Written By Sina
March 21, 2019, 2:35 a.m.(10/11/1010 AR)
Vellichor charges us with seeking knowledge, and with writing our lives within these white journals that there might be public records of our history as we know it. Lately, I have not felt inclined to write here, for reasons that I must keep to myself. However, I cannot remain silent today. Too much is happening throughout the Compact which requires the voice of the Archscholar. My voice cannot be quelled, especially when I see a situation in which the seeking of knowledge is being stifled. So, I will tell a story today about an experience that changed my world view. I hope that it will help whoever reads this to consider another world view as well.
Some time back, I was dealing with a particularly problematic person. Without naming names, I will say that I sought the advice of Dominus Orazio on how best to deal with this situation. I was newly raised to the position of Prelate, and it was shortly after Mother Bianca was appointed Legate, before I became Archscholar. At any rate, the advice of the Dominus to me was that I should not try to force this person to my way of thinking, nor give them all the answers, nor deny them access to knowledge. Telling this person not to do something was only more likely to make them want to do it. Instead, he said, my role was to gently guide and educate this person, and encourage them to seek the answers on their own. This is the Dominus that I know. This is the Faith that he has instilled in me. Compassion. Patience. Understanding.
I learned a valuable lesson that day. As much as I tried to push and prod and cajole this person to do (or not do) something, I found that they resisted me at every turn. But, when I gave that person the freedom to ask questions, to explore and learn, they opened up to me, and became very endearing. We had a long, meaningful conversation, and I believe that it did some good. Since then, I have seen my role as Archscholar in much the same light. It is not my place to tell anyone what to believe, or not believe. As much as it is within my power to do so, as much as I am able, I will always be willing to speak and listen to anyone who may be experiencing fear or doubt. But it is not for me to give you all the answers. You must learn truth for yourself.
I write of these things now, because I have heard the news of what is happening in the North, and the thought that these people are falling away from the Faith fills me with regret. I have spoken with a number of Spirit Walkers over the past few weeks as well, who have expressed their growing concerns to me. I hear you. I understand your concerns. And I cannot remain silent.
While I naturally cannot condone anyone breaking oaths, or forsaking the Gods, or the founding of a New Church of Petrichor without sanction from the Faith, I also must wonder at the threat of violence in answer to questions of Faith. These people are departing from the ranks of the Faith because they are unhappy, because they feel threatened and left out, because they feel as though they must change who they are as people in order to be welcome within the Compact. It is not with the Sword that these questions must be answered, but with Words. Vellichor's teachings charge us with seeking truth, and guarding knowledge. Do not let your zeal blind you to the truth that lies before you. Even if it is difficult to see and acknowledge it, what must be acknowledged is that there is a deeper underlying problem here. Seek it. Find it. And approach it with wisdom and compassion, rather than fire and swords. Words are more powerful than you know.
Some time back, I was dealing with a particularly problematic person. Without naming names, I will say that I sought the advice of Dominus Orazio on how best to deal with this situation. I was newly raised to the position of Prelate, and it was shortly after Mother Bianca was appointed Legate, before I became Archscholar. At any rate, the advice of the Dominus to me was that I should not try to force this person to my way of thinking, nor give them all the answers, nor deny them access to knowledge. Telling this person not to do something was only more likely to make them want to do it. Instead, he said, my role was to gently guide and educate this person, and encourage them to seek the answers on their own. This is the Dominus that I know. This is the Faith that he has instilled in me. Compassion. Patience. Understanding.
I learned a valuable lesson that day. As much as I tried to push and prod and cajole this person to do (or not do) something, I found that they resisted me at every turn. But, when I gave that person the freedom to ask questions, to explore and learn, they opened up to me, and became very endearing. We had a long, meaningful conversation, and I believe that it did some good. Since then, I have seen my role as Archscholar in much the same light. It is not my place to tell anyone what to believe, or not believe. As much as it is within my power to do so, as much as I am able, I will always be willing to speak and listen to anyone who may be experiencing fear or doubt. But it is not for me to give you all the answers. You must learn truth for yourself.
I write of these things now, because I have heard the news of what is happening in the North, and the thought that these people are falling away from the Faith fills me with regret. I have spoken with a number of Spirit Walkers over the past few weeks as well, who have expressed their growing concerns to me. I hear you. I understand your concerns. And I cannot remain silent.
While I naturally cannot condone anyone breaking oaths, or forsaking the Gods, or the founding of a New Church of Petrichor without sanction from the Faith, I also must wonder at the threat of violence in answer to questions of Faith. These people are departing from the ranks of the Faith because they are unhappy, because they feel threatened and left out, because they feel as though they must change who they are as people in order to be welcome within the Compact. It is not with the Sword that these questions must be answered, but with Words. Vellichor's teachings charge us with seeking truth, and guarding knowledge. Do not let your zeal blind you to the truth that lies before you. Even if it is difficult to see and acknowledge it, what must be acknowledged is that there is a deeper underlying problem here. Seek it. Find it. And approach it with wisdom and compassion, rather than fire and swords. Words are more powerful than you know.
Written By Sina
March 11, 2019, 1:44 a.m.(9/19/1010 AR)
I have been very quiet of late in my white journals, and the reason for this is because I have been spending a great deal of time in quiet meditation and contemplation on a number of matters, for which I will keep my own counsel. However, during those meditations it has come to me that there have been a number of great and worthy projects of late in the name of education. I feel that it is important to recognize those who have made such contributions to the Compact in the name of Vellichor.
With that in mind, I am planning a ceremony to honor those who have made such great contributions in the name of Knowledge, and I hope to continue this tradition annually into the future. I look forward to seeing the nominations, and a few have already come in. To encourage further the spread of knowledge throughout the Compact, I will also be doubling this event as a fundraiser for a couple of projects that are upcoming, which I'm very pleased to support.
The Scholars are always willing to support such worthy goals. If there are any educational projects you are interested in developing and seek the aid of the Scholars, please do not hesitate to reach out to me. It is my hope that we will continue to work closely with any of the schools and academies throughout the Compact.
With that in mind, I am planning a ceremony to honor those who have made such great contributions in the name of Knowledge, and I hope to continue this tradition annually into the future. I look forward to seeing the nominations, and a few have already come in. To encourage further the spread of knowledge throughout the Compact, I will also be doubling this event as a fundraiser for a couple of projects that are upcoming, which I'm very pleased to support.
The Scholars are always willing to support such worthy goals. If there are any educational projects you are interested in developing and seek the aid of the Scholars, please do not hesitate to reach out to me. It is my hope that we will continue to work closely with any of the schools and academies throughout the Compact.
Written By Sina
Jan. 14, 2019, 3 a.m.(5/10/1010 AR)
It has taken some time for me to wrap my head around today's news. Three hundred Scholars murdered because of a conspiracy no one bothered to inform me about.
Why do I even bother carrying on the title of Archscholar? It is apparently a farce in everyone's eyes. One would think that someone would have come to me about this. I have sworn a sacred vow in the presence of the Dominus to guard and protect knowledge. If those Scholars were traitors embroiled in conspiracy, someone should have come to me directly. Because this is the sum of my duties.
I come to find out two Scholars that I know well and counted among my friends knew of these ill-conceived plans and not one whisper of it was mentioned to me. I have no words for the anger I feel. Normally, I prefer to be more circumspect. But today, I am letting it be known that I am furious. And I will not forgive this breach of trust.
Why do I even bother carrying on the title of Archscholar? It is apparently a farce in everyone's eyes. One would think that someone would have come to me about this. I have sworn a sacred vow in the presence of the Dominus to guard and protect knowledge. If those Scholars were traitors embroiled in conspiracy, someone should have come to me directly. Because this is the sum of my duties.
I come to find out two Scholars that I know well and counted among my friends knew of these ill-conceived plans and not one whisper of it was mentioned to me. I have no words for the anger I feel. Normally, I prefer to be more circumspect. But today, I am letting it be known that I am furious. And I will not forgive this breach of trust.
Written By Sina
Jan. 9, 2019, 6:16 p.m.(5/1/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Arik
White journals are meant for all to read, and remember. Whether this road project ends in a stronger Compact or not, it is now chronicled for all to see, as it should be.
Written By Sina
Jan. 7, 2019, 1:18 a.m.(4/24/1010 AR)
I am clearly not getting enough sleep. I am not normally so emotional. With everything that has happened, I feel raw and so, so tired.
This is another reason to take a step back. I need to focus my energy. I am stretched too thin and cannot commit the time and energy the Council deserves. I am sorry if I have let anyone down.
This is another reason to take a step back. I need to focus my energy. I am stretched too thin and cannot commit the time and energy the Council deserves. I am sorry if I have let anyone down.
Written By Sina
Jan. 6, 2019, 11:54 p.m.(4/23/1010 AR)
It seems to me, after reading Marquessa Reigna's unfortunate post, that a rash of disrespect is going around these days. After considerable thought and prayer on the matter, I have decided to step aside from the Commoner's Council due to disrespect shown to me by some of its members. I regret that this had to be done, but I wish the Council well and hope that they can find a replacement they feel more willing to work with.
If you have a complaint about one of my Scholars, or myself, you are free to address those concerns to me freely and openly, but preferably privately. Preferably with context, and facts, rather than blatant disrespect and vague passive-aggressive comments that mean nothing to me without an understanding of where they are coming from.
We have enough crises to deal with these days without bickering among ourselves. I had hoped for better. Time is precious and fleeting, and quite frankly, I don't have time for added drama when I would rather be focused on my work.
If you have a complaint about one of my Scholars, or myself, you are free to address those concerns to me freely and openly, but preferably privately. Preferably with context, and facts, rather than blatant disrespect and vague passive-aggressive comments that mean nothing to me without an understanding of where they are coming from.
We have enough crises to deal with these days without bickering among ourselves. I had hoped for better. Time is precious and fleeting, and quite frankly, I don't have time for added drama when I would rather be focused on my work.
Written By Sina
Dec. 31, 2018, 12:23 a.m.(4/9/1010 AR)
I think the first Commoner's Council meeting was a great success! Lots of passionate minds among us, and I think we are doing good work. If I haven't said it already, thank you to those who voted me into the Council. If anyone ever has a need to speak with me, I will always have an ear, and make time. We are here for you, to be your voice. Let your voices be heard, and in turn, I hope that we can be a beacon of hope in these interesting times.
Written By Sina
Dec. 29, 2018, 1:27 p.m.(4/7/1010 AR)
Such curious wonders that I have only until now read about find their way to our shores. Representatives of the Undying Emperor and of Cardia. As a Scholar, I find this fascinating. To see ships from lands we have so rarely heard of. It is a Scholar's dream to record such a moment in history. I will be watching closely.
Written By Sina
Dec. 24, 2018, 12:22 p.m.(3/24/1010 AR)
Vows. They are so important to the Compact, to Limerance, to the holding together of everything.
Vows of marriage are meant to last a lifetime, and I hear now of people seeking divorce in record numbers. We must remember our vows, whatever our vows, because they hold the fabric of the Compact together. Your vows are your ties to one another, and they are what hold the Compact secure. Everyone swears a vow of fealty to someone, from the commoner who swears fealty to his liege, to the Godsworn who take vows to serve the Gods. As Scholars, we take extra vows, to guard knowledge, and keep it safe. Our vows are all important. We must remember our commitment to one another, and to the gods, if we are to continue to move forward. Do not let despair overwhelm you.
I know that it is difficult. I have been struggling, as well. As a priestess, I have sworn vows to the Gods, and as a Scholar, I have sworn vows to Vellichor. As Archscholar, I swore to protect knowledge, and the Great Archive. I feel a sense of failure so profound that I can hardly stand the weight of it at times. Surely there must have been something I could have done, but I failed to see it. But still I will persevere, because of the vows that I have sworn, which I will not break. My eyes are open now, and there is only one thing to do - move forward. We will find a way through this. We must always remember to keep dreaming and creating, and hoping.
Continue to dream, to love one another, and to remain true. If you find yourself feeling sad, find your way perhaps to the Shrine of Jayus, and create something beautiful with your hands. Write a song and sing it to the world, as Princess Sorrel the Bladesong has done. Create a painting which encompasses your vision of the world as you would have it be. Write poetry, or write books... write stories of hope and love and fidelity. Remember that we are all the writers of our own destiny, and no one is an island. It is our shared telling of the tale that ties us together, so we must not let those ties dissolve.
Go to the Shrine of Limerance and renew your vows. Reaffirm them. Dedicate yourself wholly to them. Remain true, even if it is the most difficult thing you ever do.
Vows of marriage are meant to last a lifetime, and I hear now of people seeking divorce in record numbers. We must remember our vows, whatever our vows, because they hold the fabric of the Compact together. Your vows are your ties to one another, and they are what hold the Compact secure. Everyone swears a vow of fealty to someone, from the commoner who swears fealty to his liege, to the Godsworn who take vows to serve the Gods. As Scholars, we take extra vows, to guard knowledge, and keep it safe. Our vows are all important. We must remember our commitment to one another, and to the gods, if we are to continue to move forward. Do not let despair overwhelm you.
I know that it is difficult. I have been struggling, as well. As a priestess, I have sworn vows to the Gods, and as a Scholar, I have sworn vows to Vellichor. As Archscholar, I swore to protect knowledge, and the Great Archive. I feel a sense of failure so profound that I can hardly stand the weight of it at times. Surely there must have been something I could have done, but I failed to see it. But still I will persevere, because of the vows that I have sworn, which I will not break. My eyes are open now, and there is only one thing to do - move forward. We will find a way through this. We must always remember to keep dreaming and creating, and hoping.
Continue to dream, to love one another, and to remain true. If you find yourself feeling sad, find your way perhaps to the Shrine of Jayus, and create something beautiful with your hands. Write a song and sing it to the world, as Princess Sorrel the Bladesong has done. Create a painting which encompasses your vision of the world as you would have it be. Write poetry, or write books... write stories of hope and love and fidelity. Remember that we are all the writers of our own destiny, and no one is an island. It is our shared telling of the tale that ties us together, so we must not let those ties dissolve.
Go to the Shrine of Limerance and renew your vows. Reaffirm them. Dedicate yourself wholly to them. Remain true, even if it is the most difficult thing you ever do.
Written By Sina
Dec. 18, 2018, 4:43 p.m.(3/12/1010 AR)
Remember these words, the Psalms of Vellichor:
"A hungry mind is an open mind.
When the mind is closed and says "This cannot be", it will never learn.
Yet when truth is held before the closed mind, it cannot allow truth to stand.
The closed mind will act against the truth to erase it from the world.
The closed mind will seek to make the world in its own image.
The open mind must be hungry; it must also accept what is
no matter the form taken by truth. Truth wears many cloaks."
Remember it.
"A hungry mind is an open mind.
When the mind is closed and says "This cannot be", it will never learn.
Yet when truth is held before the closed mind, it cannot allow truth to stand.
The closed mind will act against the truth to erase it from the world.
The closed mind will seek to make the world in its own image.
The open mind must be hungry; it must also accept what is
no matter the form taken by truth. Truth wears many cloaks."
Remember it.
Written By Sina
Dec. 18, 2018, 4:18 p.m.(3/12/1010 AR)
Do not lose faith. We will find a way through the darkness, into the Light.
Written By Sina
Dec. 16, 2018, 9:43 a.m.(3/8/1010 AR)
I have been waiting before writing here about putting my name in for the Commoner's Council, until candidates were announced. It is an opportunity I have been waiting for ever since the last election, which I did not make it into due to time constraints. The life of a handmaiden can get rather hectic at times, and often, your time is not always your own.
Not that my life isn't any less hectic now that I am Godsworn, and my time still isn't always my own, but I have a little more control over what I do with that time! And I believe helping to bring the voice of the people to those who need to hear it is a worthy use of my time. They call it the 'Commoner's Council', but I know that people who have not been born to wealth and privilege can be anything but common. I have seen it. I hope to be a positive voice for change, should I be selected. Regardless of the outcome, the Council has my support. Always.
Not that my life isn't any less hectic now that I am Godsworn, and my time still isn't always my own, but I have a little more control over what I do with that time! And I believe helping to bring the voice of the people to those who need to hear it is a worthy use of my time. They call it the 'Commoner's Council', but I know that people who have not been born to wealth and privilege can be anything but common. I have seen it. I hope to be a positive voice for change, should I be selected. Regardless of the outcome, the Council has my support. Always.
Written By Sina
Dec. 9, 2018, 6:41 p.m.(2/22/1010 AR)
The first journal day feast had a small turnout, but I was so happy to make the announcements of the new bookshelves, and to announce the official reinstatement of Senior Scholar Rinel. I also promoted Sparte Fatchforth to the rank of Senior Scholar, given his many projects and his steadfast assistance over the past few months.
I will continue to hold these events, so that Scholars can meet and discuss issues important to them, and so that those outside the Scholars can come and raise any questions they might have for us. Meanwhile, I hope that everyone will come by the Stacks and admire the new bookcases. They are simply divine.
Over the next few months, I will be working to refurbish much of the Academy, replacing old desks with newer, sturdier ones. The Reading Room will receive some attention too, as well as the Hall of Tutelage. Other renovations and restorations will be done as well. I also plan to find a prominent place to display Sister Gisele's beautiful Canticle of Vellichor in the Shrine. There are so many things to do, so many projects in the works, but I think it will all serve to the betterment of the Scholars that we might better serve Vellichor.
I will continue to hold these events, so that Scholars can meet and discuss issues important to them, and so that those outside the Scholars can come and raise any questions they might have for us. Meanwhile, I hope that everyone will come by the Stacks and admire the new bookcases. They are simply divine.
Over the next few months, I will be working to refurbish much of the Academy, replacing old desks with newer, sturdier ones. The Reading Room will receive some attention too, as well as the Hall of Tutelage. Other renovations and restorations will be done as well. I also plan to find a prominent place to display Sister Gisele's beautiful Canticle of Vellichor in the Shrine. There are so many things to do, so many projects in the works, but I think it will all serve to the betterment of the Scholars that we might better serve Vellichor.
Written By Sina
Dec. 9, 2018, 10:01 a.m.(2/22/1010 AR)
Ahh, the things people come up with to entertain themselves when the weather is cold and the driving snow is unrelenting. I have to give the greatest of praises to Princess Katarina Valardin and her social games that she has been testing! Not only are they fun, but they are learning experiences as well. The social implications and the diplomatic overtures involved in both games, as well as the need for keen creativity in finding resolutions, make them stimulating as well as enjoyable. I look forward to seeing more of these games in the future!
This has been a very busy, and rewarding, week. I hope to make a special announcement during today's Journal Day Feast, and I think it will be well-received. There are so many projects that I have my hands in, I'm not sure how I find the time to manage them all! But I have to admit, I've never felt more fulfilled in my entire life.
This has been a very busy, and rewarding, week. I hope to make a special announcement during today's Journal Day Feast, and I think it will be well-received. There are so many projects that I have my hands in, I'm not sure how I find the time to manage them all! But I have to admit, I've never felt more fulfilled in my entire life.
Written By Sina
Dec. 1, 2018, 8:03 p.m.(2/6/1010 AR)
It is good to be out and about through the city once again. Attending Princess Sorrel's performance last evening was something to be remembered. I have met so many new and interesting people this week, that I feel I need time to contemplate and digest all of the things that I have learned. It was especially a pleasure to make the acquaintance of Lady Monique Greenmarch, and Count Duarte Amadeo. It is always a pleasure to meet people of similar scholarly pursuits, even if they do not count themselves among the ranks of Vellichor's Discipleship.
I would also like to commend Senior Scholar pro tempore Sparte Fatchforth for his efforts in organizing scholarly meetings with those seeking our knowledge on matters important to themselves and the Compact. His research efforts into a variety of matters have proven to be invaluable.
Another accomplishment today was my meeting with Adora, the proprietress of Bell's Bookcases and Cabinets. She has agreed to a commission for some new bookcases for the Great Archive, and I very much look forward to seeing her work. I have heard that she is the best in the Compact, and I should seek no less in tribute to Vellichor, and the knowledge that we keep safeguarded.
In the coming weeks, I will be scheduling an unveiling of the new bookcases once they are completed, along with a book drive. It would be a pleasure to add more knowledge to the Great Archive, and I encourage any who wish to share a volume to be certain to bring it by for this event. This event will also include a fundraiser to cover the cost of the new bookcases.
In the meantime, I am working on a few other events as well, to make our services as Scholars more accessible, and will be resuming Mother Bianca's journal day feasts, once a month. More details will be forthcoming soon.
I would also like to commend Senior Scholar pro tempore Sparte Fatchforth for his efforts in organizing scholarly meetings with those seeking our knowledge on matters important to themselves and the Compact. His research efforts into a variety of matters have proven to be invaluable.
Another accomplishment today was my meeting with Adora, the proprietress of Bell's Bookcases and Cabinets. She has agreed to a commission for some new bookcases for the Great Archive, and I very much look forward to seeing her work. I have heard that she is the best in the Compact, and I should seek no less in tribute to Vellichor, and the knowledge that we keep safeguarded.
In the coming weeks, I will be scheduling an unveiling of the new bookcases once they are completed, along with a book drive. It would be a pleasure to add more knowledge to the Great Archive, and I encourage any who wish to share a volume to be certain to bring it by for this event. This event will also include a fundraiser to cover the cost of the new bookcases.
In the meantime, I am working on a few other events as well, to make our services as Scholars more accessible, and will be resuming Mother Bianca's journal day feasts, once a month. More details will be forthcoming soon.
Written By Sina
Nov. 24, 2018, 4:55 a.m.(1/19/1010 AR)
When I consider the discussions I see in the whites, I can only ponder the significance of them. I am not entirely certain that the whites were intended for these types of discussions, but rather, more intended for thoughts and observations, rather than debate. Such musings rarely change the minds of others, and in the end, it seems everyone retains their opinion regardless of what is written, or words are misconstrued and read into in the wrong way and then it is necessary to spend the time of our Scholars in trying to explain oneself further.
So I think I shall, in the future, refrain from responding to such things in the whites, and save such discussion for meeting with people in person. It is so easy to misjudge the tone of words written on parchment, when you cannot see their facial expressions, their sincerity, their fierceness, their humanity.
In the coming months, I will be opening up the Vellichorian Academy for such discussions, should any wish to partake. A monthly discussion with a theme, where people can come together and speak of matters, whether from a philosophical standpoint, or a personal stance, a practical position, or perhaps sometimes a presentation may be made. Speakers may be invited to speak on various subjects so that we might learn more about one another. So long as such discussions are civil. It would be interesting, I think, to give the voices I see here in the white journals a face. So many passionate opinions, so many voices wishing to be heard. So many different perspectives. I invite anyone who wishes to speak on a subject, or if there is a matter people would like to discuss in an open, informal forum, to reach out to me, and I will schedule a gathering in the academy for such.
Do you want to brag about how much joy you find in killing people for hire? Well, maybe save that for your black journal, or your drinking buddies. That is one thing we will not be discussing during these gatherings. Such is not productive in my opinion. I would like these gatherings to be a productive opportunity, where we can discuss, learn about one another, share in our knowledge and experience. Who knows? Perhaps we can even help make a difference somewhere.
So I think I shall, in the future, refrain from responding to such things in the whites, and save such discussion for meeting with people in person. It is so easy to misjudge the tone of words written on parchment, when you cannot see their facial expressions, their sincerity, their fierceness, their humanity.
In the coming months, I will be opening up the Vellichorian Academy for such discussions, should any wish to partake. A monthly discussion with a theme, where people can come together and speak of matters, whether from a philosophical standpoint, or a personal stance, a practical position, or perhaps sometimes a presentation may be made. Speakers may be invited to speak on various subjects so that we might learn more about one another. So long as such discussions are civil. It would be interesting, I think, to give the voices I see here in the white journals a face. So many passionate opinions, so many voices wishing to be heard. So many different perspectives. I invite anyone who wishes to speak on a subject, or if there is a matter people would like to discuss in an open, informal forum, to reach out to me, and I will schedule a gathering in the academy for such.
Do you want to brag about how much joy you find in killing people for hire? Well, maybe save that for your black journal, or your drinking buddies. That is one thing we will not be discussing during these gatherings. Such is not productive in my opinion. I would like these gatherings to be a productive opportunity, where we can discuss, learn about one another, share in our knowledge and experience. Who knows? Perhaps we can even help make a difference somewhere.
Written By Sina
Nov. 24, 2018, 4:53 a.m.(1/19/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on River
You are right of course, and I do not mean to dismiss or diminish anyone's experience. However, I do take issue with someone claiming that the entire Compact believes 'a good shav is a dead shav' which is the comment by Shard that originally inspired me to make my voice heard. This is simply not the case, nor should every member of the Compact be held accountable for one man's words saying such. I, for one, count each life precious, whether they are people of the Compact or not. This is all I am trying to say.
Written By Sina
Nov. 23, 2018, 4:50 a.m.(1/17/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on River
Choice is certainly the key word here, I think. Everyone has a choice, and each choice has consequence. We each make a choice, even to stick our necks out and write our thoughts in the whites for all to see, and judge. My choice was to speak out, to imply that there is another way - the finding of common ground. In the end, we all share the Dream - we are all a part of it.
But you are correct. It is our choices that define us, and what we make of our lives. I choose to remain compassionate where I can, but I have a part of me as well, that will fight for what I believe in. Everyone does. Call it survival instinct, call it whatever you like. All of us are capable of violence, even me, though I prefer a peaceful path if I can. I carry a sword, daggers, and I have a set of armor, just like many of the people who write in these journals. And I will use them, if all else fails, if I have to. So far, I have not had to use them at all. But, I am young yet, and have not had a need.
Before I use them, I prefer to think that sometimes, there is a chance for a better solution. But it doesn't start with generalizing, putting everyone into one little box, and labeling them all the same. If someone decides to attack me, I will hold that single person responsible, not their entire house, their family, their people.
Therefore, I think it is unfair to blame the entire Compact for the behavior of individuals. Each person must be held accountable for his or her actions. Unless, of course, one is enslaved by a creature of the Abyss, in which case, does that person actually have free will? And when it comes to that traitor, that horned one you speak of, he doesn't care about your choices, or your free will. But I do, the Compact does, the Faith does, and so if you run into his arms, then you are still making a choice - to give up your free will, or aid and abet one who will take that choice away from shav and a member of the Compact alike. And that is what I, personally, will take up arms against. Anyone who will deny another that one thing - choice, or the knowledge that will allow one to make an informed choice.
Someone mentioned in a previous journal entry that we each fight for different reasons. I participated in the defense of the Lodge as well. I did not raise my sword, but I fought the same as any other, risked everything, the same as any other. To protect that one thing - our freedom to choose.
You say you were a former thrall. My mother was a thrall. I was a scullion in the kitchens of House Thrax as a child. Was I a thrall? I don't know. I was a child, and forced to work in the kitchens of the family that destroyed my father's ship. That seems somewhat like thralldom to me. But I was taken out of the kitchens, and raised up to be Princess Donella's handmaiden, then I chose to stay on and serve Princess Alarissa. Now, I serve the gods, of my own choice. What you started out as is not what you are now. Do not let that define you, unless, of course, you choose to. Because unlike many of those souls we saved in the forest these past months... you have that option.
But you are correct. It is our choices that define us, and what we make of our lives. I choose to remain compassionate where I can, but I have a part of me as well, that will fight for what I believe in. Everyone does. Call it survival instinct, call it whatever you like. All of us are capable of violence, even me, though I prefer a peaceful path if I can. I carry a sword, daggers, and I have a set of armor, just like many of the people who write in these journals. And I will use them, if all else fails, if I have to. So far, I have not had to use them at all. But, I am young yet, and have not had a need.
Before I use them, I prefer to think that sometimes, there is a chance for a better solution. But it doesn't start with generalizing, putting everyone into one little box, and labeling them all the same. If someone decides to attack me, I will hold that single person responsible, not their entire house, their family, their people.
Therefore, I think it is unfair to blame the entire Compact for the behavior of individuals. Each person must be held accountable for his or her actions. Unless, of course, one is enslaved by a creature of the Abyss, in which case, does that person actually have free will? And when it comes to that traitor, that horned one you speak of, he doesn't care about your choices, or your free will. But I do, the Compact does, the Faith does, and so if you run into his arms, then you are still making a choice - to give up your free will, or aid and abet one who will take that choice away from shav and a member of the Compact alike. And that is what I, personally, will take up arms against. Anyone who will deny another that one thing - choice, or the knowledge that will allow one to make an informed choice.
Someone mentioned in a previous journal entry that we each fight for different reasons. I participated in the defense of the Lodge as well. I did not raise my sword, but I fought the same as any other, risked everything, the same as any other. To protect that one thing - our freedom to choose.
You say you were a former thrall. My mother was a thrall. I was a scullion in the kitchens of House Thrax as a child. Was I a thrall? I don't know. I was a child, and forced to work in the kitchens of the family that destroyed my father's ship. That seems somewhat like thralldom to me. But I was taken out of the kitchens, and raised up to be Princess Donella's handmaiden, then I chose to stay on and serve Princess Alarissa. Now, I serve the gods, of my own choice. What you started out as is not what you are now. Do not let that define you, unless, of course, you choose to. Because unlike many of those souls we saved in the forest these past months... you have that option.
Written By Sina
Nov. 22, 2018, 1:11 p.m.(1/15/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Shard
I have managed to stay silent on this argument for some time. I don't claim to know anyone's personal story. However, I think it is rather disingenuous to assume that all members of the Compact feel that the only good shav is a dead shav. Are you going to take these words from one man as a reflection of how the entire Compact feels? It is wrong to generalize, or assign blame to everyone, for one man's viewpoint.
During the Southport crisis, I encountered many shav'arvani, particularly those of Clan Brass Hawk, who demonstrated their love for the arts, and their appreciation for fine craftsmanship, their reverence for creating things with their hands. They found something in the precepts of Jayus to relate to, though our ways and our Faith are so very different. Art has a tendency to do that, of course... it is a universal language, understood by all. Our vision in such endeavors was to find a peaceable means to bring those clans into the Compact, rather than through the means of violence. It is incorrect to assume that the entire Compact condones the use of violence in attempting to bring others into it.
Rather than focusing on our differences, or the resentment that has been built up over the years, can we not find common ground somewhere? Or is it always to be an us against them mindset, or vice versa?
I understand you've been through some terrible difficulties; many have. But holding onto these grudges and this bitterness does not improve the situation, nor does it make anyone feel inclined to forgive, or build new relationships of trust and faith. It only serves to mire us deeper into those feelings that pull us apart and cause strife.
Perhaps, rather than finding things to hate about one another, we can instead search for those things which we have in common, and build upon those things instead. Perhaps it is idealistic of me, to think that such things can happen. But I have seen it work, and I know that this is one reason that I have chosen to serve the Gods - to build up, rather than tear down. To offer hope, rather than despair. To offer love and compassion, rather than hatred and resentment. We all feel that we are doing right by ourselves and our people based on our experiences, but each person's experience is unique. Let us not judge the whole based on the actions or words of an individual.
During the Southport crisis, I encountered many shav'arvani, particularly those of Clan Brass Hawk, who demonstrated their love for the arts, and their appreciation for fine craftsmanship, their reverence for creating things with their hands. They found something in the precepts of Jayus to relate to, though our ways and our Faith are so very different. Art has a tendency to do that, of course... it is a universal language, understood by all. Our vision in such endeavors was to find a peaceable means to bring those clans into the Compact, rather than through the means of violence. It is incorrect to assume that the entire Compact condones the use of violence in attempting to bring others into it.
Rather than focusing on our differences, or the resentment that has been built up over the years, can we not find common ground somewhere? Or is it always to be an us against them mindset, or vice versa?
I understand you've been through some terrible difficulties; many have. But holding onto these grudges and this bitterness does not improve the situation, nor does it make anyone feel inclined to forgive, or build new relationships of trust and faith. It only serves to mire us deeper into those feelings that pull us apart and cause strife.
Perhaps, rather than finding things to hate about one another, we can instead search for those things which we have in common, and build upon those things instead. Perhaps it is idealistic of me, to think that such things can happen. But I have seen it work, and I know that this is one reason that I have chosen to serve the Gods - to build up, rather than tear down. To offer hope, rather than despair. To offer love and compassion, rather than hatred and resentment. We all feel that we are doing right by ourselves and our people based on our experiences, but each person's experience is unique. Let us not judge the whole based on the actions or words of an individual.
Written By Sina
Nov. 15, 2018, 11:24 a.m.(1/1/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Jordan
Oh no. My friend, you've gone and done it now, haven't you? You've broken my heart.
I've only heard the news on the wings of the white journals, that Sir Jordan Ober has perished. But I wanted the world to know, he was my friend, and he will be missed, terribly. I only hope that he was lucky enough to be in the right place at the right time, and that his passing was one worthy of the stories. Whether he was touched by Gild, Gloria, or whether he was just lucky... he always seemed to be in the right place at the right time.
May you find peace, Sir Jordan.
My heart aches, as I hear the news from the Lodge, of those who return battered and bloody, and those who do not return at all. But I know what we are all fighting for, and I think we all know the risks. It is worth fighting for. And knowing this, my heart will endure and mend, and be stronger for it all in the end.
I've only heard the news on the wings of the white journals, that Sir Jordan Ober has perished. But I wanted the world to know, he was my friend, and he will be missed, terribly. I only hope that he was lucky enough to be in the right place at the right time, and that his passing was one worthy of the stories. Whether he was touched by Gild, Gloria, or whether he was just lucky... he always seemed to be in the right place at the right time.
May you find peace, Sir Jordan.
My heart aches, as I hear the news from the Lodge, of those who return battered and bloody, and those who do not return at all. But I know what we are all fighting for, and I think we all know the risks. It is worth fighting for. And knowing this, my heart will endure and mend, and be stronger for it all in the end.
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