Written By Mikani
March 29, 2020, 3:50 p.m.(1/8/1013 AR)
In the words of the great Elder Leonard Nemoy
Because
I have known despair
I value hope
Because
I have tasted frustration
I value fulfillment
Because I have been lonely
I value love
Because
I have known despair
I value hope
Because
I have tasted frustration
I value fulfillment
Because I have been lonely
I value love
Written By Mikani
March 29, 2020, 3:43 p.m.(1/8/1013 AR)
Gods and Spirits
Keep my anger from becoming meanness.
Keep my sorrow from collapsing into self-pity.
Keep my heart soft enough to keep breaking.
Keep my anger turned towards justice, not cruelty.
Remind me that all of this, every bit of this is for love.
Keep me fiercely kind.
Keep my anger from becoming meanness.
Keep my sorrow from collapsing into self-pity.
Keep my heart soft enough to keep breaking.
Keep my anger turned towards justice, not cruelty.
Remind me that all of this, every bit of this is for love.
Keep me fiercely kind.
Written By Mikani
March 23, 2020, 1:39 a.m.(12/22/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Rysen
I read a poem ... I've been reading a lot of them lately.
"Hope" is the thing with feathers -
That perches in the soul -
And sings the tune without the words -
And never stops-at all -
My heart hangs on these words. I know that with the pouring of support from the Compact for the rescue of my husband (Lord Rysen), Lord Ian and Lady Brianna my hope is a flame that is gaining air and growing. I thank everyone who has offered help. Please contact Duke Regent Aethan Kennex, is the one that is a connection between all the moving parts.
"Hope" is the thing with feathers -
That perches in the soul -
And sings the tune without the words -
And never stops-at all -
My heart hangs on these words. I know that with the pouring of support from the Compact for the rescue of my husband (Lord Rysen), Lord Ian and Lady Brianna my hope is a flame that is gaining air and growing. I thank everyone who has offered help. Please contact Duke Regent Aethan Kennex, is the one that is a connection between all the moving parts.
Written By Mikani
March 11, 2020, 9:59 p.m.(11/28/1012 AR)
So many see black and white in this world. I tend towards the shads of gray. For example, House Aetheris. Some of the information I found they are protectors of humanity. Righters of right. Fight the good fight. Other information says they are one step above speaking to Oblivion. See, gray. I, for one, am trying to understand more gray. Wouldn't mind speaking to House Aetheris about the subject. Or anyone else for that matter.
Written By Mikani
March 11, 2020, 4:08 p.m.(11/28/1012 AR)
Sometimes, not knowing leaves room for hope.
Written By Mikani
Feb. 16, 2020, 7:36 p.m.(10.270628306878306/9.155185185185184/1012.7725523589065 AR)
I was able to celebrate at the Expanse the other night. It was amazing to be able to celebrate poetry, music and dance with so many amazing individuals. I sang the song that I first sang to my husband, well before we were married. Nakoa loved the bells ... not so much the grass. I cannot wait until he shows what art is in his soul.
Written By Mikani
Jan. 10, 2020, 12:11 a.m.(7/14/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Jules
I will get you to love swimming yet.
Written By Mikani
Dec. 19, 2019, 2:54 a.m.(5/25/1012 AR)
I have to say, I'm tired of my words being twisted until they are something misunderstood. That silence is taken as hostile and worry an act of aggression. If only there was another way to communicate.
Written By Mikani
Dec. 7, 2019, 1:13 a.m.(5/1/1012 AR)
It is strange becoming a mother. Nakoa being on the outside of my body instead of inside. I miss the feel of him yet I cannot imagine my life without him in it and he has only been here for a week. How can someone so little, so strange yet familiar imprint on me so? I can only say it is love.
Written By Mikani
Nov. 23, 2019, 10:50 p.m.(4/3/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Mimi
Went to this wonderful new gallery, "Freedom Gallery", yesterday. Mimi painted some beautiful paintings. I was honored to be able to take one called Warmth home and hang it on my wall. I woke smiling to see the beautiful painting this morning.
Written By Mikani
Nov. 22, 2019, 11:08 p.m.(4/1/1012 AR)
Relationship Note on Jules
I'm just going to say I have the best Protege ever.
EVER!
EVER!
Written By Mikani
Nov. 18, 2019, 1:18 p.m.(3/20/1012 AR)
Change, through inevitable can bring rain.
Although - friends assure that change can be satisfying.
Directly life is showing me the pain.
Yet, I hope and yearn for love everlasting.
Satisfaction, passion, metamorphosis, transfiguring.
Temptation to be contained within this cage.
Afraid to be freed to find hope - however fleeting.
How life can change this wild flower to a rage.
Love, of a different scope may be assuage.
Before my heart blackened and love wane.
Effortlessly, may it open - continue beating.
Now may change in the rain be a happy greeting.
Although - friends assure that change can be satisfying.
Directly life is showing me the pain.
Yet, I hope and yearn for love everlasting.
Satisfaction, passion, metamorphosis, transfiguring.
Temptation to be contained within this cage.
Afraid to be freed to find hope - however fleeting.
How life can change this wild flower to a rage.
Love, of a different scope may be assuage.
Before my heart blackened and love wane.
Effortlessly, may it open - continue beating.
Now may change in the rain be a happy greeting.
Written By Mikani
Sept. 13, 2019, 12:35 p.m.(10/28/1011 AR)
A poem I found ... cannot find the author yet I am not to be credited with the original pen ....
The pen isn't mightier than the sword.
Pens don't win battles.
Swords don't write poetry.
Mighty is the hand that knows when to pick up the pen
and when to pick up the sword.
Makes one think.
The pen isn't mightier than the sword.
Pens don't win battles.
Swords don't write poetry.
Mighty is the hand that knows when to pick up the pen
and when to pick up the sword.
Makes one think.
Written By Mikani
Sept. 3, 2019, 12:33 p.m.(10/8/1011 AR)
I feel like I have finally found my heart's home. While I miss the warmth of Redreef and the challenge being Countess of Cedar Vale held. I feel like in Crovane I was a missing piece just waiting for my spot to open. I am blessed by Gods and Spirits that I was able to be able to join Crovane and I look forward to sharing that blessing within the fealty.
May Limerace and Sentinal aid me in holding my oaths.
May Gild bless my position as Minister of Income.
May Lagoma's change ever be for the improvement of my mind and body. Though some change is hard to see the silver lining ... may I always change forward and not regress.
May Skald guard my choices.
Aion help me with my dreams for what I can do for Crovane.
May Gloria guide Crovane to Victory.
Jayus granting us inspiration for what the holding needs and ways to solve it. Guiding us to in and out of box thinking.
Mangata guard our shores.
Petrichor guard the lives in the wild and the nature that surrounds Stormwall, The Storm March and Stormheart.
Vellichor for the answers we seek and what we may learn when we stop to observe.
Queen of Endings to remind us that time is fleating.
Tehom, to aid us in mastering that within us that is dark, yet through that darkness may we see the truth of ourselves.
May the spirits of the elements keep our land.
With all of these things ... thank you for helping me find my place in society. May I bring honor to that place and love to those in my family, new and past.
May Limerace and Sentinal aid me in holding my oaths.
May Gild bless my position as Minister of Income.
May Lagoma's change ever be for the improvement of my mind and body. Though some change is hard to see the silver lining ... may I always change forward and not regress.
May Skald guard my choices.
Aion help me with my dreams for what I can do for Crovane.
May Gloria guide Crovane to Victory.
Jayus granting us inspiration for what the holding needs and ways to solve it. Guiding us to in and out of box thinking.
Mangata guard our shores.
Petrichor guard the lives in the wild and the nature that surrounds Stormwall, The Storm March and Stormheart.
Vellichor for the answers we seek and what we may learn when we stop to observe.
Queen of Endings to remind us that time is fleating.
Tehom, to aid us in mastering that within us that is dark, yet through that darkness may we see the truth of ourselves.
May the spirits of the elements keep our land.
With all of these things ... thank you for helping me find my place in society. May I bring honor to that place and love to those in my family, new and past.
Written By Mikani
July 24, 2019, 4:48 p.m.(7/10/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Tikva
At first I was going to write this from a place of hurt and anger. To defend myself. I have gotten good at defending myself. That those who questioned my motives of my betrothal or cheered those that questioned my motives were those that knew me. Knew my story. I took it personally that they questioned my integrity that yes there was love in my bethrothal but there was also benefit to the people of Byrne, Crovane and the Compact as a whole. Those that know my personal story know I don't act on passion alone. I was hurt. I was going to write this from that place and that mindset.
Yet I paused. I reflected.
Spending two days at the alter of Limerance and then some time at the alter of The Sentinel to think about my future. To think about the steps I was about to take. The oaths I was to make. It was then the white journal of Princess Tikva was made available. This isn't exactly what she said - yet the message conveyed was - Let your actions be your words.
This is how I have lived my life since becoming a noble. My actions have been my words and they have spoken loudly. My actions will continue to speak loudly as I live and breathe on this world. This is my motto now. Let my actions be my words. I certainly plan on talking and talking a lot.
I am in your debt Princess Tikva. Great peace has been granted. I hope my actions speak to my worth of that peace. Thank you.
Yet I paused. I reflected.
Spending two days at the alter of Limerance and then some time at the alter of The Sentinel to think about my future. To think about the steps I was about to take. The oaths I was to make. It was then the white journal of Princess Tikva was made available. This isn't exactly what she said - yet the message conveyed was - Let your actions be your words.
This is how I have lived my life since becoming a noble. My actions have been my words and they have spoken loudly. My actions will continue to speak loudly as I live and breathe on this world. This is my motto now. Let my actions be my words. I certainly plan on talking and talking a lot.
I am in your debt Princess Tikva. Great peace has been granted. I hope my actions speak to my worth of that peace. Thank you.
Written By Mikani
July 21, 2019, 10:32 p.m.(7/5/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Eshra
A poem for my Rivenshari friends. Thank you for your invitation.
Oh today I danced.
I danced the dance of the drum.
I danced the dance of my beating heart.
I danced for the past, present and future.
I danced for liberation and freedom.
Oh today I danced.
(( A very small note at the bottom states, I think Rysen is rubbing off on me.))
Oh today I danced.
I danced the dance of the drum.
I danced the dance of my beating heart.
I danced for the past, present and future.
I danced for liberation and freedom.
Oh today I danced.
(( A very small note at the bottom states, I think Rysen is rubbing off on me.))
Written By Mikani
July 11, 2019, 12:51 p.m.(6/11/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Rysen
As the Sage Scott Galloway says - "Most important decision you can make in your life will be who is your partner in life." I am so blessed that you and I will be partners. To our upcoming adventure.
Written By Mikani
June 28, 2019, 11:38 a.m.(5/13/1011 AR)
Fear is such a de-railer of goals.
What goals am I de-railing? What goals are you de-railing?
What goals am I de-railing? What goals are you de-railing?
Written By Mikani
June 26, 2019, 11:37 a.m.(5/9/1011 AR)
Relationship Note on Elloise
Scholar Einstein ---
Imagination is the highest form of research.
I think you can relate.
Imagination is the highest form of research.
I think you can relate.
Written By Mikani
June 19, 2019, 9:32 p.m.(4/24/1011 AR)
Laying in Redrain Garden, it is easy to see how we are all connected. As a compat. As a people. As that we are living creatures. You could almost feel it in the earth. It is eye opening what has been created with the dream.
Please note that the scholars may take some time preparing your journal for others to read.