Written By Estaban
May 26, 2017, 12:16 p.m.(7/13/1006 AR)
Gods help me through this, I feel as if the weight of the word is on my chest and I suffocate under her weight. I feel as if I am clawing my way to breath and yet I make no progress. I have lost some one dear to me, even if I did not know him but for a memory that I dream every night. How could I have let you go so easy? And now I lose yet another I am close to due to trying to help and a misunderstanding? When will this weight on my chest leave and I can breath again? Perhaps I will find the answer at the bottom of the bottle.
Written By Estaban
May 22, 2017, 11:29 p.m.(7/6/1006 AR)
Ainsley you maybe upset with your brother but do not put him to the side as you have. He is family and your brother, talk with him try and understand him. You should be proud of him.
Written By Estaban
May 21, 2017, 11:32 p.m.(7/4/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Aiden
He is my friend one of the best any could ask for, he is in all tense and [purpose like a little brother to me...I would gladly risk my life for him if I had to again.
Written By Estaban
May 12, 2017, 1:03 p.m.(6/13/1006 AR)
As each day passes I know I choose true when I picked to become a Iron Guard, I fought along side of my fellow Iron Guards men Sparte, Merek, Calaudrin and Lord Commander Silas. All four fought with strength and courage and in turn when I fell after helping Prince Aiden it was they who saw me to safety and healed. I thank them and in return I hope some day I may repay them back for such.
Written By Estaban
May 12, 2017, 11:53 a.m.(6/13/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Arcelia
I know a lot has changed between us and I know I was hard on you at first dear sister, but I can not say how proud I am of you. You have become the voice of our house and so much more. I look forward to seeing what other great things you accomplish as you grow.
Written By Estaban
May 12, 2017, 11:45 a.m.(6/13/1006 AR)
Ever since the battle on the ramparts and the helping of Prince Aiden it is as if now people I only knew in passing know who I am and thank me for saving him. It seems this is something that I am going to have to get use too, it feels very odd for me to have princes and Princesses thanking me for something that came as quick as a instinct, we fault well together on the wall back to back shooting our bows taking the Shav out as they came over the wall. I was not going to abandon him to fate, no I could not allow the young prince to meet his last day like that.
Written By Estaban
May 7, 2017, 9:07 p.m.(6/4/1006 AR)
On the ramparts I meet a brave young prince, I had meet him once at a event that Archduke Niccolo had. I had asked to make the tide breaker so I had the young Prince dance with my sister Lady Arcelia.
I think it was the Gods who had put us together once again so that I could watch his back and he mine. His family should be proud of him, he found with great courage and great heart.
This one of the reasons why I could not allow for the monster to take him, I did not think of myself or my safety all I could think of was not losing such a brave soul who has a promising future.
I think it was the Gods who had put us together once again so that I could watch his back and he mine. His family should be proud of him, he found with great courage and great heart.
This one of the reasons why I could not allow for the monster to take him, I did not think of myself or my safety all I could think of was not losing such a brave soul who has a promising future.
Written By Estaban
May 7, 2017, 12:23 p.m.(6/2/1006 AR)
We all fought hard and brave, we won and in the face of danger we meet knew people and make friends.
I fought for my house, for my loved ones and by the side of my fellow Iron Guard and a brave young Prince.
It is this that gives me hope for the future, that we have shown we will not be broken and we will not lay down and allow any to walk over us.
I fought for my house, for my loved ones and by the side of my fellow Iron Guard and a brave young Prince.
It is this that gives me hope for the future, that we have shown we will not be broken and we will not lay down and allow any to walk over us.
Written By Estaban
May 6, 2017, 2:04 p.m.(5/28/1006 AR)
We move to fight once again and once again I will stand and I will defend Arx and my family and loved ones. But this time I do so with opened eyes with a new out look, we will take down the evil and fight back the darkness and I will do so till my last breath is taken.
Written By Estaban
April 30, 2017, 11:43 p.m.(5/16/1006 AR)
It has been a bit strange not spending so much time around the tower, but then again I also feel very separated as well. I have never been one to gossip and to listen to rumors, I have always been the straight forward kind. Maybe this is why I feel disconnected, I don't know. But I will keep on my path and know that Gloria will guide me on my new adventure.
Written By Estaban
April 21, 2017, 12:58 p.m.(4/24/1006 AR)
Thank you my friend for a most excellent evening, I know the circumstances were not the best but it turned out to be a good evening. To just sit and relax and to speak was very refreshing. I hope that it can be done again some time in the near future.
Written By Estaban
April 16, 2017, 11:08 p.m.(4/14/1006 AR)
Endless alone lost at sea
It's a never ending chore to
Keep my head above these waters
I've never feared before
The sun has taken its toll
The salt runs in my veins
I've never feared before these
Waters I've grown to hate
Will I live to see tomorrow?
Or will I die in this watery depth?
The sea is calling me
My will to live is stronger than
These tides could ever be
The sea is calling me
Why won't I let these waters
Claim me victory?
I long for the place where the
Winds and the tide tear at the shore
But in the twilights of my dreams
The fire rages on
Endless alone lost at sea
It's a never ending chore to
Keep my head above these waters
I've never feared before
It's a never ending chore to
Keep my head above these waters
I've never feared before
The sun has taken its toll
The salt runs in my veins
I've never feared before these
Waters I've grown to hate
Will I live to see tomorrow?
Or will I die in this watery depth?
The sea is calling me
My will to live is stronger than
These tides could ever be
The sea is calling me
Why won't I let these waters
Claim me victory?
I long for the place where the
Winds and the tide tear at the shore
But in the twilights of my dreams
The fire rages on
Endless alone lost at sea
It's a never ending chore to
Keep my head above these waters
I've never feared before
Written By Estaban
April 16, 2017, 12:31 p.m.(4/14/1006 AR)
It has not been a easy transition coming to the city, when you are on the waters and have the wind on your face and the warm sun kissing your skin you tend to have no worries. I am thankful for my cousins summons and I am thankful that I came to the city. I have had many welcomed surprises and some not so pleasant things happen as well but that is how it goes when you bring your head back to the ground and not let it float up in the clouds. It is time that I become the man I need to be, a man of the house Saik I only hope that after everything is said and done that I do right by all.
Written By Estaban
April 16, 2017, noon(4/14/1006 AR)
So I have become part of the Iron Guard, I wear their armor and their badge but I do not yet feel part of them. But this I hope will pass soon enough I am still new and I am just getting to know the other Iron Guards. I do know that I am starting to find my way, my path is starting to become a bit more clearer now. I do hope that my father is pleased that I have not shrugged something like this off to the wind and that I have decided to put myself into something more then adventure.
Written By Estaban
April 9, 2017, 2:05 p.m.(3/28/1006 AR)
What's the miracle, if life itself is not?
Who am I to praise it's worth
With a hymn??
I may stumble over words that I forgot,
Just as life itself will slowly begin.
I'm sceptical, I like my glass of wine,
I don't know your name, or what I am to do.
One day you'll wonder why I read between the lines,
And you will sing for me, the way I sang for you.
So another page is turned,
Pray I understand what's happening,
But if anything, I do know this,
I'll be the best I can.
Sing me a song like the angels rejoice,
Sing me an anthem of life.
Who am I to praise it's worth
With a hymn??
I may stumble over words that I forgot,
Just as life itself will slowly begin.
I'm sceptical, I like my glass of wine,
I don't know your name, or what I am to do.
One day you'll wonder why I read between the lines,
And you will sing for me, the way I sang for you.
So another page is turned,
Pray I understand what's happening,
But if anything, I do know this,
I'll be the best I can.
Sing me a song like the angels rejoice,
Sing me an anthem of life.
Written By Estaban
April 9, 2017, 12:45 p.m.(3/28/1006 AR)
Hear my promise of blistering light
Sowing a rose of obsidian
My dear I promise
Death comes to all
In a heartbeat only silence
Let's play with the fire that runs in our veins
Trust in the might of a miracle
Now winter has come and I'll stand in the snow
I don't feel the cold
And it's all that I will ever need to believe
One day I know we will meet again
In the shade of a life to die for
Watching the world through the eyes of a child in Elysium
Will I know you then?
Now bring down your fortress and swallow your pride
Don't break in your moments of ignorance
Existence will capture a spark of life
Just a fragment, but it's all that I will ever need to revive
One day I know we will meet again
In the shade of a life to die for
Watching the world through the eyes of a child in Elysium
Will I find you there in that darkness
Of the shadow that comes over all?
Dear friend will I know you then?
Will I know you then at all?
Sowing a rose of obsidian
My dear I promise
Death comes to all
In a heartbeat only silence
Let's play with the fire that runs in our veins
Trust in the might of a miracle
Now winter has come and I'll stand in the snow
I don't feel the cold
And it's all that I will ever need to believe
One day I know we will meet again
In the shade of a life to die for
Watching the world through the eyes of a child in Elysium
Will I know you then?
Now bring down your fortress and swallow your pride
Don't break in your moments of ignorance
Existence will capture a spark of life
Just a fragment, but it's all that I will ever need to revive
One day I know we will meet again
In the shade of a life to die for
Watching the world through the eyes of a child in Elysium
Will I find you there in that darkness
Of the shadow that comes over all?
Dear friend will I know you then?
Will I know you then at all?
Written By Estaban
April 9, 2017, 12:33 p.m.(3/28/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Arcelia
She has forgiven me, the one thing that means most is back in my life but why does it not feel the same? Why does it feel like I am on the out side now looking in and it will never be the same.
Perhaps after time, but do we have time? If the gods are showing themselves to us and giving us gifts to help win this fight are we really going to have long? I guess all we can do is live day to day and make the best of it.
Thank you my sweet sister for forgiving me even if I do not always deserve it.
Perhaps after time, but do we have time? If the gods are showing themselves to us and giving us gifts to help win this fight are we really going to have long? I guess all we can do is live day to day and make the best of it.
Thank you my sweet sister for forgiving me even if I do not always deserve it.
Written By Estaban
April 2, 2017, 5:06 p.m.(3/14/1006 AR)
Perhaps I will join the Iron Guard and let fate take me where it wishes.
Written By Estaban
April 2, 2017, 4:17 p.m.(3/14/1006 AR)
I have been thinking of late about doing something, other then just sitting here. I mean I did help with the fighting but, I mean I need something to do.
If I do not find something soon I fear the call of the sea will wring to loudly and drown everything out and I will again be on my own. I have grown the liking of being around family and those I care about but it is also something I am not use to.
I sometimes wish I could close it all off, turn the flood gates off and become cold so that I could not care and I could better do my job.
Gloria help me in what I need to do please, I find myself in a cross roads and I do not know what path to walk down.
If I do not find something soon I fear the call of the sea will wring to loudly and drown everything out and I will again be on my own. I have grown the liking of being around family and those I care about but it is also something I am not use to.
I sometimes wish I could close it all off, turn the flood gates off and become cold so that I could not care and I could better do my job.
Gloria help me in what I need to do please, I find myself in a cross roads and I do not know what path to walk down.
Written By Estaban
April 2, 2017, 3:52 p.m.(3/14/1006 AR)
Relationship Note on Arcelia
I thought I knew who she was, I thought I understood her but since I have come back at the request of our cousin things have changed.
She has changed who are you, what have you done with my sweet Arcelia.
She has changed who are you, what have you done with my sweet Arcelia.
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