Written By Khanne
May 12, 2019, 10:15 p.m.(2/4/1011 AR)
I super need to play catch up again. I started skimming journals I had missed from my usual stack, and felt a bit lost. I need to settle down and draw out my strategy and hopefully stop getting unexpectedly side tracked.
Written By Khanne
May 12, 2019, 9:18 p.m.(2/4/1011 AR)
I feel like I am constantly learning. In part, I study to better myself and work towards my goals. I also spend a great deal of time trying to help others find answers to their own riddles... but sometimes, I wish I knew more. Sometimes, someone comes to me with a problem I so very much wish I could help them with. Sometimes, my heart hurts for their pain, and I wish I could help them more.
But I am one person. I cannot do all the things... but I can be here, and offer them love from that heart that hurts for their pain.
But I am one person. I cannot do all the things... but I can be here, and offer them love from that heart that hurts for their pain.
Written By Khanne
May 5, 2019, 7:15 p.m.(1/18/1011 AR)
It is astounding how quickly one can fall so very behind on all the goings on in the city... or at least, how quickly one (me) can feel that way. A quick jaunt and back and I feel.... the equivalent of an interruption of a task. Like...
what was I even doing a moment ago?
what was I even doing a moment ago?
Written By Khanne
April 21, 2019, 8:06 p.m.(12/18/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Luca
I did not know you well, but I knew OF YOU well... if that makes sense.
Last time I saw you, which wasn't long ago, just at the Clearlake Archery Tournament about a week ago. I said I owed you a drink for... fifth place was it?
I was looking forward to it, and now, well, maybe another turn. Until then, one day soon I will host a Luca night at the bar and buy a drink for whomever comes.
You will be missed and you will most definitely be remembered.
Last time I saw you, which wasn't long ago, just at the Clearlake Archery Tournament about a week ago. I said I owed you a drink for... fifth place was it?
I was looking forward to it, and now, well, maybe another turn. Until then, one day soon I will host a Luca night at the bar and buy a drink for whomever comes.
You will be missed and you will most definitely be remembered.
Written By Khanne
April 14, 2019, 10:37 p.m.(12/4/1010 AR)
Time.
Never enough of it, it seems. Every time I see my to-do list start to become small... A dozen things get added. Then I throw up my hands and wonder... how am I supposed to have time for all this?
And then I think about Copper.... and then I pout for a moment, and then I remember Hope...
and then...
I know I will just have to find the time, eventually.
Never enough of it, it seems. Every time I see my to-do list start to become small... A dozen things get added. Then I throw up my hands and wonder... how am I supposed to have time for all this?
And then I think about Copper.... and then I pout for a moment, and then I remember Hope...
and then...
I know I will just have to find the time, eventually.
Written By Khanne
April 7, 2019, 12:39 p.m.(11/18/1010 AR)
It's been a busy week. Feels good to have so much to do again. Had a few meetings, a gathering or two, a long-owed drink and conversation... It's been rather nice seeing some old friends again, even if some were for just a short time.
Finally preparing for the trip north, to the mountain pass of Stormwall, to honor Eirlys and remember the sacrifice she made. We'll be honoring the Spirits and the Pantheon both as well. She would have liked that, I think, and we believe it is important.
Aside from that, I am staring at a list of things that need to be done, and things I want to do and trying to figure out how to best manage my time to make the most progress across the board. Time. The perpetual juggling game.
Finally preparing for the trip north, to the mountain pass of Stormwall, to honor Eirlys and remember the sacrifice she made. We'll be honoring the Spirits and the Pantheon both as well. She would have liked that, I think, and we believe it is important.
Aside from that, I am staring at a list of things that need to be done, and things I want to do and trying to figure out how to best manage my time to make the most progress across the board. Time. The perpetual juggling game.
Written By Khanne
March 31, 2019, 9:17 a.m.(11/3/1010 AR)
They can cut like the sharpest blade, lift you up when you are sinking to your lowest, make you smile, and make you laugh. They can give you hope and they can take it away. They can make your heart melt with love and make it quicken with desire. They can fill you with such pain you are sure you are dying.
Words are powerful.
How we use them can be even more so. Especially if we are not careful to use them how we mean to.
Be careful with your use of words, with your delivery of them. They can help you reach your loftiest goals... or they can be your biggest regret.
Words are powerful.
How we use them can be even more so. Especially if we are not careful to use them how we mean to.
Be careful with your use of words, with your delivery of them. They can help you reach your loftiest goals... or they can be your biggest regret.
Written By Khanne
March 24, 2019, 9:03 p.m.(10/18/1010 AR)
I was social this week, can you believe it? I attended two of the Tastes of Arx events; Redrain's (of course), and Valardin's. I wish I could have attended them all. I also was able to spend some time catching up with good friends and getting long overdue hugs. It was good, despite all of the bad in the world, to see the warm smiles of those I care about.
Written By Khanne
Feb. 24, 2019, 10:41 p.m.(8/19/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Venturo
It was quite a while ago now we first spoke and you suggested that it would greatly benefit my House if we helped back your enterprise. Over a year, surely. That partnership has paid off both for my House and our lands, and myself. For a long time now, I have been awaiting the Kismet Carnival, and here, tonight, I attended the first ever here in Arx! They did NOT disappoint one bit. Stunning acts! Fun games! DELICIOUS DRINKS! Amazing Company! I haven't been able to get out much in... far too long.. but I am so glad I was able to make it tonight. The carnival was fantastic, and I cannot wait for it to travel to the northlands! And you, Master Brewer, were a phenomenal showman. Thank you and your other hosts for a lovely evening. I look forward to the next!
Written By Khanne
Feb. 3, 2019, 7:53 p.m.(7/4/1010 AR)
I'm feeling better, i think, finally. I have a pile of messengers to reply to... and I will. Life never slows down when you aren't feeling your best, even if you wish it did.
Written By Khanne
Jan. 13, 2019, 10:15 p.m.(5/9/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Mydas
Many people are mourning right now. Many people are being mourned. I am not unique in my sorrow for a friend lost.
But that friend -was- unique.
I remember when we met, well, when we first talked at length... It was a rather raucous event of wrestling. Including bears at one point. Sorry to those who participated (my cousin was one, was was our High Lord), but I was far more focused on the conversation than the wrestling. I had not been in Arx long and was rather shy... Sitting alone by the trellis, he joined me. It was one of the most memorable conversations I have ever had... not for the topics discussed, but for how engaging he was in that conversation. He had to go North shortly after.. the next day I believe, and we developed our friendship through letters. He was a magnificent pen pal... I've been fortunate to have a few of those.
We were very different, he and I... But despite not ever seeing each other as often as we would have liked, he was one of my very closest friends. I trusted him. We had some interesting experiences (interesting is a mild choice of word here). And he has left a permanent mark on my life.
I will never forget you, Mydas. Ettore. And as you well knew and understood, the difficulty I have in being able to move past numb to sorrow and mourn properly for another lost continues... But I do mourn, in my way; a way I know you approved of.
And so, instead of focusing on the ache in my heart... I thank you. I thank you for every drink we shared, every conversation we fell deep into, every letter we ever wrote, and every experience we shared. I thank you for what you helped me learn, and how you helped me understand... I thank you. May we meet again in some turn of the wheel, or in the everafter peace.
But that friend -was- unique.
I remember when we met, well, when we first talked at length... It was a rather raucous event of wrestling. Including bears at one point. Sorry to those who participated (my cousin was one, was was our High Lord), but I was far more focused on the conversation than the wrestling. I had not been in Arx long and was rather shy... Sitting alone by the trellis, he joined me. It was one of the most memorable conversations I have ever had... not for the topics discussed, but for how engaging he was in that conversation. He had to go North shortly after.. the next day I believe, and we developed our friendship through letters. He was a magnificent pen pal... I've been fortunate to have a few of those.
We were very different, he and I... But despite not ever seeing each other as often as we would have liked, he was one of my very closest friends. I trusted him. We had some interesting experiences (interesting is a mild choice of word here). And he has left a permanent mark on my life.
I will never forget you, Mydas. Ettore. And as you well knew and understood, the difficulty I have in being able to move past numb to sorrow and mourn properly for another lost continues... But I do mourn, in my way; a way I know you approved of.
And so, instead of focusing on the ache in my heart... I thank you. I thank you for every drink we shared, every conversation we fell deep into, every letter we ever wrote, and every experience we shared. I thank you for what you helped me learn, and how you helped me understand... I thank you. May we meet again in some turn of the wheel, or in the everafter peace.
Written By Khanne
Dec. 30, 2018, 11:24 a.m.(4/8/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Lisebet
I saw a note in the archives written by Lady Lisebet Farshaw, speaking of some time she spent in the Hall of Heroes not only with Copper's statue but with each in the main hall; viewing, reading their plaques. She said, "they believed in us, and in return all we can do is remember them." To this, I wish to add:
The best way we can honor and remember them is to believe in ourselves.
The best way we can honor and remember them is to believe in ourselves.
Written By Khanne
Dec. 23, 2018, 10:12 a.m.(3/22/1010 AR)
Hope.
It has long been my mantra. In the face of the darknesses of the world.... hope. When all seemed lost.... hope. When I was frightened about the dangers I and my loved ones face.... hope. Hope keeps me pushing forward, striving for better. Hope keeps me focused and determined. Hope makes me fight harder to push the darkness further away so that we can let in the light.
Hope.
And yet, now, when I have made hope my promise... when I need to embrace it the most.... I feel so lost and so full of despair. I feel so very alone.
I'm not though. I am not alone.. I know this, in my rational mind. I know this. I have many friends and family who love me and whom I love. I know, deep down, my despair comes from one of my greatest fears coming true... the thing I fight so hard to do my part to prevent... happened. That is a reality that just shatters me to my core and all I want is to be comforted and assured that it did not happen... it's all just a bad nightmare.
Again, rational me knows that thanks to Copper, it happened, but didn't. Thanks to her selflessness and sacrifice, to her love for humanity itself.... thanks to HER hope... we have another chance.
My only option is to comfort others who need comfort, and somehow comfort myself in the process, and continue to hope.
Because now, I have to be more determined. I have to fight harder. I have to hope more.
Hope.
It has long been my mantra. In the face of the darknesses of the world.... hope. When all seemed lost.... hope. When I was frightened about the dangers I and my loved ones face.... hope. Hope keeps me pushing forward, striving for better. Hope keeps me focused and determined. Hope makes me fight harder to push the darkness further away so that we can let in the light.
Hope.
And yet, now, when I have made hope my promise... when I need to embrace it the most.... I feel so lost and so full of despair. I feel so very alone.
I'm not though. I am not alone.. I know this, in my rational mind. I know this. I have many friends and family who love me and whom I love. I know, deep down, my despair comes from one of my greatest fears coming true... the thing I fight so hard to do my part to prevent... happened. That is a reality that just shatters me to my core and all I want is to be comforted and assured that it did not happen... it's all just a bad nightmare.
Again, rational me knows that thanks to Copper, it happened, but didn't. Thanks to her selflessness and sacrifice, to her love for humanity itself.... thanks to HER hope... we have another chance.
My only option is to comfort others who need comfort, and somehow comfort myself in the process, and continue to hope.
Because now, I have to be more determined. I have to fight harder. I have to hope more.
Hope.
Written By Khanne
Dec. 16, 2018, 10:05 p.m.(3/9/1010 AR)
Just when I taught some the wonder of rolling around in the snow and how good it can be for the skin.....
Now, it turns green and stings. This is not good.
Now, it turns green and stings. This is not good.
Written By Khanne
Dec. 16, 2018, 9:46 p.m.(3/9/1010 AR)
This green snow is deeply worrisome... I hope to hear more details on it soon. Surely some great alchemists are looking into it.
Written By Khanne
Dec. 9, 2018, 10:26 p.m.(2/23/1010 AR)
I have so many meetings to catch up on... again. I know. Life has a way of tiring you out. If you have contacted me, wishing to talk, you are still on my list... it's just a matter of setting aside some one on one time amidst all the rest.
Never enough hours in the day, are there? Or days in the week or wee... If only I could make time stand still, just until I caught up... wouldn't that be lovely? Although, I am not sure I ever truly feel caught up. New things are always added to my list. It keeps me busy, which is a good thing.... I really wouldn't have it any other way.
Never enough hours in the day, are there? Or days in the week or wee... If only I could make time stand still, just until I caught up... wouldn't that be lovely? Although, I am not sure I ever truly feel caught up. New things are always added to my list. It keeps me busy, which is a good thing.... I really wouldn't have it any other way.
Written By Khanne
Dec. 2, 2018, 10:54 p.m.(2/8/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Skapti
Wait.... Skapti is back?!?
Man... I need to buy you a drink or something soon.
Man... I need to buy you a drink or something soon.
Written By Khanne
Dec. 2, 2018, 8:40 p.m.(2/8/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Jyri
I won some vouchers for paintings from Jyri at the latest Whitehawk Auction. I am now pondering what to request. Being familiar with his work, I know he will create art well worth the silver spent.
Written By Khanne
Nov. 25, 2018, 11:13 p.m.(1/22/1010 AR)
An evening with friends I adore, where all talk of gloom and doom and sorrow were banned... It was lovely, and so very needed.
And now... now there are plans.... PLANS!!!!!
Muahahahahaha. Yes. You read that right. Muahahahahahaha!
And now... now there are plans.... PLANS!!!!!
Muahahahahaha. Yes. You read that right. Muahahahahahaha!
Written By Khanne
Nov. 17, 2018, 12:30 p.m.(1/5/1010 AR)
Those who are part of Whisper House are of course entitled to their own thoughts and opinions, and are also of course free to express them. The Whispers, however, are known for and revered for their grace, elegance, and diplomacy... and I wonder if the manner in which the particular opinion about how people grieve and who they grieve for, how they think of their loved ones who have passed as opposed to how this one person thinks of them, was done in such a graceful, elegant, and diplomatic manner if that opinion has raised the ire of so many people across so many sections of Arx society.
But, I am Half Savage... so what do I know of grace?
But, I am Half Savage... so what do I know of grace?
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