Written By Svana
May 4, 2020, 12:11 a.m.(3/23/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Rowenova
Written By Svana
April 30, 2020, 8:26 p.m.(3/16/1013 AR)
I got to hold a kitten today, so that was pretty good. I just wish things were better.
Written By Svana
April 29, 2020, 9:07 p.m.(3/14/1013 AR)
I am terribly bored, Scholar. Tired of losing weight, throwing up, and having dizzy spells - and the occasional faint. Only one so far. I do so hope that those who have taken out commissions with me will be patient, and if they are not... well, I have two little ones growing inside me to worry about. That is more important.
Written By Svana
April 26, 2020, 10:38 p.m.(3/9/1013 AR)
It was a good night though. I like when my husband takes me out.
Written By Svana
April 18, 2020, 4:16 p.m.(2/20/1013 AR)
I might be homesick because I miss my parents. They are not here to tell me what to do with a child. I know I have many other friends who have had children and are more than willing to offer their advice, but it's not the same. I had to grow up at a hard age, but I still wish I could hug my mother one last time and tell her I'm sorry for being a shit daughter, and ask her what I'm supposed to do. I wish my father was here so that he could give me advice and meet Jules. His blessing we would not easily get but he always knew once I had my mind set to something, I did not give up.
But as we common folk say, wish in one hand, shit in the other and see which one fills first.
My spirits are lifted, however, due to the arrival of Lady Poppy Stahlben in the city! She is closest to my age of the Stahlben children. She and I spent hours making little straw dolls and mudpies, doing all kinds of things that got us into heaps of trouble. It's hard to say who was the instigator. Regardless, my friend is home, and whether or not I am a member of House Stahlben, I always say and mean that she and Lady Volcica will always be my ladies. It was nice to see them at the bonfire last night hosted by Mother Bear Drea.
Written By Svana
April 17, 2020, 12:55 p.m.(2/17/1013 AR)
I met a few new faces, and was humbled by some of those who showed up. Lady Mikani and Lord Rysen have been far too generous to us in gifting us a house, as well as presenting me with a gorgeous pair of star iron earrings with a Northern triskelion design - and a beautiful ring for Jules.
To hear so many people say that Jules has picked correctly in me gives me a great source of pride, but also scares me. It is clear to me at least that there are many who love Jules, and if I should hurt him, I will get my ass beat. Vice versa for him, I should expect. There are far too many who are kind in saying that I have been the best thing he has brought to House Crovane though; I have not yet begun to prove my worth to the House. Let me do that first, then you decide.
New beginnings. Always new beginnings.
Written By Svana
April 12, 2020, 10:24 p.m.(2/8/1013 AR)
I also hired a guard this week in case I feel any worse - and in case I need protecting. Downside, he is my older brother's friend and I have known him a long time. He knows too much about me and he is ineffective due to this. Thankfully I know he will do the right thing, though he is rather irritating.
Oh fuck off, Njall, of course I'm not writing about YOU.
Written By Svana
April 5, 2020, 10:47 p.m.(1/22/1013 AR)
After I got my bearings, I went to the Murder to see if I could still enjoy pies. Guess what? That hasn't been ruined yet for me. Miss Tanith gave me delightful little apple handpies! And I got to meet several new people, and see Lord Drake again, which was nice.
I've never been much on eating 'full meals' or much at all through the day, but right now my body is playing a cruel joke on me. One minute it says 'eat' and the next minute it says 'just kidding' in the worst of ways.
Written By Svana
April 2, 2020, 11:40 p.m.(1/16/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Asher
Written By Svana
March 30, 2020, 10:18 a.m.(1/9/1013 AR)
Written By Svana
March 29, 2020, 1:28 p.m.(1/7/1013 AR)
I have made many difficult decisions recently that tear at my heartstrings; particularly now that Cady has been returned to the wheel, as those who believe in the pantheon call it.
What is supposed to be a happy time in my life has been marred with some of the cruelest circumstances. I assure you that if this journal entry sounds particularly selfish, it is. I earned my happiness long ago and to have it dangling in front of me without being able to enjoy it is a swift kick in the head.
Largely, Arcadia and I butted heads, particularly just before she died... but that does not mean I ever wanted to see her go in such a brutal way... I cannot imagine. I do not want to imagine. I have sat with her body in her snow. I do not want her to be alone. At the same time, I want to return to Stahlben Hall and scoop her children up. They are too young; she has a newborn, for feck's sake. He will never know her, but Genevieve will, and it's going to hurt her the most. I loved Arcadia even if she and I didn't always agree. She did many good turns for so many others... she died trying to save those she cared about.
Just as two children should lose their mother, I have found out that I am to become a mother. I have prayed for this child and it is a blessing from Limerance - that is what Lady Esme told me. I believe that. It feels wrong to be happy about it though. My marriage and the news of a baby have been overshadowed by so much grief and strain that I wonder if there will ever be a light at the end of the proverbial tunnel.
And so it goes...
Written By Svana
March 24, 2020, 10:25 a.m.(12/25/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Jules
Written By Svana
March 22, 2020, 2:30 a.m.(12/21/1012 AR)
Written By Svana
March 19, 2020, 3:52 p.m.(12/16/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Jules
There are many fine details to work out between the two of us, but we have time now - the rest of our lives, as it was promised.
I wish my parents were here to see an event they probably never thought would happen - Spirits and Gods above know that I never thought it would happen. But he's the one, I intend to keep him, and I will fight for our happiness every step of the way.
Yours,
Svana Fabron.
Written By Svana
March 13, 2020, 12:23 p.m.(12/3/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Jules
He has brought me back a servant - a Prodigal girl who saved his life and is now in love with him. Upon first hearing this, my reaction was not exactly favorable and I am sorry for the way that I acted - but could anyone really blame me? It's not the kind of news you want to get, necessarily. But now that she's here and I see she's a rather sulky thing that is merely infatuated with my dear, I am much more receptive to the thought of having a helper. She can teach me to cook.
On the other hand, Jules also took me to my first jousting tournament and it was splendid! We sat with Duke Ryhalt Farshaw and the Lady Colette Laurent. Dame Felicia Harrow is really something. I think she was the most striking knight there. She bowed to me! I try not to be so easily wowed by those things but it was very exhilirating. I wonder what I'd look like riding a horse. Probably ghastly.
Written By Svana
March 9, 2020, 9:47 a.m.(11/23/1012 AR)
Written By Svana
Feb. 26, 2020, 7:36 a.m.(10/27/1012 AR)
Written By Svana
Feb. 8, 2020, 1:36 p.m.(9.578100198412699/19.37361111111111/1012.714841683201 AR)
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Jan. 31, 2020, 10:18 a.m.(8.997183366402115/35.842268518518516/1012.6664319472002 AR)
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