Written By Tikva
Jan. 25, 2022, 12:22 a.m.(12/27/1016 AR)
I also feel entirely ready for the winter season, a social set full of (appallingly) young and (ravishingly) beautiful people, and the stubborn optimism of a very hard head (mine, you see) smashed repeatedly into the wall of gloom wherever it occurs.
I commend to all Princess Keely's hosting, Princess Sofia's dancing, and Mistress Ilira's charm as a ... collision? I don't actually know how to describe that, but really, great fun was had by all.
Always commit!
Written By Tikva
Dec. 1, 2021, 12:52 a.m.(9/1/1016 AR)
He recommends that you find white journals that make you laugh, instead, or that contain interesting facts about weaponry or military history. It's even better if you find a journal that can make you laugh _and_ contains interesting facts about weaponry or military history, but he assures me that this is almost impossible, like finding his other sock, which is completely beyond the power of anyone at all.
Maybe His Majesty could find Tiber's other sock, he reasons, but he has much more important things to do than that, and it would of course be extremely silly of me to suggest it.
Written By Tikva
Nov. 16, 2021, 5:53 p.m.(8/1/1016 AR)
My shame! My dismay! Laric is going to frown so severely at me for the harm to our reputation.
The charms were a gift from His Majesty, though. I'm both ashamed of myself and genuinely sad to lose them.
Written By Tikva
Nov. 11, 2021, 6:33 p.m.(7/19/1016 AR)
Borne up on voices, primed of song and prayer;
You cannot extinguish me, for I flow
as water in a river, unreachable by blows,
Liquid, reshaping my channel to the need
because I go where I will, wherever hearts heed;
You can't block my reach, for I grow from the root
Across unimaginable distance, each tiny new shoot;
You cannot defeat me, with vines twisting like rope
because I am unstoppable, unquenchable Hope.
Written By Tikva
Sept. 13, 2021, 4:01 p.m.(3/13/1016 AR)
I was not born to this. I was claimed by it. And I shall never forget the humility of that. The grace that was gifted me, and the duties that bind me. Perhaps it is because I was but a child when the Count raised me, and I was fully trained and educated for the role to which I aspired; but I look upon the chaos of blood and status that comes with the random spread of freshly raised commoners who _weren't_ so trained with perhaps even more horror than those who were to the manner born.
I beg you, my fellows who have been raised to the Peerage, to remember the worth for which you were raised. Please stop making us all look bad.
Written By Tikva
Aug. 24, 2021, 9:36 a.m.(1/28/1016 AR)
Our people are hurting and it is our duty to help, to protect, to rebuild, and we shall. I do not even know that we can call what happened a failure of our duty, since I do not know what else we might have done, what defenses we could have brought to bear that were not. So instead, I will call it brutal, and I shall say that we will protect, that we will rebuild, and that we are grateful for the support of the Compact in this time.
But that tragedy shall also not prevent us from turning six and having pancakes. There is None Greater, and we are resilient.
Written By Tikva
July 1, 2021, 2:41 p.m.(10/5/1015 AR)
I have several instruments about the place, of course, including the lovely crafted floor harp Ainsley and I had installed by Mistress Petal and her carpenter brother shortly after our marriage, so many years ago now, on which I do a lot of my musical composition. The oldest and most cared for, though, is a balalaika, which is essentially the same as any other lute, but with a longer neck and more triangular head, and only three strings. They're designed for quick, short bursts, for dance music and life and vibrancy. I don't know much about the history of the instrument, but it was actually my first.
It was crafted at Brighthold, from seasoned wood from our people's groves, as a gift to me on behalf of my brothers, Tibault and Sen. Tibault was the Count who adopted me, but he always said that he was not my father, but that we foundlings were the little brothers and sisters of his heart. I don't know if this is _true_, but what he told me was that it was an instrument used by my mother's people, and although my mother was gone, and disgraced, it's natural for any orphan to want to know as much about her blood as she can.
We gave the balalaika a name, Amanita. I don't remember why, but I've called her that my entire life. And my mother's people may or may not have adopted her style of instrument from the Ravashari, but that's what Tibault thought, and I believed him without examination because of course I did; inquiry comes later. Children are full of faith even when they are full of doubt. Tiber shows me this all the time.
When I play Amanita, I feel freedom in her strings, and the dance in her voice, mellow sweet. She's not an instrument on whom to compose an opera, or to sing a dirge. She's full of life and passion and all the bright joy and yearning hope that I have infused into her over my years of using her to play. And I wonder, if I played a different style of lute, if it came from a different shape, a different region, a different history: how would it shape my song?
Do you have a favorite instrument? A favored tool? A pen you've filled with all your thoughts and dreams? Has it shaped you?
Written By Tikva
June 2, 2021, 1:44 p.m.(8/3/1015 AR)
Your touch breaks upon me like a tide
and I am overwhelmed;
Ink bleeds from me like life force
and stains the page,
raw, unfettered, free,
yet untrammeled it is,
without rhyme or meter, structure or intelligence;
I am written upon the page
in my least tamed, unbroken form
as wild as the sea
and as comprehensible.
This is no way to write an aria.
Written By Tikva
May 4, 2021, 10:31 p.m.(6/1/1015 AR)
It will be so good that Duke Aiden's children will have a place their father loved so much to see as they grow. A place infused with memory, like the words of a paean, but to all Petrichor's creatures.
Written By Tikva
May 1, 2021, 2:02 p.m.(5/23/1015 AR)
Though I think I'll wait until they see me slightly less banged up. One of the healers - I think it was Rinel Tern? -- managed to get the arrowhead out of me without me hemorrhaging all over the floor but it turns out, being shot? It's not great!
Written By Tikva
April 30, 2021, 2:56 p.m.(5/21/1015 AR)
Leave my blacks sealed. There are too many Crown and Inquisition secrets with which I have wrestled over the years for it to be safe to let them fly free. By the grace of Vellichor, my thoughts that were fit for public consumption remain so, but that's all.
My belongings shall go to my husband, Prince Ainsley Grayson, except for my balalaika, which shall go to Princess Sorrel Thrax, whether she wants it or not; certain items of my jewelry and personal items have been marked so as to clutter the shelves of Master of Questions Laric Grayson; and my love, my undying love, across all time and space, to my children, for whom I live, and pray I will not fall. If my weapons are recovered, let them be held in trust for any of my children who choose to take up the bow, and when they reach the age of adulthood, if none of them take up the bow, let the alaricite be sold and the ransom of their worth be sent to my brother's house: a gift to the serfs of the Brighthold, a remembrance of the girl who left the sea behind, but never forgot the Lighthouse.
If I do fall in battle against the forces of slavery and darkness, I know that my sons and daughter will come to understand in time that this death is one to be proud of, and they will grow strong, and glorious, with all their family to hold them up.
Take heart. Have hope. If these are the last words of my pen to paper, that is what they shall be. Let it never falter. I love you. I love you. I love you.
Written By Tikva
April 20, 2021, 1:07 a.m.(4/28/1015 AR)
No one tell Baron Clement and Duke Laurent I had a birthday. No one can know how old I am.
Written By Tikva
April 20, 2021, 1:04 a.m.(4/28/1015 AR)
In the day, the brightness of the leaf
The sun on the rain, its bow I'd as lief
to carry in hand, arrows of light and life
to pierce the woeful ache of strife.
I remember
The ache in my throat, the choke of my breath
A heavy chill reaches past the solace of death
Tears burn like fire, defiant in my eye
But it is no matter with what will I strive
For I remember, I remember, I remember
And I will sing my hope tonight,
An arrow bright as the rainbow's light
Where it comes after the fall of tears,
It soars true, into the future, beyond fear.
Written By Tikva
Nov. 29, 2020, 5:42 p.m.(6/23/1014 AR)
Relationship Note on Cristoph
Written By Tikva
Nov. 21, 2020, 2:25 p.m.(6/6/1014 AR)
________
[Pianissimo]
The bells ring not, and the hours pass--
Do you mark them?
The bells ring not, and the silence falls--
Will we break it?
The work begun, toil coming to us all
Will it finish?
[Fortissimo]
We stand loyal to the gods, to the last--
Will you join us?
Each hour comes-- When does it end?
Each minute ticks, I count it not
Each day breaks, and gods forfend
any missing time, any lost seconds caught.
The bells ring not, the belfry's still
but if our voices sing our will
we sing our hymnals, sing all our parts
mark the hours, by our hearts
[Crescendo, to finis]
Sing with me now, we'll be the bells
We'll mark the hours and toll what tells
The work will grow, with hope alive,
and our faith and strength will yet survive.
Written By Tikva
Sept. 8, 2020, 2:01 p.m.(12/26/1013 AR)
Written By Tikva
Aug. 24, 2020, 4:22 p.m.(11/24/1013 AR)
Written By Tikva
Aug. 17, 2020, 12:10 p.m.(11/10/1013 AR)
Relationship Note on Corban
Written By Tikva
Aug. 14, 2020, 1:03 p.m.(11/4/1013 AR)
I am also tempted to appropriate this adorable turtle and place him in a cute turtle house with my lovely turtle, Lyric, I received as a gift, but I still need to have commissioned a grander turtle home and perhaps place it in the garden . . .
Written By Tikva
Aug. 10, 2020, 2:12 p.m.(10/24/1013 AR)
Yet it feels right. It's not MY story.
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