Written By Deva
March 2, 2021, 9:26 p.m.(1/16/1015 AR)
I need a new hobby, and I'm taking suggestions. Preferably things that will keep me out of trouble, not add to my usual amount. For now.
Written By Deva
Feb. 26, 2021, 12:27 p.m.(1/7/1015 AR)
Sometimes it's the little things in life that get you through. Sometimes the little things that turn out to be bigger things than you first realized. Trite as it may sound, it's also true that you don't always realize what you have until it's gone. I'm glad I've experienced a few things over the years to appreciate that now.
Written By Deva
Feb. 25, 2021, 2:39 p.m.(1/5/1015 AR)
Relationship Note on Alis
Note to self: Get really, really drunk before you go to any Oathlands dinner so you're emotionally ready for all the spoons.
Written By Deva
Feb. 20, 2021, 11:08 a.m.(12/20/1014 AR)
Relationship Note on Cristoph
I would have adored such a friendship back then, but it's probably best for the city that we didn't meet sooner. We would have exceeded the prank threshold already. The upside is that there are years to make up for now!
Written By Deva
Jan. 31, 2021, 3:59 p.m.(11/8/1014 AR)
In a world full of chaos and strife, it is a relief to know that one thing hasn't changed: Dogs are still our best friend.
They may eat your shoes and howl at odd hours of the night, but still. Best friend. It's something in the eyes.
They may eat your shoes and howl at odd hours of the night, but still. Best friend. It's something in the eyes.
Written By Deva
Jan. 11, 2021, 11:39 a.m.(9/24/1014 AR)
I have been asked what I missed most in my years away. The simplest, and truest, answer is I miss those I'll never share another moment with. So many things are replaceable, but a loved one's laugh is not. Don't worry, I'm well aware of my own culpability for feeling this way. I simply mean to never take those moments for granted again.
Written By Deva
May 24, 2017, 1:57 p.m.(7/9/1006 AR)
Note to self: Actions speak louder than bullshit.
Written By Deva
May 2, 2017, 1:41 p.m.(5/20/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Talen
If this is motherhood, I want absolutely nothing to do with it.
Written By Deva
April 26, 2017, 9:59 p.m.(5/7/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Aislin
Aislin has lived a life like none other, and she is an exceptional person to boot. I am eternally grateful for her everlasting patience for my questions and curiosities about the world I have yet to see. I am grateful to know her, and hope there will be opportunity to join her on future expeditions.
Written By Deva
April 20, 2017, 4:36 p.m.(4/22/1006 AR)
Thanks for the bringers at my wedding, Brand. I'll be sure to shoot your other eye the next time I get the opportunity.
Written By Deva
April 9, 2017, 10:29 p.m.(3/28/1006 AR)
It turns out enemy innards are incredibly difficult to wash out of one's hair. I may never feel clean again.
Written By Deva
April 5, 2017, 12:15 a.m.(3/19/1006 AR)
I know my father was not literally perfect, no one is, but his memory will always remain so in my eyes. He was also incredibly personable, and frighteningly clever about deterring the young men he'd see me hanging around with. He never threatened them, never used his station or - let's face it - physical brawn to shoo them off. No, no, instead? He made sure they were terrified of -me- and just what I might be capable of, with stories about how the last boy I kissed ended up with a broken arm, and if you listened closely how his wailing could still be heard in the lower floors of the castle. Or the (admittedly true) tale of how I gave one a black eye for being gross, and he nearly fled off one of our balconies.
I miss him every day, but some days are more unbearable than others.
I miss him every day, but some days are more unbearable than others.
Written By Deva
April 2, 2017, 1:25 p.m.(3/14/1006 AR)
I'm sure I'll never make a shot like that again in my lifetime, but -damn- did it feel good to stick an arrow in a herald's eye. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't proud of being able to do so from the ramparts as the siege first arrived. In the grand scheme of things, I know one shot won't be what makes the difference. Most of all, I look forward to the moment he crumbles under our collective efforts. We are all capable of more than we ever expected when everything is on the line. My world may be shaken as of late, but my faith in our people remains steadfast.
Written By Deva
March 31, 2017, 10:43 p.m.(3/10/1006 AR)
I should be dead. Several times over, really, if I may be completely blunt. But here I am.
I pray for peace for those we have lost, and I shall do everything I can to make the most of my time still here. Even if the 'why' continues to elude me.
I pray for peace for those we have lost, and I shall do everything I can to make the most of my time still here. Even if the 'why' continues to elude me.
Written By Deva
March 19, 2017, 9:22 p.m.(2/14/1006 AR)
To the last. May the gods watch over us all.
Written By Deva
March 9, 2017, 4:37 p.m.(1/22/1006 AR)
Every single choice we make has an impact on the world around us, big and small, mostly in ways we never would have imagined. Even in ways no one could ever fathom without knowing the whole story. We are free to make those choices, they are fiercely ours, but we cannot control how other people react. That is their choice, too. Some things can't be taken back or undone. It's up to us to accept the consequences that go with our actions, for better or for worse.
It can be a terrible feeling to realize just who you are. The worst thing you can do is drag someone down with you, depriving them of that choice to move forward. And sometimes, in order to protect the people you care about and hold onto what you have left, you may have to take measures to protect yourself as well. Turns out walls are easier to build than to tear down.
It can be a terrible feeling to realize just who you are. The worst thing you can do is drag someone down with you, depriving them of that choice to move forward. And sometimes, in order to protect the people you care about and hold onto what you have left, you may have to take measures to protect yourself as well. Turns out walls are easier to build than to tear down.
Written By Deva
March 5, 2017, 1:36 a.m.(1/13/1006 AR)
Sometimes life devastates us in ways we didn't realize were possible, and sometimes it takes us places we never imagined. There's always good to take with the bad. Balance. The concept has meant a lot more to me, lately. Without it, life feels like trying to run while wearing only one boot.
Written By Deva
Feb. 26, 2017, 8:39 p.m.(12/28/1005 AR)
Who knew that ballroom dancing could be almost as dangerous as the battlefield? I nearly had a mishap with some mysteriously placed caltrops on the dance floor, and likely would have been sidelined the rest of the evening had Archduke Niccolo not deftly saved me just in time, with a stylish dip at that.
I think you would have laughed, Esera. I can hear it if I close my eyes hard enough. Every memory we had is still cherished close to my heart. You are missed, and you are loved.
I think you would have laughed, Esera. I can hear it if I close my eyes hard enough. Every memory we had is still cherished close to my heart. You are missed, and you are loved.
Written By Deva
Feb. 19, 2017, 10:06 p.m.(12/15/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Sigurd
I have begun to know Sigurd better through his position as liaison between the Ministry of Defense and Redrain. In our talks, I have found him to be a reliable man with the best interests of the north and compact at heart. It's nice to be able to work through such serious topics with someone who can laugh at the absurdity of the world, too.
Written By Deva
Feb. 12, 2017, 8:31 p.m.(11/28/1005 AR)
Relationship Note on Valery
Valery has recently joined our household to tend the gardens. She is lovely and sweet, quiet-- maybe too quiet. I think I might scare her a little with my, ah, energy? Whatever you want to call it. She has immediately embraced her work, and I hope to get to know her better.
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