Written By Deva
Feb. 11, 2017, 3:24 p.m.(11/26/1005 AR)
Every day gets harder and harder. Every day it feels like there's something new and terrible, crushing until it's hard to breathe. And yet we all must carry on, swallow our pain, and do everything we can to keep the remaining pieces from crumbling. As awful as it feels, the weight can bring perspective. All I can allow myself to want now is for the next day to come.
Written By Deva
Feb. 5, 2017, 3:52 p.m.(11/10/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Isolde
I can't help but smile when I look back upon the time the king mixed me up with Esera as he gave that tour of the palace to us. It feels like ages ago, now. We were sisters in that moment. With technically only brothers of my own, I will always cherish that. I grieve for you and your family. I pray this new chapter brings hope.
Written By Deva
Feb. 5, 2017, 3:25 p.m.(11/10/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Niccolo
No father should ever have to mourn their daughter, and all that could have been. It would be easiest to crumble in the face of so much loss. And then there are those who know they must pick up the pieces. The Sentinel sees all, and I pray for justice for the Velenosa family. We shall keep her memory alive.
Written By Deva
Jan. 29, 2017, 5:10 p.m.(10/17/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Fortunato
You know when you feel like you've just totally unexpectedly hit it off with someone new? Isn't that just the best feeling? I had the awesome opportunity to meet Fortunato in his family shop. Talk about talent! I've never seen so many beautiful paintings. And I'm incredibly proud to say one now hangs in my room. I am definitely looking forward to our conversations to come.
Written By Deva
Jan. 23, 2017, 2:48 p.m.(9/27/1005 AR)
Love is a funny thing. Sometimes it bites you in the ass when you're not looking. And sometimes it bit you ages ago and you were too stubborn to notice. Whatever the case may be, you still got bit. Who knew!
Written By Deva
Jan. 16, 2017, 5:13 p.m.(9/6/1005 AR)
If you have to keep redrawing the line, how do you know when enough is enough?
Written By Deva
Jan. 15, 2017, 2:15 p.m.(9/3/1005 AR)
Hindsight is a luxury. There is little point in dwelling on what was, or what could have been. Balancing not repeating the mistakes of the past, with boldly moving forward? Easier said than done.
People change-- even the ones who try not to. It is better to invest that faith in yourself than set expectations of others to be met with utter disappointment.
People change-- even the ones who try not to. It is better to invest that faith in yourself than set expectations of others to be met with utter disappointment.
Written By Deva
Jan. 10, 2017, 5:42 p.m.(8/16/1005 AR)
We get what we deserve.
Written By Deva
Jan. 9, 2017, 3:15 p.m.(8/13/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Alis
It's almost funny how much we have in common, aside from the most obvious similarity of being the voice of our respective elder (in my case only barely by minutes, thank you) brothers. I find she speaks my mind more often than not, and we even share an affinity for martial pursuits. My hope is that we may find the time to catch up more often, and strengthen ties between our two houses.
Written By Deva
Jan. 9, 2017, 1:04 p.m.(8/13/1005 AR)
As we all band together to deal with very serious threats and consequences, I would appreciate it if I could have one day where someone didn't bring up marriage to me directly. Just one day. Please.
Written By Deva
Jan. 8, 2017, 10:48 p.m.(8/11/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Drea
I don't get it. Maybe I never will. All I can hope for is the day we understand each other, and that someday you'll be alright with who I am.
Written By Deva
Jan. 1, 2017, 10:07 p.m.(7/18/1005 AR)
They say to be careful what you wish for, and that couldn't be more true. Sometimes what you wish for might just tear you apart. Maybe some things are just better left unknown. Hindsight is a bitch.
Written By Deva
Dec. 18, 2016, 2:34 p.m.(6/3/1005 AR)
Brianna won, Darren. She won. I'd like this noted publicly in case anyone gets confused.
Written By Deva
Dec. 18, 2016, 1:03 p.m.(6/3/1005 AR)
Five, four, three, two, one.
Five, four, three, two, one.
Our old steward used to tell me to breathe slowly and count backwards from five when I thought about doing something I knew I shouldn't, or when dealing with something bad. He said it would provide a sense of calm and relief, even for someone as hotheaded as me.
I wish it worked.
Five, four, three, two, one.
Our old steward used to tell me to breathe slowly and count backwards from five when I thought about doing something I knew I shouldn't, or when dealing with something bad. He said it would provide a sense of calm and relief, even for someone as hotheaded as me.
I wish it worked.
Written By Deva
Dec. 17, 2016, 4:28 p.m.(5/28/1005 AR)
I know every way to get out of every nook and cranny at Farhaven. I know the quickest way to to the stables is to take half of the south corridor, duck into the servant's wing, and climb out the window that drops into the courtyard. I know that, if he's in a good mood, the armorer will turn a blind eye to someone trying to hide beneath a pile of leathers. If he's in a bad mood, the odds are better to hide in the bushes by the gate. I know that I aggravated every single one of our family guards on a daily basis. I know that no one ever dreamed of looking for me in the library, because why in the world would I ever be there?
But here? There's no hiding, here, no sneaking off to avoid the cook's wrath or painfully dull lessons. This city keeps getting smaller, but the rest of the world is expanding so quickly that it's making it hard to grasp the truth.
I need a new escape route.
But here? There's no hiding, here, no sneaking off to avoid the cook's wrath or painfully dull lessons. This city keeps getting smaller, but the rest of the world is expanding so quickly that it's making it hard to grasp the truth.
I need a new escape route.
Written By Deva
Dec. 11, 2016, 3:09 p.m.(5/10/1005 AR)
I understand the need to weigh decisions and keep an open mind. But sometimes? Compromise is bullshit.
Written By Deva
Dec. 10, 2016, 1:52 p.m.(5/7/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Serafine
She can throw me down into the dirt anytime!
Good luck getting those clothes clean after all... that.
On a more serious note, I feel much more at ease with her at my back. Here's to further adventures.
Good luck getting those clothes clean after all... that.
On a more serious note, I feel much more at ease with her at my back. Here's to further adventures.
Written By Deva
Dec. 10, 2016, 11:26 a.m.(5/7/1005 AR)
We are all fine. No one lost as much as a fingernail. Unless you count a few ounces of pride?
Written By Deva
Dec. 4, 2016, 8:40 p.m.(4/18/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Cassius
Isn't it strange how the years pass in the blink of an eye? I haven't seen Cassius in what feels like ages. We were thick as thieves growing up, until he had to leave for his calling to the Knights of Solace. I never really expected to bump into him again, at least not in Arx, but it's an absolute relief to see a familiar face in times like these. The real question is how we'd fare in a spar against each other. I think he's gotten taller since I've seen him last, but I'm pretty sure I can give him a run for his money.
Written By Deva
Nov. 27, 2016, 8:47 p.m.(3/25/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Anze
Anze has a great sense of humor and a good head on his shoulders. It's a relief to see more familiar faces around the city, while at the same time it makes me miss Farhaven all the more. I think he too knows what it's like to be the one just outside the focus of attention. It's a blessing and a curse. Thank the gods for more Redrain cousins to drink with -- it's so hard to find people who will keep the pace with whiskey.
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