girl solidarity!
Written By Willow
Feb. 17, 2019, 8:21 a.m.(8/3/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Brady
One of the best people I have ever met. Brave and kind and hilarious, generous, thoughtful. He means so much to me.
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