Written By Teagan
Nov. 27, 2019, 9:04 a.m.(4/10/1012 AR)
I swear there is no middle ground in my family. They are either mocking me for being laid up or fussing endlessly over me for being injured in the first place.
Thankfully, I am on my feet again. I am stretching my leg out lest the scar tissue at the back of my knee cause any problems later. I have been told some might find the scar attractive: let me tell you now, it is not, and skirts will forever be a blessing.
Thankfully, I am on my feet again. I am stretching my leg out lest the scar tissue at the back of my knee cause any problems later. I have been told some might find the scar attractive: let me tell you now, it is not, and skirts will forever be a blessing.
Written By Teagan
Nov. 25, 2019, 1:52 a.m.(4/5/1012 AR)
I have taken ill before.
After the battle with the Reaper, I was in bed for days recovering, though the injuries brought were of a very different stripe.
As a child, I gained the usual cuts, scrapes, bruises.
I have never before, in point of fact, found myself injured quite like this. I am, even, sending this off with Chessa to be filed because I cannot make the walk myself. How terrible is that? I am laid up by the fire, my leg bandaged, because if I move too much it begins to bleed anew. I'll have a scar, I just know it.
And all because of some damned rodents.
...they were awful big rodents, though, I must say.
After the battle with the Reaper, I was in bed for days recovering, though the injuries brought were of a very different stripe.
As a child, I gained the usual cuts, scrapes, bruises.
I have never before, in point of fact, found myself injured quite like this. I am, even, sending this off with Chessa to be filed because I cannot make the walk myself. How terrible is that? I am laid up by the fire, my leg bandaged, because if I move too much it begins to bleed anew. I'll have a scar, I just know it.
And all because of some damned rodents.
...they were awful big rodents, though, I must say.
Written By Teagan
Nov. 22, 2019, 9:48 a.m.(3/28/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Arcadia
That beard is one of the gems of the North.
Written By Teagan
Nov. 14, 2019, 6:13 p.m.(3/13/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Arik
I have never been one to make much of my birthday, but for my most recent, Lord Arik hosted me for a quiet dinner.
It was altogether a pleasant evening of conversation with a friend and I appreciate the thought extended by his invitation. It may have 'simply' been an alteration of our usual meetings to have a drink and catch up, but it will nevertheless not be forgotten.
It was altogether a pleasant evening of conversation with a friend and I appreciate the thought extended by his invitation. It may have 'simply' been an alteration of our usual meetings to have a drink and catch up, but it will nevertheless not be forgotten.
Written By Teagan
Nov. 13, 2019, 10:52 p.m.(3/11/1012 AR)
How dull, this trend to hate Thrax simply because they will not end thralldom in a way dictated by this or that individual.
So short a time ago, it was a cry to put an end to thralldom. Thrax agreed. The economic backlash from what actions they have taken thus far have hit not just the Isles, but all of Arvum. One can only imagine what might occur if all of the thralls were freed 'overnight.'
It makes one wonder if the desire to see it all ended 'immediately' isn't out of some gleeful, sadistic hope to see suffering spread far and wide under the guise of freeing thralls.
So short a time ago, it was a cry to put an end to thralldom. Thrax agreed. The economic backlash from what actions they have taken thus far have hit not just the Isles, but all of Arvum. One can only imagine what might occur if all of the thralls were freed 'overnight.'
It makes one wonder if the desire to see it all ended 'immediately' isn't out of some gleeful, sadistic hope to see suffering spread far and wide under the guise of freeing thralls.
Written By Teagan
Oct. 31, 2019, 11:31 a.m.(2/12/1012 AR)
To denigrate Thrax simply to pat one's self on the back is simply shameful. As a House, as a fealty, they have taken great strides in the past year alone.
While I love my gown from Pins & Needles, I do believe it will be another shop that gets my next commission.
While I love my gown from Pins & Needles, I do believe it will be another shop that gets my next commission.
Written By Teagan
Oct. 25, 2019, 12:40 p.m.(1/28/1012 AR)
Everything brings us to where we are: whether you believe it is the gods that set you upon the path, the fault of some nefarious plot (political action taken against you, evil itself, or something other), or your own hand. Whatever it may be, we are where we are and there is a reason for it. Nothing happens without a series of events that lead to the destination and one could easily say that is the very reason for the poets that wax about the journey being more important than the destination.
Because of the stories that make up for it.
This is the reason we gather these stories. The reason the Scholars gather them. The reason we have an Archive and we seek the daily lives -- thoughts, dreams, hopes, fears -- of everyone around us. Even as we discuss the struggle of a eulogy, it is there: the journey. How do you summarize a life? Can anyone do it justice? In truth, I think we would all fall short. We could walk every step with someone and still not know them. We could read every word of every white and still not know them.
As I sit in the Shrine of the Thirteenth and reflect (and reflect and reflect), I find myself looking back on what brought me to this point. I find myself reflecting on what is, in truth, my own story. Which leads me to think, in turn, on what someone might say about me if I were to die. What words might my family say? Might my friends say?
What would, if I were given the chance, I say about myself? And I come to realize: I do not think I could even put my own life into words that would give an accurate depiction of who I am. I will never envy the man or woman who must give a eulogy. Nor will I ever think them a liar if their words do not ring true: they are giving the best truth they can.
Because of the stories that make up for it.
This is the reason we gather these stories. The reason the Scholars gather them. The reason we have an Archive and we seek the daily lives -- thoughts, dreams, hopes, fears -- of everyone around us. Even as we discuss the struggle of a eulogy, it is there: the journey. How do you summarize a life? Can anyone do it justice? In truth, I think we would all fall short. We could walk every step with someone and still not know them. We could read every word of every white and still not know them.
As I sit in the Shrine of the Thirteenth and reflect (and reflect and reflect), I find myself looking back on what brought me to this point. I find myself reflecting on what is, in truth, my own story. Which leads me to think, in turn, on what someone might say about me if I were to die. What words might my family say? Might my friends say?
What would, if I were given the chance, I say about myself? And I come to realize: I do not think I could even put my own life into words that would give an accurate depiction of who I am. I will never envy the man or woman who must give a eulogy. Nor will I ever think them a liar if their words do not ring true: they are giving the best truth they can.
Written By Teagan
Oct. 24, 2019, 9:45 a.m.(1/26/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Preston
As I sit and reflect in the Shrine of the Thirteenth, I ask that journals be brought to me. Mostly those by friends and people whose opinions I respect. Interesting that I find within Sir Preston's history of Marach: a topic that I have studied recently, myself. Perhaps it is a bit of history I should not be looking into, it is true. But it is history nonetheless and there are lessons to be learned from it. His journals have led me to Rinel's and though I do not know them, I am curious to speak with them at some point.
It would seem that the gods have chosen me to undertake my devotions and my path further with the Scholars at just the right time: this conversation happening at the same time that I was studying the same topic. Things happen, as they say, for a reason.
It certainly gives me something to reflect upon.
It would seem that the gods have chosen me to undertake my devotions and my path further with the Scholars at just the right time: this conversation happening at the same time that I was studying the same topic. Things happen, as they say, for a reason.
It certainly gives me something to reflect upon.
Written By Teagan
Oct. 22, 2019, 10:01 a.m.(1/22/1012 AR)
I am someone who never wants to stop learning.
And yet there are some things that cannot be forgotten. Some books that cannot be closed.
And yet there are some things that cannot be forgotten. Some books that cannot be closed.
Written By Teagan
Oct. 17, 2019, 7:53 p.m.(1/13/1012 AR)
I may be an Oathlander, but the Cloudspine happens to be a place rather full of winters.
I find myself more kin to the Northlands than anywhere else when it comes to matters of seasons. This time of year is much more 'home' than summer. I love wearing my coat, finding snow upon my shoulders and in my hair, and seeing the long trail of footprints left behind me.
Should any of you require mint for your tea, I would be glad to see to it that Blackram mint care packages are sent your way.
I find myself more kin to the Northlands than anywhere else when it comes to matters of seasons. This time of year is much more 'home' than summer. I love wearing my coat, finding snow upon my shoulders and in my hair, and seeing the long trail of footprints left behind me.
Should any of you require mint for your tea, I would be glad to see to it that Blackram mint care packages are sent your way.
Written By Teagan
Oct. 9, 2019, 1:45 a.m.(12/23/1011 AR)
Sometimes, when I am in the library and the fire has gone cold and I find myself leaning ever closer to its embers to read the final words upon a page before I take myself to bed...
...I find that I am lonely.
It is strange, perhaps, that this empty sort of feeling settles deep in the center of my chest only in those quiet moments when the hold is at its most quiet. When I was younger, those were the times I most savored my own company.
...I find that I am lonely.
It is strange, perhaps, that this empty sort of feeling settles deep in the center of my chest only in those quiet moments when the hold is at its most quiet. When I was younger, those were the times I most savored my own company.
Written By Teagan
Oct. 8, 2019, 9:45 a.m.(12/22/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Alarissa
I was recently able to spend some time with the Princess. It has been far too long since we were last able to sit and speak with one another and I do hope it will not be so long before the next.
We have both weathered too much in the time since. Far too much. We have seen too much. Bore too much. She does better than she gives herself credit for, but it is understandable given the circumstances and in time, she will see through to the other side. I believe it normal that we never know just how strong we are until we have set down the weight we are carrying.
She gave me some advice. Some of it more difficult to hear than the rest. I intend to see it through all the same.
We have both weathered too much in the time since. Far too much. We have seen too much. Bore too much. She does better than she gives herself credit for, but it is understandable given the circumstances and in time, she will see through to the other side. I believe it normal that we never know just how strong we are until we have set down the weight we are carrying.
She gave me some advice. Some of it more difficult to hear than the rest. I intend to see it through all the same.
Written By Teagan
Oct. 4, 2019, 7:45 a.m.(12/14/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Niklas
I worry for the day when our leaders in the Faith cannot admit to their own failings as men and women. They guide us. They are not gods themselves.
Written By Teagan
Oct. 4, 2019, 7:45 a.m.(12/14/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Niklas
I worry for the day when our leaders in the Faith cannot admit to their own failings as men and women. They guide us. They are not gods themselves.
Written By Teagan
Oct. 3, 2019, 6:16 p.m.(12/13/1011 AR)
No matter who you are, no matter what you do, someone will take offense.
If you step forward with your right foot rather than your left, someone across the square will sneer and rush off to the Archive to pen a scathing journal about what a horrid person you are for insulting some ancient, great, and honorable people that always step left foot first.
All we can do is honor the Faith, our family, and our friends while living our life to the best of our abilities. If someone sees fit to have a temper tantrum at you specifically: be proud. They've chosen to waste the precious hours in the day on complaining about the way you choose to live your life.
If you step forward with your right foot rather than your left, someone across the square will sneer and rush off to the Archive to pen a scathing journal about what a horrid person you are for insulting some ancient, great, and honorable people that always step left foot first.
All we can do is honor the Faith, our family, and our friends while living our life to the best of our abilities. If someone sees fit to have a temper tantrum at you specifically: be proud. They've chosen to waste the precious hours in the day on complaining about the way you choose to live your life.
Written By Teagan
Sept. 27, 2019, 1:42 a.m.(11/27/1011 AR)
I think I would like a furry sort of companion.
I wonder if I know anyone who might have one of those creatures who might be about to have pups or kits or whatever they might be called soon.
I wonder if I know anyone who might have one of those creatures who might be about to have pups or kits or whatever they might be called soon.
Written By Teagan
Sept. 26, 2019, 5:31 p.m.(11/27/1011 AR)
I feel that I have been languishing in darkness for some time. The Telmarch has seen much of it. From the war between Bellerive and Threerivers to the horrors suffered at Highhill. Now to the mission I have just returned from. I've been on a slow, long march through darkness for some time without even realizing it and I still have not woken.
I think my error is not in a lack of Faith, but in a lack of faith. I hold everything close to the chest. I rely only on my own two hands and my own two feet. While I did witness Sir Preston's Faith in Gloria and it was great, what I saw more was what it means to have faith in people.
I could serve to learn more of that.
I think my error is not in a lack of Faith, but in a lack of faith. I hold everything close to the chest. I rely only on my own two hands and my own two feet. While I did witness Sir Preston's Faith in Gloria and it was great, what I saw more was what it means to have faith in people.
I could serve to learn more of that.
Written By Teagan
Sept. 26, 2019, 5:28 p.m.(11/27/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Ida
Dame Ida is a steadfast woman who stands by her word and has a greater faith than I knew. And I speak not of Faith in the gods (though she has that too), but a faith in people.
It's a faith that I respect and one that I could do to learn from.
It's a faith that I respect and one that I could do to learn from.
Written By Teagan
June 9, 2019, 6:45 p.m.(4/4/1011 AR)
I do not write in the whites often. Putting myself out there for public consumption -- though I doubt any at all care to put the effort into pulling my thoughts to read -- is not something I am inclined to do.
But I imagine someday I may have descendants who will wonder as to who I was, just the same as I sometimes seek the wisdom of my own ancestors. Though I find frequently I feel I have no wisdom to give. Eat well. Sleep well. Be happy.
When we feel we have found wisdom in the writings of those who came before, is it truly wisdom or are we reaching between the inked lines and finding only what lay within us all along? Is it merely a window to our own selves and we simply needed permission to open it?
But I imagine someday I may have descendants who will wonder as to who I was, just the same as I sometimes seek the wisdom of my own ancestors. Though I find frequently I feel I have no wisdom to give. Eat well. Sleep well. Be happy.
When we feel we have found wisdom in the writings of those who came before, is it truly wisdom or are we reaching between the inked lines and finding only what lay within us all along? Is it merely a window to our own selves and we simply needed permission to open it?
Written By Teagan
March 29, 2019, 12:06 a.m.(10/27/1010 AR)
Relationship Note on Josephine
As always, it is a pleasure to deal with Mistress Josephine. I know I will be able to find the materials I need to purchase at a (more than) fair price...and particularly in the volume I frequently need to purchase them at.
Honestly, it's usually the volume that does me in. I don't know how she does it, but truly: if you need more than just one or two pieces of something that's a bit expensive or rare, she is the one who you can almost guarantee will be able to provide it at a great deal.
Honestly, it's usually the volume that does me in. I don't know how she does it, but truly: if you need more than just one or two pieces of something that's a bit expensive or rare, she is the one who you can almost guarantee will be able to provide it at a great deal.
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